Summary: Nick is struggling to make it day by day. Justin is trying to survive stardom. They both live two very different lives, but when they meet on a cold winters night a friendship begins. Will there be more then friendship? Do opposites really attract?

Paring: Justin/Nick (TimberNick)

Rating: PG-13 and Up

Warning: This is slash, meaning there will be male/male sexual relations mentioned in the story. Also, this story should also get a HET warning for those of you that don't like HET content. There are other couples in this story other then Justin and Nick and a few of them happen to be male/female couples. If you don't want to read chapters with explicit HET content then go ahead and scroll down to read the EDITED chapters.

Authors Note: I am really grateful to have a great friend writing this story with me. How we have it worked out is that I write whatever Nick says, and my good friend Kris writes all of Justin's lines. If this is confusing, or if you have any questions about the format feel free to e-mail me and I'll try and help clear anything up.

Status: Incomplete

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Nick walked past security and out into the main part of LAX looking around for familiar faces. He had talked to Eddie that morning to tell him he actually was going to be on a flight that morning and if possible to come and pick him up. Eddie had told Nick somebody would be there so now that he was here he was looking for that person...or people.

Kelly put her magazine down and put it back in her little bag she'd brought along. Checking the time she knew it would be about time for Nick to come out into the terminal. Nudging Aaron she got his attention, "Let's go look for your brother," she said standing up.

"Yeah, okay," Aaron said running his sweaty palms over his jeans as he got up before running his hands through his hair, following Kelly. A few moments later he squinted his eyes and frowned. "Is that Nick?" he asked, not recognizing the guy wearing all black attire complete with the hood of the sweatshirt pulled over his head.

"If it is... he's looks like a goth explosion," she frowned slowly making her way over to where Nick was.

"He goes out of the country and turns goth on us." Eddie giggled and then stopped when Kelly glared at him.

Nick spotted the group coming towards him and smiled. "Hey guys..." he said giving Kelly a friendly hug, the hood still over his head.

"Don't tell me you joined some kinda cult," Aaron made a face as he tugged on Nick's sleeve so that he could get a better look at his face. Okay, no white make up or black liner... and his hair is still blonde, not black. There is hope.

Kelly chuckled, shaking her head. "How was the flight sweetie?"

"Uneventful," Nick said and then mumbled 'thankfully' under his breath.

"Do you have any bags you have to get?" Eddie asked noticing Nick only had a medium sized duffle slung over his shoulders.

Nick shook his head, "Nope...I packed light."

"Good," Kelly nodded. "Come on let's get out of here..."

Aaron bounced, happy. "Can we get something to eat on the way?" He asked only to hide behind Nick when Kelly glared at him.

"Aaron, you JUST ate!" She stated and then took in a deep breath.

"He's a growing boy," Eddie laughed but had a feeling it was more then that.

Nick laughed too and then put an arm around Aaron's shoulder. "So how goes it?"

Aaron's eyes went wide and he looked pleadingly at Nick before it all sunk in...All the happiness of seeing Nick back home faded away to a pissed off mood. Nick had left him there in LA with nothing to do. He growled in response to Nick and shrugged his arm off his shoulder. How dare Nick act like everything was peachy?

Kelly looked at Nick wondering why he was being fidgety and looking around the airport every few seconds.

Nick got a confused look on his face when Aaron shrugged him off. "Uhh...okay..." he said looking around. Justin had told him to extra cautious...but he was feeling beyond paranoid right now.

"You guys want to eat here some place?" Eddie asked looking at Aaron since he was the one that was hungry and he figured Nick probably was too after the six hour flight.

"McDonald's man," Aaron told him, shoving his hands in his pockets. "Um, some where else?"

Eddie looked at Aaron confused, "You want McDonald's...or you want something else?"

'You're a nervous wreck, Carter' Nick yelled to himself as he took a deep breath and tried to pay attention to his friends and his brother rather then the fact that this airport was full of people and was really beginning to get to him.

"McDonald's but somewhere else," Aaron repeated. "I don't wanna eat it in the airport... they taste different here for some reason." He frowned as he walked beside Kelly.

"Really? I've never noticed that," Kelly said as they headed out to where Eddie parked his car.

"Sounds good to me," Nick agreed thinking staying in the airport wasn't the best idea.

"Okay McDonald's but not here it is." Eddie said as he led the small group out the main doors and heading for where they had parked the car.

As soon as they got in the car Aaron had his head titled back resting on the back of the seat, sitting on his hands as he tried to take in deep discreet breaths to calm himself down. He couldn't help but feel like he was slowly baking in the car, it was getting really hot.

Kelly turned around in her seat from the passenger side to look at both Aaron and Nick. Aaron looked like he was dead tired and Nick looked like a nervous wreck. "So... how were things up in Toronto?" She asked.

"Snowy," Nick laughed and then smiled a little thinking about all the things that had happened in Toronto...most of them good. Which then got him thinking about the wake up call Justin had given him that morning a wistful smile going to his face.

Eddie noticed the look on Nick's face and laughed out loud. "Ohhh Nicky's got the 'I got laid' look on his face." he teased his friend before turning his attention to the road again. He headed towards the free-way thinking they would go to a McDonald's closer to home.

"Sooo did not need to know that," Aaron mumbled out making a face causing Kelly to chuckle.

