There was a tugging at my blanket which I was trying to ignore. I rolled over and pulled the blankets with me. The tugging stopped just long enough for me to start to fade back out, but something cold and wet on my arm suddenly jerked me to full consciousness. “What the…“ I half yelled as I looked around. This wasn’t the room I had when I went to sleep. And I KNOW that goat wasn’t here last night. It looked like I’d fallen asleep in the barn. Except my family didn’t have a barn. We lived in the suburbs, where no one had a goat. Said goat had given up on my blanket and was now pulling straw out of my mattress, if you could call it that. “Hey, stop that! Get out of here!” The goat refused at first so I swiped at it’s nose landing one blow squarely on the tip causing it to shake it’s head and with just a bit more shooing wandered off on it’s own. I checked the bed to see if the goat had done any damage, but the mattress seemed fine. The mattress was lumpy and stuffed with straw and feathers. It was suspended on a frame by ropes that you could feel digging into you through the mattress. It wasn’t altogether uncomfortable, yet it wasn’t the bed I had at home. *home* I remembered. Where was I? How did I get here? I tried to think of what had happened last night and came up empty. As far as I could remember, I went to sleep, same as always, in my own bed. *Then how did I get here?* Looking around, I still wasn’t sure where here was. The rest of the room looked well lived in, yet well kept up. Which was odd since everything looked like it should be an antique. There was the bed, and a box of carved wood and cast lead figurines, and a couple changes of clothes, a bow with a couple arrows, and a knife laying next to some kinda carving. It looked like a boy lived here. I would have said used to live here but there wasn’t enough dust on anything, it all looked recently used. “Richard!” someone called me. “Richard you lazy boy, get out here!” The voice called to me from another room on the other side of a cloth “door” that hung in the doorway. “Richard, get in here this instant!” The woman’s voice was even angrier now. Luckily I’d apparently fallen asleep in my clothes… no, NOT my clothes, but clothes nonetheless. I tossed the blanket aside and bravely dashed out the door uncertain of what he’d meet on the other side. “Richard you twit, what have you been doing? You where supposed to take the flock out HOURS ago. They darn near got into everything. You go get your stuff and take them out to the pasture before I tan your hide.” *The women seemed to know me* I figured out cleverly. “Huh?” Was the best response I could come up with at the time. “Get going! Or so help me I’ll tan your bottom so good… don’t think you’re too big for me to, I’ll do it mister!” She threatened shaking a spoon still dripping with whatever was in the pot she was stirring. It looked like gumbo, but smelled like stew. The pot looked more like a cauldron, you know, like what a witch would have. I was still trying to figure if the white thing on her spoon was a bubble or eye of newt when a little boy dressed similarly to myself came running up beside me chanting, “Can I, Can I, Can I.” The boy seemed excited about something but I didn’t know what. “Of course you can, but you’ll need your brother to go with you still.” “Aw, mom! Do I have to?” Then I figured it out. *She thinks he is my brother, and he is her son… so she’s my mother?* It was so absurd. She looked nothing like my mother, and I had never even had a brother. I couldn’t take it, I had to say something, which I suppose was long past due since they where giving me strange looks. “Who are you? Why do you think I’m your son? Where am I? What is this place? Why did I wake up with a goat chewing on me? What did you do to me? Where are my clothes? Why did you bring me here? What do you want from me? I’m not doing ANYTHING until I hear from my parents! You TOUCH me and I’m calling the cops!” The looks now went from strange, to completely freaked out, then the woman’s settled on angry leaning towards furious. The boy backed away sensing what was coming. The string of colorful expletives alone would have stunned me if not for years of hearing it in movies (ah, war movies, there is so much you can teach us). The physical side however caught me completely off guard and I scarcely blinked before the slaps began. She was insanely strong for a woman, I wrestled and kicked but didn’t managed anything more than to get hit harder. When she was done with me I crumpled on the ground and lay there awash in my pain. I now could notice that I was crying, and my throat hurt from screaming. I don’t know how long I lay there felling my skin prickle and burn and throb, but I was kicked out of it by “my mother”. Her foot fell just below my ribs, knocking the air out of me. “Get up! I can’t stand around all day babying you.” Then her foot dug into my abdomen, not so bad this time. “Fine, don’t feel like getting up? Joshua, take your brother to his room. Looks like you’re going to be tending the sheep without him.” The smaller boy picked me up, and I would have been impressed if I could think about