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Prologue

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Justin took in a deep breath and made him way over to where his boyfriend of two years stood, chatting with a bunch of people Justin didn't really care to know. He had more pressing issues in mind and he really needed to talk to Nick about them. It was Christmas after all, the day two years ago that they began to date, the day that everything in his life turned perfect. "Hey Nick," he tried to be nonchalant as he got the attention on his boyfriend. "You got a minute...?" He smiled politely and apologetically at the other people there.

"Yeah...sure," Nick said excusing himself from the other group of people. He followed Justin out onto a balcony, thankful for the only slightly cool LA Decembers. "What's up?" he asked as he took a sip of the beer he had been holding.

"I.. uh," Justin fidgeted. Maybe he should have come up with a plan of action before he decided to talk to Nick about things. "I..." He reached into his pocket and fingered the velvet box before looking into Nick's sparkling blue eyes, smiling. "I love you so much and tonight's our anniversary... I-"

Nick gave Justin an equally big smile. "I love you too baby," he said as he leaned back the balcony's railing, setting the finished bottle on top of it.

Justin couldn't help but smile at those words. Those words rarely left Nick's mouth and more rarely directed towards him, so for him to hear it sent his heart beating faster. "We've been together for two years now and," he stepped in closer to Nick, "I know... can feel that you and I would really have a future together... that we're meant to be and I just," he paused to take in a deep breath as he took the little square box out of his pocket and held it out to Nick. "I know we're young but I know this is right, it feels right-"

"It does," Nick agreed stepping closer to Justin, wrapping his arms around him. "It always feels right," he whispered before he pulled Justin in for an almost bruising kiss, the alcohol in his system rushing through his vanes since that was far from the only beer he had, had that night.

Justin found himself melting in Nick's arms, loving every second of the kiss. As it was rare to hear the words 'I love you' from Nick it was equally rare to actually be kissing in public even though at the moment they were on a private balcony, closed off to those inside. Justin brought his hands up and wrapped them tightly around Nick's neck as his tongue swirled with Nick's, tasting the alcohol. "I'm glad it feels right baby," he said when they pulled back a few minutes later. "I got you this... ring... it's a promise ring. It's to promise you that I'm yours forever and that you're mine... that we'd stay to together."

He opened the box and held it out for Nick to take the ring and put it on.

Nick paused, looking down at the ring and then backing away from Justin a little. To him, forever seemed so... well...forever. He was only nineteen...fuck...Justin was only eighteen. How could Justin even think he was ready to do anything that had the word forever in it. "Forever...is a...well long time." he said out loud, obvious that he was having problems with what Justin was saying.

Justin felt like he'd been slapped in the face as he blinked back the tears, knowing rejection when facing it. He opened his mouth to say something, anything, but nothing was coming forth. Finally, after a few unsuccessful attempts he compromised. "Well, we're only alive for so long... so technically it's not forever," he chocked out.

"Justin...you knew we couldn't do this forever...it was just for fun..." Nick said, not really realizing what he was saying because of the alcohol in his system. "I'm not even sure if I'm actually gay...you know that!" he said getting frustrated because he had talked to Justin a million times about how he wasn't sure about things. Saying he would be with Justin forever would be the final straw in admitting he was fully gay… not just bi. He still liked girls… he knew that for a fact, he had been with one only a few days ago.

It was Justin's turn to step back. Sure they'd had that conversation many times but each time Nick had assured him that he loved Justin and was only interested in Justin. That had been one of the many reasons Justin stayed in the relationship because Nick loved him, or so he thought. Still fighting back tears, Justin said, "Then why the hell did you make me believe that we had something? Something that could last?"

Nick ran a hand through his hair, not sure what to say to this. All he knew was he wasn't ready for something that committed. The idea made him feel smothered and scared to death. "I don't know," he answered honestly.

"You don't know?" Justin repeated, incredulously. "You DON'T know? You... Did I not mean ANYTHING to you? Do you even love me?"

"Of course you mean something to me!" Nick exclaimed, even though for the life of him he couldn't really figure out what. "What we've has been great...I'm just not ready for...forever Justin."

"So, if you're not ready forever then you're planning on dumping me sometime down the rood...?"

"I'm starting the tour next week..." Nick whispered. He knew now would be a good time to do the dumping thing. Especially since he had already been unfaithful to Justin. It had only been once...and he did feel like shit for it. "You deserve so much better then me. You need somebody who is willing to come out with you...somebody who can love you and want forever."

Justin shook his head. "And I told you I don't really care much for that coming out to the world thing... all I care about was being with you." He looked away, the box that held the ring falling to the floor. "When were you planning on telling me that you were touring in a week... when you left?"

"Tonight..." Nick said looking at Justin with sad eyes. He had meant to do that the second they had arrived at the party but he had been chicken shit and decided to get drunk instead.

"Great," Justin retorted, ‘and on our anniversary too.’ "So, I guess... that's that huh? Two years... exactly ends tonight?" He wasn't going to cry in front of Nick, no.

"Justin...I'm sorry..." Nick said not sure what else to say. He could tell Justin was upset...really upset. "Would you really want me to take that ring and we continue on for another two years when I don't feel it?"

Justin gritted his teeth. "No, Nick. I wouldn't want you to do that," he said, his voice surprisingly calm and steady. "And I wish you never would have done it in the first place... could have saved myself two years of nothing." He turned around and opened the sliding door and walked inside, closed the door, and immediately found the bathroom. As soon as he locked the door he turned the sink on and started to cry. He didn't even think about the $2,000 ring he'd bought for Nick, the same ring that took him months to find, and the same ring lying on the floor of the balcony where his heart was crushed.

"It's for the best..." Nick said to himself as he watched Justin walk off of the balcony and out of his life.

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December 18th 2005

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Nick leaned against the bar, waiting for the beer he had just ordered when he heard commotion behind him. Turning around he saw Justin and Cameron come walking into the club. He hadn't expected to see THEM. Sure, it was a Jive Christmas party, but Justin had been more on the down low lately.

"Nick...your drink..." the bartender called shaking Nick from his thoughts and he turned back around to get the offered drink.

Justin was all smiles as he was greeted with a few friends and some other big name people that Jive decided to throw into the mix. His arm wrapped around Cameron, they mingled and talked for a while and got a few phone numbers for upcoming projects that Justin thought he might be interested in. It wasn't long before he headed over to a table and grabbed seats. But before Justin could sit down, Cameron asked if he could go get them some drinks to which Justin agreed and headed over to the bar. Once there he smiled brightly at Derek, the bartender, and exchanged a few pleasantries before making his order. It was then that he decided to get a look and just who was there at the party. He immediately recognized the messy blonde mop of hair that belonged to Nick a few feet away from him at the bar as well. He was glad that there were at least three people between them.

Just then a photographer came over to Justin and smiled at him. "Hey Justin..." he said in a friendly manner because Justin knew him and everything.

"Hey John," Justin replied politely, trying to calm himself down from seeing Nick. He saw the camera and raised an eyebrow. "I see Jive's got you working overtime tonight."

John laughed and nodded his head, "Yeah well these things are like swarming with picture perfect moments." he said and then glanced to his left and noticed Nick. "Yo Carter..."

Nick turned and his breath caught in his throat. He had recognized John's voice but hadn't expected to see him standing right next to Justin.

"Come over here so I can get a photo of you two." John said pointing at Justin.

Nick wasn't sure what to do, but he and Justin had an image to uphold...they weren't supposed to be the enemies they were. "Sure..." he replied and walked over to them.

Justin glared at John when he'd called Nick over and immediately put on a smile when John turned to look at him. "I don't see how this is a picture perfect moment," he mumbled under his breath. Justin fought off the shudder that his body wanted to make at the close proximity of Nick, at the smell of Nick's cologne, at the feel of Nick's body pressed next to his, at the warmth of Nick's hand from where it rested on his back. Justin grabbed his hands together in a tight hold in front of him, not wanting to touch Nick in fear that he might not want to let go. After all these years, he still felt strongly for him and no matter how much he's tried he could never get over Nick. He smiled his Timberlake smile at the camera like all was right with the world and waited for John to take a picture.

Once the picture was done, John excused himself leaving the two ex lovers to stand there in awkwardness.

Nick pulled his arms away and used one to run through his messy hair. He no longer had the spikes he had when he and Justin had broken up, nor was he wearing the clean cut preppy boy look. Now it was all vintage tee's, ripped jeans and Converse shoes.

Justin cleared his throat as he stepped away from Nick, putting some space between them. "How's the tour going for you guys?" He asked, politely, like they have no past together. Just then Derek called out to him, telling him his drinks were ready. Justin quickly took the drinks and looked at Nick with a small smile, waiting for his answer, wondering if he was even going to get one.

"It's going...well." Nick said with a polite smile. "We're taking a break now...just did our last radio show Friday and aren't going back out until after the first of the year."

Cameron made her way towards the guys. "Justin...People Magazine is here and wants a short interview...are our drinks ready?"

Justin looked over at Cameron and nodded. "Yeah, right here," he said handing Cameron her margarita. Turning his attention back to Nick he said, "That's good to hear, man. Good luck with everything. I've got to get going." He didn't stick around to hear Nick's response as he let Cameron escort him back to their table to where a reported and her photographer were seated.

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A few hours and more then too many drinks later, Nick was outside, walking around the pool by himself. They were still in New York, so not many people were outside. There were only a few couples that were situated in different nooks and crannies doing on God knows what. "Stupid party..." he mumbled to himself as he kicked at a little piece of gravel, his hand pulling a 5th of Jack Daniels to his mouth. He was thankful AJ had turned this party down because he could get just as wasted as he wanted to...without having to feel like he was disappointing anybody.

Justin had been sitting outside just looking at the stars in the sky, freezing his ass off in the cold night. He'd come out to clear his head, to get away from the people inside for a little while, and to just relax. He saw Nick walk out and Justin let out a deep breath along with a groan. Why the hell did HE have to come out here now? He slouched more into his seat and tried to be as inconspicuous as possible, not wanting Nick to know he was there but at the same time wanting to watch what Nick was going to do.

"Stupid...stupid party..." Nick mumbled again kicking at something else and almost losing his footing. "Stupid...ground too!" he exclaimed a little louder this time sound very obviously wasted as he brought the bottle to his mouth again.

Justin shook his head at Nick's obvious state of drunkenness. Didn't he learn his lesson by now with his DUI and getting arrested? More so, didn't he learn from his own band mate that learned the hard way not to dive to the bottom of the bottle? Justin snorted, making a disgusted face at Nick. He couldn't help it... he couldn't understand why Nick was ruining his life the way he is... why Nick's not learning from the examples around him.

"Don't need him..."Nick said to nobody in particular as he continued to stumble around the pool deck. "Why love him...don't need him...don’t need ANYBODY!" he screamed loud enough for many people to turn and look at him. He didn't notice though because at that second he lost his footing and ended up falling face first into the freezing cold pool.

Justin had been trying to figure out what the hell Nick was saying when he saw Nick slip and fall face first into the pool. "Shit!" He exclaimed as he quickly got up and ran over to the pool. "SHIT!" He mumbled again before quickly taking his shoes off as well as his jacket. He spotted Nick's body in the water, and it showed no signs of trying to swim his way back up. "Hold on... you idiot!" He grumbled before jumping into the pool, fighting the sudden shock of cold water that hit him. It took him a few seconds but he finally opened his eyes and blinked rapidly, trying to find Nick. Once he did he swam over and grabbed his hand that still held the JD bottle. Go figure. Prying Nick's fingers from the bottle Justin swam to the back of Nick and wrapped his arms around his waist, trying to swim to the surface, but Nick was too heavy. After what seemed like hours, but only a few seconds, Justin managed to get Nick's head over the surface. He gasped for air and with one arm around Nick he used the other one to swim to the edge of the pool.

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Justin helped Nick to the surface of the water, letting out a breath of relief before hopping up onto the edge and then helping a coughing Nick up. "God, baby... are you okay?" He questioned, before turning around to look at their kids, and dogs. "Nicole, Joshua... could you run in the house and get your daddy a towel!" He then turned back to Nick, and rubbed his back just as their two dogs slowly made their way over, guilty expressions on their faces before whimpering as they turned big brown eyes up at Nick and Justin. "You two are staying out in the dog house tonight," Justin reprimanded the dogs.

Nick coughed, opening his eyes. He looked around not recognizing where he was at all. Who were those dogs...and did Justin just call him 'baby.’ "What...happened?" he asked trying to sit up but Justin was still cradling him in his arms.

Joshua nodded his little head as he took his sisters chubby hand and led her back into the house to do what their dad said. "My fault...daddy fell." he said as clear as a two and a half year old could sound. Nicole just got a sad look on her face but didn't say anything.

"Despite what the kids just said," Justin said leaning down and kissing Nick's forehead, thankful and happy that Nick was okay. "The dogs accidentally pushed you into the pool. The kids were playing catch..." he pointed out at the pool, where a rubber doggie ball was floating. "And the dogs just ran into you and you fell in."

Nick pulled out of Justin's arms, why the heck was Justin kissing him! "What...what are you doing?"

Justin frowned as he grabbed onto Nick so that he wouldn't roll back into the pool by accident. "What... what am I doing?" He asked, confused.

Nick nodded his head, scampering out of Justin's arms and standing up on shaky legs. "You hate me..."

"Dada bwanket." Nicole said holding a towel up for Nick to take.

Joshua rolled his blue eyes at his sister. "Dat not a blanket...dat a towel."

Nick backed away from the little girl, who were these people and why were they calling him daddy. He wasn't anybodies daddy...well that he knew of.

Justin took the towel from Nicole and kissed her cheek. "It's okay sweetheart. Joshua, take your sister upstairs and you both get ready for bed, okay?" He watched as they nodded their heads and headed inside, Nana and Lala following them with their tails between their legs. "Except for you two," he said quickly grabbing their leached and attaching it to their callers and escorted them over to the doghouse. Once they were settled in Justin walked back over to Nick. He wrapped the towel around him. "It's okay... everything's alright. You're just a little shaken up, come on, let's get you inside and get you in a hot shower..."

Nick was so confused he didn't even argue; just let Justin lead him inside and upstairs. 'I really must have hit my head or something.' he thought to himself. 'The last thing I remember is drinking at Jive's yearly Christmas party.'

Justin walked them into their room, and into their bathroom. He quickly turned the shower on and held his arm out for Nick. He frowned when Nick looked at his hand like it was growing more fingers on it or something. "I'm not gonna bite you," he said, amused. "Come on... get in the shower... and warm up. I'll go make sure our kids are getting ready for bed and not just hiding in the closet again."

"O...our kids?" Nick asked stupidly. Just the idea that he and Justin were obviously together...in this odd world…dream...whatever it was, was weird...but kids?

Justin paused as he looked at Nick through curious eyes. "Yeah, our kids. You know, Nicole... the two and half year old girl that offered you the 'blanket' and Joshua... our three and half year old... our first child? Baby," he paused as he stepped closer to Nick and checking his temperature. "Well… you're fine to the touch... did you hit your head on anything?"

"I must have," Nick mumbled sounding deep in thought. He had no idea WHAT was going on.

Justin frowned as he grabbed Nick's head and turned it side to side, checking to make sure there wasn't a cut and wasn't bleeding. Taking in a deep breath and not wanting to risk any chances, he said, "Alright, you take the shower... I'll go call Dr. Kolavski. We'll go to the hospital tonight and make sure nothing's wrong with your head. We wouldn't want any side effects to happen with your pills."

Once again Nick was really confused. 'I'm on pills...what the heck is wrong with me that I need to be on pills.' he thought to himself and then looked at the shower. "I'm gunna take that shower now." he said but didn’t' make any move to get undressed with Justin standing right there.

"Okay," Justin said as he watched Nick for a few moments before shaking his head and heading out of the bathroom to first go check on their kids.

Letting out a sigh of relief Nick stepped into the shower. Things were getting WAY too weird for his own good.

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December 19th 2005

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Justin hit the snooze button on the alarm and stretched out on the bed. Letting out a content side he rolled onto his side and opened his eyes, smiling at the peaceful look on his husbands face. Propping himself up on his elbow he looked down at Nick, placing butterfly kisses up his neck and all over his face. "Nicky Baby... time to wake up," he whispered into Nick's ear before gently biting his ear lobe.

Nick groaned, still asleep, as a slightly passionate moan escaped as well. "No up..." he mumbled trying to turn away from Justin.

Justin placed his hand on Nick's stomach, smiling to himself. "Come on baby, if you don't get up now we're gonna be late in seeing the doc." He slowly and teasingly walked him fingers down Nick's stomach to the top of the waistband of Nick's boxers.

Like always, Nick responded to the touch. Even though he was going on twenty-six he was still one big bundle of hormones. Kevin had been teasing him about that for the last year. "Mmmm," he moaned still not waking up totally but another part of him was well awake.

Justin smiled big definitely knowing a way he could wake up his hubby. "Okay, we'll do it your way... but if we're late I'm blaming it on you AND I'm going to tell him the reason WHY as well!" He stated as he wiggled his way under the sheets and straddled Nick's legs before he hooked his fingers under the waistband of Nick's boxers and pulled it down. Licking his lips he bent down and licked up Nick's shaft.

Nick moaned again, deep in his throat. He let this go on for a good few minutes before he opened his eyes and looked under the sheets. What he saw startled him so much he jumped out of bed, almost causing Justin to bite down on him. The only thing was once he was out of bed, boxers around his ankles a really bad feeling of nausea rushed over him. Almost falling on his face because of his boxers he ran into the bathroom, falling in front of the toilet.

Justin was immediately scrambled out of bed and rushed into the bathroom just in time to see the not-so-pretty sight or Nick heaving his insides into the toilet. He ran a hand through his hair, getting nervous and a tad bit scared. For the past three weeks, this was the way Nick had been waking up... puking into the toilet. Quickly he stepped inside and filled a glass of water before wetting a hand towel and placing it on the back of Nick's neck before rubbing his back.

"God..." Nick groaned resting his forehead against the toilet seat. He had NO idea what had come over him. He had been feeling fine...just got a little freaked there forgetting...and well hoping he wasn’t still in this weird reality.

"Here," Justin said handing Nick the glass of water before taking the wet hand towel from his neck to dab at Nick's forehead. "We're definitely seeing the doctor today, no but's about it. Got that?" Every day Nick had come up with some excuse saying that he was fine and that nothing was really wrong with him but today, Justin wasn't going to buy anything Nick says. he would get Nick to the hospital if he'd have to carry him kicking and screaming. It was only seven in the morning and the kids are going to be cranky for being woken up so early but they'll have to deal with it.

"I'm fine Justin...I just puked once." Nick said not realizing what he had been saying for the past seven days.

"Sure... once for today... but what about yesterday and the day before that and the day before THAT," Justin stressed. "You say the same exact thing every morning... it's losing its credibility. You finished puking yet?" He asked impatiently. "You wash up and I'll get you something to wear."

"It's probably just the flu," Nick grumbled not thinking it could be anything but. "Or those weird ass pills you made me take last night' he whispered making a face. Justin had made him take five pills that reminded him or something an Elephant couldn't even take up the ass they were so huge.

"Nick... those where you estrogen pills," Justin said looking at him like he'd lost his mind. "And you're on a schedule, if it gets messed up your whole body gets messed up. I don't want you to get messed up! I love you too damn much to lose you! Now, come on, wash up. I'll be back." With that he walked out of the bathroom to get Nick's clothes, wondering what in the world in going on with his husband. It's almost like he's got amnesia or something, but that couldn't be... could it?

Nick sat on the bathroom floor for a second longer, he didn't even want to know why he would be taking estrogen. It was then he decided he was going to pretend he knew what the heck was going on.... so, maybe he could get some real answers. Getting up he noticed a calendar on the wall with times on it. He noticed it had a time of 7:30 on it and then saw the time eh had taken the pills the nigh before. Taking a deep breath he walked out of the bathroom. "Baby...where are my pills…I can't find them." he said trying to sound as normal as possible.

Justin walked out of their walk-in closet and looked at Nick with an odd expression. "Of course you can't find them… it's not in the bathroom... it's in your night stand, where its always been for the last five years."

"I looked there...I couldn't find them." Nick said, knowing Justin hadn't been able to see him while in the closet so he wouldn't know he hadn't looked there.

Justin frowned as he walked over to Nick's night stand table and opened the top drawer and lone and behold, there were Nick's pill bottles right where he'd left them last night. Justin looked over at Nick and raised an eyebrow.

"Oh...thank you baby for finding them." Nick said with a big smile giving Justin a kiss on the cheek. He then casually read the pill bottle label and took out all the right amounts he needed.

Justin unblinkingly stared at Nick. 'Oh God, please let there not be anything wrong with him!' He sent a silent prayed to the man above. "Sure... no problem." He walked back into closet and grabbed the clothes for Nick and himself. He set Nick's clothes on the bed before walking into the bathroom. "Nick, I'm gonna take a shower okay... once you're done with getting dressed could you go wake the kids and get breakfast started?" He called out from the bathroom from where he was stripping out of his clothes.

Nick had no idea how to do what Justin just said but nodded his head. Quickly he got dressed and then headed down the hall to the kids bedroom. They had them both in the same room at this point because they were so close. Taking a deep breath he walked to Joshua's bed first and gently shook the boy. "Joshua...time to get up buddy."

Joshua groaned and opened his eyes. "Too early...wake up." he mumbled.

Nick laughed a little and when he was sure Josh wasn't going to go back to sleep he went over to the other bed and gently shook Nicole. "Honey...wake up time."

Nicole rubbed at her eyes before opening them up to reveal bright blue eyes. "Dada?" She questioned in a sleep-filled voice before burrowing down into sheets. "You oki?" She was still thinking about how dada fell into the pool last night and seemed a little off. "I sowwy."

It took Nick a second to realize what she was talking about and then nodded his head. "Yeah I'm fine honey...but we gotta get up. Dad wants you guys to come with us to the doctor."

Joshua was sitting up now rubbing his eyes. "Why the doctor...if yur otay?"

"You no oki!" Nicole stated, her bottom lip sticking up and quivering as tears welled up in her eyes. "And it all I faul!"

Nick's eyes went wide, "NO, it's not your fault...I just threw up this morning is all. Dad got worried."

Joshua made a face, "You did that yesterday too...threw up on Nicki's bed." he said looking at his sisters bed.

Nicole nodded her curly blonde head. "Uh huh," she said, really beginning to cry. "You do dat lots and lots of times in da mornin's!"

Not sure what to do, Nick sat down on the end of the little toddler bed and pulled Nicole into his arms. "Shh honey I'm okay though...its okay go get a tummy ache sometimes," he said really beginning to wonder what was wrong with him.

"Yeah Nicki... ‘member when yur tummy hurt yesterday and you tink really bad!" he said making a face remembering his parents having to change a very icky Nicole. The only thing was it wasn't yesterday more like a month ago but he didn't under stand the concept of time

Nicole made a face just remembering that. "Me no feel good den," she said, burrowing her face into her daddy's neck, her tiny arms circling around his neck. "You make tinky diperz too?" She asked, looking up at Nick, with innocent eyes, wondering if Nick was having stomach aches like she did as well.

Nick laughed a little, "Well I don't wear diapers...but adults do get sick like that sometimes too...but I've just been throwing up...not the stinky part." He then thought of something. "But we should get you guys dressed so your dad doesn't throw a fit about us being late."

