Spin trip

I think I'm going crazy
Peacefully, while thrashing
Thrashing about inside, without moving my fingers
nor speaking a word to you
Watch and see, soon all will fall
again
All the bonds that I have - all those ties will
Snap from tension.
Will be severed by my pulls.
I'm addicted to pulling,
to twisting,
to burning
the ropes that hold us together
Seems like an addiction at least -
Something I have let spiral out of control - something out of my reach