anything other than how much I hurt. My parents had never hit me like that. Not even when I drove the car through the garage door by accident. I didn’t even know what I did wrong this time. But these people had kidnapped me, and where hitting me for no reason. I didn’t want to give them anything to use against me, but still some part of me wanted to defy them, to try to get away, to tell someone what they where doing to me. But for now I cried. The boy dumped me on the bed, and left without a pause. I was more or less alone now. Very alone, my parents, my sister, my friends, my school, my baseball team… was I ever going to see them again? The tears flowed steadily until I didn’t think I could take it anymore, then I just fell asleep. “Richie? Hey, Richie, you ok?” I rolled over and a small hand shook me a little. “Richie, are you ok?” The child got into the bed and sat on me and I knew it was useless to try to ignore him, especially as he was now yelling directly into my ear. “Get off me! I’m awake! Get OFF!” I said with a final shove. “Mommy said you weren’t feeling well. Are you sick?” the child said. His hair was long and dirty, but was wearing what looked like a dress. I finally decided he had to be a boy since a girl would never stand being that unclean, even one living in this barn like house. “No, I’m not sick. What’s your name?” I said falling into the tone of voice people always seem to use when talking to little children. “I’m Gwen! You know that!” “Where are your parents?” “Mommy’s in garden with baby. Daddy’s gone into town.” The little boy explained. “Why you talking funny?” “Do you know why they brought me here?” “Mommy said you where sick. That’s why she had Josh carry you back to your room.” “No, why am I here? Why did your parents kidnap me?” “I don’t understand... I’ll get mommy” “NO! don’t! stop, please..” I said grabbing his arm to stop him. “please… just talk to me some more. Where are we?” “Your room, silly. I think I should get mommy” “No, please… I guess I’m not making much sense… but I don’t know any of this” I said gesturing around the room. “I don’t even recognize you, or your mother. I’ve never seen any of you before in my life!” “You don’t remember us? How don’t you remember us?” “I don’t know ANY of you. I’ve never seen ANY of you before in my life! And I’d like to know how I got here!” “Josh carried you here, I told you already” “No, I mean, how I got into this house. Why was I taken from my family? How you got me out of my house and to here without waking me or my family up. Oh god, they must be worried sick about me. I had school this morning. Ok, so this isn’t all bad, at least I get to miss school. But still, why has your family kidnapped me” “I don’t understand... we’re your family. You where here last night. And no one woke us up last night. Josh and I slept in the den all night.” “How long have you known me” I asked fearing what I had guessed. “You’re my mother, I’ve known you my whole life… and I’m THIS many years old” said the child holding up 5 fingers. I hear what I had kinda picked up from the way everyone was treating me. And this kid was too young to be good enough of an actor to lie that convincingly. I didn’t know what to do. I looked at my hands gripping the blanket. They looked like the same old hands, but I suddenly realized how little one actually looks at the back of their hand. I don’t think I knew them well enough to make a judgment. The rest of my body looked as I’ve always remembered it, though perhaps a little dirtier than my mother would have ever let me get away with. I felt my face, and it felt normal, though I don’t think I ever paid enough attention to how my face felt. I still had the little mole on my right side… and I finally took that as the sign that I was who I thought I was. But then why did everyone think I was someone else? I looked back at the boy who was now looking more confused than ever, and maybe a little frightened. To him his brother who he’d known his whole life was suddenly behaving strangely. I felt some strange urge to calm the boy, “Its ok, I’m not crazy or anything… but, I’m not your brother. There’s been some kinda mix up. Someone’s made a mistake. I’m not your brother.” That seemed to set something off in the kid and he started to cry. I tried calming him some more, but I couldn’t get him to listen until I finally told him that we’d go talk to his mother and we’d figure things out. He was still crying as we headed out of my room, but at least he was quiet. The rest of the house looked pretty much the same as the room I’d woken up in. Everything looked rough and hand made, and like it should have been made hundreds of years ago, yet was still being used today. The floor was just bare dirt that had been packed hard by years of use. I could tell by how far it sloped up to the wall that this place had been standing and inhabited for quite some time. I don’t know what I had expected outside, but it certainly wasn’t what I saw. There where fields and fields of plowed earth. It was a bit chilly still, but that was the least of my thoughts. Looking back at the house from the outside, it was a little thing with a