Joshua climbed out of his bed and headed over to the dresser that was his and started looking through the clothes. He pulled out a pair of jeans and then a t-shirt. Purposely not going to the drawer the had his pull-ups in it. He was having issues in this area, not wanting to do the potty thing one bit.

Nicole wiggled a bit in Nick's arms and made a face. "Dada, I got icky diperz."

That threw Nick for a loop...still in diapers. He then thought back to when Aaron and Angel had been toddlers and realized they had still been in diapers at two and a half also. "Okay...um...why don't you be a big girl and get the diaper and clothes ready for me while I go to the bathroom?" he suggested trying to hid the fact that he had no idea where diapers and things were kept.

Nicole titled her head to the side and looked at her daddy for a moment before smiling big, happy to be getting a big girls task. "Oki!" She said enthusiastically as he wiggled out of Nick's arms and then down his legs before running over to her dresser and jumping up to get the handle that was all the way at the top. The poor girl was too short to reach it. "Dada!" She was in tears again. "Me no big girl..."

Nick hadn't made it into the bathroom yet when he turned around and smiled at Nicole...well at least he knew where they were kept. Walking over to her he picked her up and helped her get the diaper out. Once that was done they grabbed the wipes that were on the top for both kids. Then some pink cords and a equally as pink shirt. Once that was done Nick realized he really DID have to go the bathroom. "Okay now i'm going potty...just get ready for me and I'll be right back." With that he jogged out of the room almost feeling like he was ready to wet himself.

Joshua watched this and giggled before pulling his PJ shirt over his head and then his pants down. Grabbing his jeans he started to put them on over the very soaked pull-up, the product of a huge glass of water before bed that he had snuck.

Justin had finished his shower and just stepped out in front of the sink to put his clothes on when Nick came rushing into the bathroom. "Everything okay?" He asked, bending down to pull his boxers up and then putting his jeans on. He then chuckled when Nick started to relieve himself. "Did you change Nicki and Josh?"

"Was just about to," Nick said with a groan as he relieved himself, not realizing that Justin had said Josh too. Joshua had his parents’ height; it was hard to even think the boy was not a 4 year old when looking at him. He looked closer to five.

"Okay, good," Justin said as he pulled on his shirt over his head. "Since you got that handled, I'll go get breakfast ready then." He leaned over and kissed Nick's cheek before heading out to get started on breakfast.

Meanwhile back in the bedroom Joshua was fully dressed and looking down at his sister who was waiting as patiently as she could when she hated being wet...and she was actually poopy too. "You stick," he said in total big brother fashion making a face at her.

Nicole stuck her tongue out at Josh. "You do too!" She retorted, pouting. It wasn't her fault she stunk so much she couldn’t help it.

"I do not!" Joshua glared at his sister and then Nick came walking into the room.

"Whoa that’s a face there big guy." Nick laughed and then sniffed the air. It hadn't smelled like that earlier. "Okay...girly you weren't kidding when you said you were icky." he said to Nicole as he laid out what she had called the diaper pad and sat her on it.

Joshua headed over to his toy box, not wanting his daddy to realize he needed to be changed too.

"Me no lie," Nicole said with a big smile as she laid down and let her daddy change her. "You and daddie tell lie is bad but Joshy no listen." IN her two and a half year mind she didn't realize she was ratting out her big brother.

Josh didn't hear what was going on he was too busy playing with his newest Power Ranger.

Nick raised an eyebrow trying to not seem totally grossed out by this changing diaper stuff. He had done this a few times with Baylee while on tour so it wasn't that he didn't know what to do. He just wasn't a daddy...didn't know all the fast tricks and stuff. "What did Joshy lie about?"

"He no change to new undaway, he still in icky ones," Nicole said.

That threw Nick for a loop... Joshua was still in diapers… or maybe pull-ups he couldn't tell from what Nicole said. 'Maybe it's just for night time.' he thought to himself. "Oh, and it's not good to lie, is it?" Nick said to Nicole not going to bring anything up to Joshua yet mostly because he didn’t want him getting mad at his sister. Glancing at the clock he realized it was getting sort of late so he quickly got Nicole dressed.

"Nope," Nicole said shaking her head. Once she was dressed and was helped off the table by Nick she ran out of the bedroom already smelling breakfast. "Daddd, me ungy!" She said, quickly climbing down the steps and heading into the kitchen.

"No running in the house!" Justin called out when he could hear the little feet running down the stairs.

Once Nicki was out of the room, Nick turned to Joshua who was talking to his toy. "Hey buddy...don't you wana eat?" he asked, not sure how to approach the subject about needing to be changed.

Josh made a face and shook his head. If he ate then he'd have to go potty and that meant either dad or daddy would have to take him to the potty. They would see what mess was in his pull-ups and he could get in trouble. So, the simple logic he could come up with was that he wouldn't eat. "Not hungry!" He said, going back to his white Power Ranger.

"I think I smell daddy making pancakes." Nick said poking the little boy playfully in the arm. I really like pancakes...don't you want to come eat some with me?"

Josh tried to squirm away from Nick, a sure sign that he was hiding something. "No," he turned a confused look to his daddy. "You no like pancakes, daddy... you like French toast!"

Nick thought for a second, "Yeah...I know but I just want you to eat...you're going to get very, very hungry if you don't eat." he said with a smile rubbing his son's tummy and felt it grumble. "See your tummy is talking to you." Nick was shocking himself...he had NO idea where this stuff was coming from.

Josh pouted. "It saying it not hungry," he said with a nod of his head.

"Joshy...why are you lying to me?" Nick asked with raised eyebrow. "I know you're hungry."

"I'm not... lying," he bit his lower lip and turned his big blue eyes up to his daddy.

"Then come eat breakfast...there is no reason why you shouldn't eat." Nick said in a voice that showed he knew what Josh was really lying about but letting him deal with it himself. He then stood up holding his arms out for Josh wanting to pick him up.

Josh stood up but didn't throw his hands up for Nick to carry him. Instead, he said, "I'm a big boy, I can walk," before turning around and heading out of the room, down to the kitchen, to where his dad was making breakfast. The last thing he wanted was for his daddy to carry him and feel the pull-ups. That's what happened last time and daddy and dad got into a really big fight about it. Josh didn't want his parents fighting like that again.

"Smells great," Nick said as they walked into the kitchen. He wasn't sure why but he was starving even though he had just thrown up less then an hour ago. "I'm starving."

Josh took a seat in his normal spot where his booster seat was and took a huge sip of his orange juice before he realized this was eating...or well drinking what he didn’t' want to do. Groaning, he just drank the rest of it anyway because he was thirsty.

Justin had made little itty-bitty pancakes for the kids and a few regular sized ones for himself. Nick's was separate, a whole batch of French toast. While balancing his daughter on one hip he set Nick's plate with the other hand and set it down in Nick's spot at the table. He frowned when he saw Nick sitting in Justin's seat.

"Dada you funny," Nicole giggled nibbling on her small piece of pancake, having noticed Nick sitting in the wrong seat. "That's dad's chwair!"

Nick laughed as he got up, "I was just trying to see if you would notice." he said as he moved to sit at the other end of the table since that was the only other chair without a booster seat on it.

Josh giggled, not forgetting that he was supposed to be acting weird and was eating just like he said he wouldn't. He was actually chowing down maybe a little too fast.

Justin set Nicole in her seat before patting Josh on the head. "Slow down there, the food's not gonna go anywhere," he said as he took his seat, opposite from Nick and started in on his own breakfast.

"Dad we go play with Bay today?" Nicole asked.

Justin shook his head. "No sweety, we're going to go to the hospital today."

Nicole made a face. "Me no ike hopital, it inks!"

"You stink," Joshua started at his sister again.

"Hey...that isn't nice." Nick said feeling that was the right thing to say.

"Me no tink!" Nicole pouted. "Dada change me!" She stuck her tongue out at him. "You da tinky one!"

"That wasn't nice either Nicole," Justin said.

"But it true!" Nicole protested.

Justin frowned as he looked up at Nick and then over to their son. "Josh... is Nicole telling the truth?"

Josh shook his head, it wasn't true he didn't stink he was only wet...he hadn't gone poop. "I don't stink."

Nick didn't say anything not sure what to do.

Justin took in a deep breath and looked at Nicole. "Sweety, you it's not nice to lie..."

Nicole's eyes began to tear up and she pushed her food away, too upset to eat. "Me no lie!" She was crying by now.

Justin sighed as he looked helplessly at Nick before getting up and picking Nicole up in his arms. The little girl resisted at first but soon gave up and started to cry his arms.

Nick thought about something, "Josh...are you wet?" he asked knowing the boy was telling the truth somewhat because he didn't smell terribly like Nicki had earlier. But he knew the little girl would relate the same things together.

Josh didn't say anything, just continued to eat his pancake and nibble on his eggs.

Justin looked over at Josh as he bounced Nicole in his arms, trying to get her to stop crying while whispering 'sorry' in her ear. He then walked over to Josh and felt his bottom only to roll his eyes. "Nick... I thought I told you to change them!" He asked, frowning.

"He didn't tell me he needed to be changed." Nick stated, not realizing this was the very thing they had argued over just the day before. His philosophy was that he felt at this point it was up to Joshua to tell them when he was wet, other wise he could sit around as messy as he wanted to. He was beyond really bad diaper rash so what was the point. Real Nick didn't realize that he actually had the same views on this as other reality Nick did. Justin on the other hand felt changing him when he was wet was the thing to do to keep him healthy.

Justin rubbed a frustrated hand over his face. "Nick... we've talked about this... so many times! Josh is in training right now... he's almost four years old.. he NEEDS to learn how to not use his pull-ups as a bathroom in the middle of the night and use a real toilet instead!"

Nicoles cries simmered down to little sniffles. She rubbed at her eyes, pouting as he she from Justin to Nick. She hated it when her parents fought. "No fight!"

"Changing him whenever he goes isn't going to make him learn to want to go!" Nick exclaimed, not believing he was fighting with Justin when he didn't really even know THIS Justin.

Josh just sat there his eyes filling up with tears. He couldn't help it...he just didn't get the potty thing...he didn't understand.

"So you would rather have him get that horrible rash on his bum that had him in the hospital over night, is that it Nick?" Justin asked, getting angry now. "Oh wait, you wouldn't know because you weren't there... but I was Nick. He was crying and in pain... do you know what that feels like to watch your kid in pain and not being able to help ease it... I don't want to go through that again if I can help it. I rather him be healthy than have some weird rash on his behind!"

"Dad," Nicole started, grabbing her dad's face in her two little hands, and making him look at her. "No mad... pwease?"

"I do to care!" Nick exclaimed tears coming to his eyes. 'Why the hell am I crying!' he thought to himself. "But this obviously isn't working either..."

Justin took in a deep breath as he looked into his daughter's eyes, and then his husbands, and then at Josh. Great, he managed to make them all cry in a matter of a few seconds. He walked over to Nicole's chair and set her down. "Finish your breakfast," he said softly before heading out of the kitchen to go upstairs to his room. He just needed some time to himself to calm down.

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An hour later, the whole Carter-Timberlake clan was sitting in the waiting room of the doctors office. Nick and Justin still weren't talking so it was making this awkward.

Joshua sat on the floor with Nicki playing with some toys they had brought with them. "All my fault daddy and dad fighting." he whispered.

Nicole didn't day anything as she just stared at the toys her brother was playing with.

Just then Dr. Kolavski walked out, smiling at his regulars before that smile faltered slightly when he took note of the somber expressions they all wore. "Good morning Mr. Timberlake," he greeted them. "Shall we?" He looked at Nick and then at Justin and was surprised when Justin shook his head.

"I'm staying out here with the kids," he said not bothering to look at Nick or at the doctor, instead he had his eyes on the toys Josh was playing with.

Nick's eyes went wide, he didn't know this doctor...or anything about the weird pills he was taking that the doctor obviously knew about. "I thought you were coming in with me..."

Justin looked up at Nick, frowning as he slowly shook his head. "You thought wrong..." he said, his voice even. "You told me not to come in with you the last time you got a check up." He looked away when he remember that particular argument a few weeks back.

"But I want you to now..." Nick whispered once again tearing up and he didn't know why. He just couldn't keep control of his emotions for some reason.

Justin sighed as he shook his head. "Nick... that's the reason why I brought the kids along... because I'll be here to watch them. If I go in with you... who's gonna watch them? Do you really want me to repeat what you told me last time?"

Nick didn't say anything just stood up and stomped out of the waiting room tears falling down his cheeks by this point. The doctor quickly ran to catch up with Nick so he followed him.

Justin sighed, wondering what the hell had gotten into Nick.

"Dad make dada cwy... why?" Nicole asked, standing up and climbing onto Justin's lap as she watched Nick disappear inside the doctor's office.

"You're daddy is acting weird," Justin replied.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

"Justin tells me that you've been getting sick every morning?" Dr. K asked once he closed the door and walked behind his desk, picking up Nick's folder.

"Yeah," Nick nodded his head. "But I feel fine now." he said as he rubbed at his eyes.

"Well, you might as well get checked up now... seeing that your monthly appointment is in two days anyways," Dr. K suggested. "Why don't you go and get yourself situated in the examining room... I'll be right with you shortly."

Nick walked into the room off of the office and was a little shocked to see it looked like...well a woman's doctors office with the table and the weird things to put their feet up. 'Maybe they are short on rooms.' Nick thought to himself as he stripped out of his clothes and put on the paper like gown to wait in.

Dr. K walked in a few moments later, Nick's folder in hand, smiling. He put on some gloves before reaching into one of the drawers and pulling out sterile needles and three small vials out. He then went about cleaning Nick's arm with the alcohol pad and filling the three vials with blood. Once that was finished he disappeared into another room to the back of the examining room only to return a few minutes later. He asked for Nick to lower his gown so that only his chest and stomach were revealed before he began to check his heart beat and other important things. It was when he was gently pressing Nick's stomach that Nick started to flinch. Moving his stethoscope over Nick's stomach the Doc chuckled. For a couple who had been through this twice before and in not such a short time, he'd have thought they would already have figured out the symptoms. He then grabbed the sound scan machine, added some gel to Nick's stomach before running it over Nick's stomach.

"What are you doing?" Nick asked not realizing that would be a REALLY weird question to ask.

Dr. K chuckled. "Always the joker," he said shaking his head. "You should know... had this done to you many times in the past four years..."

Nick really wanted to know what had been done but he didn't ask again. "Do you know what's wrong with me?"

"Of course I do," Dr. K, replied, pausing as he looked at Nick curiously. "And you should as well... why else would I be using a sound scan?"

"I don't know..." Nick answered honestly not having the foggiest idea.

Dr. K's mouth dropped open in shock before he closed it quickly. "Nick," he said in a serious tone. "Justin told me that you'd fallen into the pool last night... maybe I should examine your head as well..."

"My head is fine..." Nick said, even though he wasn't sure if his head really was fine. For some reason he was in the middle of this bad dream.

"We can't risk having something wrong with you... it'll only affect the baby more," Dr. K said, before making a note on the chart. "After this I'm gonna take you down the hall so we can get in a cat scan, okay?"

"Wait...baby!" Nick exclaimed sitting up quickly.

Dr. K gently pushed Nick back down to a lying position. "Yes, son... a baby," he said. "You're three months pregnant. Why else would I use a sound scan over your belly?"

"I can't be pregnant!" Nick exclaimed shaking his head like crazy.

"Nickolas, I'm not lying to you... you are pregnant..." He pointed to the screen of the soundscan. "Watch this..." He placed started to rub Nick's stomach with the device as images or the little fetus came through. "Just like you were with Joshua and then with Nicole... you're going to have one more bundle of joy," he paused moving the device further down nick's stomach. "Well... bundles of joy, to be exact."

Nick didn't say anything else the next second he sat up real fast and then fell back just as quickly, fainting.

"Nick?" Dr. K questioned in a hurry, gently slapping his face. "OH dear." He quickly waked over to the drawers by the far wall looking for smelling salts only to frown when he came up empty handed. Quickly he walked out of the room and out of his office, down the hall, past Justin and kids, to the nurses station asking them to bring him a package of smelling salts.

Justin frowned, immediately worried. "Doc... what happened, is everything alright?" He asked as he stood up.

Dr. K just nodded his head. "Nick just seemed to have fainted. But don't worry he'll be alright." He headed back into the office thinking now would be a good time to go get Nick into a cat scan.

Nick stayed unconscious until the nurse came in with the smell salts. Once he smelled them he groaned, his eyes blinking.

"Welcome back," Dr. K said, looking over Nick as he recapped the smelling salts.

"It's weird I was sure...you told me I'm pregnant...but I can't be pregnant...I'm a guy!" Nick exclaimed.

"it isn't weird Nick, "Dr. K told him. "It's possible... with those prescribed pills that you're taking. Dr. Singh and myself have been researching this for over two decades." He shook his head. "I've told you and Justin and the rest of the world all of this." He frowned.

It was now that Nick knew for sure this whole thing was a dream. "Where...I want Justin." he whispered really needing a face he knew...even if they were fighting.

"It isn't weird Nick, "Dr. K told him. "It's possible... with those prescribed pills that you're taking. Dr. Singh and myself have been researching this for over two decades." He shook his head. "I've told you and Justin and the rest of the world all of this." He frowned.

It was now that Nick knew for sure this whole thing was a dream. "Where...I want Justin." he whispered really needing a face he knew...even if they were fighting.

Dr. K nodded his head. "Alright," he said smiling softly at Nick. He walked out of the room down to the waiting room. "Justin you could leave the kids with the nurses in the staff room, I assure you they will be safe in the best of hands."

Justin looked up and frowned slightly. "Okay...? He watched as Dr. K called a few nurses over and told them to take care of Nicole and Joshua before he watched his kids being escorted into the staff room. Standing up and wiping his hands on the seat of his jeans Justin asked, "Is everything alright?"

"Yes, Nick just needs to see you now." And with that they both walked into the examining room.

Nick was actually not in the room where he had been left but it was obvious where he had gone to when the sound of heaving could be heard in the bathroom.

"You can't possible tell me that he's all right," Justin shook his head, looking incredulously at the doc.

"Yes, I can and I will. He's completely healthy and normal. I've given you this speech twice before and I guess I must say it again. Nick will be getting 'morning sickness..."

Just as soon as those words left the doctors mouth Justin tuned him out. Nick was pregnant, of course! Justin smacked his forehead. "He's pregnant...." He said, small smile gracing his face.

"...Yes, he is..." Just then the toilet flushed and Justin quickly headed into the bathroom to help his husband out. "Oh god... baby, you're pregnant, that's what's wrong with you!"

"I feel more like a mack truck just ran into me." Nick groaned, leaning against Justin.

Justin suppressed a smile. "So, you're remembering that night huh?" He chuckled when Nick mentioned 'mack truck.' If his memory served him right those were the same words Nick had moaned out in pleasure that night. He ran his soothingly up and down Nick's back, kissing his forehead.

"Yeah..." nick whispered not really remembering but just saying he did. "I wana go home...take me home?" he asked all of a sudden really tired and just didn’t' feel good.

"Yeah, once I get the okay from the doc," Justin said slowly standing up, helping Nick to stand as well. He then filled a paper cup with water and handed it to Nick so he could rinse his mouth.

Nick took the cup and rinsed his mouth out, then filled the cup again and took a long drink of it. "I'm sorry I didn't change Josh..." he whispered, looking down at his feet.

"Forget about it," Justin said, shrugging the issue off. He didn't want to deal with that now or ever. They should really stop arguing in front of their kids before they grown up thinking everything was their fault when it's not. "Come on, let's get you checked out and home."

Nick did what Justin said and soon they were walking back to where the kids were being watched by the two nurses.

Josh looked up when he heard the door open but when he saw his parents he looked down again.

"Oh Justin," Dr. K walked in behind them. "I almost forgot. You will need to start doubling everything that you give Nick," he said handing Justin the pamphlets about nurturing twin fetuses in the womb. Justin frowned when he looked at the cover.

"Why would Nick have to do that?"

"Oh, did I not mention? You're having twins!"

Justin didn't say much of anything as it was now his turn to faint, which he did, right there on the floor.

"Dad!" Nicole screeched out, running over to him and tugging on his shirt trying to get him to wake. "Uh oh..."

"I will not faint... I will not puke!" Nick chanted to himself as the doctor ran off again to get the smelling salts.

Josh was also over with Nicki trying to wake Justin up. "Dad...dad...dad!"

"Step aside kids," Dr.K suggested as he knelt down. "Nurses, get Nick here a trash can or just take him to a bathroom, please!" He stated when he saw Nick turn a pale shade of green. He uncapped the bottle of smelling salts and swiftly passed it under Justin's nose two times and recapped it when Justin started awake.

"Whoa, my head hurts!" He stated grabbing his head and shaking his head slightly.

"Dad you fell down!" Josh exclaimed and then made a face when Nick made good use of the waist basket given to him.

Justin looked at Nick, then his kids, and then at the doctor. "You're kidding me..." He said referring to the last thing that Doc told him. "Nick can't be having twins... I didn't even know guys can HAVE twins!"

Dr. K smiled. "It's possible though it's very rare, it's quite possible. Nothing about this pregnancy is different if a woman were having it... well, except the obvious but you get the gist."

"What twins?" Nicole asked, confused before making a face at the noises her dada was making. She started to tear up again, not liking her either of her parents getting sick. It scared her a lot. "Make dada stop dad!"

"Dad's fault daddy doing it." Nick groaned before heaving again.

Josh was beginning to get tears in his eyes too. "Daddy dying?" he asked not acting like the tough little guy he always tried to act like.

"Oh no," Justin said gathering his kids in his lap and holding them close. "Daddy's not dying and he's not sick either. Let's just say you both will be having new brothers or sisters in a few months."

"Why?" Nicole asked, resting her head on his shoulder.

"Because you're daddy is pregnant." Justin answered patiently.

"Why?" Nicole curiously asked, not understanding anything behind that.

"They had sex," Josh stated not realizing that wasn't something he was supposed to know.

The doctor who was just about to leave's eyes went wide. That was not his position to say what kids should or shouldn’t know and quickly left the room.

Justin gaped at his eldest and once he'd gotten over the shock of hearing those words come out of the three and a half year olds mouth he asked, "Where did you hear or learn that?" He asked.

"What's that?" Nicole asked.

Justin just groaned.

"Uncle Aaron said it." Josh replied. "He said dat babies come...after sex."

Nick by this point was sitting with his head in his hands for more reasons then one. Fist he was still nauseous...and second he couldn't believe Aaron would say something like that to a three year old!

"Well," Justin had a lot more colorful words to spew out but none that delicate innocent ears needed to hear. "I'm going to have a talk with your uncle Aaron."

"Can we go home?" Nick asked attempting to stand up on shaky legs.

"Yeah, we can go home," Justin said, setting Nicole down as he got up off the floor and went to help Nick walk. "Josh… hold your sisters hand and walk in front of daddy and me okay?" He told them as he and Nick slowly followed their kids out of the hospital and over to the parking lot.

Nick helped Justin get the kids buckled in before he got into the passenger seat and sighed. This was all so nuts. First he's married to Justin...then there are kids. Now he knows those kids were actually conceived naturally and he’s' freaking pregnant with twins. Yes, this was definitely a nightmare.

A few minutes into driving Justin looked over at Nick before reaching his hand out and resting his on his hand that was on his lap. "Hey, it's okay... we can do this together, I won't leave your side..." He gave Nick's hand a gentle squeeze.

