Unable to see straight
Watching parallel lines unwind
And undulate, behind a rain-streaked
Window pane,
The scene's bleak, another train
Leaving home, conceding defeat
With a lone moan
Hanging in a sky made of stone
Everybody's leaving home
I called my man Jerome to come meet me in the twilight zone
Leave your mobile phone at home
And come alone
I bought him coffee and a snack
Settled back, started speaking
He was tweaking with the peak of his cap
While I'm seeking to discover
What it takes to stay sober
Not cover my mistakes
Try to maybe make sense of the eveidence
It's over
She's gone for good why should I lie?
Singing a killer's lullaby
Identified by the dying ring of a goodbye
The last thing you hear
Before your life disappears
Now it just gets worse
Like my stomach'll burst
Feels like I've been cursed
With seven centuries
Of bitter memories
Inadequacies and previous he's and she's
I move around this old house for the last time
Scene of my past crimes
Been here for lifetimes
Hearing the chime of the old clock
That used to mock
You got eternity for taking stock
This place is like a padlock
You look shocked
Trust me, nothing ever moves but the dust
There's just us and I'm here to torment and tease
And that's how it was for centuries
Me & my memories
Till you brought the keys
Took a couple of Saturdays
I moved in running from tragedies and boozing
Several hundred years since I came here
You appear, same hair, same quizzical stare
I couldn't get here and this
Sheer frustration was more than I could bear
I was really cursed, though I'd been through the worst part
That was just the first part, just the start
Every night I'd be sitting with dread
Pricking my heart incase
The man she'd been chasing gets to first base
And I just can't escape
I'm in bad shape
You making love to someone else is more than I can take
So I make all the movement I can
Scream and yell
Sinking deeper into my personal hell
Have another coffee
I needed to release my sparrow chest
From just a piece of this pressure
Unless an escape route is found
I'm going down underground
Into lifetimes of pain, it's absurd
The heaviest chain is contained
In the sound of one word
So I'm referred back to hell
Just as well, I hate needles and I get twinges at the thought of syringes
J, I'm going insane with shame
I dream I watch her making love
Over and over again
With what I call a farmer's swain
Unintelligent, pea-brained retard
Who think's hes always hard
Oh God, of course I'm jealous fellas
Oversex, flexing his pecs
Jesus, what's he gonna make her do next
I'm mad, vexed
The way she gently scratches his chest
Used to do that to me abck in 1253
Pity me while you lie with your lover
I stare and suffer in despair
While you riffle his hair
Unaware of who else is there
I move quick I wanna try my trick one last time
You know it's possible to vaguely define my outline
When dust moves into sunshine
So I'm trying to change, vibrate
Myself to near human pitch
Which reminds me how I used to come unstitched
And switch around the house in a blind rage
It took years and an ocean of tears to find the key to this cage
Advance another stage into a new age
And I know that I will see you again
On that you may depend I just don't know how or when
Sleep on, my lost love, I'm gone
Jerome took me home under steel skies
Knowing I'm prone to dramatise
But unknown for telling lies
And what I verbalise
He can see behind my eyes
The why-oh-why's that identify
Killers lullabies a piece of mind
And he surmised
Coudn't hear that
Closed my eyes
As he steered that old black BM home again
Not knowing how and not knowing when
Maxi Jazz - Rap
Sister Bliss - Keyboards
Dave Randall - Guitar
Will Malone - String arrangement