thatched roof. I’d never actually seen a thatched roof outside of a text book. In real life the roof looked massive. The apparent weight held me for a second before I realized that this shouldn’t be here. Thatched roofs where a massive fire hazard not to mention an open invitation to pests. Looking around, the rest of the scenery was just as wrong. There where huge freshly plowed fields which had first grabbed my attention. But there where also rolling rocky hills. There was a corral with a couple cows, another with pigs. Chickens pecked at the ground while geese pecked at the chickens, sending them running and flapping into another goose. There was what looked like a barn too. I couldn’t imagine where all this could be. It didn’t look anything like Florida. Before I knew it, we’d reached a smaller section of plowed earth where the woman who thought she was my mother was working. I hadn’t even noticed I was walking, I was so busy taking in all the unusual sights. “So, you finally decided to wake up and give us all a hand. Don’t think I’m not going to tell your father what you pulled this morning. If you wanted to sleep in that badly you should have just said so. That stupid stuff you said this morning didn’t impress anyone.” Then she turned around and scraped at the ground with the spade in her hands, doing something but I couldn’t guess what. I also realized what the strange thing on her back was, and why I was getting the feeling it was looking at me. It was a baby, strapped to her back, and apparently giggling at the ride it was getting. The kid at my side spoke up breaking the brief silence before it could mature. “Mommy, Richard says he’s not Richard” The seemingly innocent words set something off once more. The woman threw the spade to the ground, but seemed to still be fairly calm when she turned around once more. “Richard, what, prêt ell, have you been telling your brother?” Her voice was like a knife sliding along glass. “I… was just… I think there has been some kind of a mistake. You see, I’m not your son. I don’t know who any of you are, but if you’ll kindly tell me where we are, I might be able to call my parents and we can get this straightened out… if you’d please.” “Oh what a relief! Thank goodness you told us. You can’t imagine my relief that you told us this. To think that we have the wrong boy, that we have been caring for, and that I GAVE BIRTH to the wrong boy,” at this point the sarcasm was thick enough to smother me, but she went on, “This is all going to be a GREAT relief to YOUR FATHER when he finds out his FIRST BORN SON is not REALLY his son at all.. he’s… what? Some… some kinda, changeling or something I suppose. Is that it? Are you here telling us that you’re off to head back to your fairy kin to tell them all about how FOOLISH humans are? HUH? Is THAT it? I swear, your father should have never taken you to that fair last summer. Those people filled your heads with far too many fairytales, though it’s worse that you still believe them! A boy your age, still listening to stories of goblins and unicorns. I swear, I’m going to have a SERIOUS talk with your father about you when he gets home.” I didn’t really know what to say. She hadn’t given me any time to respond to anything, even if I could have figured out a way to counter her words. Finally words came, “Ma’am, I’m sorry. I know I might look like and even sound like your son, but you have to believe me, I’m not him! I can’t be. My mother’s name is Grace, we live in ____ Florida, with my father, George, who’s a dental surgeon. I am an only child aside from our dog, Annabel. You’ve GOT to believe me, I’ve never seen any of you before in my life.” The woman threw down her spade and took a step at me. Knowing what was coming, again, I bravely coward a defensive position. The woman looked taken aback. Like he’d done something he shouldn’t have. I closed my eyes and steeled myself for the beating. I waited, feeling my skin prickle and tense, every small noise. Every breeze was her about to kick me. I held my breath until my lungs burned… but no beating came. I was flinched when I felt her hand on my head. “Don’t worry, I’m not going to hurt you,” She said as she pet my hair. I looked up at her after blinking a bit to clear a stray tear from my eye so no one would see. As I looked up at her face she placed a hand on my forehead. “I don’t think you have a fever, and,” she rubbed my head one last time. “no knots, did you hit your head on anything?” I shook my head. Taking the baby off her back instructed, “Gwen, here, take your bothers inside, I’ll be right back with old Ms. Jenkins.” She handed the child the bundle and took off, holding her skirts as she jogged down the dirt path. She’d seemed concerned. I wasn’t sure what she saw, or what was wrong. And I was afraid of what was going to happen to me when she got back with Ms. Jenkins, who ever she was. “Richie, we’re supposed to go back inside!” the child said tugging on my pants. I realized I had been staring down the road for some time… “Ok, you can lead the way.” I said to the concerned child. “I thought you said you weren’t sick?” “I’m not.” “Then why is mommy