"Four kids...all four and under..." Nick pointed out with a sigh. "Four kids in diapers." he made a face at that part. He didn’t' mind them...but four sets...

"Well, we'll just have to work hard in getting Josh potty trained as well as Nicole in the next..." He trailed off. "How far along are you, anyways?"

"Three months," Nick stated as he glanced back at the young boy and girl in the backset who were having some little conversation of their own, Josh obviously entertaining Nicole cuz she was gigglign like crazy.

"Oh yah, okay," Justin said. "Six months..." He looked over at Nick's stomach before looking back up at the road. A few minutes later he asked. "Who wants what for lunch?"

"Mickonals," Nicole stated, smiling big from the back seat.

"I'm not hungry," Josh stated, mostly now because he did have to go to the bathroom....food would make it worse.

Nick groaned, not saying anything though because he didn’t' want to fight with Justin on that matter. "That's fine with me...not sure if I can hold it down anyways."

"I guess it's just you and I Princess," Justin said smiling at his daughter in the rear view mirror but he knew that once they get their food Josh is most definitely going to want some. SO when he pulled into the drive-thru he ordered two kids meals and #2 for himself. Before long they were headed home.

Once home, Nick went with everybody else and sat with everybody at the table too.

Josh was indeed hungry so he sat with Nicole at the table, or attempted to sit he was on his knees shifting back and forth, doing his own version of a sitting potty dance

"You sure you don't want something to eat?" Justin asked Nick as he shoved a few fries in his mouth.

"Not right now..." Nick said giving Justin a small smile.

"It yummy," Joshua replied still wiggling uncomfortably in his seat.

Justin looked at Josh and then over at Nick. "Chicken soup, I can make some up for you real fast..." He was just concerned with Nick not only being pregnant but with twins. Nick definitely needed to eat.

Nick thought about that and nodded his head. "Okay that sounds good." Nick said with a nod of his head.

Josh looked down at his chicken nuggets and concentrated on them really hard.

Justin put his food down wanting to get Nick his food first. Just as he was about to get up he saw Josh's face and sighed. He looked at Nick and decided to just do it Nick's way. And if anything happens to their son, bu god Justin was going to drag Nick with him to the hospital whether he was puking or not. "Chicken soup, coming right up!' He headed over to the pantry and pulled the Campbell’s can.

"Want one?" Josh asked, his voice slightly strained, but he didn’t' seem to care. He was asking his sister if she wanted one of his nuggets since she got a cheeseburger.

"Sure?" Nicole asked, already reaching for it and taking the nugget. “Thanks." She went about nibbling on the nugget.

Justin poured the soup into a bowl before setting it in the microwave. When it finished heating up he grabbed a spoon and set it in front og Nick. "There..."

"Thanks...baby," Nick said with a smile still having issues calling Justin 'baby' after all these years.

Josh finished up his food and hopped out of his chair. "Dad me go play?"

Justin really wanted to tell Josh to go upstairs and change out of his pull-ups and take a shower but his bit his lower lip as he took his seat. "Yeah, sure, only for thirty minutes...you have your nap coming up," he warned.

"Me sweepy," Nicole said lazily munching on the last bit of her fries.

"You no play wit me?" Josh asked with a pout...wanting to play with Nicki.

"Me wanna play but me sweepy," Nicole said dropping her half eaten nugget on her face and wiggled down out of her seat to go join her brother.

"Play widdle while?" Josh practically begged

"Oh oki," Nicole said giving in. "But no kill me with da twain!"

"Okay..." Josh giggled as he ran into the play room but grabbed his toy lightsaber instead. "Me kill wit this!"

Nicole growled before pouting. "No kill me at all," she said as he grabbed the other one and got into position to fend off her brother's attacks.

"Well," Justin said looking over at Nick with a smile. "You feeling okay now?"

Nick nodded his head, "Yeah...but..." he wanted to say he still didn't get how he could be pregnant but knew better of it from the reaction of the doctor.

"But what?" Justin gently prodded. It wasn't like Nick to keep things to himself especially when it came to matters of the home and family.

"It feels different this time..." Nick added quickly. "Maybe the twin thing…and all." he was hoping Justin would give him some idea what to expect from other pregnancies.

"Well, the doc did say that you need to double up on your meds and everything," Justin nodded his head. "I wonder if that means double the amount of times that you get sick too?" he shrugged. "You want more soup?"

Nick shook his head and then his head snapped to the door when he heard somebody scream...it sounded a lot like Nicole. "That didn't sound good."

Justin growled as he quickly got up and ran into the playroom. There was Nicole on the floor with Joshua hovering over her, the light saber pointed at her chest. "Nicole, honey... you alright sweetheart?"

Nicole pouted. "He kill me again... and he pwomised not to."

"I turned into Darth Vader!" Josh exclaimed, feeling that was a very legitimate reason to why he tried to kill his sister.

"Josh," Justin looked at his son. "Come on... play something that doesn't result in your sister getting killed okay?" He helped him daughter stand up before nudging the both of them over to the building blocks. "Play with these.. build a house or something."

"Blocks are dumb," Josh mumbled to himself as he took a seat on his knees next to Nicole.

Nick was watching from the doorway, not really sure what to do in situations like these, especially because he didn’t want to say something wrong and make Justin mad at him again.

"They are not dumb," Justin said standing up straight and ruffling Josh's hair. "They're creative. Either learn to play nice with your sister or it's early nap time!"

Josh didn't say anything else just started to pile the blocks on top of each other. Once they got to tall for him when sitting he stood up and put a block on top, his other hand going to pull at the back of his jeans.

"Be good now," Justin said watching Nicole build up her own set of blocks before turning around to leave. He smiled when he saw Nick standing there. Walking over to him, smiling, he wrapped his arms around his waist, in a hug. "To think there's two more on the way that will pretty much go through the same thing as these two are going through," he mumbled, resting his head on Nick's shoulder.

"Are we ready?" Nick asked the worry evident in his voice.

"Nick... we weren't ready when Josh was born and we were ready when Nicole was born," Justin said. "But we made it through... remember what you told me when I had been freaking out when you were in the delivery room," he paused to chuckle. "I mean I wasn't the one about to give birth and there you were all calm and patient with out the help of any drugs to reduce your labor pains." He picked his head up and smiled. "You're the strongest man I know," he said. "And i love you so much."

Nick couldn't help the smile that came to his lips. "I...I love you too." he said a little amazed at how easy it was to say that. He kissed Justin gently on the lips before something caught his attention and laughed a little. "I think our little man is getting quite uncomfortable." he said seeing Josh holding himself. Not sure if that meant he had to go...or was getting itchy. By the look on his face though he figured it was actually probably the first one.

Justin turned around in Nick's arms and looked at Josh. "Josh... You wanna ask us something?" He asked, wanting Josh to admit that he had to use the bathroom or at least get a changing.

Josh looked down at Nicole and could tell through her cords that she was wet too. If she didn't have to be potty trained then he didn’t' gotta be either. That was how he saw things. Giving up on holding it, he let go of himself and wet in his pull up that was already heavy. "No dad...I'm just playing with Nicki." he said smiling at his sister.

Nick noticed something in Josh's eyes and got an idea...but he was goign to talk to Justin about it first before mentioning it to Joshua.

Justin sighed in defeat. "I wonder where he gets his stubbornness from," he pointed looked at Nick.

Nick playfully glared at Justin. "That's not nice." he said pouting and then giggled. "But I might have an idea..."

"Let's hear it," Justin said walking with Nick back out to the kitchen. He began to clean up the table.

"We need to start potty training Nicki too." Nick simply stated.

Justin nodded his head. "You suggested that last week...and we went to Nicki about it... and she told us to wait till you get back from your interviews with your boys." He laughed as he recalled his daughter had said that night.

Nick laughed a little trying to pretend that he forgot that. "I think that will help Josh....cuz he looks to her every time he's trying to decide if he should tell us he has to go potty. But he sees that she doesn’t so he goes in his pants."

"So, you've said, " Justin chuckled, walking up to Nick and giving him a sweet kiss. "I didn't forget... but one thing Nicole's willing to do is work for being potty trained... you heard what she'd said." He went back to cleaning up.

Meanwhile back in the playroom Josh was watching Nicole getting sleepy while she build something from her blocks. "Nicki...you pee?" he asked being the all around curious boy. It was a good thing he was curious since it was a sign he really was ready for this...but he was still having issues since he wanted his sister with him on it all.

Nicole put on a thoughtful look on her face as she wiggled around. "Oh... yeah, I did," she said surprised. She didn't even know it, mainly because she was sleepy and was using all her energy to concentrate and stacking up the blocks.

"It's okay," Josh said giving his sister a small smile. "Me help you?" he asked moving so he was sitting next to Nicole seeing she was having trouble finishing her tower.

"Oki," Nicole said with a smile as she handed Josh as few more blocks.

It was about ten minutes later that Justin walked back into the playroom. "Alrighty... nap time you two," he said leaning down and tickling the two of them causing them to shriek and laugh.

"Dad!" Nicole laughed hard, "Stop... me pee!" The tickling was causing her to go some more in her diapers.

Josh was laughing even harder now because of the reaction Nicole was having to Justin tickling her. "You're silly, Nicki." he giggled. His eyes on her crotch area, being the curious little boy, about to tell she was definitely telling Justin the truth about the peeing thing.

"Alright, alright," Justin said stopping as he picked her up in his arms. "Oh... you already went," he said feeling her diapers. "Well.. we'll just have to get you in new diapers then...Josh... come on."

Josh got up following Justin and Nicole upstairs to their bedroom. "Can I help?" he asked meaning help change Nicki.

"With what... changing Nicki?" Justin asked looking down at the boy slowly climbing up the steps.

Josh nodded his head, "Yeah...I wana help." he said not thinking about the fact that he needed to be changed too.

"Sure," Justin said once they finally got to the second floor before heading over to the kids' room. Nicole was half asleep in Justin's arms. "You wanna change after you help me finish changing Nicki?"

Josh nodded his head, he knew he couldn't go to sleep if he was this icky. "Yeah...but after Nicki." he said as he walked into the bathroom and pulled a little stool out so he could stand next to the changing table. "Did she poop?" he asked totally curious.

"We'll find out," Justin said, finding the questions Josh was asking, amusing. Carefully he laid down his daughter on the changing mat before taking her diapers off. "Nope, she didn't." He then went about cleaning her up and then putting her in a new pair of diapers. Instead of dressing her back in her dress he pulled out her PJ's and helped her into it. "Good girl... let's get you in bed."

Josh grabbed Nicki's favorite blanket and put it on her. "Night night Nicki." he whispered giving her a little sloppy kiss on the cheek.

Nicole was already asleep snuggled with her favorite bunny, Thumper.

"You're turn, Josh," Justin said with a smile on his face at the way Josh kissed his sister.

"I pooped," Josh said giving his daddy a very guilty look as he lifted his arms up wanting to be picked up. Not just to be put on the changing table but to be held. He liked it when Nicole was put down for her nap first because he got dad time all to himself.

"Why didn't you tell me that you did that?" Justin asked, picking Josh up in his arms before kissing his forehead. "You know I wouldn't get angry with you if you told us..."

"I don't wana go potty like a big boy." Josh whispered snuggling into Justin's arms, obvious he was getting sleepy too.

"Why not?" Justin asked going by the window to sit in the rocking chair.

"Me wana be a baby like Nicki." Josh replied wondering why Justin took him to the rocking chair and not to the changing table. Normally Justin was so eager to get him out of icky pants.

"She's only a few months younger than you," Justin replied. "Besides... she's going to be starting with the training soon too... you can't possibly tell me that you like being in icky diapers and having me and you daddy changing you all the time?"

"Train her now?" Josh asked looking at his daddy with big blue eyes. Ignoring the other question he asked.

"Not now, now... but in a few days," Justin said looking down at his son. "So you see... she's going to learning to be a big girl and use the big people's toilet, too."

"I do it when she do it." Josh said with a nod of his head and wiggled in his dad's arms. "Dad?"

"Yea?" Justin asked as he started to get up.

"I icky." Josh said making a face.

"Would you like to be changed now?" Justin asked, smiling. He led them over to Josh's dresser and pulled out his pull-ups.

Josh nodded his head, "Please..."

"Alright," Justin said walking into the bathroom and setting Josh in the tub. Once he got the boy's pants off he pulled down the pull-ups, trying hard not to react to the smell. Quickly he wrapped it up and threw it in the garbage before grabbing the shower head and cleaning Josh from the waist down. Then towel him dry before helping him into new pull-ups.

"Thanks dad," Josh said hugging his arms around Justin's neck as he stepped into the pull-up.

"No problem," Justin said. Once Josh was in his underwear, Justin carried him back out to the bedroom before pulling out his PJ's. When Josh was dressed Justin walked over to his bed and set tucked him in bed.

Josh yawned loudly and snuggled into his bed. "Night, night dad."

Justin chuckled. "I'm waking you up in a hour kiddo.." he leaned down and kissed his forehead. "Have a nice nap." With that said he got up and closed the curtains in their room before closing the door behind him. When he walked in to his bedroom, he saw Nick lying down on the bed and Justin smiled. "Hey," he greeted him as he crawled up the length of Nick's body.

Nick tensed up, it had been a LONG time sine he had Justin crawling up him like this. Five years to be exact. "Hi...Hi"

Justin felt Nick tense and frowned. "Baby, you okay?" He questioned, straddling Nick's waist as he looked into his husband’s eyes, linking their fingers together.

Nick licked his lips and nodded his head. He was fine besides the fact that his dick was twitching to life in his jeans, under Justin and he wasn't so sure about it.

"Good," Justin said. "Josh just said that he wanted to do the training with Nicole... I think it's kinda cute that he wants to do things with her."

Nick smiled at that, "He loves his little sister."

"Yup, on top of picking on her," Justin looked pointedly at Nick. "I recall a story someone's sister told me about her big brother a few Christmas’s ago."

Nick blushed laughing a little. "Who's sister would that be?"

Justin rubbed Nick's stomach instead of poking it like he wanted to do, keeping in mind that he was pregnant. "Oh, I think you know."

Nick giggled, now wishing he would never wake up from this dream it felt good to have Justin with him like this again.

Just then Justin groaned, remembering something. "Oh, Jive is not going to be happy about this," he said shaking his head. "You still have to finish up the tour with your guys and now... you're 3 months pregnant."

Nick was glad to know that something was obviously the same as the world he came from. "We're only on tour for a few more months...I should be okay."

"Nick," Justin looked at him. "You'll start showing in two months and even before that point there's no way you'll be allowed to dance much less travel much... doctor's orders."

"They let AJ still tour when he hurt his leg." Nick pointed out. "I'll just sit and sing."

"Don't argue with me," Justin said raising his arms up. "Tell that to Dr. K... we had to stop your solo tour half way when you had been pregnant with Josh... you know all that."

'I stopped my solo tour to have a baby...' Nick thought to himself shocked to hear that. At the time of his solo tour he had been major party boy... guess not in this life. "I can't cut out on the guys though...solo is different!"

"We'll talk to management and then to the doc... let them work something out," Justin shrugged.

"The guys are going to kill me," Nick mumbled knowing how much this tour meant to every body after the big break.

"Well, Alex is coming over tomorrow for your bonding thing or whatever it is you two do," Justin said.

"He's going to make some comment about us fucking like rabbits again." Nick said remembering AJ saying that kind of thing back when he and Justin had been dating before. AJ had been the only band member that had known about them.

"He wouldn't be too far from the truth," Justin chuckled. "You really crazy-horny when you're pregnant, you know."

"I'm not being crazy horny right now." Nick pointed out not realizing that he was indeed hard as a rock and would willingly do anything right that second.

"Of course, you're not,' Justin said and wiggled a bit, smiling sweetly and innocently at Nick. He then reached over to the nightstand and set the alarm for when to wake the kids up. If they slept longer than an hour it would be hell trying to get to bed at night.

"What was that for?" Nick asked watching Justin set the alarm.

"To remind me when to wake the kids up," Justin said. "Why do you keep asking me questions that you already know the answers to?"

Nick thought about that...not sure what to say. "I...umm..."

"Hmm," Justin said when he didn't get an answer from Nick and decided to just ignore it. "SO," he smiled. "Care to tell me just what you and Alex do?"

'Shit,' Nick cursed in his mind. He had NO idea what he had no idea what they did. "Umm...we..." Okay, he knew he was beginning to sound like a real idiot.

Justin was actually shocked that Nick was even considering answering him. Usually Nick would have just smirked and kissed him, telling him that it was brothers-bonding-macho stuff that they would do and complain about how Justin wouldn't tell him what he and his guys do when they get together. Something was seriously wrong with his husband.

"We just do bonding stuff...it's not a big deal." Nick said leaning in for a kiss, not realizing he was actually doing what he was supposed to be doing.

"You know for a second there I thought you were someone else disguised as my husband," Justin chuckled, before kissing Nick back.

Nick moaned into the kiss. This was SO not good. Once Justin really started kissing him back he felt like he was on fire. 'I can't do this...I'm not really his husband!" he thought to himself.

Justin pulled back from the kiss only to nibble on Nick's bottom lip. "Nicky... the kids are asleep... the doors locked... we have about an hour to kill..." He trailed off as he trailed his kisses down Nick's neck, hoping Nick would take the cue.

"Isn't...this kinda thing...what got me…pregnant?" Nick stammered, his eyes rolling back in his head at the pleasure he was feeling.

"You weren't complaining then," Justin said. "I don't see why you wanna complain now... besides you can't get pregnant if you're already pregnant." He pinched one of Nick's nipples just as he licked up Nick's neck.

"You say...I'M horny," Nick chuckled and then moaned. "I think it's YOUR fault I'm this way...yup, yup."

Justin stopped what he was doing to look at Nick, his eyes twinkling. "Well, you ARE horny and you were the one that didn't wanna use the condom so how is it my fault?"

'Why didn't I want to use the condom?' Nick wondered to himself. "Well...if I remember correctly it was your dick up my ass...and your sperm squirting inside of me," he said purposely trying to be a little crude.

"Well, you didn't want it any other way," Justin said, sticking his tongue out trying to figure out just why Nick was blaming him now. "You wanted," he paused to make air quotes, "for us to be close and to feel just me."

Nick thought about that a second, that sure sounded nice. He could understand why he might have thought that. "True...and it DID feel good." he agreed.

"Mmmhmm," Justin said taking in a deep breath. "So we gonna get on with the show or talk all afternoon?"

"Show..yeah get on with it." Nick agreed getting more turned on just thinking about doing it bare. He had never done that before.

Justin chuckled as he kissed his way down Nick's shirt and before long he was hovering over his crotch, his fingers fumbling with the button of his jeans before he pulled both his boxers and jeans off. He licked his lips as he neared Nick's cock, his eyes meeting Nick's gaze. He smirked as he licked up Nick's underside.

Nick moaned, his eyes rolling back in his head. "Oh god...Justin..." Yeah, the man still had the best cock sucking mouth he had ever known.

Justin took the base of Nick's cock and pumped it while he took in the top half into his mouth, bopping his head up and down as he sucked on Nick's organ.

"Oh god...oh god." Nick moaned, not able to keep quiet. that seemed to be something he had a problem with when it was Justin who had his dick in his mouth.

With his free hand Justin reached up and stuck two fingers inside of Nick's mouth giving him something to do so he wouldn't so loud and wake the kids up. He hummed around Nick's orgasm before slowly taking him all in, so that his nose was buried in the fine blonde pubic hairs.

That was all Nick could take, his hormones were so out of whack that feeling himself deep in Justin's throat was all it took and he was cuming, almost biting down on Justin's fingers as he cried out.

Justin almost gagged, not expecting Nick to cum so soon but quickly recovered, pulling his fingers away from Nick's mouth to use both his hand to hold Nick's hips down. He swallowed everything he had to offer before pulling the limp organ out of his mouth as he sat back on his knees and running his tongue our his lips, getting any of the seed that might have leaked out.

Nick lied on his back, looking totally sedated. That had been the BEST blow job he had ever had. Even Justin himself hadn't given that good of blow jobs before. 'Practice I bet...but practice on who?'

Justin rubbed Nick's thighs before slowly pushing up Nick's t-shirt, kissing the exposed skin as he went up. He tugged on the shirt once it was rolled up to Nick's chin and waited till Nick slowly sat up before he pulled the shirt off of him. When Nick was lying back down again, Justin was back to straddling Nick's thighs, his hand slowly stroking Nick. "YOu like that, Nicky?" He asked, his voice rough and low.

"Mmm..yeah..." Nick groaned. He liked that A LOT. "You...have the best...lips. So much better then Paris." he mumbled out forgetting that might not be a good thing to say...since this Justin was never with Paris Hilton.

Justin paused, frowning. "Who?" He asked, his heart beating faster.

Nick swallowed hard, oh yeah he was in trouble now. "Who...who?" he asked trying to play dumb.

Justin shook his head as he let go of Nick and got up off of him. "Paris... who is that?" He asked, with a not so amused or happy look on his face.

"You know...Paris...the city in France?" Nick said still trying to play it off like he didn't say it.

Justin took in a deep breath. "You said... my lips were better than Paris..." He clenched his jaw. "Nick don't lie to me... who is Paris?"

'She must still be famous now' Nick thought to himself. 'But how the hell do i get out of this.' "You know...one of the Hilton sisters..."

Justin's jaw dropped, not really knowing what to think. Nick actually went behind his back to fucking cheat on that...that...it! After being together for almost eight years and having broken up once for a few months when Justin had given Nick the promise ring two years into their relationship Nick had told him that he'd been with some girl just a few days ago. Justin hadn't taken it lightly and that was cause for their first and last breakup, obviously having gotten back together later on. "You.... with her?" He asked, voice even.

Nick swallowed hard, not sure what to say anymore. "It was...long time ago." he stated...not wanting to think that it really was only a year ago...in the world he came from anyway.

Justin watched Nick long and hard. "How long ago?" he asked because Nick had pretty much told him just who he'd ever been with when they had gotten back together.

"Long time ago...December...99." Nick said praying to God that party really happened and Justin had given him the promise ring and all that jazz.

"Before or after you told me the truth?" Justin asked wondering if it was before Nick confessed for cheating on him or... after.

'What truth is he talking about?' Nick wondered...really hating things right this second. "Umm...before..."

"So.. that's TWO GIRLS!?" Justin squeaked out, before taking in a deep shaky breath. "What else have you been hiding from me?"

'Okay...bad choice.' Nick thought "Not two.... one...there wasn't anybody else.." Nick said, really wanting to go home now.

"Two girls Nick.. TWO," Justin said. "The girl you slept with a few days before the party that you decided to tell me about when I gave you the damn ring... and now you tell me there was one more at the party before..."

Nick shook his head. "No...Paris was AFTER the party." he said running a hand through his hair, trying to make it look like he wasn't thinking straight because of the orgasm.

Justin narrowed his eyes. "Can't you get your facts straight?"

'Play the pregnancy factor' Nick told himself before making tears come to his eyes. "I just...you're making me...you're making me confused." he whispered, lips quivering.

Justin took in a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. He had to remind himself that this had happened years ago and he and Nick had made up since then but as much as he loved Nick unconditionally he was always a bit on edge when it comes to whether or not Nick would ever cheat on him again. "There's been no one after we got back together then? After we got married?"