"Yup, not for little innocent ears to hear," she said rolling her eyes when Aaron shot her a glare.

Nick blushed bright red, not really sure if Justin wanted his friends to know he had actually well...gone all the way..."Shut up Ed..." he said trying to laugh it off but noticed a look in Kelly's eyes that said 'We are SO going to talk about this later'.

"Sorry," Eddie laughed apologizing to Nick and to Aaron who looked like he was about to get sick...literally. "Aaron...you okay?" he asked really not wanting puke in his car. He was almost on the freeway and really didn't want to get on it if Aaron was going to blow chunks.

Aaron nodded his head. "Could you maybe roll down the windows or something?" he asked, thinking air in his face would be a good thing, a lot of air.

"Sure," Eddie said as he did that, rolling down the windows in the back seat, still eyeing Aaron every few seconds.

Nick glanced at his brother who was a really bad shade of pail green. "Air...you sure you're fine?"

"Yup," Aaron said almost sticking his head out the window to get the rush of air on his face. "Hey, this is cool; no wonder dogs do it all the time."

Kelly laughed. "He's comparing himself to a dog; I don't know what to think about that."

Nick laughed at his brother's antics before remembering he promised to call Justin right when he got to the airport. He glanced at his watch noticing it was eight at night there so he figured Justin would be back from the set. Pulling his phone out he pushed the button that automatically called Justin and waited.

Justin just got out of the shower when his cell phone started ringing. Tying his towel securely around his waist he went to go answer it. "Hey," he said seeing Nick's number on the caller ID. "Got there safely?" He asked as he went over to his dresser to pull out clothes to wear.

"Yeah after I fought off the Ninjas and Asian gangs," Nick teased glad to hear Justin's voice even though it had only been about eight hours since he had seen him.

Justin laughed. "Good to hear," he said. "So who came to pick you up?" he asked as he balanced the cell phone with his ear and shoulder so that he could pull on his boxers, trying not to lose his balance but failing miserably. "Whoa," he said before he found himself on the floor, rubbing his butt while the other hand still held his boxers. "Ugh," he quickly pulled his boxers on and then grabbed the phone off the floor and apologized.

Nick was laughing so hard, "What in the world did you just do?" he asked having a hard time calming down. That had sounding SO funny.

Eddie looked at Kelly and smiled reaching over and resting his hand on her thigh. It made him happy to hear Nick so happy and to hear him and Justin so obviously in love.

Kelly smiled over at Eddie as she linked their fingers together. She turned around to look at Nick. "Yeah, what did he do that's so funny?" She asked, wanting to know as well.

Aaron looked over at Nick, wondering the same thing.

"Nothing," Justin mumbled as he stood up and rubbed more at his butt before grabbing his sweats and putting them on before the towel came off. "I hear Kelly in the background," he tried to get off topic. "She came to pick you up?"

"Yeah she did...Eddie and Aaron too." Nick answered but wasn't going to let Justin change the subject that easily. "You better tell me what happened or when I see you next I'm going to tickle you." he threatened knowing how much Justin HATED being tickled.

Justin made a face. "How's Aaron doing?" He asked, still trying to avoid telling Nick what embarrassing thing he just did and hoping that Nick would forget to tickle him when he did get home in a few weeks time.

"Not going to work," Nick giggled glancing at Aaron wondering the same thing for himself.

Justin sighed. "I fell," he simply replied.

Nick bit his lower lip trying not to laugh knowing Justin was embarrassed. "You're okay though?" he asked now sounding worried. "Didn't damage anything important?"

"My ass broke my fall," Justin replied. "I'm alright though... you guys... heading home or something?" he asked when it sounded like they were outside.

"We're driving to McDonald's cuz Aaron's hungry." Nick replied and then looked at Aaron again wondering if the boy really could hold down Mickey D's.

"That's good, right?" Justin asked. "At least he's eating and stuff, getting healthy and all."

"Uhh....yeah," Nick said not sure if that was true or not. "When are you going to bed?" he asked wanting to call Justin back once he was back home so they could talk more.

"Um... like at 11 or so?" Justin shrugged. "You gotta go?"

"We're almost to Mickey D's and I wanted to be able to talk to you more." Nick said meaning he wanted to talk to Justin without a car full of people listening.

"Well, okay," Justin said. "I'll talk to you later then..."

"Most definitely...love you baby." Nick said with a smile on his face.

"Aww," Eddie said loudly enough for Justin to be able to hear, giggling.

"Tell Eddie to shut up," Justin replied before saying, "I love you too Nick. Bye."

Nick closed his phone and stuck it back in his pocket. "Justin says shut up." he told Eddie laughing.

"Yeah well tell him to shove it up his ass," Eddie said playfully back.

Kelly rolled her eyes not bothering to comment on that. "Look's like we're here..." She said as Eddie pulled into the drive-thru at McDonald's.

Aaron gulped as he got a whiff of the smell that usually surrounds a McDonald's, his stomach making weird tumbles and turns. He wasn't sure if he wanted to eat but he was craving it.

"I'll have a number 3 with a coke." Nick replied then looked at Aaron wondering what he wanted. "Bro?"

"Um," Aaron took in a deep breath and immediately regretted it. Coughing a little he asked for two large fries, a chocolate shake, and barbeque sauce.

Eddie went about making their orders and drove up to the window he was told to go to.

