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| Me The Mistake i don't care anymore i don't feel anything i no longer have a reason to breathe what's the point? i'll just fail again cause this mountain i can no longer scale i'm just tired tired of all of this all i ever do is fall its all i've ever done in this world i feel so very small like i'm nothing nothing at all but no one seems to understand i've so hard all my intentions i thought they were right quickly turned out to be so wrong now all i can hear is death's call his song plays throughout my head i don't feel nothing is real all is fake here i am just wasting space look at me i'm just another mistake... |
| fading tears what do i do to deserve this? i never did anything bad to you so why do i cry my tears fall so freely all cause of you the things you do things you've said is what causes it i mean you say say you are my friends words don't mean much but if you are then explain to me why why do i always feel feel so betrayed you don't care no one cares i don't have any true friends at least not anymore i did once but just like you all she betrayed me so you say speak that i am a friend verbalize it all you want but your words they mean nothing cause you never call just to talk to me never am i directly asked asked if i want to go do anything then again if i am the plans always seem to get canceled in turn making me depressed down in the dumps just all in out dejected no one will help me i guess i shall forever remain the big joke the one everyone laughs at talks about backstabbed over and over again well do what you will for you shall never again see see me truly happy you'll be lucky if you see my face at all you have betrayed me for the final time no more will you be the cause cause of my tears this is my farewell now i take my last breath as everything fades fades to black... |
| invisible wall hating myself today like so many others though this time it just doesn't seem right i shouldn't feel like this not again for it's all cause of him i thought he'd be different not so immature yet i was so wrong he is just like all the others immature and childish nothing but an asshole i just got to know why does it happen this way? i like a guy he likes me in return things go okay for awhile then things just fail do i do something wrong? say something wrong? or is it just me me and my shyness that i can't change that's the way i am i have always been i have tried not to be but that never works am i truly not meant meant to be happy to have a smile across my face to feel anything for another person this all just isn't fair it doesn't make any sense at least not to me i don't want much in fact i am not even looking for love just want to have some fun though every time this happens i just want to curl up up into a tiny ball and die well maybe not die just disappear for awhile have no one know where i have gone but i don't do either i write it out into words keeping them locked away away inside this book for on these pages i tell my feelings revealing it all all whom read them now you've become nothing more than a name another name on my list list that continues to grow and grow anothe layer of bricks making my wall become larger so that the next guy that comes along along liking me so he'll have to try work a little harder to get me to notice him to get inside inside to my feelings ones that i hide locked inside my invisible wall... |
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| phRAse me the mistake a phase three little words that make more sense than ever i learned today that my entire family thinks of me as a mistake a waste of space worthless loser i shall never never amount to anything nice thing to discover, i know i first heard this just a couple of years ago from my mother who gave birth to me twenty-one long years ago then today i learn that my father he thinks of me in that same matter it really hurts i try so hard yet to no avail i alwasy thought parents were supposed to love their children give them support and encouragement all when they needed it for me it is a complete opposite case no support no encouragement no love i don't really comprehend i guess i don't really deserve it why couldn't i have just died eighteen years ago at age three why did my parents save me? why couldn't they just have let me die? then no one would have to deal put up with the inaccuracy the muddled mess the mistake that is me.... |