Nick's eyes went wide. He knew for a fact that answer was 'no' because he would never do that. "Of course not.... how could you even think!" he exclaimed real tears coming to his eyes now. 'Okay you'r really turning into an emotional basket case!'

Justin closed his eyes before slowly opening them again. Walking back to the bed, he crawled on and sat beside Nick, wiping the tears off his face. "I'm sorry..." was all he could say.

"I haven't...honest baby...I haven't." Nick said not able to stop the tears. "I love you...just you!"

"Okay, I believe you," Justin said leaning down to press a soft kiss to Nick's lips. "I love you too, I'm sorry for asking that... I should have known that you wouldn't... Sorry."

"I don't blame you...i mean I did mention another woman...while we were fooling around." Nick said blushing a little. "Even though I did mention how much better YOU are."

Justin rolled his eyes. "And that's supposed to make me feel better...?" He smiled. "I mean.. being told that I give better head than her much less you thinking about her..?"

Nick blushed again, "I agree...bad timing."

"You're something else baby," Justin said shaking his head before grabbing Nick's clothes and handing them to Nick. He had to wake the kids up in ten minutes, not much he and Nick could do now anyways.

"You want me...to help?" Nick asked looking down and noticing that Justin's jeans had an impressive tent in them.

Justin sighed, just not in the mood anymore. "Thanks," he said kissing Nick's cheek. "But no..."

"Oh...okay," Nick whispered...not wanting to admit to himself that he really wanted to see Justin naked again. "I'm kinda tired...can you handle the kids alone?"

"Sure," Justin said standing up. "Get some rest." With that he walked into the bathroom to wash his face with cold water and hopefully get rid of his erection. By the time he emerged he turned the alarm off before it could ring and headed out of the bedroom to go hang out with the kids.

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December 20th 2005

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Nick sat nervously outside the little cafe. AJ had called him earlier that morning and told him to meet him there. Nick had no idea what to expect when his friend showed up. There was a lot of stuff that happened between 1999 and 2005...especially where AJ was concerned.

AJ parked his car in the parking spot outside the cafe and immediately spotting Nick. Walking over he sat down beside him running his hand through his head full of bleach blond hair. "Hope you haven't been waiting long... would have got here sooner but traffic's a bit bitchy today!" He smirked.

Nick playfully glared at AJ, he had ALWAYS hated it when AJ messed with his hair. At least that hadn't changed. "It's cool.... I’ve only been here for about five minutes."

AJ looked over at Nick, playfully punching his shoulder. "So, we gonna head over to the bowling alley today or we gonna go to the Y or did you actually come up with a place to go to today?" He then looked at Nick thoughtfully but didn't say anything.

Nick was too busy looking at AJ with wide eyes to even listen to him. This wasn't the AJ he knew...this AJ had a lot less tattoos and he wasn't wearing the normal Goth couture clothing. Actually, he was wearing jeans and a really baggy hoodie. The other thing he noticed was, he didn't smell of cigarettes.

"Nickers... dude... earth to Nicko!" AJ said waving his hand in front of Nick's face about a minute later. "Don't tell me you went E.T. hunting last night and got brain zapped or something!?"

Nick shook himself out of his thoughts and laughed a little. "Sorry...what did you ask me?" he asked knowing AJ had been asking him something...what that something as he wasn't sure.

"Oh god... you DID go ET Hunting again, didn't you?" AJ asked, shaking his head. "Nicky... how many time do I have to tell you... you're just wasting your time."

"Fuck you," Nick laughed playfully slugging AJ in the arm. "Now what are we going to do today?"

"Bowling... the Y... I don't know... it's your turn to pick, man," AJ said with a smile, rubbing his arm.

Nick thought about that...bowling sounded fun...but would Justin kill him if he knew he had lifted the ball? Nick wondered, thinking about how Justin had yelled at him that morning for trying to get a thing of laundry soap off a top shelf because it was to heavy. "Umm...the Y I guess."

"You guess?" AJ asked, getting up anyways. "Everything alright...?" As soon as AJ would have parked the car at whatever spot they decided to meet at Nick would have already been trying to get in the driver's seat before AJ could even scoot over, taking them someplace when it was Nick's turn to choose what they did that day. And now, Nick wasn't even sure what he wanted to do. He held his keys out for Nick to take.

"I'm driving?" Nick asked eyeing AJ weird.

"Duh..." AJ said before shrugging. "You always do when it's turn to pick what we do... what's the hells up with you?"

Nick thought about that, "Oh...its my turn to pick...I guess I forgot that." he said standing up and heading over to AJ's car. "How about we first go to McDonalds, I'm freaking starving." He said not realizing this Nick was on a diet and didn't do McDonalds.

AJ scratched his head as he quickly walked over to the passenger side and getting inside, buckling up. "You and Justin get into a fight or something?" he asked, wondering why Nick was breaking his diet. The last time that Nick had almost done it... it was when Justin and Nick fought. He really hoped they weren't fighting.

Nick shook his head in the negative as he got behind the wheel of AJ's car and started it up. "No...we're not fighting...why would we be?"

"Well, that was the reason last time for you almost breaking your diet," AJ trailed off.

'My diet!' Nick thought to himself, he couldn't believe he was actually on a diet. Whenever he tried to do that in his normal life the guys would get pissed and say he was fine the way he was. He had always thought they were scared he was going to start puking up his food or some shit. "The doctor...told me not to worry about my diet right now." he stated, not sure if he should tell AJ about the pregnancy.

"Dr. K...told you that?" AJ wrinkled his nose. "Why... I mean, isn't he the one HELPING you with the diet?"

Nick licked his lips; "He didn't think it would be healthy for the baby." He replied, actually knowing this wasn’t a lie. It had been in the instructions that Dr. K had given him the day before.

"What bab..." AJ's eyes went wide when it finally sunk in. He darted his eyes down to Nick's stomach before looking up at Nick's face and then back to his stomach again. "Oh." He chuckled as he ran his hand through his hair. "Wow. How many kids you planning on popping out by the time your thirty?" He joked.

Nick rolled his eyes, "It wasn't exactly planned." He then blushed a little. "And actually...it's babies..."

AJ was so glad he wasn't driving right then or he probably would have either suddenly hit the break or ram shackled the car into the cars ahead of them or into a tree even. "There's more than one in there?" He pointed at Nick's stomach.

Nick nodded, "Yeah...twins." he said with a sigh. He still had NO idea how he and Justin were going to manage 4 kids...part of him really hoped he would go back to where he came from before then.

"Wow..." AJ said shaking his head in wonder. "Just wow..." He then frowned. "Dude... you're pregnant!" He poked Nick's arm as if Nick didn't know that.

"Yes...I know that," Nick laughed, rubbing at his arm as he pulled into the parking lot of McDonalds.

AJ ignored him. "And we're starting our tour back up after this break in a few weeks," he continued. "And you're pregnant..." He then chuckled at the joke of it all. "Cool... at least I won't be the only one that the guys would be upset with!"

What AJ said caused Nick to be really confused. "Why would the guys be mad at you?" He asked as they got out of the car and headed into the restaurant.

"You're not the only one pregnant," AJ added in a soft voice. That had been the major reason why he wanted to hang out with Nick today. He'd found out about that three weeks ago that he was a month pregnant and he hadn't told anyone yet, not even JC, mainly because he and the rest of the group were going radio station Christmas concerts, and really, the right time never really came up. That is, until now.

Nick's eyes went wide..."No shit?" he asked not able to figure this thing out. He still didn't understand why HE was pregnant…let alone AJ!

"Nope," AJ said meeting Nick's eyes. "I'm like a month and three weeks in... I mean, I wanted to tell you guys when I found out about it three weeks ago but something always came up and I don't know... I was too chicken shit to say anything."

"Who's the father?" Nick asked curiously, not realizing that AJ was engaged to JC Chasez.

"Why would you even ask me that?" AJ asked, making a face. "The same guy I was with for three years thanks to you and Jup... who else would it be?" He shook his head and then walked up to the counter when it was his turn to order. When he gave in his order he looked back over at Nick.

Nick placed his order too and then paid for everything. He felt like shit now...he had obviously really offended his friend and he didn't know how to make it better. He was still silent when they found a seat and started to eat.

After popping in a few fries and taking a bite out of his big mac AJ asked. "Seriously, everything alright with you... you don't seem like yourself?" He took a drink from his V8 juice.

"I'm sorry..." Nick said not sure what else to say. He couldn't tell AJ what was going on...could he?

"That doesn't really answer the question Nick," AJ said, his voice and eyes softer... warmer. "Seriously, though... everything good on the home front?"

Nick nodded, "Yeah things are fine...just the normal squabbles."

AJ nodded his head. "Good 'cause if there was more than just little 'squabbles' fix it bro... I don't think the world would be the same if you two breakup." AJ shook his head, not realizing he was stating a certain truth about current situations.

"I'm beginning to realize that," Nick mumbled to himself. "We're fine though...just the arguments over Josh and the whole potty bit." he said having a feeling AJ knew about it already.

"Still?" AJ chuckled. "I don't know what Bri and Leigh have been doing but you might wanna go talk to them about it for some pointers," he paused to make a face. "Talk to LEIGH about some pointers," he corrected himself. Nick and Brian were having their issues with each other. It started off with Nick dating Justin and then marrying him, and then to his solo career and then to Nick undergoing the experiment of the estrogen pills...and then giving babies. Sadly to say, those two were still on the roads to reconciliation. IF AJ didn't know any better he would have said Brian was jealous but he wasn't sure if it was of Justin or of Nick.

"Yeah..I might have to do that." Nick said, really wondering what happed that would make him not want to talk to Brian. "But I guess we kinda got things figured out anyway. Josh won't do it until Nicki does."

"Aww," AJ said. "I swear... you two have the cutest kids in the world. Josh is just so much like you, it's scary and Nicki... she's the female replica of Justin but they both have a little of the other in them.“ He let out a content sigh as he got a far away look on his face. "I wonder if my baby is gonna be more like Josh or more like me."

"Hopefully a lot like Josh...like you would be scary." Nick teased his friend before stealing one of his fries.

AJ swatted at Nick's hand before sticking his tongue out at him. "You're lucky we're both pregnant or I'll pound you to the ground right here and now!" He joked.

"I'd like to see you try...stick boy." Nick giggled. Even though he was on a diet AJ was a lot skinnier then he was.

"Yeah well... " AJ trailed off on his comment about how bones hurt more than fat when he saw someone heading their direction. He groaned. "I can't believe she's still after you!" He hissed under his breath when he saw... Justine... the girl Nick had cheated on Justin a few years back, the same girl that caused a lot of drama as well as fuel for the paparazzi who were having fun trying to figure out Nick's intentions of sleeping with a girl named Justine while he had been with Justin.

"Who?" Nick asked...not seeing anybody he knew.

"Who?" AJ asked wide-eyed as he snuck a glance at the curly haired blue eyed blonde. He stopped whatever he was about to say when Justine stopped directly next to Nick, smiling like all was right with the world.

"Nicky," She said looking at him with sparkling eyes and a smirk. "Haven't seen you in a few months, how've you been?"

"Umm...good..." Nick said still having NO idea who this woman was...and the freaky thing was she looked a LOT like his husband.

AJ glared at her and roughly popped a few more fries in his mouth to keep it occupied before he started to mouth her off. She sure as hell had some nerve coming up to Nick in public like this and the last thing that they would need right now was for some lone paparazzo driving around and spotting this.

"Baby... I thought you were on a diet?" She questioned looking down at Nick's food before looking at Nick and then at AJ, sneering at him. "You think we could talk in private?" She winked at Nick.

Nick glared at the woman. "Who you calling 'baby'?" he asked not understanding why this woman was acting like this...WHO was she?

Justine looked like she'd been slapped in the face and AJ got a smug look on his face, damn bitch deserved it.

"You didn't mind it one bit when I called you that that night," She replied rolling her eyes. "What's gotten into you?"

Nick looked at AJ with fear in his eyes...what had he done with this woman...and did Justin know about it?

AJ looked back at Nick with a 'well what are you waiting for?' look and shrugged. Nick was on his own on this one, no matter what AJ would say to the girl she wouldn't listen to him... but she would listen to Nick and even so, she still wouldn't take 'no' or 'get lost' as an answer. She kept coming back, and AJ is inclined to believe she's a little on the mental side.

"Listen...I'm married and I'm happy...why don't you give up?" Nick stated, looking at this girl like she was nuts.

"You know," She said resting her hands on her hips and tapping her foot. "Who cares if you're married... I can make you happier, I'm sure for once you would like to NOT be the one to keep giving birth. What... Justin too manly and too pride and ego stricken to try to be the one to take the estro-pills and be the 'woman' in the relationship?" She glared at Nick. "With me.... you can be all man as you want to be."

AJ's mouth dropped open, not believing she'd go that low much less bring up that topic to Nick.

Nick rolled his eyes, now he knew where to go with this. "I happen to like being the 'woman' of the relationship. I like Justin being the manly one because I like where I am. I happen to LIKE being pregnant too." he said subconsciously rubbing his stomach.

"Ugh," She said making a disgusted face. "That's just... WRONG on so many levels. He's poisoned your mind.." she shook her head. She was also one of the members that protested the estro-pills claiming that science was trying to change what God had created, change the facts of life, to change every goddamn thing in the world to the point that there wasn't even a fine line to distinguish between genders or sexuality anymore. And really, it all started with Justin and Nick coming out as a couple those many years ago to have those freaky scientists to finalize their experimentation with their drug that would help men to carry offspring.

"Why don't you just get your sorry ass out of here before we take this to court and have us put restrictions on you?" AJ suggested. "Seriously... get the picture and stop trying to ruin his life!"

"Come on Aje...let's go." Nick said standing up waiting for AJ to follow. If she wasn’t going to leave then they were.

AJ sighed as he stood up but grabbed his unfinished food as he quickly followed Nick. He wasn't going to waste perfectly good food.

Justine took in a deep breath and glared at the two men. Once they were gone she flopped in the seat Nick vacated trying to come up with some way to make Nick see things her way.

"You sure do know just how to pick 'em," AJ commented as they walked to car.

"When did I go with her...or whatever?" Nick asked knowing AJ was going to think he was nuts but he needed to make sure he hadn't cheated on Justin when they had been married.

"What the fuck do you have... amnesia or some shit?" AJ asked, staring at Nick incredulously.

"Something like that," Nick said with a sigh.

"What's that supposed to mean?" AJ asked, as he opened the passenger side and got in, placing hs food on the dashboard before giving his full attention to Nick. "Forget the Y... let's go to the park... and you're going to tell me what's wrong with your head Kaos."

"Okay," Nick simply said as he drove in the direction of a local park and then parked the car. "You wont' believe me if I told you though...so what's the point."

"Try me," AJ said not knowing what he was in store for. "I've known you for how long? And if anyone on this planet can relate to you or even understand you, it's me. And sometimes even believe you. Believe me, there's nothing you could possibly tell me that would make me not believe you... come on, spill!"

Nick tried to think about how to tell AJ this when he didn't even understand. "Well...you remember that party in 1999 when Justin gave me the promise ring?"

AJ nodded his head. Who could forget that? "Yeah, what about it?"

"Well...I remember things a lot differently...I don't know how...but I like belong in a different time then this or something. Justin and I aren't together still where I'm from. I'm like a helpless alcoholic fuck around kinda guy...not a parent and a husband..." he knew he wasn't making any sense...he had no idea how to explain this. "Fuck this...never mind." he said running a hand frustrated through his hair.

AJ just blinked really wondering about Nick's sanity. Maybe it was the hormones that was affecting him... "Okay... just... okay." he ran a hand through his hair looking out the window at the green trees for a few minutes not sure what to think and not sure he even understood what the hell Nick just spewed out. "Alright.... try that again, except speak slower and start from the top." He might as well just humor the guy, he looks so lost and confused.

"I come from a different reality..." Nick said still not sure how to explain this. "Up until a few days ago I wasn't married...I didn't have kids and I sure as hell couldn't have kids. I don't get why I can now....I don't understand any of this estrogen crap. I turned Justin down five years ago...we never got back together. I fucked around...i drank like crazy."

"So... the aliens really did get you didn't they?" AJ finally said after a few long moments and when Nick gave him a look AJ sighed and apologized. "Sorry... it's just... that's a lot to take in I mean..." Why can't Nick just have amnesia, which would make life much more simpler. "Okay, okay... so you're you from like another... alternate... world?" He paused to think. "So... the changing point in everything happened at that Jive party...?"

Nick thought back to the day a few days ago. "Well yeah...it happened at a Jive party in New York a few days ago. I saw Justin there and we had to actually interact for the first time since we broke up. I then remember drinking a little too much...okay WAY too much. Then I think I fell into the pool or something..." he said trying to remember. "When I came too...I was in Justin's arms, with Josh and Nicki around me...I had fallen into our pool at home."

"Huh," Aj said in thought. "Did you go see the doctor, maybe you hit your head?" He was trying to reach for the logical more practical explanation.

"Yeah...and that’s when they found out I was pregnant again." Nick said knowing his head was perfectly fine. "I have NO idea what is going on, Aje..." there were tears in his eyes by this point.

"Oh... don't cry," AJ said sniffling. He was a sucker for sappy and tragic moments. "Please... everything's going to be alright... I think." he leaned over and pulled Nick into his arms, kissing the top of his head. "Shit... no wonder your so out of it..." he took in a deep breath before reaching for the built-in laptop in the console between them and typing in a website that explains everything about the pills Nick was taking. "Here... come on... I'll try and answer any questions ya got... okay? Just ask..." he wasn't sure if he believed Nick but what possible damage could it do him if he went along with it?

"Is...is mine and Justin's marriage legal?" Nick asked, really wanting to know that.

AJ nodded his head. "It was legalized... all over the world, in 2000, the same year - a few months later... you and J got married!" He then decided to explain how everything escaladed from there. "It was then that Dr. Kolavski and Dr. Singh approached you guys with their new drug, the estro-pills... but it needed to be taken for a full year for your body to change before you could try to get pregnant."

"How do they work?" Nick asked so glad to have somebody to talk to. "I mean do I...we have all woman parts in us now...can we still get somebody else pregnant...or are we girls now?"

AJ chuckled. "You're not all girl...you can definitely get someone pregnant," he reassured. "What the pills basically do is change your hormones around a bit, create an environment within you for a place where the fetus can be nourished. It basically helps you produces eggs and all that fun stuff... here," he pointed to the website where there were pictures and explanations of the inner body transformations to accommodate the growing fetus and just what each pill does. It took an hour for AJ to go through with it with Nick and answering his questions and when they were done he looked at Nick with a small smile. "And when you don't want to have kids anymore... you stop taking the pills, not suddenly... but by cutting back the dosage of each one little by little."

Nick thought back to yesterday when they found out he was pregnant and Justin's shock. He had a feeling he and Justin hadn't been planning on having any more kids...at least not that soon. "Could a person stop taking them...and then start taking them again...like to prevent pregnancy for a while and then when they want to get pregnant again start taking them again?"

AJ nodded his head. "But you gotta make sure your estrogen level in your body is at the right mark before you can try to get pregnant again... or else there's that chance you could lose your baby or not even get pregnant at all."

"Oh...gotcha." Nick said now understanding why he and Justin decided to do the condom thing rather then stop taking the pills. "How long have you been taking them?"

"Two years now," AJ said and then counting in his head. "Yup... about two... give or take a few months."

Nick thought for a second, "Before we've gone back on tour...way before...you were hoping to get pregnant before that point...huh?"

AJ laughed. "Pretty much... I wanted to have a kid of my own, ya know... but I could never find the right person or stay long enough with one. So I wanted to get artificially inseminated but you and the guys were appalled by it even going as far as suggesting that I get sperm from you or someone we know." He shook his head. "You even volunteered! But anyways.... later that year when you were pregnant with Nicki... in the beginning stages... you guys were throwing a party at your place and JC showed up. We got to talking and things started taking shape from there."

Nick smiled at that, "That's really cool." he then thought of something else. "Are Brian and I fighting?"

AJ scratched his head. "A simple question but can't say the answer is... long story short... you two have issues on certain things, more like disagreements."

"Brian and I have problems...where I come from too." nick said hating how that sounded. "But he's mostly mad at me because he knows I'm heading down a path of destruction...worried that I will...well end up like you." he said knowing THIS AJ never had the problems the AJ he knew did.

That caught AJ's attention. "Like me?" He asked. "What's wrong with me?"

"Nothing now..." Nick assured AJ. "You just had a huge problem with drugs and alcohol...you went into rehab in 2002."

"I.. what... I can't be that stupid," AJ said with disbelief before shaking his head. "Wow... do you know why I did that? Am I better now or still stupid?" It was weird talking about himself like this.

Nick laughed, "You're doing awesome now...we're all very proud of you. I mean you may have way too many tattoos and smoke a little too much but you're Alex again." he said showing how proud he was of his friend...even though he knew he wasn't very proud of himself.

AJ smiled, happy to hear that to but then frowned. "And you... didn't learn a thing from him... I mean me?" He asked. "I mean, if I'm still the same me in your world but in this world I would have definitely tried to talk to you and help you with your problems... man. Drugs and alcohol doesn't answer anything... just causes more problems..."

"I'm NOT doing drugs." Nick stated a little too harshly and sighed. "I've had a lot of shit going on...family problems...problems well...with the law...relationship problems."

"And the rest of the guys... us, don't help you out?" AJ asked. "Wait... I smoke?" He scrunched up his face in disgust. "That's nasty...eww."

"We both do,” Nick laughed...very happy that in this body he didn't crave the nasty things. "You guys do try to help...and being on tour has helped me some."

"Well... fricking quit... and tell me to do so as well..." AJ said with a determined look on his face. "Brian's still got his Healthy Heart Org right?"

Nick nodded, "Yeah he does, and is married to Leigh and has Bay. Kevin's married to Kristin and we are on the Never Gone Tour. That much is that same."

"Good, good... I don't think I could handle too much change," AJ said. "ANd I still have mine right...?" And when Nick nodded his head he let out a content sigh. "So...Alright... how long are you going to be here, not that I mind having you here but... I really would like my Nick back?"

"I don't know..." Nick said tearing up again. He did miss his own life...even though it was rather fucked up.

"Sorry sorry," AJ said not wanting Nick to cry. "I didn't mean to hit a touchy subject..." He frowned at his own wording. "So, like... um, how come you and Justin never got back together?"

"Cuz I'm an idiot...and he started dating other people..." Nick said knowing the whole thing was his fault.

"And you let him do that for all those years?" AJ asked, amazed. "Damn... in this world you couldn't even stand the sight of Justin with anyone else... and nearly killed this guy that was making major moves on him at this one club while you two were broken up... It's then that you two really started to talk and you explained to him just why you cheated on him with Justine and your whole sexuality thing. I mean, you guys talked about it for a long time and finally got together a while later, starting fresh and stuff."

"I like this Nick better...but I like my Nick better too because I at least understand that life." Nick said with a sigh.

"I can see why... probably had a heart attack when you found out you were pregnant huh?" Aj asked with a fond smile on his face. "Man, I wish I was there I would have taken a picture... or video taped it..."

"I fainted," Nick laughed. "Then Justin fainted when he found out about twins."

"I can only imagine... dude... twins? That's crazy!" AJ said shaking his head. "Having one growing inside me feels surreal I don't know about having two growing inside..."

Nick made his face, "The puking all the time part isn't much fun. Either is the fact that I feel like i'm going to jump out of my skin from being so damn horny!"