Nick was really getting worried now, "Aaron...are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," Aaron replied as he waited for Eddie to pass his order back. He shot Nick a small smile that didn't quite reach his eyes.

"How about we come back to mine and Kel's place first so Aaron can get his stuff?" Eddie suggested as he headed in that direction. "Then you guys can go home if you want to."

Nick nodded, "Sounds good..." he said having a feeling he needed to have a talk with his brother.

Aaron stared at his food for a few moments realizing it would be better if he ate alone. His hands were shaking a little too much.

Once they were at Kelly's and Eddie's house Aaron quickly hopped out and went about getting his stuff together, which wasn't much but as he made his way back to the car he started to look to his bag, knowing he wouldn't find what he was looking for but still hoping by some miracle it would appear.

Soon Nick and Aaron were dropped off and alone at their house. Nick sighed as he walked into the huge house, dropping his bag in the entry hall. This place always seemed so huge and sometimes even cold without Justin in it.

"I'mma go up to my room," Aaron said heading towards the stairs with his food and backpack.

"I just get home and you're not even going to eat with me?" Nick asked with a raised eyebrow.

Aaron shrugged. "You'll be okay," he said as he disappeared up the stairs and into his room. After he set his food on the bed and his backpack on the floor he walked over to the door and closed it before running his hands through his hair. Finally, a little bit of privacy. He then crawled on to his bed, shakily, and carefully pulled his food out of the bag popping in one fry at a time.

Nick knew something was wrong now and there was no way he was going to let Aaron get away with this. He had heard the things he had been doing to Kelly and Eddie...having a major attitude. Well he wasn't going to do that with him. Leaving his food on the back of the couch, Nick stomped upstairs and walked right into Aaron's room. "We're going to talk."

"Hey... you can't barge into my room like that," Aaron scowled. "Haven't you ever heard of knocking?"

"You should be happy I even let you have a door." Nick stated closing the door behind him. "Teenagers who get themselves addicted to drugs don't get special privileges like privacy."

Aaron narrowed his eyes at his brother. "OH just shut up and go back to Canada," he said as he forcefully dunked his fry into his barbeque sauce and stuffed it into his mouth.

"What is it a crime for me to eat in my room?" He asked with his mouthful.

"What is THAT supposed to mean?" Nick asked with a raised eyebrow, wondering what Aaron meant with the 'go back to Canada' bit.

"What is what supposed to mean?" Aaron asked, sipping his shake. "You know what? Never mind, can we talk later...I kinda wanna eat and sleep in peace."

Nick shook his head, "No because we need to talk about the way you acted when you were staying with Ed and Kel."

"What are you talking about?" Aaron asked.

"Kelly told me you were being a little asshole to her and Eddie." Nick said not happy about this at all. "I know we were raised like shit but I do remember learning respect and how to act in somebody else's house."

"I was NOT being an asshole!" Aaron protested. "Not my fault they got sick of me."

"Cursing at them...always hiding in your room and sneaking out of the house more then once seems pretty shitty to me." Nick stated, hands on his hips.

"I wanted fresh air," Aaron defended himself. "And I wanted to get it alone and they wouldn't leave me alone... so I had to sneak out."

"I told them to not let you alone!" Nick practically yelled. "Your doctor told us to not let you out." he said this time sounding a little sad. "You're a recovering addict Air...you're lucky they let you come home rather then sending you some place to get off that shit!"

"Fuck you Nick," Aaron yelled right back as he got on his knees on the bed. "Does it look like I'm fucking using again? And where the fuck would I even get my hands on drugs anyways? I don't know this city and sure as hell don't know anyone here. Get the hell off my case!"

"I never said you were using again!" Nick yelled right back. "I'm only trying to protect you!"

"Then stop fucking treating me like I'm sneaking out to do just that!" Aaron screamed before taking in a shaky breath. "You know what would be a good way to protect me... stop treating me like a little kid and give me my fucking privacy, that would be good." He flopped back down and shoved a handful of fries into his mouth.

Nick sighed looking down at his feet for a second. "I'll go...but can you answer one question for me?" he asked looking at Aaron with sad eyes.

"What?" Aaron asked as he swallowed hard, and getting a wave of nausea."

"Do you really want to live here with Justin and I?" Nick asked, having a feeling the boy wasn't happy staying with him and that made his heart ache badly.

Aaron nodded his head slowly and he opened his mouth to say 'yes' but his hand came up quickly to clasp it closed as he bolted past Nick and out the door over to the bathroom just in time to puke everything into the toilet.

Nick made a face at the noises Aaron was making before he followed him inside the bathroom. He left Aaron to himself as he grabbed him a glass of water and wet a wash cloth for when he was done, wanting to give him some privacy.

A few minutes later and few dry heaves later Aaron rested his head on the toilet seat and took in deep breaths. His throat was hoarse and his head was throbbing.

"Here," Nick said as he handed Aaron the glass of water and then used to wash cloth on Aaron's neck and forehead. It was his job to take care of the boy now and he was going to do just that even though he didn't seem to want the help.

Aaron didn't push him off but he did rinse his mouth and spit into the toilet. Falling backwards he let Nick flush the toilet and moved the wash cloth over his face, needing something cold. He was feeling way too hot.

"Lift your arms," Nick said gently his fingers holding onto the bottom of Aaron's t-shirt. He had been through all of this before and knew what to do.