getting Ms. Jenkins? I didn’t think she’d been back since Bobby left.” “huh? Where did she take him?” “Mommy wouldn’t say, but she said he wouldn’t come back again. But sometimes I see him in that tree he liked to climb, but he’s gone by the time I get there, no matter how fast I run. He always was faster than me, maybe one day I’ll be fast enough to catch him.” “And that was the only time you ever saw her?” The child nodded. “Are you going to be going away too? I don’t want you to go. Please promise you won’t leave.” “I’m not going…” I was going to reassure him… but I DID want to leave. I just wasn’t sure how to. The poking and prodding and such where similar enough to what I had experienced from doctors that I figured that’s what she was… or thought she was. It was very nervous that the time she treated someone from this family the patient died. That was on my mind as she stuck a thermometer in my mouth and put her ear against my chest to listen to my heart and breathing I supposed. After checking my reflexes and my eyes, she took out the thermometer, checked it, then pulled my mother into my room to talk. The old lady’s bedside manor was not the most comforting. She was quite and rough and blunt, but she gave off an air of wisdom. It was like everything about her told you to trust her that she knew what she was doing and you wouldn’t like what would happen to you if you refused. She’d asked me all sorts of questions about my name, my families names, where I was from, what day it was, what year it was… nothing I had to think too much about. I busied myself with arranging myself in the unfamiliar clothes. They where old and felt like they hadn’t been washed in a week. But I wanted to cover myself, and these where the only thing I had. As I was figuring out how to lace up everything, the two women reentered the room. The woman calling herself my mother looked like she was crying. I don’t know why, but I wondered if I was dieing. I felt fine. But maybe these people had done something to me. Or maybe I’m not the person they wanted to kidnap, and now they are going to have to kill me! The old woman gave me a look I didn’t understand then walked on out of the house. Other woman went over to the pot over the fire for a few seconds, giving it a few quick stirs, carefully not looking at me. It was obvious she didn’t want me to see her cry, but the sniffling and wiping at her eyes were easy tells. After adjusting it over the fire and when she seemed satisfied that it was cooking properly. She gave her eyes one last wipe, dried her hands on her apron and steeled herself to deal with me. “Richard, I’m sorry about how I treated you. If I had known… I’m sorry, I didn’t know you couldn’t help it. But I promise we’ll help you get your memory back.” “What? I didn’t loose my memory, I know exactly who I am. What I don’t know is who YOU people are and why you took me!” “You poor dear… Ms. Jenkins told me all about what happened to you. She said it’s rare but she told me of a man who ran away from his family and started a new life in a new town. Claimed he was a merchant who’s caravan had been ambushed. He ended up marring a woman there and living out half his life before his family found him and brought him back. He held to his story for months, even with his family showing him things from his childhood and such. But eventually he came around. Told them about how one day he just woke up and he thought he was someone else. Ms. Jenkins says I should be lucky you didn’t runaway like that man did.” “But I KNOW who I am. I’m not imagining thing! I-“ “She told me that your memories would seem very real to you.” “Because they ARE real! I don’t know what you people are trying to pull but it’s not going to work!” “We’re not trying to PULL anything” “Then why did you kidnap me? Why have you taken me here! I want to call my parents, I want to go home!” “To Florida?” “YES!” “I don’t know anywhere called that. Neither does Ms. Jenkins. No one does. That place only exists in your head” “NO! It’s real… Disney land, the everglades, Orlando… you know all this.” “I’m sorry, I don’t. This may all seem real to you, but i… I just with there was a way for me to help you.” “If you want to help me you’ll take me home- or at least let me call.” “Call, how?” “Ya, you don’t even have a phone. What’s up with that?” “Phone?” “TELL me you’ve heard of phones… god, this place is-“ “Leave the gods out of this.” That took me a few seconds to work out. But I figured it fit for someone who lived in a house like this. “At least tell me you’ve heard of electricity.” The blank look was not encouraging. “You people are totally whacko.” We stared at each other for a few seconds, both thinking the exact same thing, then I realized it and started laughing. It was like all the tension and fear of the day came out in that laughter. It must have been infectious because she joined in with a small chuckle of her own. The laughter ended abruptly when the door opened and a man who looked like he could break me in half with one hand came in. The way he and the lady embraced convinced me that he had to be her husband. “Hey boy! What, was Joshua telling me about