AJ laughed at that. "Oh the joys of being pregnant," he said, stretching a bit. "When are you planning on telling the guys?" He asked.

"I don't know...Justin seemed to think they would be really mad at me...you included." Nick stated. "And that they would make us cancel the tour."

"Well, I'm not mad... kinda would be hypocritical of me seeing that I'm pregnant too..." AJ shrugged. "I think what Justin meant is... with Brian... he's the one that would really be upset if the tour gets cancelled or something. Kev and D, they just want us all to be happy and healthy so they would do whatever we decide in the end."

"Why does Brian care so much?" Nick asked curiously. "I mean he has a son of his own."

"See, that's what we can't figure out... I personally think he's just jealous," AJ shrugged. "But take it from me, don't bring it up to him or he'll literally chew your head off."

"I won't," Nick assured AJ and then ran a hand through his hair. "Thanks for listening to me...and answering my questions even though you must think I've lost my mind...hell maybe I have."

"Well, keeps life interesting that way I guess," AJ said with a smile. "Listen... I was just thinking... you know how in movies when something like this happens or something close to this... there's usually a reason behind it. Something for you to learn or something... just think about that, maybe that has something to do with whatever is going on here."

Nick thought about that, "You're probably right…I will think about it." he then looked down at his watch and sighed. "I should probably go home soon."

AJ agreed. "Ditto... I'm kinda tired anyways." He relaxed in his seat as Nick started the car and headed back to the cafe. When Nick got out AJ got out with him, walking over to the driver's side. "Call me anytime if you got more questions... and if something were to change by the next time we meet... well, goodbye and it was nice meeting you." He laughed as Nick headed over to his own car.

Nick laughed, "Bye Aje." With that he got into his car and headed back home.

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December 22nd 2005

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"Finally, home," Justin said as the front door closed behind him. Josh and Nicki already wiggling their way out of Justin's arms so they could run into the living room to watch their favorite Christmas movie airing on TV. It was almost six in the evening and Justin was tired, having gone with Nick and kids for last minute shopping for presents and other knick-knacks for the Christmas party they were throwing for family and friends on the 25th.

"How can they have so much energy," Nick stated feeling like he was about to drop. "They haven't even had a nap today."

"I think it had to do with the fact you snuck them candy when you thought I wasn't paying attention," Justin replied, looking at Nick pointedly. "I'm gonna go get our stuff out of the car..."

"I did no!" Nick said blushing a little. "Well not a lot anyways." He then went to follow Justin to help him, knowing the kids would be okay inside by themselves while they just went to the garage.

"What are you doing?" Justin stopped half way to the car when he realized Nick was following. He gave his husband a not so very pleased look.

"I'm going to help you..." Nick answered looking at Justin weird.

Justin shook his head. "No, you're going to go inside and watch the kids... I can handle bringing all that stuff in."

Nick glared at Justin a little. "They're fine they don't need watching...I'm going to help you."

"Nick... you know you're not supposed to be doing anything stressful or lifting HEAVY things!" Justin stated as he turned Nick around and nudged back towards the front door. "Just go inside and take a seat..."

"I was helping you carry this stuff all day!" Nick exclaimed getting moody. "I'm pregnant not an invalid...I can help!" he said actually stomping a foot.

Justin growled. "You carried rolls of wrapping paper and a few boxes of cards... that was perfectly fine!" He then sighed knowing he wouldn't win with Nick, instead he just turned around and walked to the trunk of his car. Popping it open he checked the weight for each one and handed Nick the ones that were filled with candy cane boxes, Christmas cards, and wrapping paper. He took all the other bags, in other words, the heavy ones before closing the trunk and heading inside.

"Thank you," Nick said in a not very happy voice as he stomped inside. He actually was crankier then the kid had been.

"You're very welcome," Justin replied in a monotone voice as he headed into the living room and placed the bags beside the coffee table. He then went in search for scissors and when he found them he flopped down on the couch. He noticed the kids lying on their stomach on the floor, way too close to the TV set. "Come and sit on the couch... don't sit too close to the TV or you're gonna need glasses eventually."

Nicole pouted and wiggled back a few inches. "This okay?"

Justin shook his head. "I said, on the couch... not move back a few inches."

"Dat why daddy wears glasses?" Josh asked as he moved to sit in one of the big fluffy Lazy Boy recliners.

Nick had brought the bag into the living room and then headed back into the kitchen, seeming to be on some sort of mission.

"Something like that, yes," Justin replied as Nicki sat climbed onto his lap and got comfortable.

"Where Daddy go?" Josh asked after a few minutes and Nick hadn't come back.

"I don't know," Justin said wondering that himself. "Maybe he went to change his clothes or get something..."

"No... Daddy go that way," Nicki said pointing in the direction she saw him head in after placing the bag by the coffee table.

"Yeah he in the kitchen, me think." Josh said glancing at the door that headed into the kitchen.

"Maybe he got hungry," Justin said lifting Nicki off his lap and placing her down on the couch beside him. "I'll be back," with that said he got up and headed into the kitchen.

That was the truth, Nick was in the kitchen making the biggest sandwich in the world, something that would be impossible to get your mouth around.

"Hungry much?" Justin chuckled going to the fridge and looking for something to drink. He got out the Sprite and poured himself a glass.

"Starving," Nick replied as he finished off the sandwich and took it to the table to attempt to eat it. The crazy thing was they had just finished dinner ten minutes before they got home.

"Interesting..." Justin trailed off reminding himself that Nick wasn't eating for Nick alone nor was he eating for two... he was eating for THREE. That fact was a little hard for him to wrap his mind around. He walked over to Nick and took the piece of pickle that fell out from the sandwich on to the plate, popping it in his mouth.

"HEY that was MINE!" Nick practically screamed tears coming to his eyes all because Justin had eaten the pickle.

Justin swallowed and looked at Nick with wide eyes. "Sorry?" He said... wondering why Nick looked like he'd just killed his puppy. Nick hadn't really gotten too emotional with his other pregnancies before, but he had made demands, lost of demands about what kind of food he wanted and just how it had to be done. Once Justin had added a little too much mustard on one of Nick's pizza's and... let's just say Justin never made the mistake of not taking Nick's demands lightly. "I'll get you another slice... is that okay?"

"I wanted that one," Nick mumbled as he set his sandwich down and got up leaving the room.

Josh was standing in the doorway looking at both his parents funny. "Dad...why daddy actin so funny?"

Justin wacthed Nick's retrieving back before looking down at Josh. There was really only one answer to that question. "Because he's pregnant," he replied. That was the only answer Justin could think up.

Josh made a face, "I dunno if I like dat." He said wishing he had his daddy back.

"It's only for," Justin looked down at his hand and counted off on his fingers and made a face. "... six more months..." Closing his eyes he took in a deep breath before opening them up again. "Go back to watching your movie... I'll go find you daddy."

"Okay," Josh said as he headed back into the living room to watch the movie with Nicole.

Meanwhile Nick was upstairs in his and Justin's room sitting on their bed looking through a family photo album he found, tears in his eyes. Yeah, being pregnant sucked big time but he was beginning to really get used to and like this life. He was probably being even moodier then normal because he kept thinking about the fact that he could go back to his normal life at any second and leave Justin and these two adorable kids...he didn't like that idea.

With Nick's plate of food and bottle of Juice armed in each hand Justin went looking for Nick. Once he searched the first floor and not finding him there, he went to the second floor... and behold there was Nick in the middle of the bed with photo albums surrounding him. "Hey... can I come in?" he asked, not wanting to upset Nick much less get his head chewed off.

Nick glanced at the door and nodded his head. "Y...yeah...of course." he whispered obviously still worked up, but it wasn't because he was upset. Now he was just plain sad...and felt bad for yelling at Justin.

Justin held the plate and bottle in front of him. "Incase you still wanted it," he said with a small smile as he set them down on the nightstand before looking down at Nick. "So, what got you opening the photo albums?" He sat at the edge of the bed.

"I had the urge to watch our family grow." Nick said looking down at the book that had pictures of him and Justin right after they got married...no kids.

Justin titled his head so he could see the picture Nick was looking at and got a big smile on his face. "Yeah..." He then picked up the big white, intricate and elegantly designed, photo album. "It’s been a while since I've looked at these..."

"You looked so handsome," Nick whispered looking at the photo album that Justin was looking at; their wedding pictures.

"You did too," Justin said running his fingers over Nick in the picture, remembering that day like it was only yesterday and not five years ago, almost to date. All the men who attended the wedding had been asked to wear the traditional black and white tux while the women had the opportunity to wear deep burgundy or royal blue colored dresses. Nick and Justin were the only ones there that wore all white tuxedos. It had been a lavish wedding in a church that over looked the beach with only close friends and family with one professional photographer and one man with a movie camera. It had been one of the best days of Justin's life.

Nick blushed a little, "We were both looking pretty sharp." he said as he moved to another book, this time one that had Josh's birth and baby pictures in it.

"Mhmm," Justin agreed, smiling some more at the picture he had taken of Nick holding the newly born Joshua in his arms. Nick was glowing with joyful tears running down his face even though it had only been a few minutes ago that he'd in excruciating pain of delivering the baby. "Oh man... I had never been cursed out and threatened to death that I had been that day..."

Nick all of a sudden forgot to ask AJ something...did he actually deliver Joshua and Nicole..."Yeah well...YOU were the one that put him in there." he pointed out humor in his voice even though he was thinking 'How the hell DID THAT THING come out of me?'

Justin bit his lower lip and suppressed a laugh. "You were the one that wanted to get pregnant and have kids of our own... not wanting to adopt or anything!"

"Yeah...but it still hurt and was still your fault." Nick giggled as he turned the page smiling at Josh getting older the farther he went.

"Sure, blame it on me..." Justin said rolling his eyes in good nature as he looked on at the pictures with Nick. He then looked at Nick's profile and saw a tear rolling down his cheek. Leaning over he kissed the tear away before wrapping his arms around Nick and resting his head on his shoulder.

Nick looked through the books for another ten minutes before closing the last one. "We should go check on the kids...and do the present wrapping stuff."

"You don't want to finish your sandwich?" he asked, eyeing it on the nightstand. He's looked inside the sandwich and immediately closed it pretending he hadn't seen the sardines in there.

"I'll eat it as we wrap," Nick said as he got up and headed downstairs only to find Nicole in the living room watching the movie. "Where's your brother?"

"He say he gotta go potty," Nicki replied looking up at her daddy before raising her arms up wanting to Nick to carry her or hold her.

Justin raised an eyebrow and looked towards the bathroom down the hall. "He did, huh?" He then looked over at Nick with a smile.

"The question is did he go to the bathroom to go." Nick laughed knowing their son had a special spot he liked in the playroom.

"I guess one way to find out," Justin said already heading in the direction of the bathroom. He knocked on the door. "Joshy?" he called out, "You in there kiddo?"

There was no answer even when Justin knocked again.

Nick looked at Nicki who was till in Justin's arms. "Did he come down this way?" he asked knowing she was the little spy of the family and noticed where everybody went.

Nick looked at Nicki who was still in his arms, which surprised him that Justin was allowing him to hold her. "Did he come down this way?" he asked knowing she was the little spy of the family and noticed where everybody went.

Nicki shook her head from side to side. "Nuh uh," she said and pointed to the stairs. "He went up da tairs. He say dat he gotta go potty uptairs!" She rested her hear on Nick's shoulder.

"Okay, you both go on and head back into the living room... I'll go see what he's up to."

Josh had indeed gone upstairs...intent on going to the bathroom like he had told Nicki. He had decided he was going to be a big boy so his parents wouldn't fight anymore. The only problem was hadn't given himself enough time to get upstairs and ended up having an accident in the hallway. He was now in his bedroom closet hiding.

Justin walked into Josh and Nicki's bedroom and headed to the bathroom only to find it dark and empty. "Josh?" he called out, frowning as he walked out of the room down to his own room wondering if he was using his and Nick's bathroom. Nope, he wasn't. Getting worried he went back into the kids room. "Josh... where are you... you're starting to scare your dad... Josh?"

"Go way...Josh not here." Came a little voice from the closet followed by a loud sniffle.

Justin let out a sigh of relief as he headed over to the closet and kneeled. Reaching up he slid the door open and his heart broke at the sight of his son in the corner, crying. "Honey... what happened?" He crawled inside and sat next to Josh.

"Noting..." Josh whispered, not wanting to tell his dad what had happened.

"The why are you in here crying...?" Justin gently prodded. "You know I don't like to see you crying or even sad... tell me so I can make it better, please?"

"I...I'm not," Josh said trying to stop the tears. "Nicki and me...pwaying."

"Josh... Don’t lie to me..." Justin said. "Tell me the truth."

Josh was quiet for a second before he told the truth. "I...I came upstairs to go potty..."

Justin nodded his head. "Okay... then what happened?"

"I went potty," Josh answered which wasn't a lie...he had gone potty when he was upstairs.

"Then why are you crying?" Justin asked, confused.

Again Josh was quiet for a second before replying. "Cuz I didn't go potty in da potty..."

"Oh," Justin said taking in a deep breath. "It's okay kiddo... at least you tried... it's the effort that counts," he reassured him.

"You and daddy fight again.., cuz me not big boy." Josh said the tears starting up again just thinking about it.

"Oh honey, come here," Justin said pulling Josh so that he was sitting in his lap, arms around the little boy. "It's not your fault... you don't have to be a big boy right away, that takes time. Your daddy and I, we have our disagreements now and then but don't ever think its bad or its your fault, because it's not. We both love you so much."

Josh wiggled slightly uncomfortable in Justin's arms. He had been sitting on his knees before and now that he was on his bottom it didn't feel very good. "No mad at me?"

"No... I'm not mad at you," Justin said, loosening his hold on Josh. "You want me to change you?"

Josh nodded his head, "Yeah...I pooped."

"Let's get your cleaned up then... then we can go downstairs and held your daddy and I wrap a few presents... how does that sound?" Justin got up and escorted Josh over to the bathroom, grabbing a new pair of pull-ups on the way.

"I don't wana take a shower though," Josh said making a face; he HATED baths and showers.

"No, shower," Justin compromised. "But we're gonna clean that bottom of yours."

Josh seemed skeptical about that but nodded his head. Once in the bathroom he lied down on the floor next to the tub and sighed as if this was the biggest pain in the butt.

"It's not THAT bad," Justin said kneeling down next to Josh and began to take his pants and then his heavy, stinky, pull-ups off. He cleaned Josh the best he could with the wipes before carrying him into the tub and spraying down the lower half of his body. When that was done he dried him off with a towel and put him in the new pull-ups before cleaning up around the bathroom. "Go change into your PJ's..." he told Josh.

"Nicki no in her's!" Josh whined, not wanting to put his PJ's on. "It's not bed time yet."

"But it will be in a few hours and we're not going anywhere..." Justin told him with a shrug, not caring either way. "I just thought you might wanna be comfier in your PJ's..."

"Nicki put hers on too?" Josh asked as he walked into the bedroom and got out his footie Darth Vader jammies.

"If she wants to... sure," Justin said watching Josh get dressed. When he was done they headed downstairs into the living room. Justin smiled at the scene there; the TV was off, the fireplace was lit, the main lights were off while all the Christmas lights and decorations around the living room were turned on, and on the floor in front of the fireplace was Nicole giggling at something funny Nick was telling her.

"Nicki put jammies on," Josh practically commanded his sister.

Nick raised an eyebrow at the way his son was being bossy.

Nicole stopped giggling and stared at her brother, confused. "Why?" She asked pushing herself up so that she was sitting on her knees. She looked up at Justin and then over to Nick. "Sleep time aweady?" She blinked.

"Not yet Angel," Justin replied and then ruffled Josh's hair. "Where are your manners young man?"

"I want her in jammies wit me!" Josh whined the lack of naptime earlier beginning to catch up with him.

Nick rolled his eyes, "Why don't you ask her...and you can help her do it?"

Nicole looked at her parents, confused. She didn’t understand what was going on or why her parents looked a little upset. “I go put dem on now.” She stood up and bounced over to the stairs.

"I help you," Josh said reaching out to take Nicole’s hand.

"Um, oki," Nicole said letting him take her hand before they both went up the stairs to get her changed into her PJ's.

Justin watched as they walked upstairs before going to sit next to Nick on the floor. "We have interesting kids," he said.

"I think they're cute." Nick laughed as he pulled Justin down to sit on his lap in front of the fire.

"They are," Justin said smiling. "We should start on the present wrapping thing...before it gets too late."

Nick nuzzled Justin's neck. "In a minute...I'm nuzzling." he mumbled.

Justin chuckled at that and titled his head more to the side to give Nick ample of nuzzling space on his neck. "Nuzzle away..."

"I will," Nick said as he continued to nuzzle, but now nipping at his neck a little.

Justin could feel the effects of Nick's administrations on his neck going straight down to his crotch. He sighed as he heard feet running down the stairs. He pulled away from Nick with dismay only to lean over and kiss his lips. "Love you."

"Dad...I couldn't change her...but she says she otay." Josh said as they walked into the room decked out in PJ's and slippers.

Nick laughed; "Well as long as she says she's okay..." he said eyeing his daughter.

"I change me," Nicole said with a chuckle have worn her PJ's over the clothes she wore that day. She walked over to where her parents were and made herself comfortable on Justin's lap only to start giggling like crazy when Justin started to tickle her.

"You changed yourself, huh?" Justin asked, kids do the most darnedest things.

Nick laughed as he got up and went to the stereo and turned on some Christmas music. "Now it's even more festive in here."

"Jingle Bells...Batman smells!" Josh started to sing.

"Oh, the classics," Justin said, sarcastic, rolling his eyes as he stopped tickling his daughter and carried her over to the couch, plopping her down on it. "They never go out of style."

Nicole stopped her giggling long enough to let out a big yawn and then to continue softly giggling. Her brother was funny.

"Wobin laid an egg...bat mobile...lost its wheel!!" Josh continued to sing as he danced around the room. "And JOKER got away..HEY!"

Nick busted up laughing. "Okay young jedi...calm down and either help us wrap gifts or sit and watch."

Josh glared at his father. "I'm not a Jedi...I'm Darth Vader...he a Sith." he said pointing down at his jammies.

"Darth Wavdar," Nicole called to her brother. "Help wap dees." She said picking up one of the gifts they'd bought that day.

"What do you say after that lil' missy?" Justin asked, poking her playfully. When she got a confused look on her face. "It starts with a 'p.'"

"Oh... Pwease Darth?" Nicole added.

"Okay...." Josh said trying to think of a character to call his sister...but Darth Vader didn't have a sister.

Nick giggled wondering if his son would end up coming up with something and what it would be when he did.

"Alright Princess," Justin said a few long moments later and Josh still hadn’t come up with what to call his sister. "He could take all night, let's start wrapping these up."

"Oki," Nicole said, covering her mouth when he yawned. She watched Justin cut up some wrapping paper and she helped him tape the edges together and attach the ribbon and bow on top.

"Mine's better!" Josh exclaimed as he helped Nick wrap another one of the gifts. "Daddy who dis for?" he asked.

Nick laughed, "This is for grandma Lynn and grandpa Paul."

"Ours is bigga," Nicole shot back, frowning as she looked at the ID tag. "Dad what dat say?"

"It's for your grandma Jane and grandpa Bob," Justin chuckled. "And these... are for you aunts BJ, Leslie, and Angel, and this is for you uncle Aaron..." Justin brought those presents closer to Nicole so she could see.

"When day comin over?" Josh asked as he helped Nick finish wrapping the other gift. "I wana show unca Arwan my new mask!" He exclaimed talking about the talking darth vader mask he had gotten for his birthday from his uncles AJ and JC. They knew the boy loved Star Wars but Nick and Justin had been a little iffy about THAT particular thing to add to their son's collection.

"Christmas night," Justin replied. "Like they did last year..." he trailed off, Josh would probably remember but Nicki was way too young to remember. "You're grandparents Harless and grandparents Carters, uncles AJ and JC, and the rest of your Backstreet uncles and their families... along with Nsync uncles are coming over."

"Dat lotza people," Nicole said staring at the rest of the presents that still needed to wrap. She groaned as she crawled into Justin's lap and pouted before nuzzling her face into his chest, wanting to sleep right there and then.

Josh glared at his sister. "No sleeping on the job missy!"

Nick couldn't help it but bust up laughing even though he was thinking about something that was bothering him. In normal life his parents were divorced...are they still together here?

"But me twied," came Nicole's muffled response from where her face was buried in Justin's shirt.

Justin readjusted his daughter so that she would be more comfortable on his lap before he started to work on the rest of the presents. "You don't look too far from sleeping on the job yourself Josh," he said when he noticed Josh cover his mouth as he yawned.

"I not sleepy," Josh said puffing out his chest as he picked up another present which he was attempting to wrap himself.

Nick eyed Josh get stuck with tape more then the gift and giggled. He was definitely going to miss times like these. His stomach grumbled then and he remembered his sandwich.

"Sure buddy," Justin said as he watched Nick get up and head upstairs. He frowned before he looked back over at Josh. "I see you're uh... stuck, hmmm?"

"Stupid tape...it sticky." Josh grumbled trying to get the tape off of him but only managing to make it worse and now he was stuck to the gift he was trying to wrap.

"That's the point," Justin said motioning for Josh to come over. "I'm sure Uncle Kevin would love to get you along with their present," he chuckled. "Where would you like me to stick the ID tag so they know it's theirs?" He joked.

Josh pouted and tried to get even more unstuck now. "Me no wana go with uncle Kevin...I live here!" he said actually getting a little alarmed at the idea of leaving his home.

Justin laughed. "I was just joking," he said tugging Josh closer so he could help him get unstuck. "Besides we love you way too much to let you go... and who's gonna be here to pick in Nicki here?" He looked down at his lap to see her fast asleep.

"Nobody..dat my job." Josh stated and then watched Nick walk into the room with his sandwich. "Daddy me hungry too..."

Nick swallowed his sandwich. "Umm want a bite?" he asked forgetting there was stuff in it he shouldn't feed to Josh.

"Uh, no," Justin quickly shook his head. "Why don't you go make Josh a PB&J sandwich, something he could actually... eat?" He looked up at Nick.

"Okay..." Nick said looking at his sandwich wondering what was wrong with it before heading into the kitchen to make Josh's.

Josh pouted a little, "But i wanted what daddy was eating..."

"Trust me, you don't," Justin said as he took the last tape off of Josh and attached it to the present.

A few minutes later Nick walked into the room with half a PB&J sandwich for Josh. "Here buddy...why don't you eat that over at the coffee table so you don't get the presents all icky?"

"Okay," Josh said as he sat down at the coffee table to eat his sandwich.

"Thanks Baby," Justin told Nick when he sat down beside him. Both of them started to wrap some more presents and when he snuck a glance at Josh Justin suppressed a smile nudging Nick's arm and then nodding over at Josh. The poor boy was fighting to stay awake enough to finish chewing his bite of sandwich.

"I think it's time we take both of them upstairs," Nick whispered a huge smile on his face.

"Yup," Justin said as he carefully held Nicole in his arms and stood up. "Josh... let's go upstairs."

Josh whimpered not planning on moving on his own at all.

Nick giggled and picked Josh up, looking at Justin as if saying 'don't you dare tell me to put him down.' and then headed upstairs.

Justin sighed as he followed Nick up the stairs and into the kids' room. He went over to Nicole's bed and carefully set her down in it before tucking her in.