Aaron groaned as he moved away from Nick. "I'm fine," he said in a scratchy voice. "Just leave me alone."

"Why won't you let me help you?" Nick exclaimed.

"Because it's easier for you to give me to someone else while you leave me alone," Aaron said as he pushed himself up on shaky legs, using the wall to steady himself and for balance. He walked to the sink and splashed some cold water on his face, breathing heavily.

Things were all of a sudden making a lot more sense, Aaron was pissed at him for leaving. "You know I couldn't help leaving a few days ago. It was only supposed to be overnight...I didn't expect to be gone that long."

"Whatever," Aaron said. "Can you please leave now?" He asked, still hovering over the sink as he stared at the water filling up.

"Yeah...but please come out and talk to me later." Nick said as he headed out of the bathroom and then out of Aaron's bedroom. With a sigh he headed over to his own room and picking up the phone dialing Justin's number.

"Hi," Justin said when he answered his cell at the same time closing the tomorrow's script that he was reading.

"Hey baby," Nick said sounding a lot sadder then he had the last time they had talked.

Justin immediately sat up straighter. "Is everything alright?" He asked, worried with the way Nick sounded.

"To answer your question from earlier, Aaron is doing shitty." Nick said reaching up to rub at his eyes that were threatening to spill tears.

Justin closed his eyes. "How shitty?" He asked.

"He's testy...with-drawling..." Nick whispered and then sighed. "...Pissed at me..." he added.

"Why's he pissed at you?" Justin asked. He'd gotten off the phone with Kelly when Eddie had taken Aaron and Nick home. He'd gotten a full list of things Aaron had been doing while living with them.

Nick sniffled tears falling down his cheeks no matter how much he wanted them to stop, "He's pissed at me because I left him..."

"Shit," Justin mumbled under his breath, feeling guilty now. "Nick, he's probably just needs something or someone to take his aggression out on... I mean with the withdrawals, he probably has no other outlet..."

"I know," Nick said thinking back to his own experience, the only difference was he didn't have anybody he has been alone in his rundown apartment. The worst thing he could do was throw things against the wall.

Justin scrubbed a hand through his hair. "What's he doing now?" he asked.

"I left him in the bathroom washing his face after puking his guts out." Nick said sniffling again. "Why did this have to happen to him...he's my baby brother...why?"

"I don't know," Justin answered. "But I do know that he's very lucky to have a big brother like you and despite what he says I know he's grateful for it. I'm sure in the end, he'll thank you for sticking with him... these are hard times for him..." He trailed off not really sure what the hell he was saying.

"I know he does...and he's already told me he wants to live with us. It's just so hard to see him like this." Nick said rubbing at his eyes some more.

"I know," Justin said. "But hopefully this won't last too long..." He was thinking about the court case that would be coming up in a few weeks.

"I sure hope not," Nick said thinking about himself. "It took me a good 10 days." He said still finding it weird to be talking to Justin about this. He had never gone into details about his drug addiction before now and he knew Justin was probably curious.

"Really?" Justin asked a bit surprised but seeing that Nick didn't have anyone to help him that was pretty impressive. "I still can't imagine you going through all that."

"It seems like a whole other lifetime and sometimes feels like it happened to a totally different person." Nick admitted. "Until something triggers me and cravings hit." he said having a feeling that would shock Justin...that he still got them.

"How long ago was this again?" He asked, wondering.

"I got clean when I was nineteen." Nick answered.

"And you're still get cravings five…no, seven, no," he paused to count off on his fingers. "Six years later?" He then shook his head and thought about alcoholics and supposed once an addict it would be a battle for the rest of your life. He sighed. "Wow."

"Nothing like they used, to be just if I'm around it and stuff." Nick exclaimed and then sighed. "NOTHING like Aaron is goring through right now."

"Okay sorry," Justin said feeling bad.

Nick's face scrunched up in confusion. "Why are you sorry?"

"I don't know... for everything I guess. I know it's not my fault but still... I wish I could be of more help."

"You talking to me is enough help." Nick said with a small smile. "I just love talking to you."

"Well, okay... but I meant actually doing something..." Justin said with a sigh and stretched.

"You sure DID something this morning," Nick said changing the subject as he too lied down, his hand resting on his stomach.

Justin blushed as he thought back to that morning before looking beside him on the bed, the spot where Nick had been lying down. He grabbed Nick's pillow and hugged it to his sheet, taking in his boyfriends lingering scent. "I don't really think waking you up with a blow up and breakfast in bed counts," he said in a soft voice.

"I still enjoyed it," Nick said with a sigh, really wishing they weren't a country apart again.

"Good to know," Justin said, smiling.

That reminded Nick of something and laughed, "Kelly gave me that 'We are so going to talk' look today when I had a dreamy look on my face and Eddie mentioned I looked like I had just been laid." he said laughing a little. "I think she is going to be the typical girl and get me to be the same...anything you don't want me to spill?"

Justin scratched his head, biting his lower lip. "She kinda... um, I kinda... well, she pulled it out of me when she called me earlier."

Nick giggled, "Oh good you got to be girly and spill...so now you gotta tell me what you told her."

"Nothing too detailed," Justin said, not feeling right kissing and then telling about it. "Just said that we made love and that's all that she needed to know on that topic before I told her the places that we went and stuff."