you being sick? You look just fine to me.” “Honey, There’s something I need to tell you… I brought Ms. Jenkins here to check him out, and-“ “Don’t tell me you brought that old witch here again! Not after last time” “I know how you feel about her… but… John, you should have seen him… there was something not right with him.” “And what did that old bat tell you? Just what you wanted to hear, I bet.” “What did you want me to do? I’m sorry but I didn’t see any other way.” “And what supposedly is wrong with him?” “John…. He’s sitting right here…” “BOY! Get out and give your brother a hand with the sheep, he’s got the herd scattered all over the place.” “But I don’t-“ “NOW!” And that was all for me. I practically ran out the door. Once outside, I wasn’t sure where to go. Looking around all I could see was fields and rocky hills. I figured the sheep wouldn’t be grazing in the freshly plowed fields, so I started to walk over to the rocky hill. On my way, I noted a wagon that wasn’t there before. There were several burlap bags in the back. I didn’t give them much notice as I walked. The ground was surprisingly forgiving on my bare feet. No one was wearing shoes and I hadn’t seen any in my room, though I hadn’t been given much time to look for them. Walking on the dirt and gravel was disturbing at first, but I quickly got used to it. Carefully picking out my footing among the rocks and stiff grass. I was about a hundred yards away from it when one of the rocks raised it’s head, looking up at me. I stood frozen for a second as the rock looked me over before resuming its grazing. Looking around I saw that what I’d taken as a bunch of rocks, was really a heard of sheep, casually grazing at the coarse grass that sprung up amongst the real rocks. “Richard? I thought you weren’t coming out here today.” “your father told me to come out and help you.” “you’re still holding to that ‘I’m not who you think I am’ thing then?” “I’m not ‘holding to’ anything. I really don’t know who any of you people are.” “whatever, just help me get these sheep back over here.” “how do I do that?” “oh gods help me…” I was sitting on a rock after Joshua had given up with correcting the way I was herding the sheep. I couldn’t see what was so different about what we where doing, but I guess the sheep could, and so could Joshua. The view from the rock was an impressive one. From where I sat I could see out for miles, and it wasn’t encouraging. There wasn’t a city, or a normal looking house without sight. Only field after field with the occasional little dot of a house alongside it. I all but gave up on the possibility of running to get help. It was too far and there wasn’t a telephone or power line to be seen. I supposed I could get to one of those houses before they found me, but what once I was there? Where would I go from there? Would they be any better than the people who have me now? I didn’t know, but I had to try, I had to make it back to my parents. I decided then, as I watched Joshua tend to the sheep, to make a run for it as soon as the opportunity presented itself. I watched him fight the sheep as they wondered of, only to see two others wonder off. It was kinda funny to watch, but my laughing didn’t help, though it made Joshua more upset. He’d just gotten up to preemptively persuade a sheep to stay with the others, when a booming voice called for me from the house. I fell off the rock landing on the inevitably pointy rock, or maybe a root, or a stick. Maybe anything you land on unexpectedly is going to be pointy. I was pondering that phenomena and rubbing the sore spot on my butt when a second call came up the hill from the house. This time it had a definite air of ‘get down here this instant’ even if all that was said was just my first name. I didn’t spend time pondering how parents are able to make your name mean so much. Instead I just hoped down the hill as fast as I could without putting myself in danger of breaking my neck. Even then I slipped a few times. By the time I reached the man who’d yelled my name my legs were bruised and probably bloody, my hand’s were defiantly bleeding. I looked up at the man who I rightly assumed thought he was my father. He didn’t resemble my father at all. That man was about a 4 inches shorted but about 100 pounds more massive, and all of it muscle. “Your mother tells me you’ve had a very exciting morning.” “Yes sir.” I’d never called MY father sir, but this guy looked like someone you’d call sir, and I didn’t want to risk pissing him off. “I see… you got any idea how long this is gunna last?” “No sir” “In that case, go in and help your mother, you might as well make yourself useful, even if you don’t want to do any REAL work.” I’m not going to bore you with tales of my chores that day. It was menial, and degrading. I never thought I would want to have to do something simple like vacuum the carpet or even scrub a toilet. I couldn’t see how any family could live like they did. It furthered my resolve to escape as soon as possible. That night I discovered that the boys slept in the main room of the house. I probably could have snuck by them, but I was only going to get one chance at