Nicole opened her sleepy eyes at the movement and gave a sleepy smile. "Night dad."

"Good night sweetheart," Justin whispered, kissing her forehead.

"Daddy?" Nicole asked, wondering where he was. It wasn't the same without both of them tucking her in and kissing her goodnight.

Nick was doing the same thing with Joshua, getting him tucked in and giving him a kiss goodnight. "Right here baby..." he said heading over to her bedside. "Swap.." he giggled to Justin.

Justin patted Nick on the ass as he walked past to head over to Josh's bed, kissing his forehead and saying goodnight to him before turning off his lamp. He then remembered something and groaned. "I forgot to change Nicole into her PJ's..." he whispered as he walked up behind Nick and looked down at a sleeping Nicole.

Nick bit his lower lip, it was okay she could probably survive sleeping in her clothes...but she probably needed to be changed too. "Umm...teamwork and maybe we can get it done without waking her up?"

"She's a deep sleeper so maybe... yea," Justin agreed bending down and pulling back the sheets slowly.

Nick headed over to the dresser and got out a diaper and wipes before taking it back to the bed to help Justin.

Justin unzipped her footie and carefully took the sleeves off before sitting her up and pulling the rest of it off. He then went about taking off her clothes before carrying her over to the diaper changing table before taking off her diapers.

"I wish I slept that soundly," Nick giggled softly watching Justin do all this with Nicole sleeping the whole time.

Justin chuckled as he watched Nick go about wiping her and adding some baby powder before he helped Nick put her in a new diaper. He then walked over to the bed and grabbed her PJ's and helped her into it only pausing for a few seconds when she moaned a little but remained asleep.

"I think we're done..." Nick said once they had her tucked back into bed. "They never did get their teeth brushed though..." he said making a face at what Peanut butter breath would taste like in the morning.

"Joy," Justin said letting out a silent sigh. "Once won't hurt them right?" He asked, looking at Nick.

"Nope...it won't." Nick assured Justin. "I mean think how many times you didn't brush your teeth as a kid..."

Justin thought about it and nodded his head. "True..." he trailed off as he turned off the lamp by Nicole's bead and took Nick's hand leading him out the room, closing the door softly behind them.

"Then again I had like five cavities by the time I was eight..." NIck continued as they headed out of the kids room and down to their own.

Justin grimaced and looked at Nick. "Thanks... that makes me feel a whole lot better," he said shaking his head. "We still have to finish up downstairs..." He tugged Nick's arms towards the stairs.

"But what if *I* am sleepy..." Nick whined as Justin pulled him downstairs to where the Christmas music was still playing and the lights were still dimmed.

"You're a big boy," Justin said, smiling innocently at Nick. "You could stay up past..." he looked at the time, "eight-thirty. Stay up real late..."

"Ohhh good I can stay up till nine!" Nick exclaimed playfully as he sunk down to the floor where the gifts and wrapping was still.

Justin playfully smacked Nick's arm before taking a seat beside him. "The sooner we get this done, the sooner we could get to bed."

"Good cuz I'm bushed...all 4 of your children are making me want to fall on my face and pass out." Nick giggled purposely saying they were Justin's children since they were bugging him kinda...especially the ones inside who were making him puke...eat a lot and feel tired all the time...not to mention moody.

"You really that tired?" Justin asked, watching Nick carefully, not wanting to keep him up when he wanted to sleep. "I'm sorry baby... you should go get your sleep then..."

Nick shook his head as he grabbed the scotch tape off the floor next to him. "I am...but I'm okay for a little while longer. I want to help you."

"I don't want you to tire yourself out Nicky," Justin said as he wrapped another present.

"I think I'm okay to wrap a few presents while sitting down." Nick pointed out as he folded the corners on a gift and taped it closed.

"Yea yeah," Justin said. About twenty minutes later they had finished wrapping all the gifts and written the ID tags before arranging them under the tree. When that was done Justin let out an accomplished sigh and stretched. The Christmas music was still playing and he smiled as he walked behind Nick and wrapped his arms around him, holding him close and swaying side to side a little bit to the music.

Nick leaned back against Justin and let out a content sigh as he put most of his weight on Justin showing how tired he really was. The day had been physically and emotionally draining in more ways then one. It was still hard to get used to living a new life learning things about yourself that you didn't really know...and then he was definitely beginning to question the life he lived before.

"Come one let's go upstairs," Justin said kissing Nick's neck.

"Okay," Nick said totally agreeing that going upstairs was a good idea. "Remind me that *I* need to brush my teeth." he mumbled as they made their way upstairs.

"Will do," Justin chuckled, switching the lights off before they reached the stairs. The stereo would automatically turn off once the CD was finished. Once they were in their room, Justin reminded Nick to go brush his teeth.

Nick shuffled almost half asleep into the bathroom to brush his teeth and take care of other business.

Meanwhile Justin had changed out of his clothes into his a pair of sweats and a wife beater. He was climbing into bed just when Nick walked back out of the bathroom.

Nick walked straight to bed and landed on his back going side ways but it looked like that was how he was planning on staying for the night because he wasn't going to move.

Justin leaned over and pulled the covers over Nick before pressing a kiss to his cheek. "Love you Nick, good night." He curled up from behind Nick, and arm securely around him.

"Love you too...night," Nick mumbled snuggling into Justin the best he could trying to savor the moment not sure when he was going to be taken away from it again.

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December 24th 2005

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When the digital clock finally flashed 7:00 AM in bright red letters Justin smiled and rolled over to face Nick. He couldn’t sleep, and pretty much gave up trying after 6:10. He’d been lying in bed just thinking about life and Nick and their kids and just everything. He can truly say that he’d been blessed with more than what he could have imagined and asked for. Feeling giddy and happy and excited Justin began placing butterfly kisses all over Nick’s face. Usually, on the 24^th, it would have been Nick doing this for him but just once Justin wanted to do it, to be the first to wake the other man up, to be the first to give him his anniversary present. Also, Justin couldn’t wait. He was never one to keep things from Nick for too long and keeping his surprise a secret had reached its limits. “Baby…” He continued kissing Nick.

Nick groaned in his sleep, trying to turn away from whatever that was that kept getting his face semi wet. It was WAY too early to wake up, and his body was definitely tell him so.

"Nicky..." Justin was on the verge on whining when five minutes passed and Nick still did not rouse from his sleep. "Come on, I wanna be the first to give it to you... you gotta wake up!"

To a very sleepy Nick that sounded REALLY weird so he opened one eye and looked at his husband strangly. What exactly was he talking about giving 'it' to him?

Justin beamed when Nick opened his eyes and looked at him. "Awesome," he said excitedly as he quickly hopped out of bed and headed over to his dresser, rummaging through it till he found the results, the papers, from the doctor. And then he disappeared under the bed for a few seconds before he popped his head back up and hopped onto the bed, bouncing. "He handed a slightly heavy rectangular box that was wrapped over to Nick. It contained all the latest video games that Nick had wanted but never had the time to get.

"Christmas isn't until tomorrow…and my birthday is a month away..." Nick stated as he eyed the gift but the kid in his was ready to tare the paper off. 'This isn't even really your present...whatever's in it you might not get to keep for every long' he thought sadly to himself.

Justin rolled his eyes. "Stop playing blonde," he said as he eagerly bounced waiting for Nick to open it. "It's not much but still... I know how much you wanted it but I thought I might as well give 'this' as the anniversary present instead of Christmas... you'll get your Christmas present, later."

The word anniversary didn't go past Nick and he felt like somebody had punched him in a stomach. He then thought back to the photo albums from the day before and the feeling got even worst. The book HAD said 12/24/00 on it. 'Oh fuck me dead..' he cursed to himself and then put the best smile he could on as he opened up the gift and found close to ten video games inside. "Whao...baby..." he said actually smiling now...he had wanted all of these even in the real world. "Thank you so much." He said leaning in to give Justin a good kiss on the lips, but nothing extremely passionate.

Justin smiled, kissing Nick back. "You're welcome," he said before biting his lower lip, all of sudden feeling nervous. "Do...do you want your Christmas present now... or you wanna wait till tomorrow?"

Nick bit his own lower lip thinking about that. He did want to know what it was...he really liked gifts. But he still felt really weird for not having an anniversary gift for Justin. "You can give it to me now...but umm baby...your gift...you see didn't come on time...anniversary gift I mean." he said hoping Justin believed the lie.

Justin frowned a bit as he looked at Nick just a tad bit hurt but shrugged it off. "It's okay," he said softly as he looked down at the folder in his hands, before looking back up with a nervous smile. "Um... Merry Christmas, too..." he handed the folder over before going to chewing his bottom lip.

Nick looked at the folder and read the first few lines before he realized what it was. He looked at Justin with wide eyes and then back down at the paper. He had spent a lot of time over the last few days reading more in depth into the estro-pills online and he knew exactly what this was. "Baby..." he said looking up at Justin agian. "I never...I mean I didn't know you even wanted to." he said a smile coming to his lips. He hoped this was the right reaction and that they had never talked about Justin doing this before. He didn't think they had...at least nobody mentioned it.

Justin semi-nodded his head and semi-shrugged, "It... I mean I wanted it... to be a secret and oh god, it took a hell of a lot of energy and focus than I thought it would to keep it a secret from you... and I couldn't wait one more day. You don't mind right, you're not angry? I'll stop taking them if you don't want me to... but I just, I wanna experience it all with you. I want kids and... and I mean... I don't know."

Nick sat up more and pulled Justin into his arms and kissed his temple. "Baby I think this is wonderful...now I feel kinda shitty for getting myself pregnant again...it should have been you." he said holding Justin tightly to him, NEVER wanting to let him go and it scared him that he night have to.

"It takes two people to get pregnant Nicky," Justin said snuggling into Nick's embrace and letting out a relieved sigh. "It's not your fault... besides we're both still young and when have we not loved kids?" He chuckled.

"So you're okay waiting a bit?" Nick asked hopefully, knowing with the twins on the way there was no way that Justin could have his dream for another few years. Of course they could handle it financially but having more then 4 kids under the age of 4 would be hard for anybody to handle.

"Of course I am," Justin said and then thought about something. "Okay... so, what did you get me, I know you said it didn't get here yet, but I wanna know..."

"That wouldn't be a surprise!" Nick said with wide eyes. "How dare you ask to know what a surprise is. Late or not it's still supposed to be a surprise."

Justin pouted and turned his puppy dog eyes to Nick. "Come on... I gave you both of your presents..."

Nick tried hard to think of something that Justin would really love...that would have to be ordered. He knew what Justin in his life 5 years ago would have loved...would this Justin still want that. "Well...it's sparkly..."

Justin raised an eyebrow, intrigued. "Sparkly?" He asked, before narrowing his eyes. "Please tell me you haven't asked JC for advice on what to get me?"

Nick had to bust up laughing at that. "It's not an article of clothing."

Justin let out a sigh of relief. "Okay, good... so what is it?" He smiled, innocently.

"You'll find out hopefully this afternoon. I had to order it online...special made." Nick said with a smile, praying he could do this quickly without Justin knowing. "They promised me it would get here yesterday...and it didn't come."

Justin let out an overdramatic sigh. "You're gonna make me wait," he said shaking his head. "Oh, well... I think I'll live." He leaned up and kissed Nick's lips. "Well... I guess we can go back to sleep now." He chuckled, feeling better although something nagged at him, the look on Nick's face a few minutes ago when Justin handed over his anniversary present. It was almost as thought Nick had forgotten.

Nick laughed, "You look too strung out to go back to sleep," he said still seeing the hyper gleam in Justin's eyes.

"Can't say the same for you," Justin said. "You still look tired."

'More like sick to my stomach for two different reasons'. Nick thought to himself. 'Morning sickness is a bitch...and I forgot our anniversary and still have to get you a gift...today.'

"I'm a little bit...but I'm okay." Nick assured Justin trying to calm the churning in his stomach and the nauseous feeling.

"Well...okay," Justin said. "Why don't you rest or go back to sleep... we don't need to be up for another hour or two."

"When do you gotta leave to go get mom and dad...and Lynn and Paul?" Nick asked, wondering when he would get time to go shopping. He was glad that LAX at Christmas time was absolutely nuts and that flights were probably delayed all over the place.

"Since when did you start calling my parents Lynn and Paul?" Justin asked, amused. "Um, around noon... I think."

"Well i couldn't say mom and dad...and mom and dad." Nick laughed. "It would have gotten confusing."

"Ma.. and pop?" Justin said... "That's what you call them..."

"I was going for something different." Nick said with a shrug.

"Okay... but you call them that in person and they're gonna think you and I are having marital issues," Justin laughed as he remembered the last time his parents freaked out over some little misunderstanding.

Nick giggled, "I won't...i don't want them thinking things like that. Especially when we have to tell them I'm pregnant again."

"Their gonna wonder about you and I," Justin said with a chuckle. "Especially your parents."

"Wonder about us?" Nick asked not exactly understanding what Justin meant.

"Remember how your parents had that thing about why it is that you were the one taking the pills and bearing a child?" Justin asked. "Yeah well... now they're probably gonna wonder what I'm doing to you now that you got twins in here." He rubbed Nick's stomach.

Nick giggled and then smirked. "We're just to very horny guys...that happen to be VERY fertile."

"Uh huh," Justin agreed. "Well, more like you are the fertile one... we'll find out about me eventually."

Nick bit his lower lip. "Baby...we can try for you too...if you think we can handle it..."

Justin shook his head, smiling softly. "We're gonna have our hands full with the twins and Nicki and Josh... we'll wait."

"Okay," Nick said still feeling like he had gypped Justin by getting pregnant again so quickly when here Justin was making it possible for himself to be able to do so.

"I love you," Justin said, leaning up and kissing Nick before lying back down on the bed.

Feeling a little bit frisky, Nick rolled over so he was half on top of Justin looking down into his eyes. "Boo."

"Oh gosh!" Justin mock-gasped out in horror. "Totally scared out of my skin here babe."

Nick glanced down and then pouted. "You still have your skin on AND your sweats and wife beater...I was hoping doing that would at least get THOSE off."

Justin laughed a deep throaty laugh, his hands moving down to rest on the small of Nick's back. "You're cute when you pout," he said, kissing the pout.

"I happen to thin I'm cute all the time." Nick said in his best stuck up sounding voice...something he was FAR from.

"You're stealing my line," Justin said biting Nick's ear lobe playfully.

Nick couldn't help the small moan that escaped his lips when Justin nibbled on his ear. He was definitely beginning to understand what people mean when they say they get extra horny being pregnant. He never knew a simple nibble to his ear would make him rock hard in a second.

"Someone's happy," Justin mumbled, moving his thigh a bit so that it would rub against Nick's crotch.

"I...I don't know what you're talking...about." Nick said playing dumb but his voice was giving himself way by how husky it sounded.

"Sure you don't," Justin moved his nibbling to kissing down Nick's neck and shoulder. A few moments later he used his strength and flipped them over so that he was hovering over Nick.

Nick looked up at Justin with dilated eyes and swallowed hard. Having Justin hovering over him like that was doing nothing for his control.

Justin lowered the lower half of his body onto Nick's lower half before taking him in a passionate kiss.

"Dad...daddy..." Came a little voice from out in the hallway.

Nick groaned and attempted to ignore the little voice as he kissed Justin back just as passionately.

Pulling back from the kiss Justin said, "We are soo putting off having more kids..." Taking a deep breath he rolled off of Nick so that he was lying down beside him. "Come in Josh..." The door opened a Josh stuck his tiny body inside, behind him was Nicole.

Nick made sure he flipped so he was lying on his stomach, even though it hurt badly. He wasn't going to risk having one of the kids hop on him and find his hard-on.

Josh came walking into the room holding Nicole's hand. "Dad...we can't sleep no more." he said as he climbed onto the bed.

"Help," Nicole said trying to follow her brother onto the bed but she was too short to do it by herself.

"Here we go," Justin said sitting up and helping her onto the bed. She immediately crawled between him and Nick, getting comfortable in that spot. "We up for the day, then?"

"I know I am," Nick grumbled from where he was lying rather uncomfortably.

Josh nodded his head, "I'm up too!"

Justin took in a deep breath. "I guess we all are," he said. "Alright, why don't we go get a shower?" He suggested looking at Nicole and Josh. "And then get dressed? You're grandparents are coming in this afternoon, so we gotta look good for them..."

"Oh yeah..." Nicole said with a smile. "Dey bring doggies?" She asked wondering if the Carter's were going to bring their dogs. They had during the summer for the Fourth of July barbeque.

"I'm not sure, honey." Nick answered not sure if his parents would bring the dogs. He was then wondering if the dogs were even the same dogs.

Josh made a face, he actually didn't like the dogs. "I no want them to bring them..." he said actualy rather scared of them.

"Aw, but dey cute and pwayful," Nicole said looking at her brother. "Me ike em."

"Yeah, they're harmless little pugs..." Justin trailed off as he kissed the top of Josh's head. "Come on you two... let's go to your room and get you in the shower."

"Oh.. okay," Nicole said getting up.

Josh followed after Justin and Nicole leaving Nick behind to deal with his problem in peace. "Day scare me." he said still scared of the dogs no matter what his parents and grandparents said.

"Why?" Justin asked as they headed into kids' bathroom. He then filled the tub up a quarter of the way before helping Josh and Nicki out of their PJ's, and their pull-ups.

"They bounce and jump all over me." Josh explained as Justin helped him into the tub.

Justin chuckled. "That's because they like you and are happy to see you," he said and then helped Nicki into the tub before grabbing their body wash.

"Day lick you too," Nicole added with a giggle splashing the water.

"I don't like it." Josh said putting on a grumpy face. "They scary...and icky and I no like them."

Justin and Nicole exchanged a look before they both splashed water on Josh, chuckling.

"I wan a doggie dad," Nicole said once they calmed down enough. She closes her eyes tight as Justin washed her face before doing the same to Josh.

"No doggy!" Josh exclaimed looking at his sister in disbelief...hadn't he just spent the last few minutes explaining how he was scared to death of doggies?

"Yes doggie," Nicole said. "A really big fluffy white one or that pretty one with shiny gold hair..."

"No doggy!" Josh exclaimed again tears actually coming to his eyes. "I don't want one...i don't!"

"Shhh," Justin said as he cleaned them off with water and unclogged the drain. "No doggies... not for a while."

Nicole pouted. "Dat not fwair!"

"Is too..." Josh whispered as he carefully stood up in the water ready to get out.

Justin grabbed two towels and wrapped one around each kid before managing to rub them both.

"Nuh uh," Nicole said. "I wanna pet and I can't get one cuz you scared of em."

"Yeah well I can't wear my Vader mask cuz it scares you." Josh pointed out in a snotty tone sticking his tongue out at his sister.

"Dat cuz it is scary," Nicole retorted. "And you chase me around trying to kill me!" She sniffled as she wrapped her arms around Justin's neck when he picked her up.

"Okay, enough talk about pets and being scared..." Justin said walking back into the bedroom. He then went about dressing Nicki in her diapers before handing Josh his pull-ups. "What do you guys wanna wear today?"

Josh stepped into his pull up and then ran to his dresser pulling out the ever-present darth vader shirt and then some black jeans. "This!"

"I'M going to kill Aaron," Justin mumbled under his breath. "Why don't you wear that red t-shirt of yours?" He asked as he took the dress Nicole pulled out of her dresser and helped her into it.

Josh shook his head like crazy, "Noo vader shirt." he said actually pulling it over his head and then putting his jeans on all by himself.

"Fine," Justin said before picking Nicole up and then her hairbrush before heading over to bed, sitting down with Nicki on his lap.

"Dad can you do a Fench bwaid?" Nicole asked, having seen it in a movie, really liking it.

Justin got a lost look on his face as he stared at her hair. "A what? How about two pigtails?" At least THAT he could do. What the hell was a French braid anyways?

Josh headed into the bathroom and got his comb and started to comb his hair then spiked it up like his daddy did with his hair. He then walked back out. "Look at me!"

Justin looked and stifled a laugh but Nicole didn't. She started giggling like crazy. Josh's hair was half matted to his head while the other half was sticking it all directions. It would have worked better if he'd had the help of some gel or moose.

"You funny," Nicole said just as Justin finished up one pigtail before turning her to the other side, starting the second one.

"Handsome," Justin replied with a smile.

"I look like daddy," Josh said, still proud of his hair-do.

"Yeah, you do... why don't you go to daddy and show him your new look?" Justin suggested. "And ask him if he would make it stay up..."

"He no look like daddy," Nicole adamantly stated.

"I do so," Josh stated glaring at his sister before walking out of the room to go find Nick. He walked into their bedroom and didn’t' find him there. He then saw the bathroom door shut. He went over and knocked on it. "Daddy...help me wit hair?"

Nick paused in what he was doing...or attempting to do. Let's just say he really needed JUSTIN'S help...cuz nothing he was doing himself was getting 'little Nick' down. "Uhh in a little bit buddy...daddy's busy..."

Josh narrowed his eyes but then got worried...maybe daddy was sick again. He ran out of the room and back down to his own room. "Dad...Dad!"

"What?" Justin asked, alarmed when he heard Josh's frantic voice and big wide eyes. "What's the matter?" He was immediately worried as he set Nicole down on the floor so she could so check her hair out in the full length mirror by her bed.

"I tink daddy's sick." Josh stated glancing back out the door he had just come in. "He in da batroom."

"Do you hear him getting sick?" Justin said heading for the door, the kids in tow. "You know what... why don't you both stay here and I'll go check on your daddy?"

"No me wanna check on daddy too," Nicole said looking up at Justin. "Pwease?"

Josh nodded his head too, "Yeah we come with you!"

Justin wasn't sure if it would be nice for the kids to see Nick sick. Hearing it was one thing but seeing it would be another story. Sighing he said, "Fine..."

Nicole quickly jogged into her parents room and went to the bathroom door, listening in. "Don't sound ike daddy's sick," she said not hearing puking noises.

When Josh got to the door there was a distinctive grunting noise...but it wasn't a puking noise.. "He does sound funny..." he whispered to Nicole knowing she would agree that sounded funny.

Justin's face had turned a slight shade of red, knowing what those noises coming from the bathroom more than anything. "You're daddy's alright..." He tired. "Why don't we uh... go down to the kitchen and get some breakfast?" But he really wanted to be in the bathroom and help Nick out yet he can't leave the kids alone.

"You sure?" Josh asked looking at the bathroom door again and then up at his daddy.

"I'm positive," Justin said nudging his kids out the door and then down the stairs. "Cereal?"

Josh was skeptical for a second but the mention fo cereal got him away from the door and out into the hall. "Yeah...fruit lops!"

"Coco puffs," Nicole called out as she took the steps down one at a time before jogging into the kitchen. Justin helped her into her chair before doing the same for Josh.

Once he got the kids seated he went about getting their cereals ready.

Josh kept looking at the door waiting for Nick to come down and he wasn't coming. "If daddy okay...why ain't he comin down?"

"Maybe he decided to take a shower and take his time?" Justin said as he ate his own cereal. "After this... why don't you two go play in the playroom?"

"Why daddy take long in da shower?" Nicole asked, much to Justin's dismay.

"Maybe he got really dirty," Josh suggested as he took a big bite of his fruit ops.

"Daddy no dirty when we see him," Nicole added remembering Nick wasn't at all dirty when they had seen him that morning.

Justin wished they would drop the subject. "Oh hey," he said thinking he could distract them from Nick. "What do you say about us going to Australia in a few months with daddy and his group?"

