Everyday I can�t wait to sleep and every morning I wake, I turn of my alarm clock and fall back to sleep until someone wakes me up. I wish that one day no one would come screaming into my room to turn on the lights and drag me out of bed. One day I hope to be left alone and enjoy my favorite part of life. Sleep is an adventure. I fear the nightmares that I will have, and the morning that will put me into shoes I cant fill, and bring responsibilities I cant handle. I fear the day I will be forced into change and I fear the people who wont laugh when I make a joke, the people who torment me when I screw up.
Have you ever made a joke that people have laughed at? Were you ever made fun of for making a bad joke by the same people? I would say ninety percent of the time I make a joke people laugh, but that one in ten times they don�t, I am flaked by shit I don�t need. Either laugh at what I say or always make fun of me. I could care less if someone hated me, but when the people I love make fun of me it hurts more than anything. I don�t think I have ever fit in with anyone. I am always alone.
When you smile the world smiles with you, but when you cry, you cry alone.