"Yeah she doesn't need to know details cuz I sure as hell don't wana know details of her sex life." Nick said making a face. He then thought of something. "I wonder if she and Ed have even done it yet..." he said contradicting what he had just said.

"Are you sure she hasn't already turned you into a girl?" Justin asked, laughing.

"I already am one," Nick giggled but really wondering now if Kelly and Eddie had done it. They were waiting especially since Kelly's fall out with Marty and the huge mess himself and Justin had gotten into with her, plus the doctors telling her not to after the miscarriage. "I'm going to have to ask her that." he said with a nod of his head.

"Mhmm," Justin said shaking his head.

"Whatcha wearing?" Nick asked just being a butt.

"T-shirt and sweats," Justin said, making a face as he remembered his tumble earlier.

"Your ass okay?" Nick asked trying not to giggle.

"Yeah," Justin said. "The pain subsided a few minutes back." He joked.

"I could make it hurt in a good way," Nick whispered seductively just playing around...but the thought did make his dick stir a little in his jeans.

Justin chuckled. "I'm sure..." he trailed.

Nick thought about that a second, "But I'm perfectly happy with YOU making me hurt in a good way."

Justin smiled to himself as he adjusted himself in his sweats. "I'm glad... So, um, you should go check on Aaron, just to make sure he's okay."

"I told him to come to me when he's ready; I have a good feeling he will." Nick said not wanting to hang up with Justin yet.

"I see," Justin said.

"Are you trying to get rid of me?" Nick asked playfully pouting.

"No, I just wanted to make sure he's okay since it's been a while since you left him in the bathroom..." Justin trailed off. "What are YOU wearing?"

Nick laughed, "The same thing I was wearing when I left you this morning. My worn light jeans and the black hoodie you said made me look like the grim reaper."

Justin chuckled and then turned serious. "Did you get the feeling someone was following you?"

"A little at the Toronto airport but things seemed fine here." Nick admitted.

"Good," Justin let out a breath of relief. 'So, whoever it was following him,' he thought to himself.

"Can we go back to the 'what are you wearing' thing." Nick laughed. "It's less scary and depressing."

"Yeah, sorry," Justin said. "Well, get out of that grim reaper outfit and either stay naked or change into something more nicer."

"More nicer?" Nick giggled. "Nice grammar baby." he said and then stripped the sweat shirt over his head so he was just in his wife beater and jeans. "But you like these jeans. You say they hug me in all the right places."

"Yeah, but I'm not there to see you in them," Justin pouted.

"You wouldn't be here to see me if I took them off either," Nick pointed out giggling as he undid the top button of the button fly jeans.

"True," Justin said. "I gotta get you a camera phone…Yup."

"Or a web cam," Nick said with a smirk on his face. "You need one too…yup."

"Yeah," Justin reached for his laptop and turned it on. "We do... so, are you naked yet?"

"You have a webcam?" Nick asked with wide eyes, not knowing that.

Justin scrunched up his face as he shook his head. "No, I don't, at least not for my laptop... not yet anyways... but I have them for my desktops at home," he answered.

"So you're going to watch ME...and I don't get to watch you?" Nick asked pouting as he got up anyway to go switch on the desktop they had in their bedroom.

It took a few minutes for what Nick was thinking to sink in and Justin chuckled. "Okay," he said, "Not what I was thinking but not complaining here." He logged onto his messenger service before opening up his browser to look for cell phones and webcams, which was the main reason he'd booted up his laptop.

Nick got confused, "What were you thinking about?" he asked pausing in turning on the monitor.

"I was thinking about looking at some cell phones with cameras in them," Justin replied. "But since you brought up the webcam and me getting to watch you..."

Nick blushed bright red once again feeling like the horny freak that jacked off...Justin didn't. "Oh well...we don't...I mean I don't..." he sighed sitting down at the desk chair trying to get over the extreme bout of embarrassment.

Justin frowned. "Nicky, I love you, alright?" He said. "Why are you getting all flustered for?"

"I always think of the really crazy horny stuff...and assume and that's not what you meant and then I feel dumb." Nick rambled still feeling just that.

"You shouldn't," Justin reassured him. "I mean, I don't think of you like that..."

"I just assume too much," Nick whispered letting a small sniffle slip in even though he didn't want it to.

"But in this case, it's not bad at all," Justin tried. "I'm not against it... heck, I'm a little eager," he laughed. "Haven't really done much of anything through the internet before..."

"But it wasn't what you meant," Nick whispered as he leaned over to push the monitor on anyway.

"Sooo?" Justin asked, not getting the point.

"I always think sex in everything it seems...even when it's not what you mean. I'm a horny freak." Nick whined watching the computer screen turn on.

Justin laughed. "How long had you gone without sex?" he asked.

"Uhh like six years or something." Nick said. "Before Kelly..."

Justin cleared his throat. "Yeah... six years... I don't think I would have lasted that long without sex... I would have gone sex crazy or something, and now ... I mean, if I were in your shoes... I'd be the same way."

Nick laughed a little, "Yeah well I guess for both our sakes its good we don't have to go without sex for that long...hmm"

"Yeah..." Justin agreed.

"So you really wana do this?" Nick asked once the computer was booted up and he opened up messenger signing into his own screen name.

"Yeah," Justin said, smiling when he saw Nick log on.