"What there?" Josh asked, having NO idea what and where Australia was.

"It's called the land down under," Justin replied. "It's a country on the other side of the world, surround by water. Oh... remember that Christmas concert we saw last year... the one with the really huge orchestra and with the fireworks?" He asked Josh, knowing Nicole would definitely not remember.

Nicole looked between Justin and Josh wondering what they were talking about.

Josh thought for a minute and then nodded his head, "Ohh the one that had that funny lookin place...that they show on Nemo too?"

Justin nodded his head. "Yeah, that place... it's really big and beautiful," he told them. "They have kangaroos and really cool animals."

"A kangawhat?" Nicole asked. "Dey the ones with the pocket in their tummy where the baby stays?"

"A kangaroo... yes," Justin answered Nicki.

"How come daddy don't have a pocket?" Josh asked curiously. He knew daddy was pregnant so shouldn't he have a pouch too?

"Because people are different from animals," Justin said. "Like you know how birds lay eggs..."

"Daddy lay eggs too?" Nicki asked, tilting her head to the side.

Josh made a face at that, "I hope he don't...that would hurt."

"No, he doesn't," Justin replied. "The baby grows inside of daddy and when the baby is ready... he or she or they will come out, one by one." He then got up having finished his two bowls of cereal taking the kids empty bowls and placing them in the dishwasher.

"How'd the baby get in dare?" Josh asked, not realizing he was asking the question that all parents dreaded.

"It's kinda hard to explain and it’s really complicated," Justin explained trying to get out of answering that question. "Maybe when you're a little older your daddy and I will explain it to you." 'Much more older,' he mentally added.

"What will we explain when they are older?" Nick asked as he finally walked into the room...wearing very baggy jeans and t-shirt. It wasn't exactly the style for almost 2006...but it was all he dare wear.

"How did da babies get in your tummy?" Josh asked Nick.

Nick's eyes went wide. "Ohh...yeah when you're older."

Justin chuckled.

"You made funny noises in da bathroom," Nicole said looking at her daddy curiously. "You no get sick though."

Justin avoided looking in Nick's direction knowing that if he did he'd bust up laughing, instead he kept himself busy tidying up the kitchen.

Nick turned red trying to think of some way to answer what had been happening. "I was trying to fix the toilet...it wasn't flushing very well."

Josh eyed his daddy weird but bought it. "Oh...but fixed now?"

Nick simply nodded his head as he took a seat at the table.

"Cereal?" Justin asked, finally looking at Nick from where he was leaning against the counter.

Nick smiled and nodded again, "Please...Frosted flakes?"

Justin opened the cupboard and pulled out the box and pouring its contents into a bowl before adding milk to it. He then set the bowl down in front of Nick, handing him a spoon before going to pour him a glass of orange juice. Once he was done he helped the kids out of their chairs and sent them off towards the playroom before taking a seat across from Nick.

"I see you couldn't get Josh out of his favorite shirt...even for grandma and grandpa." Nick giggled before shoving some cereal into his mouth.

"Nope," Justin said shaking his head. "Like I said, he's got your stubbornness..."

"He knows what he likes," Nick said with a shrug.

"Yeah, he does," Justin agreed. "Alright, I'm gonna go up and get ready..."

"Okay...I...I'll watch the kids." Nick said wanting more then anything to join Justin upstairs.

"Thanks babe," Justin said as he went upstairs to brush his teeth and take his shower.

"I am going to die...yes I am." Nick mumbled to himself before he headed into the playroom to watch the kids.

A few hours later, Justin had left to go pick up both sets of parents and Nick had an hour or less to figure out what to get Justin for a present. "Hey Nicki...Josh daddy needs your help."

"With what?" Nicole asked from where she was licking her cherry flavored popsicle on the floor of the living room.

"What do you guys think dad really, really wants?" Nick asked hoping he got a real good answer from them.

Josh thought about that. "I don't know...star wars stuff?"

Nicole looked at Josh like he'd lost his mind before shaking her head furiously. "Nuh uh, no way," she said. "Dad got better taste dan dat! He like sneakers though... got lots and lots of them, oh and hats!"

Nick laughed a little at that, he knew Justin liked shoes and hats...but he really didn't need more of them. Then he remembered something. "Do you think dad would want something sparkly?"

"I dunno...what sparkly?" Josh asked then thought of something. "Like unca JC's sshirt?"

Nicole chuckled. "He like a dico ball," she said, referring to the last time she'd seen her uncle decked out in a mirrored t-shirt. He had reminded her of a disco ball except it was her uncle. "Nuh uh... dad keep laughing at unca Jace."

"How about a ring...with pretty diamonds on it?" Nick asked.

Josh made a face; he thought that seemed kinda silly since he was still very much a boy-boy.

"Ooh, dat be nice," Nicki said. "But he aweady got dat... you too daddy." She pointed at Nick's ring finger that had the platinum gold wedding band with embedded diamonds all around it.

"Yeah...but sometimes married people give each other, other rings oh their anniversaries to remind them of when they got the first ring." Nick explained.

Josh thought about that, "That be good...to have dad remember."

"Why dad no member? He foget?" Nicole asked, titling her head to the side, confused.

"Of course he remembers..." Nick said trying to figure out how to explain this to a 2 year old. "You think it's a bad idea then?"

"Nooo," Nicole said thinking about it. "It good idea..." She then got an idea herself. "Dancing... dad love dat with candles and yummy food!" She meant that Nick should take Justin out dancing or even to a romantic dinner. It was something that they hadn't done since the kids were born.

That was a good idea, Nick had to agree...but he still had to come up with something sparkly since he said it was sparkly. But then he thought or something...sparkling cider to go with dinner. It would be a surprise therefore why he couldn't give it that morning. "You're a genius baby girl," he said giving Nicole a big kiss before running out of the room to get the phone.

"Um, oki," Nicole said licking her hand clean of the melting popsicle. "Daddy acting funny." She looked at her brother. "I think dady foget da anniversawy today."

Josh nodded his head in agreement. "I think so too...but we helped him...and now dad wont gotta be sad."

"Yah, daddy should get the sparkly ring though too... to make up for it," she giggled.

"Yeah he should," Josh agreed and then glanced at the door. "I wonder if he comes back to play with us?"

Nicole shrugged as he finished up her popsicle. "I'm gonna go thow dis away," she waved her popsicle stick before standing up and heading into the kitchen. She threw it in the garbage can before pulling over the chair to the sink and standing up on it. She then washed her sticky hands and dried them on the bounty napkin. Hearing Nick on the phone she quickly got down and ran over to where he was and tugged on his pants. "Daddy, daddy.. get da ring too... daddy..."

"Nicki...hold on honey..." Nick said trying to listen to what the recording on the phone was telling him.

"Oki," Nicki said as she hopped onto the couch waiting patiently, although it didn't last long. There was only so much attention span a kid could have. "Daddy..."

Thankfully this time Nick was done with the phone just writing down some information on a memo pad by the phone. "Yeah princess?"

"Get da sparkly ring too," She said, smiling. "Make up for fogetting your annivesawy." She nodded her head.

Nick raised an eyebrow. "What makes you think I forgot...hmmm?" he asked picking her up in his arms.

"Cuz," she said. "You wouldn't be asking us what to get dad."

"You won't tell him will you?" Nick asked a little fear in his voice. He couldn't believe he was scared of a two year old.

"Course not, daddy," Nicole said grabbing Nick's face with her two tiny hands and looking into his eyes before making their noses touch. "I don't want you fighting. Nope."

Nick giggled, "Good I don't either." he said as he put her down just in time to hear the people walking through the door.

"THEY’RE HOME!" Josh called as he ran to greet his grandparents.

Nicole ran out of the living room and jumped right in her grandpa Carter's arms, giggling like crazy as he kissed her before she was handed over to her grandma Carter getting kissed by her as well. Once the Carter's were done it was onto the Harless's.

"Goodness," Jane said hugging Josh. "They've grown up so much since this summer..."

"Where unca Aaron?" Josh asked Jane and Bob not seeing any of the kids actually.

"They were starving and went to get something to eat before coming." Bob laughed shaking his head.

Nick heard his parents voice but stayed in the kitchen. It was so weird knowing that his parents were together...and obviously all the kids got along with them.

Justin sighed as he brought in their luggage and set it in the guestrooms on the first floor. By the time he was finished everyone was in the living room and they were talking loud and laughing. Walking in there Justin smiled as he saw his son and daughter with their grandparents, having a blast. He looked over at Nick who was rather watching everyone quietly. He motioned for Nick to follow him before he headed into the kitchen.

Nick got up and followed Justin into the kitchen, not sure what he wanted him for. "Everything okay?" he asked, leaning against the counter.

"Yeah, things are fine... are YOU okay?" Justin asked.

"Yeah..." Nick answered but he wasn't sure. THIS was just all too weird for him. "I guess I'm kinda nervous about telling them about the babies..."

"Don't be," Justin said giving him a reassuring smile. "They love you... and hey you're giving them more reason to come around often and splurge money on..."

"But what if they give us the lecture about being too young to have 4 kids?" Nick asked, having a feeling that might happen...but then again he didn’t really know these people.

"Well, they can't really do anything about it now, can they?" Justin asked, with a shrug. "These babies are non-refundable and can't be put back from where they came from. So, tough patooties for them."

Nick laughed, "Patooties?" he said looking at Justin hard...that wasn't a good idea though because he felt the hard-on that had somewhat gone away..come back full force just by looking at him.

"Yeah, patooties... if I say anything else more colorful mama's sixth sense would kick in and she'd come over here and scrub my mouth out with soap," Justin replied, smiling. At the way Nick was looking at him, he wiggled his eyebrows. "Missed me?"

Nick swallowed hard, this was NOT good especially with both mamas in the other room. "O...of course." he managed to get out.

"I was only gone for..." Justin checked the time. "Three hours...what did you and the kids do?"

"Played with the big legos...and attempted to have a tea party but Vader crashed it like always." Nick laughed as he closed his eyes for a second. He really needed to get out with the rest of the people before he did something crazy like jump Justin in the kitchen.

"Of course," Justin chuckled. "Vadar always seems to be making appearances of that nature." Just then Bob wandered into the kitchen, smiling when he saw that boys. "So this is where you two went to... we were wondering," he chuckled. "I just come to get a bottle of water..." He patted his son on the back as he walked by to the fridge and got his water bottle.

"Just talking," Nick answered but turned around so he was facing the counter now instead...just in case his dad's eyes strayed downward. That wasn't something he really cared for his father to see.

"All right son," Bob said as he headed out the kitchen. "Come join us... sometime before tomorrow, though." With that said he disappeared into the living room.

"Fuck..." Nick whispered once his dad was out of the room. 'Explain you're pregnant...then they won't think anything of the boner in your jeans' his mind told him but that just seemed insane to him.

"Come on Thor," Justin said taking Nick's hand, tugging him out of the kitchen. "Our parents have seen us in worse situations."

"Justin...nooo." Nick whined but let Justin drag him into the living room where everybody was.

"Look who decided to grace us with their presence." Paul said with a laugh.

"Oh hush," Justin said sitting down on the love seat, Nick beside him.

Jane just smiled at the boys, Nick's predicament not going past her. "Have you eaten lunch yet?" She asked, knowing Justin hadn't.

Nick shook his head, "No... not yet." he answered his stomach deciding to remind him of that too by growling.

Lynn laughed hearing Nick's stomach. "Justin honey...don't you feed him?" she teased her son.

Justin rolled his eyes as he massaged Nick's shoulders. "Anyone want anything?" He asked, just as the front door bell rang.

"That must he the rest," Jane said.

"They're here," Bob added.

Nick got up and went to the door opening it and was almost pushed over by the Carter kids coming into the room. "Jesus...nice to see you too."

Aaron laughed and then gave his brother a hug, pulling back quickly. "Whoa man...warn a guy before they feel something like that. He said glancing down at Nick's pants.

Supernatural: Justin leaned against the entranceway to the living room with a smile on his face as Nick's siblings greeted him before they rushed over to greet him. Once that was finished Nicole and Joshua wanted in on the action as well. It wasn't until a few minutes later that the commotion died down and they were all seated in the living room, Justin having built them a fire in the fireplace as they all talked.

Nick's left leg was bouncing he was nervous and well frustrated. He was still worried about telling their family about the babies even though Justin told him not to bed. He had NEVER done this kind of thing before and part of him still saw these people as the parents he knew back in the other world. He knew they wouldn't be happy about the grand kid factor.

Justin reached over and placed his hand on top of Nick's that was resting on Nick's left thigh. He gave Nick a concerned look before squeezing his hand. "I should probably get dinner started," he whispered.

"Don't leave me," Nick whispered back. He knew he couldn't do this by himself and he knew questions were going to be asked soon enough. To make matters worse his stomach wasn't feeling very well and he was sure running to the bathroom wasn't far from happening.

Justin settled back down. "You don't have to do this now... we can tell them over dinner or after?" He suggested, smiling at how nervous Nick looked. It's almost as though he'd never done this before, as though it were his first time breaking it to family and friends that he was pregnant. "Or, you know... tomorrow when everyone's here, that way you’d have to do it for them once."

Nick was about to respond but didn't get the chance because the nauseous feeling got to be too much and he had to get up quickly and run down the hall to the bathroom.

"Nick..." Jane said her eyes wide as she watched her son run out of the room. Automatically worried.

The fathers and mothers then turned to look at Justin, eyes wide with worry and concern. Justin gave them a small smile before looking in the direction Nick ran off in.

"Daddy get sick again," Nicole said letting out a sigh and then pouted. "Me no ike daddy getting sick." She got off her grandpa Carter's lap and walked over to her dad, climbing on to his lap, needing reassurance of some sort. Seeing her parents sick made her sad.

"This has happened a lot?" Paul Harless asked his son with a raised eyebrow.

"Has he been to the doctor?" Lynn asked also worried.

"He's probably knocked up again," Aaron chuckled not realizing his blunt words were the truth.

"Aaron Charles," Jane reprimanded him with a disapproved look just as Angel reached over and smacked Aaron upside the head. "Justin...?"

Justin sighed as he nodded his head. "Yeah, it's been happening for a few weeks now... and he has been to the doctor just a few days ago," he said.

Nicole looked up at her dad wondering why he wasn't telling them that daddy was pregnant. Uncle Aaron seemed to have figured it out.

"And what's wrong with Nicky?" BJ asked, getting up to go check on her brother.

"It's nothing serious, right?" Angel asked.

"Daddy no lay eggs but he don't gotta pocket in da tummy either," Nicole replied for some reason.

Bob got a very confused look on his face at what his grand daughter said but didn't really ask just kept his eyes on the hallway where BJ was heading down, being the spokes person for the whole group in finding out what was wrong.

Nick was still over the toilet heaving loudly, his deep voice making the heaving sound even worse then it probably was.

"Nick?" BJ asked, knocking on the door before slightly opening it and fought the urge to barf along side Nick. It wasn't a pretty sight. "Damn bro... what the hell did you EAT?" She asked as he walked inside and wet a wash cloth before placing it on the back of Nick's head and rubbing his back.

"Beej...just go...I'm fine." Nick managed to get out before he heaved gain.

"Sure you are," BJ said not moving away from him. It was a few minutes later that Nick stopped heaving into the toilet that BJ handed him a cup of water and flushed the toilet. "Nick... what's wrong?" She asked, before looking at him closely. "You're acting like you're pregnant or something..." she paused as her eyes went wide. "Are you?"

Nick bit his lower lip and then simply nodded his head. He felt safe that she wouldn't freak on him. "Don't say anything please...I wana tell them myself."

"Oh Nicky," BJ said chuckling before pulling him into a big hug. "Phew... I thought you were dying with some freaky disease or something. I promise I won't tell them... so, you okay now?"

Nick laughed a little as he managed to stand up "Yeah I'm okay...thanks for coming in here..." he said knowing how much his sister couldn't stand bodily functions of any kind. She had been like that since she was a kid.

“Yeah,” BJ said with a small smile. “Don’t mention it bro… come on, let’s get out of here before I start puking.” She tugged on Nick’s sleeve once he finished rinsing his mouth.

“Daddy,” Nicole exclaimed happily once he took a seat besides Justin.

"Hey honey," Nick said with a small smile as he took a seat next to Justin. He then looked around to see all the family members looking at him and felt really weird.

BJ walked back to her seat quietly and avoided looking at everyone.

"Well, would someone tell us what's going on with my son?" Jane asked after a few moments of silence went back and no one said a word.

Nicole opened her mouth to say something but Justin's hand covered her mouth and he squeezed Nick's hand, telling him with his eyes that it's okay.

Nick took a deep breath, "Well...from what you guys might already gather...I'm pregnant...again."

Aaron laughed. "See...*I* had been right and you guys hit me!"

Angel just rolled her eyes and smacked him upside the head again. "Don't be so modest, twerp," she said before looking over at Nick.

"Wow," Jane and Bob both said together, smiling.

"Congratulations... again, son," Bob said looking at both Justin and Nick. "How far along are you?"

Justin cleared his throat. "Three months..." He answered for Nick.

"Boy or girl?" Jane asked, looking at Nick's stomach before making eye contact with her son. She then got up and went to go hug him, kissing him on the cheek.

"We don't know yet..." Nick said and then smirked a little. "But it could be one of each..."

Lynn's eyes went wide. "Twins...you're having twins!"

"Oh god," Jane said shaking her head, remembering carrying Aaron and Angel. She hugged Nick tighter and kissed him some more. "Good luck son!" She stated.

"Oh wow... two..." Bob breathed out having just gotten used to the fact that his son could get pregnant but now... he's pregnant with twins. It was all too surreal. "Wow." His wife was one thing but his son was a whole another topic and he hoped everything would go smoothly.

"I want sisters," Nicole piped up from Justin's lap.

"I want brother...sisters tink." Josh grumbled making a face at the idea of having another sister.

"I'm with you there Joshy," Aaron giggled glaring at Angel who kept hitting him over the head.

Nick laughed, "I'm not sure what they are...but whatever they are causing me not to feel so great."

"Well, seven more months," Jane chuckled and shook her head at Aaron and Angel. "And hopefully they turn out nothing like those two..." She joked. "Double the trouble."

"But I want sisters... if I get more brothers there's gonna be dath wada one, two, and tee... oh god!" Nicole had tears in her eyes. "Tee of 'em gonna be killin me tee times ova and ova again. Daddy no, please?" She looked up at Nick, pouting.

Nick laughed and ruffled Nicki's hair. "Don't worry honey...if they are bothers YOU will still be the big sister."

Nicole smiled and then realized Josh was older than she was. "But he da bigga one," she pointed to Josh, sniffling.

"Don't worry sweety," Jane said running her hand over the little girl's head. "You're big brother loves you and will take of you, isn't that right Joshua?" She smiled at Josh.

Josh smiled and nodded his head, "Yeah me take care of her...love her." He said as he moved to crawl up next to Nicole on Justin's lap. "I only play with you...I no hurt you."

"Pwomise?" Nicole asked looking at him with big blue eyes.

Everyone else in the room looked on in awe. To the Carter's Josh reminded them a lot of Nick and to the Harless's Nicole reminded them of Justin. These two kids were the cutest little things in the world, and they all knew that with Nick and Justin as parents, they would end up as to be precious gems and well rounded.

It was then Bob cleared his throat. "I almost forgot... Happy Anniversary you two," he said pulling out a present for them from his bag and passing it on to Nick and Justin.

"Oh dad, you didn't have to," Justin said as he watched Jane hand it to Nick.

"Ohh a gift!" Nick giggled as he tried to take it from Justin to open it himself.

"What did you two get each other?" Jane asked curiously.

Nick swallowed, stopping trying to get the present. "Well...he hasn't seen what he's going to get yet. I had to order it special...and it didn't come in when they siad it would."

"All I know is that it's sparkly," Justin said with a shrug and a chuckle. "And I got him a few video games that he had really wanted..."

"What get?" Nicole asked, reaching for the present to open it up herself.

Nick laughed and pulled the gift gently away from his daughter so he could open it up.

Josh stuck his head in the bag wanting to see what it was too.

"I wanna see too," Nicole protested and then when Nick pulled out a box she asked, "What's in it?"

"Patience baby girl," Justin whispered to her, rubbing her tummy before watching Nick open the box.

Nicole got a confused look on her face when Nick held a silver key out.

Bob just smiled. "It goes with both of yours Christmas present," he said.

"But you're present, unfortunately isn't portable... so, it's some place else..." Jane answered patting Nick's head before going back to sit beside her husband.

Nick raised an eyebrow at his parents. A key normally went to something with a motor. "Okay...what did you spend way too much money on to get us?"

"You'll see it when you get the chance to go and see it," Jane chuckled. "Well, anyways..."

"You guys are too much," Justin chuckled looking at the key before looking at Nick, leaning over to give him a kiss on the cheek. "I should really go and get dinner started..." he said, taking Nicole and Josh off his lap so he could stand up.

"Oh no, you don't," Lynn said just as Jane protested as well. "You sit right back down."

"Yeah," Jane said. "We'll take care of dinner."

"But you're guests.." Justin protested.

"No but's young man," Lynn told Justin walking off towards the kitchen with Jane.

Nicole chuckled seeing her dad getting talked to like that.

"And I have to go run an arrend real fast." Nick said also standing up.

"What's open still?" Bob asked his son with a raised eyebrow.

"Where are you going?" Justin asked, looking at Nick with a frown. "And what errand? How about I go get it for you?"

"No dad... tay here," Nicole piped up knowing what her daddy wanted to do. She looked at Josh for help.

"Yeah dad...daddy can do it." Josh agreed with a nod of his head.

"Yeah dad I can do it." Nick teased justin shaking his head. "I'll be gone no more then an hour."

Justin looked at the kids and then his hubands. He felt like they knew something he didn't, it was like a conspiracy. "Oookay..." He trailed off. "Where you going anyways?" He wondered how come Nick never mentioned any errand.

"I gotta go pick up something sparkly." Nick replied with a smirk.

"Oh," Justin said, smiling. "Um.. okay... Can I come with?" He chuckled.

Paul rolled his eyes. "Nick... just go son... or you'd be here all night."

"Dad stop asking too much qwesions!" Nicole said shaking her head as he grabbed ihis hand and pulled him so he was sitting down again before she crawled into his lap, hoping that would keep him down and wouldn't go with her daddy.

"Bye baby," Nick laughed giving Justin a kiss on the cheek before heading to the door and outside.

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About forty-five minutes later Nick came back. "Yo crazy family of mine...I"M HOME!"

And that's exactly what it was in the living room. It was crazy as the all the Christmas lights were on and music was blasting from the stereo, everyone just dancing and having a good time and laughing. Nicole and Joshua were singing at the top of their lungs to the music. The moms were still in the kitchen making dinner.

"I'm scared," Nick said as he moved to stand in the doorway of the living room. "You people are NOT related to me."

Justin looked over at Nick and chuckled. "Hey, you're home," he said as he stopped dancing with BJ and walked over to Nick, wrapping his arms around his waist and pulling him into the makeshift dance floor. "Dance...with us."

"Don't mind if I do," Nick said as he playfully spun Justin around purposely almost dropping him. "Oops."

Aaron rolled his eyes, "Smooth bro."

"I think he did that on purpose," BJ Laughed.

Justin yelped not expecting that before he glared at Nick, playfully smacking his on his chest. "Funny Carter, real funny."