it, so I decided I’d make it good. The house had no foundation, just a dirt floor, so all I had to do was dig a hole under the wall of my room. Sounded easy but I knew to expect that things wouldn’t go as easy as planned. Using a carving knife in the room, I loosened the earth until I could clear it away with my hands. I started almost as soon as I was sent to bed and it took until far too late. I managed to squeeze out as the sky just began to lighten in the east. With nothing more than the clothes on my back I started running. Keeping to whatever shadows I could find at first, then after I felt like I had gone far enough, I found a dirt road and followed on that. I kept a hard pace and pushed myself more than I had ever in gym class. The sun rose and farmers and shepherds went about their business. No one paid much attention to me. I took to watching what they where doing as I slowly walked past. I’d chosen to walk to the south, figuring that I had to be north of Florida since it was hard to be anywhere else and stay in an English speaking country. About noon my stomach began to rumble and I regretted not eating more of that sickening, thick stew they had given me. A couple spoonfuls and a piece of bread were not going to hold me for very long, I realized. I began to think about turning into one of the farms and telling them everything that happened to me, but I was still too close, they might know that couple or even possibly condone what they had done. There also wasn’t any sign of telephone or power lines. Not even those little markers they stick in the ground to warn of underground cables. I looked to be as far away from civilization as I could imagine. The sun was starting to set when I decided I needed to find someplace for the night. That place ended up being the next house I saw. There was still no sign of electricity, but it was getting cold and my stomach was protesting too loudly for me to ignore. With much trepidation, I knocked on the door. I didn’t know what to expect, they could have been nasty, they could have killed me, they could have enslaved me and kept me in a little cage where the only thing for me to do was to darn their clothes. What actually happened was far worse. “Hello, Richard? What are you doing here? Where’s your father?” a strange man I’d never seen before asked as he looked over my head for, presumably, my missing father. I panicked, I froze, I babbled like an idiot. I’m not sure exactly what I said, or even if I said anything intelligible. “Whoa boy, calk down… your dad doesn’t know you’re here does he?” I shook my head this time. I think I managed that successfully because he went on, “It’s ok, what happened?” He only paused for a second before continuing, “is your family alright?” I almost nodded but instead blurted out, “I don’t know where my family is! Those people, they took me and I don’t know were I am, or who you are or anything.” His confused and concerned expression was oddly comforting. “Who? Who took you? It’s ok, you’re safe here, and you’re only a couple miles from your house. Can you tell me who took you, what they looked like?” I gave him a description of the man and woman who had called themselves my parents. His face shifted neutral, but I went on and described their children too, giving all their names. “Richard, this isn’t funny. I’m not in the mood for one of your jokes.” “I’m NOT joking! They all thought I was their son, but I’m not! I must look exactly like their son or something, because even their children believed that I was him.” “That’s because you ARE their son. Listen, if we’re going to continue this can we go inside, my family wife and I were just about to eat.” I nodded and he led me into a house very similar to one I’d escaped from, but without any rooms added on. Over a much needed meal of a horrible stew, I told them about the events leading up to my escape. I told them of the goat, and the beating, and the weird old lady. He seemed to pay a little more attention at the mention of her name. I told him all about what my mother had told me about what she had said. I told him of digging a tunnel and walking for a full day before finally ending up at his door. In between all of this, I somehow told him all about being from Florida and about my real family and such. He looked like he didn’t believe a word of it. His wife on the other hand was enthralled. She hung on my every word and was very comforting to look at and talk towards. By the end of my story I wasn’t telling the story to him, I was just telling it to his wife. When I finished, they just stat there looking at me. It was getting uncomfortable. “So do you think I’m crazy too?” “That is some story you’ve got there, boy.” “Do you actually believe everything you’ve just said?” “YES! Oh god, I can’t believe this. Everyone’s in on it. Why won’t you just take me HOME!!” “Its late, how about you sleep here tonight, we’ll help you figure out what’s going on tomorrow.” I protested a little longer, but my legs where sore, and I hadn’t gotten any sleep the previous night. I pulled up next to the fire with a blanket they’d given me. I went back home the next morning. It wasn’t