"How does the webcam work?" Nick asked looking up at the camera sitting on top of the monitor.

"Open the IM box," Justin said. "And there should be an icon that represents the webcam... click on it and invite me to view you."

"I don't know if I want you to view me you could be a scary stocker person." Nick teased as he opened the IM box and then clicked the webcam like Justin said.

"Oh yeah, and this coming from the guy that dresses like a grim reaper," Justin chuckled and then click on the invite before smiling wide when he saw a portion of Nick's head come into view. "Baby, focus the camera on you..."

"What part of me?" Nick teased as he reached up and started messing with the camera. "Tell me when it's good."

"Good," Justin said a few moments later. "Perfect."

Nick dropped his hand down then looked around on the desk obviously searching for something. "Now where did that go," he mumbled.

Justin growled when Nick went out of the webcam range. "Hey... where'd you go?"

"I'm trying to find the headset to the phone." Nick said as he stuck his ass out as he bent over to look under the desk now his ass was the only thing in view.

"Well, okay, take your time," Justin said watching the screen and Nick wiggling his ass. "I'm sure it's somewhere on the floor..."

"I don't get why it would be on the floor..." Nick said being the blonde he was really thinking that was where it was.

"Me neither," Justin said with a shrug. "But keep looking."

Nick stood up and ended up bonking his head on the desk. "Owie!"

Justin made a face as his own hand reached and rubbed the spot on his head where Nick hit his head. "Ow, that's gotta hurt."

"Ouch," Nick said again rubbing his head with a pout on his face. It was then he noticed the headset sitting on TOP of the desk. "Hey I thought you said they were down there!"

Justin put on an innocent face. "I have no idea what you're talking about."

Nick raised an eyebrow giving Justin a confused look. "Okay...well hold on a sec." he said as he put the phone down and got the headset hooked up and put it on his head. "Okay now I'm hands free."

Justin couldn't help but smile at Nick. He was cute when confused and gorgeous at all other times. "Yay! Hey, you're still clothed..."

"Am I not supposed to be?" Nick asked playing dumb. "People actually go to the computer without their clothes on?"

"No and yes," Justin answered both questions. "Well... some people do," he added to the second answer.

"Hmm...And you want me to be one of those people?" Nick asked with a raised eyebrow.

"If you don't mind," Justin replied, not wanting to do it if Nick didn't want to.

Nick laughed, "Oh I suppose I don't mind..." he said as he stripped his wife beater over his head and smirked at the camera, "That good?"

"Yeah, but the dumb desk is blocking my view of everything past your stomach," Justin replied.

Nick thought for a second and then scooted back in the chair. "Did that help?"

"Yeah and you got your jeans on," Justin pointed out

"I do...thought you would want to watch me take them off." Nick said seductively as he let his right hand trail down his chest and then start slowly unbuttoning his button fly jeans.

"I watch, yeah," Justin agreed eyes glued to the screen. Really, these things should come with a record button so he could record it and watch later. "And you be sexy."

"Do I even have to try to be sexy?" Nick teased as he got his jeans undone then lifted his hips so he could pull them off. Like always he wasn't wearing any underwear underneath.

"No... You just being you is sexy enough." Justin took in a deep breath. "No wonder why your ass looked as good as it did," he mumbled under his breath when he noticed Nick had gore commando.

Nick smirked as he tossed his jeans to the side, now sitting on the chair totally naked. "You like what you see?"

"When do I not?" Justin asked as he fluffed a few pillows behind to relax against before getting comfortable.

"What do you want me to do baby?" Nick asked licking his lips. He was semi hard already but nothing major.

"Touch yourself?" Justin suggested as he pushed down his sweats a bit and pulled out his own semi hard cock.

Nick swallowed hard, getting a little more turned on just thinking about it. He didn't reach down to touch his cock though, instead he let his fingers move along his chest pinching his nipples, picturing Justin's teeth doing it instead of his own fingers.

Justin licked his lips, thinking back to just this morning when he'd had his lips and tongue and teeth all over Nick. His breathing hitched as he continued to stroke himself leisurely.

"Are you touching yourself too?" Nick asked his voice getting huskier as his hands moved their way down to his lap.

"Yeah," Justin answered and then clarified. "I'm actually stroking myself..."

Nick groaned his eyes going shut as he pictured Justin doing just that. His own hand taking a hold of himself and started to gently stroke.

Justin watched Nick tilt his head back as he stroked himself. In a low voice he said, "If I were there... I'd be kissing down your neck, licking it back up and sucking on your Adam's apple." He flicked his thumb over the slit and continued to move up and down his organ.

"Oh god," Nick groaned as his hand sped up a little, his fingers running along the sensitive vane underneath. "So good..."

Justin smiled. "I'd take your nipples in my mouth and tease them just enough to have you writhing under me before I move down to your cock, to suck you off." He worked a bit faster on himself. "You like it when I you suck off Nicky?"

Nick swallowed hard before his mouth opened more to get as much air into his lungs as he could. "Yeah...so much." he said and then licked his lips. "I'm going to pull your hair just the way you like it...if you do."

"Wouldn't want it any other way," Justin replied. "And you know what it does to me, you tugging on my hair while you fill my mouth."

Nick moaned thinking about how good that felt with Justin did that. His fingers moved along his slit collecting the pre-cum there. "It feels so good baby...your mouth always feels so good."

