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Well, on the eve of my ninteenth birthday with only an hour and a half remaining before I age yet another year, I'm sitting in my room listening to "Just what I needed" by the cars. What's really funny about this picture is that up until 2 hours ago, I was nigh oblivious to the reality that's coming: I'm gonna be 19! Holy shit! Where did this come from? Did one year really pass already?
See, what really bugs me about this is that I could summarize my life while I was 1-17 in basically one paragraph, whereas it would take my 18th year nearly ten pages to impart. Freaky, huh? Wanna see that one paragraph summary?
"Quiet, artsy kid with a good outlook on life. Keeps to himself with few (true) friends... Extremely creative, but too shy to express himself to others orally. Likes to think for himself and will come up with his own opinions about morality and various issues, but is too introverted to share these feelings with others... bla bla bla, shy shy shy... Neither stellar, nor dismal grades throughout his school career. Could care less about school unless he's studying something he cares about (I.E web design and English) Had many-a-girl who were crushing on him, but unknown to them (and hell, everyone) he's gay."
There ya go. Told you I could do it. That took me all of one minute to do. Oooh, how I miss those days... So what happened to this nice, annoyingly sweet, moral boy? Simple: he turned 18. Allow me to try to do the same thing, while only briefly summarizing this year.
"So, shortly before graduation I came out to all my friends but two. I became more open, more expressive, slightly less shy, started to give a damn about how I looked, and not give a damn about what people thought. After graduating from High school, I was sexually assaulted by an old man, and got my first boyfriend (alex) all in two weeks. Turns out that Alex needed to be married to a girl by the end of the year or he would be deported back to colombia. For a while, I sincerely tried to help Alex find someone, but before I could even begin with that: I had a mental break down, ended everything with him, nearly ran away from home, dropped out from school due to anxiety attacks, quit my job due to boredom, came out to my family and the last two friends who didn't know of my homosexuality, and wrecked my car while driving to PA (without my parents permission or knowledge) to meet my next, much better-all-around boyfriend, Torrey, who happens to be the first person I've ever truly been in love with."
... Yeah, it has been one HELL of a year. I'll probably write about all of those instances in greater detail at some point, but I just wanna chill and jive to music right now... is that so much to ask? ^^
Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is that while I was capable of describing this year in one direct paragraph, each article listed is a longass, complicated story. As my life is finally starting to calm down, with things returning to some semblance of normality, I will make it a point to find the time to write about all that's happened while I was 18... by far, the most intersting year of my life.