Just then Nicole squeaked out when Josh had attempted the same move on his sister, good thing he didn't drop her though.

"Oh, yeah... Josh has most of his daddy's traits," Bob said shaking his head before he picked Nicki up and spinning her around, making her giggle.

Nick laughed as he pulled Justin in closer for a slow dance. "Is it bed time yet?" He whispered in Justin's ear.

"It's only... almost seven," Justin said, wrapping his arms around Nick's neck. "And dinner..."

"Blah to dinner," Nick joked as he pulled Justin even closer. He had something else on his mind and it wasn't food.

Justin raised his eyebrow. "YOU are saying blah to dinner when your three months pregnant with twins?" He asked incredulously before narrowing his eyes playfully. "Okay, who are you and WHAT have you done to my husband?"

Nick rolled his eyes playfully, "I am hungry...but not for food..." he said wondering if Justin would get his drift.

Justin smirked and then got a guilty look on his face. "Our parents are here..." he said burying his face in Nick's neck, inhaling his scent.

"My body doesn't seem to get that." Nick mumble giving the top of Justin's head a gentle kiss.

Justin bit his lower lip, making a face. He didn't know what to do now. It would be just plain rude if they left to their thing but at the same time Justin wanted to. "Could it wait through dinner? I promise... dessert will be up in our room..." he nibbled Nick's ear lobe.

"It will be easier to wait if you're not nibbling on my ear like that," Nick whispered feeling himself harden against Justin's thigh.

"Sorry," Justin said, pulling back with a sheepish look.

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It wasn't until eight on the dot that Lynn came into the living room informing that dinner was ready and that they should go and clean up. A few minutes later everyone was seated at the dinning table, saying their prayers before digging into their meals.

Nick's real appitite came back quckly as he dived into his food eating it quickly.

Josh sat there with wide eyes as he watched his daddy eating so fast. "Daddy you get tummy ate you eat that fast!"

"He eating fo my sisters," Nicole said giggling. "Dey hungy." She opened her mouth when Justin cut up her chicken piece and held it out for her to take.

"No they eating for brothers." Josh corrected.

"I think one of each would be lovely." Lynn said with a smile. "Four kids...good even number and two of each even better."

Nick bit his lower lip wondering what they would think of five or six grandkids.

Justin nodded his head. "Also.. Nicki here could get a sister to play with and Josh could get a brother to cause havoc with."

"You two are gonna have your hands FULL," BJ commented as she looked at Nick and Justin. "Two babies of the group... are having so many kids... who would have thought?" She laughed.

"It makes sense though in a way... I think," Leslie spoke up. "They're both kids at heart and with lots of energy... and they both are the babies of their respective groups..." She shrugged.

"And more reason for us to come over and spoil them," Jane offered.

"What would you guys think of even more to spoil?" Nick asked everybody glancing at Justin wondering if he was going to tell them about his little secret.

"What do you mean?" Lynn asked eyeing her son.

Justin looked down at his food before looking back up at all the faces looking at him with curiosity. He then rubbed his hand over his head, taking a sip from his glass of water. "Well... I gave Nick's Christmas present today..." he trailed off to take in a deep breath. "And um... I've been on the pills for a little over a year now... I've got the results back from the doc and I could have kids."

"You boys want to conquer the world with your babies, don't you?" Jane asked, looking at them.

"These two weren't exactly planned," Nick laughed looking down at his stomach.

"I think the only one that has been planned is Josh," Leslie laughed.

"Huh?" Nicole asked confused; she did not understand what was going on.

"Don't worry about it sweety," Justin said feeding her another piece of chicken. "Actually neither of them were planned," he corrected Leslie, shrugging. "We were... um, just being two people in love and messing around... things happened, but we don't regret anything so it's all good in the end."

"You still wanting more kids?" Jane asked, a bit surprised as he looked at Justin who just nodded his head.

"Well, I wanna experience this with Nick..." Justin trailed off as he watched Lynn and Jane 'awe' before looking pointedly at their respective husbands and saying something along the lines of 'Isn't that so sweet, honey?'

"You better not get us wanting to have babies." Bob laughed making a face.

"Well yeah because we don't have anybody who could get us pregnant." Paul added also making a face.

"Okay enough sex and parents talk.." Aaron said getting grosed out.

"Dinner people," Leslie spoke up. "I'm trying to eat it... and this conversation isn't helping."

Justin chuckled. "Okay... so, what's new with everyone?" He went for a complete change of topic.

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It wasn't until nine that dinner was finished and Justin cleared his throat. He told everyone that it was Nicki's and Josh's bed time and how those two needed to be in bed and fast asleep before Santa arrives. Carrying the kids up to their rooms he changed them and put them in their PJ's. Both he and Nick tucked them in and kissed them good night before going back down stairs to tell their families that they were calling it a night since it's been a long day. The parents agreed and told them that they'd see them in the morning and wished them a good night before going about cleaning the dining room and then heading into their respective rooms for the night.

Once upstairs, Nick remembered he had left Justin's gift downstairs. "I'll be right back," He said leaving the room and running downstairs and grabbing the bag from the entry hall and running back upstairs.

Justin set the alarm clock to six so that he could he could get the last minute cleaning done before the guests got there for the party later that day. By the time Nick came back upstairs he was Justin his wife beater and boxers, pulling the covers down on the bed.

Nick paused in the doorway to watch Justin thinking about how lucky he was. "I've finally got your sparkly," he said as he walked to the bed and sat on the edge next to Justin. "It's kind of weird...but I kept thinking bout how you told me you wished you had something 'pridish' even though gays are a lot more accepted now. Well I saw this...and it just seemed… well, perfect," he said handing Justin the ring. It was a platinum diamond rainbow anniversary band. Nick had been shocked when he had found something so perfect. Justin had been mentioning the rainbow thing since the first day he had been in 'this world' so when he saw this he had to get it.

Justin gawked at the ring, before looking up at Nick and then down at the ring. He held his right hand out wanting Nick to put it on him. He would have given Nick his right hand but it had his wedding band on it; there was no way Justin was taking that one off. "Baby, I love it," he said grinning. "It's beautiful."

Nick smiled big, he was glad. "I wasn't sure if you would... cuz it's kinda... well, different," he said as he put the ring onto Justin's hand.

"You know I love different," Justin said bringing his hand up and examining the colorful stones within the band. If Justin ever thought of a pride ring, this is more than what he would have come up with. He then leaned over, capturing Nick into a all out passionate kiss.

Nick moaned and fell right into the kiss. He had been waiting for this since they had been interrupted that morning.

"I love you Nickolas Gene Carter-Timberlake," Justin chuckled when he pulled back from the kiss. "So very much."

"I have a long name," Nick giggled. "But so do you Justin Randall Carter-Timberlake."

"Yes, we do," Justin chuckled. "But it's okay, we're special like that... so are our kids." He then straddled Nick's crotch, resting his hands right on top of his chest where the 'Blackfoot Indian' foot prints would be, and licked his lips.

"What’s THAT look for mr. man?" Nick asked smirking up at Justin.

"It's the 'I wanna devour you' look," Justin replied, leaning back down and kissing Nick again. He moaned as he moved his hips a little so that he was rubbing against Nick's crotch.

Nick moaned too as he kissed Justin back just as passionately if not even more; his hands going to rest on Justin’s ass trying to get him as close to him as possible.

Justin slipped his hands under Nick's t-shirt, feeling the warm and smooth skin underneath. A few minutes later he than them both naked, him hovering over Nick, kissing down his neck and chest and stomach, his tongue dipping into his navel before going further down. He took a hold of Nick's organ and began to stroke it slowly while his other hand fondled his balls before going lower to dip teasingly into Nick's entrance.

Nick groaned, "Baby don't tease...please...I've been so horny all day." he said wiggling around on the bed, needing more then what Justin was giving him.

"What do you want Nicky?" Justin asked, wanting to hear Nick say it. He bent his head down and licked up Nick's member before taking the tip of it inside. "Hmm?" He asked with his mouth full.

"Blow me...baby...suck me...please." Nick actually begged. He wasn't in any position right now to not beg for what he wanted because he NEEDED it.

Justin complied as he took all of Nick into his mouth, swallowing before moving back up the shaft. He continued doing that for a while, his other hand in the mean time teasing Nick's hole before he brought his hand up and slipped it inside Nick's mouth. Once his finger was wet enough he brought it back down to Nick's pucker and pushed in... Never once stopping what his mouth was doing to Nick's cock.

"Oh fuck..." Nick cursed loudly, thankful that the guests were all downstairs and the kids slept very soundly.

Justin moaned around Nick's cock when Nick grabbed his hair, trying to get his cock in deeper. He pulled back his finger before sticking two inside, scissoring them. He let out a throaty growl when Nick pulled his hair tighter just as Justin brushed against Nick's prostate. He tapped Nick's spot again, smiling inwardly at the noises Nick was making.

That was all Nick could take, his hard state all day really taking a toll on his stamina. With a loud cry he came hard deep down Justin's throat, his hips bucking up.

Justin swallowed everything Nick had to offer him. When Nick was finished and had gone limp in his mouth he withdrew his spent cock from his mouth as well as his fingers from inside Nick. He panted as he wiped the back of his hand across his mouth before placing kisses all over Nick's stomach, gently rubbing it, just thinking about his babies inside.

"Love...you," Nick whispered running his fingers gently through Justin's hair now as if to soothe his aching scalp.

"I love you too, Nicky," Justin said as he kissing Nick's lips, his own erection resting against Nick's thigh. Nick spread his legs and Justin got himself comfortable between them, not breaking the kiss. He groaned when Nick reached down and stroked him a few times before positioning him at his entrance.

"Love me..." Nick whispered looking into Justin's eyes. He wanted this more then anything.

Justin nodded his head as he moved his hips causing him to slip into Nick, slowly. He gasped as he entered the tight heat, loving the feeling. "Oh gawd Nick... "

"Ohhhh..." Nick moaned, thrusting his hips up wanting Justin deeper inside of him right away. "Move baby...please..." he wasn't able to just hold out.

Justin moved all the way inside of Nick, buried balls deep. He then pulled out till only the head of his cock was inside before pushing all the way inside, hard.

Nick cried out in pleasure, Justin had hit his spot so hard he thought he was seeing stars. "Oh god baby...so good..." he said thrusting up against him.

Justin continued to pound into Nick with all the love he had in him for Nick. "God... Nick...You... Love you... so tight!" He stated between thrusts.

"God...love you too...SO much Justin...baby...ohhh!" Nick cried out, his eyes closed tight. Just then there was a bright flash of light.

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Justin jerked awake from where he was sitting across the bed in Nick's hospital room and was quickly by Nick's side. He frowned when he heard Nick moaning and panting and saying his name. "Nick... Nick?" Justin asked, slightly shaking him hoping to get him to wake up. One minute Nick was as silent as the dead and the next he was... moaning out Justin's name. Justin didn't know what to think especially about the hard-on Nick was sporting. Do people in coma usually wake up with a hard-on and moaning out someone’s name?

Nick's eyes popped open and he looked up at Justin and then around the room. 'Shit' he thought to himself and sighed. He knew this would happen...he just wish it hadn't.

"Nick, you... you all right?" Justin asked, waiting for some kind of response from him.

"Y...yeah." Nick managed to get out his voice husky. He was still just as turned on as he was in the other world...which was slightly embarrassing.

"Good..." Justin said before he rushed out the room calling out for a nurse. He then came back in, behind him a nurse and Nick's doctor. They checked Nick's vitals and did some more tests. It wasn't long before he and Nick were alone again, the doctor having told them that Nick was perfectly fine. "You scared me there..." He said walking to Nick's side again.

"W...What day is it?" Nick asked not sure when it was.

"Christmas eve," Justin answered in a soft voice. "You've been out for nearly a week." He ran a hand through his hair and then scratched at his itchy beard. He'd practically never left Nick's side since that night at the party.

"Wow..." Nick said with a sigh really wishing he was back in the other world. Things were so much better there then here. Here he was still the wasted drunk who didn't have anybody to love him.

Justin closed his eyes as he thought back to that night, the events playing in his mind from when he’d gotten Nick to the edge of the pool, where a crowd had gathered. With the help of someone Justin had gotten Nick out of the water before he himself got out. His heart nearly stopped when he saw Nick lay lifeless on the concrete, looking rather blue under the pale light of the moon. CPR. He had to do CPR. He’d taken in a deep breath and fought off the shivers he got with the wind breezing his way over his water soaked clothes and body. He’d pinched Nick's nose closed, opening his mouth before covering it with his own and blowing air. He was thankful for JC who made his way over and began to pump Nick's chest, to get his lungs to breathe. "Come on Nick... come on, wake up," Justin prayed and begged. "Please." He took in another breath and blew it into Nick's mouth before pulling back again, one, two, three, and four. "Please."

"Yeah... you were pretty drunk when you fell into the ice-cold pool water," Justin recapped with a sigh. "I had to give you CPR once I got you out... when you stood up you fainted and hit your head pretty hard on the concrete. You were bleeding pretty badly... called the ambulance and everything and they said you were suffering from a concussion and that you'd fallen into a coma." He took in a shaky breath.

Nick's eyes went wide, he never realized it had been THAT bad. "Wow...sorry if I um… scared you."

"Yeah, well…" Justin said as he glared at Nick. "You're a fucking idiot for drinking so much in the first place! What were you even thinking, seriously Nick? What if I couldn't get to you soon enough or someone else? Huh? You could have drowned right there and then!" There were tears in his eyes, as his feelings of how scared he'd been this past week shone through.

Nick looked away, his face turning red in shame. "I know,” he whispered close to tears himself. He hated this life... he just hoped he could turn it around before it was too late.

"If you know then why...?" Justin practically begged before he shook his head and swallowed the lump in his throat. "Gawd... I'm sorry, I just... I have no right to freak out on you like this... much less yell at you." He bit his lower lip as he thought about if he should mention that he'd called Nick's family and his guys to tell them what happened. The guys showed concern but they couldn't get away from what they were doing to be here for Nick but that was much better than the response that he'd gotten from Nick's family... which was none at all. He couldn't even get through to them only to their voice mails or answering machines.

"My life got really fucked up Justin," Nick whispered a few tears falling from his eyes. "I don't know how to get it back..."

Justin frowned. "What are you talking about?" He asked, not understanding.

"I mean all the stupid shit I've done since we were together. I haven't made the best choices." Nick tried to explain.

Justin looked away for a few moments, touching the heart monitor machine lightly. "We all make mistakes, what's important is what you learn from them and what you do about it."

"Why did you help me?" Nick asked softly. "I mean I've been nothing but a dick to you for years now."

Justin sighed. "Instinct, I guess," he answered gluing his eyes to Nick's arms. "Fear..." Love.

"Well...thanks..." Nick said wiggling around a little he was still feeling everything Justin had been doing in the other world...and just having THIS Justin look at him was causing his body to react more then it already was.

"Don't mention it," Justin said, giving Nick a small smile, looking at his face before looking around at the room. "I should... probably head home." Turning around to head out the door he got a glimpse at the time. 12:01. He then walked over to where his coat and a Christmas present lay. He walked back over to Nick and placed the present beside him on the table. "Merry Christmas, Nick," he said before heading out of the hospital room, tears streaming down his face by the time the doors of the elevator closed. He hoped Nick would liked the video games, they weren't released to the public yet... Justin had to pull some strings to get them. He also hoped Nick would like the card… it took him a really long time to write it.

Tears streamed down Nick's face once Justin was out of the room. He opened the gift slowly and what he saw made him cry even more, not to mention the waterworks that resulted after reading the Christmas card.

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Epilogue

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"Nicky!" Justin called out as the front door closed behind him. He stopped rummaging through the mail when he'd come across the letter from the adoption agency that they'd both been waiting for. "Nick!" Justin literally ran through their house looking for Nick. "Nick, we got the letter... Baby, where are you?" It was Christmas time in 2008 and Nick and Justin were together and happy. When Justin had left Nick at the hospital in NYC he hadn't been expecting to hear from or see Nick anytime soon and was shocked to death when a few hours later in the evening he answered the door to find Nick standing outside his home in LA. From that point on Nick and Justin had been trying to first work on their friendship before moving to the next level. Now almost three years later... they were officially a couple and were looking into starting a family.

"I'm upstairs!" Nick called from where he was in their bedroom folding laundry. He was trying to get all the household chores done before Justin's family was due in that night.

Justin took the steps up the stairs two and at time, breathless by the time he made it into their bedroom. "We got the letter from the adoption agency," he held it out.

Nick's eyes went wide as he stared at the envelope in Justin's hand. "Have you opened it?" he asked scared to reach for it and open it himself.

"No," Justin said as flopped down on the edge of the bed. "We should open it together."

"What if it says we can't," Nick whispered knowing he would feel awful if they couldn't adopt children. Then again the adoption agency representative that was helping them seemed to think they wouldn't have any problems. But all the trying house checks, and paper work had taken their toll on Nick and he was just thinking the worst.

"I guess we'll just keep trying or do it the old fashioned way," Justin said, as he took in a shaky breath. With shaking hands he opened the letter before pulling it out of the envelope. He then unfolded the letter and looked at Nick.

"I think we would have to do a LOT of trying if we did it the old fashioned way." Nick laughed trying to hide his nervousness as Justin opened the letter.

"Well, I meant... find a woman who... you know... wouldn't mind..." Justin trailed off as he closed his eyes and then opened them again before reading the first few lines of the letter. "Oh gawd," he cried out in relief.

Nick read the first lines too and a huge smile came to his face as tears rolled down his eyes. "Congratulations Justin Timberlake and Nick Carter.... you have been approved in all aspects of the process and are now free to work with one of our agents in choosing the child (ren) right for you," he read still in total shock...it was actually going to happen!

Justin wrapped his arms around Nick and kissing him, a huge weight being lifted from his shoulders. "We get to be parents..." he said in his ear before letting him go and reading the rest of the letter. "We could go in on the 23rd and look through their database..." He then put the letter back in its envelope as he looked at Nick. "If things go smoothly we'd have a family for Christmas."

Nick smiled big snuggling into Justin's arms. "I love you so much." he said looking into Justin's eyes.

"I love you too Nick, so much," Justin said, pressing a kiss to Nick's head.

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They were sitting in the Karen Martin's office, the lady who'd been helping them with the adoption, on the 23rd.

"I think we've both agreed on a boy and a girl." Nick stated glancing in Justin’s direction to make sure that was indeed true.

Justin nodded his head to confirm Nick.

Karen smiled as looked at her computer. "Do you gentlemen have a specific age... or anything else that would narrow down the list?"

"We would like the boy to be between 1 and 2...and the girl to be six months or younger. It would be good to have them as close to a year apart...or more." Nick explained. "We also would like to get them to look as close to us as possible… but we realize that blonde hair blue eyed American babies are not easy to find."

Karen nodded her head. "Yeah, it is a slim to none chance that there are Caucasian kids up for adoption," she said as he typed in their requests. While the computer was doing its search she turned to them and smiled. "Its searching..."

"It's not a big deal though...we talked and agreed that any baby and toddler would be perfect." Nick said smiling at Justin, taking his hand in his.

A few moments later a pop-up on the computer screen appeared. There were a total of five kids that fit Caucasian. "Well," she smiled. "We have five kids... all Caucasian, four of them are boys and there's one girl. Two of the boys are around 9 right now; the third one is about 5 and the last one, is the youngest and is about 3. The girl is two years old." She then turned the monitor around so the men could look at the kids and read their profiles.

Nick smiled, those were their babies...he knew it right away just taking one look at them. "Ohh Honey...that’s them...I know it!"

"All five of them?" Justin asked confused as he looked at all five of the kids' pictures. He didn't mind all five, they all looked so adorable and well, Justin had a weakness when it came to kids.

Nick giggled realizing he wasn't pointing out which ones. "The little girl...and the three year old boy."

Justin smiled as he agreed. "Yeah, they're prefect," he said looking over at Karen. "Jessica and Nathan..."

Karen smiled and nodded her head. "We could head down to the foster home today if you'd like and meet them?" She looked at them. "And then tomorrow when you come in you could sign the papers and documents and bring her home."

"It works that fast...really?" Nick asked his eyes wide.

Karen nodded her head. "Pretty much, yes," she answered. "But in the end, it depends on the children, whether they would like to stay with you or not. Social Services and myself will visit your home at the end of the one week period from when they move in with you and then we'll drop by unannounced for a while till we're sure that everything is going smoothly. It's not that we don't trust you but it's part of the job and kids' safety."

"So, we're meeting them today?" Justin asked, slightly nervous.

"Yes," Karen answered.

"What kind of things will we have to get for these kids?" Nick asked realizing they had only a few things for the kids...and not sure what they come with.

Karen thought about it. "I'm sure they have a few clothes and other personal things," she said. "But once they're in your custody... their your kids, you get them whatever you want to get them."

"Definitely more clothes... we're taking them shopping to the mall and the toy store," Justin said with a determined nod of his head.

"Can you tell from that if they have any disabilities or anything?" Nick asked curiously. He and Justin had talked and had agreed they wouldn't turn a child away for any type of problem. "And what’s the background they came from to begin with was?"

Karen nodded as she hit print on their profiles. "In one minute," she said. Once the pages were printed out she stapled Jessica's file together and then Nathan's file before handing them over to Nick and Justin. "Nathan is a premature baby, one month ahead of time. And Jessica is a daughter of a mother who was a heavy drinker but it was a good thing she'd found out about the pregnancy early so she could control herself. Jessica was born without any FAS or any disabilities. Other than that," she scrolled down the screen, shaking her head. "Yeah... they're perfectly healthy, beautiful kids. Everything else that you need to know about their families is in those two files. But the bad news is... their respective mothers are deceased and neither had been married to tie the child to a father. Nathan's mother had died right after he'd been born, due to excessive internal bleeding and well, Jessica's mother... she'd drank too much and met with an accident."

"Poor babies..." Nick whispered tears coming to his eyes as he took the papers from Karen.

Justin too had a lump in his throat, leaning over to Nick as he looked over Jessica's profile and then Nathan's. "We definitely want these kids... Karen," he said giving her a watery smile.

Karen nodded her head. "Let me just finish up something’s here and we can head down to the foster home so you could meet them."

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Nick walked out of the bathroom and looked around the bedroom confused when he didn't find Justin. Walking down the hall he stopped when he saw Justin standing in the doorway to the kids room, watching them sleep. It was Christmas Eve; they had just put the kids to bed half an hour ago and were planning on going to bed themselves. "Baby...we gotta go to sleep too." he whispered wrapping his arms around Justin's waist.

Justin leaned into Nick's embrace. "I know," he whispered. "But they look so peaceful and happy... I could just stand here and watch them sleep all night."

"Yes...but we need to go to sleep since I be you they will be awake at the crack of dawn to open their presents." Nick giggled kissing the back of Justin's neck. "They will be here in the morning baby."

Justin took in a deep breath and nodded his head. "Yeah, you're right," he said, slowly and quietly closing the door before taking Nick's hand and walking down the hall into their own room. Once they were settled in bed with Nick spooning Justin from the back Justin said, "I love you Nickolas Gene Carter-Timberlake."

"And I love you Justin Randall Carter-Timberlake… Merry Christmas baby," Nick whispered leaning in to give Justin a gentle loving kiss on the lips. He was so lucky that his life worked out the way it did and he had a crazy bump on the head and weird dream to thank for it all.