"My tongue... how about that?" Justin asked. "How about when I lick up the vein on the underside? Or when I lick through the slit on the tip and keep going at it. You like that?" He asked as his fingers traced the vein and flicked over the slit.

"Mmm...Yeah," Nick moaned letting his fingers do what Justin was explaining. "I'm still tugging on your hair...is it turning you on baby?"

"Mhmm," Justin replied. "Hold on a second." He quickly reached for the earplug and connected it to his cell before moving his laptop onto the bed beside him before getting comfortable again.

"Whatcha doing?" Nick asked wanting to know what Justin was doing to himself.

"I'm stroking myself," Justin replied, a bit breathless. "And now I'm massaging my balls."

Nick groaned just picturing that. "Does it feel good...can you imagine that it's me touching you like that?"

"Yeah, I can," Justin said. "And it feels good... so good."

Nick brought his left hand up to his mouth and sucked his fingers inside wondering if Justin would get what he was about to do.

Justin's eyes were glued on Nick's fingers in Nick's mouth. Nick's tongue licking at the fingers and sucking and... "Nicky..." He breathed out as he watched the fingers slowly heading south, Nick's legs spreading. "Oh shit!" He stroked himself faster.

Nick used his middle and his pointer finger and pushed them inside of him as he continued to stroke himself with his right hand. "Oh god..." he moaned picturing it was Justin inside of him hitting his spot and making him feel so good. "Justin...baby...hmmm"

"God... so tight... so hot," Justin said remembering how Nick felt around his fingers... around his cock, "Nicky... so close."

"Me too..." Nick groaned as his fingers in his ass and on his dick picked up speed.

A few more minutes later Justin grunted as his orgasm washed through him. Relaxing against the bed he panted and watched Nick on the screen with a lazy smile on his face.

Nick could hear Justin orgasm and it was only a minute later before he was doing the same, crying out Justin's name as he shot his load on his own chest and hand.

Justin reached his clean hand out and traced Nick's features that appeared on the screen wishing he could touch him. Letting out a sigh he said, "You look beautiful when you come."

"I...wish I could have...seen you." Nick panted as he tried to catch his breath.

'Mhmm," Justin agreed. "I'll get a webcam for the laptop."

Nick smiled as he reached for a few tissues and wiped himself off. "I guess I should go...make sure Aaron is okay and stuff...and you gotta go to bed." he said really not wanting to say goodnight yet.

Watching Nick cleaning himself up Justin did the same thing. He pulled his sweats back up and sat cross-legged on the bed, looking down at the laptop. "Yeah... I'll talk to you tomorrow though, okay?"

"Of course...I love you baby boy." Nick said blowing Justin a kiss.

Justin made a kissing noise on his end. "Love you too, good night," he said waiting for Nick to disconnect.

Nick disconnected the net and then hung up the phone. He then went about getting dressed and headed down the hall to Aaron's room. "Aaron...you wana go to the boardwalk with me?" he called through the door.

Aaron wasn't in any position to hear Nick because he was lying in bed, twisted in his sheets sweating profusely as he had a really bad dream.

"Aaron?" Nick called knocking on the door again.

Aaron still didn't reply, too lost in his nightmare to hear Nick.

Nick was beginning to panic now. Not wanting to wait any longer he opened the door and rushed in. He saw Aaron was in bed but obviously not having an easy time of it. Walking to the bed he sat down on the edge and shook Aaron. "Aaron...bro...Come on...wake up."

Aaron woke with a start, shooting straight up into a seated position, gasping for air. A few moments of staring straight ahead he blinked and swallowed before running a shaky hand through his damp hair. He then noticed Nick... "What...?" He couldn't get the rest of his question out.

"I knocked...you didn't answer." Nick replied swallowing hard at the way Aaron was looking at him.

"Oh..." Aaron gulped. "Was sleeping, didn't hear you."

"You were having a bad dream?" Nick asked wondering if Aaron would talk about it.

Aaron grabbed his sheet and wiped the sweat of his face. "I... uh, I don't know." He frowned.

Nick took a deep breath, "Aaron I'm sorry about earlier...I'm just not used to having to be your brother and your guardian too. I'm sorry if I was being overbearing and stuff."

Aaron shook his head. "You weren't being overbearing..." he took in a deep breath."I'm the one that's sorry."

"I want to help you...I know what you're going through." Nick said putting an arm around Aaron.

Aaron almost collapsed into Nick's arms, nuzzling his face into his neck. "It's hot in here."

"No it's not you're just having hot flashes." Nick said kissing the top of Aaron's head. "I'm sorry that I left you when you were having these problems. I'm a shitty brother."

Aaron scrunched his face up. "I thought it was for women in their fifties or something?"

Nick laughed, "Or those crazy teenagers going through drug withdrawals."

"Good, for a second there I thought you just referred to me as an old woman." Aaron mumbled, taking in a deep breath and letting it out slowly.

"You wana tell me why you felt the need to get into this shit in the first place?" Nick asked with a raised eyebrow?

Aaron lifted his head that felt way too heavy up and looked at Nick with heavy lidded eyes. "Take a wild guess."

"I wish you would have just told me," Nick whispered wondering if he had always been that shitty of a brother that Aaron felt he couldn't come to him when things were that bad.

"There's nothing TO tell," Aaron said wiggling out of Nick's arms so that he was lying back down on the bed again.

"I meant I wish you would have come to me INSTEAD of going to drugs and sex." Nick said also flopping back on the bed.

Aaron sighed. "They took the pain away," he answered. "It felt really good even if it lasted a little while." He wished he had something right now, something to just get out of this crappy state he was in.

"I know," Nick said with a sigh. "I did it for a good two years."

"I'm tired Nick," Aaron said a few long minutes later.

"You want me to go?" Nick asked thinking that was what Aaron meant.

Aaron shook his head. "No... I feel tired and I can't stop feeling like this. Can you make it go away?"

Nick sighed and shook his head, "I'm sorry bro...The only way you can make it go away is just time." he then thought of something knowing it wasn't good but it had helped him. "I continued to smoke cigarettes when I was trying to get off the heavier stuff...and it helped calm me down some..."

"Oh okay," Aaron said knowing full well Nick wouldn't let him smoke.

"It helps...but I'm not sure I want to let you get addicted to something else to get you off of this stuff." Nick said actually contemplating it a little.

"Does this room come with an air conditioner?" Aaron asked.

"Yeah," Nick said as he got up and walked to turn the air conditioner up a little.

"Thanks," Aaron said kicking the sheets off of him and lying sprawled out on the bed.

Nick headed into the bathroom and came back out with a wet wash cloth. "Here..." he said putting it to Aaron's head.

Aaron placed his hand on top of the towel and let out a content sigh.

"You'll feel better soon...I promise you won't always feel like this." Nick whispered.

Aaron gritted his teeth, "Hopefully."

"You will." Nick said with a smile. "I mean look at me."

"So, should I go and get a job in a bar and wait for hell to freeze over in a few years so Mr. Right could walk in through the bar and all my dreams could be answered?" He joked.

Nick laughed, "I never knew you would be looking for Mr. Right..." he teased.

"I'm not," Aaron said with a shrug. "I'm just saying it."

"I know I'm just teasing," Nick said and then thought of something. "Who knows...you might meet somebody famous."

Aaron snorted. "Sure, thing."

Nick shrugged, "You never know...I mean you've got connections now."

"Okay," Aaron said. "Yeah, I know but... they're all old... no one my age."

"Who says Justin doesn't know girls your age?" Nick asked with a raised eyebrow. "What celebrity would you love to meet?"

"I have no clue," Aaron said. "I never really thought much about celebrities... there are a few cute ones I guess."

"At least one and I'm dating him." Nick said being goofy, sticking his chest out.

Aaron rolled his eyes. "Yeah... good thing he's a nice guy or I wouldn't know WHAT you see in him." He teased.

Nick sighed, missing his 'nice guy'. "Yeah he just has to be away so much."

"You've only known him for a few months," Aaron pointed out. "And during the time he's still getting off his solo career high and venturing out into the movie business...." He shrugged. "Things will probably settle down once he gets himself out there or something."

"I know...and I'm not worried." Nick said then thought more about what had happened the night before and got a shiver.

Aaron felt Nick's shiver and turned his head to look at him, "You cold?"

Nick shook his head, "No...Just thinking about something."

"Good or bad?"

"Not exactly sure..." Nick said with a sigh. "Justin and I were being followed last night."

Aaron frowned. "Doesn't he get followed a lot?"

"Yeah...but this was kinda freaky." Nick said making a face.

"Hmm, like a stalker or something?" Aaron asked.

Nick nodded, "Yeah like that...but we've also gotta be careful cuz of us being seen together."

"Why? I mean, what's the big deal if he's seen with a guy? Need I remind you he was living with four other guys for a few years..."

Nick rolled his eyes, "Yeah it shouldn't matter...but you've seen some of the shit that's in tabloids."

"Yeah, I suppose," Aaron said. "So, you got all that shit about that girl he spent the night with cleared up?"

Nick nodded, "Yeah...she admitted nothing happened."

"Okay, good."

"Yeah I so desperately wanted to believe it wasn't true. I mean nobody wants to believe that the person they love is cheating on them." Nick said running a hand through his hair.

"Well, it wasn't so you got nothing to worry about," Aaron nodded his head. "And if something did happen... I'd have kicked his ass."

Nick laughed, "Yeah well nothing happened...at least not like that."

"Mhmm," Aaron said going back to staring at the ceiling.

"Do you maybe wana go to the beach and the boardwalk tomorrow? Just the two of us?" Nick asked thinking maybe something fun would keep Aaron's mind off of things.

"Got the head doc to see," Aaron said with a groan.

Nick made a face at that too. "What time?"

"Afternoon... at one," Aaron replied.

"Well maybe we can do it after...go down there in the evening." Nick suggested. "It's actually better in the dark...just might be a little cooler."

"Yippy," Aaron said without the enthusiasm. He just couldn't make himself be happy at the moment even if he was looking forward to the fresh air.

Nick sighed, "Or you can stay home and lie in bed all day."

"No, no... I wanna go," Aaron said.

"Okay then," Nick said sitting up. "I'll leave you alone now."

Aaron just nodded his head as he took off the wash cloth from his head and placed it on the nightstand. It was warm. "Night," he mumbled out, getting comfortable.

"Night, Aaron...if you need anything at all you know where to find me." Nick said before he walked out of the room, shutting the door behind him.