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The Testing by Yveva Teslayn "Two
things
I
will
tell
you
now,
that
no
woman
hears
until
she
is
in
this
room.
The
first
is
this.
Once
you
begin,
you
must
continue
to
the
end.
Refuse
to
go
on,
and
no
matter
your
potential,
you
will
be
very
kindly
put
from
the
Tower
with
enough
silver
to
support
you
for
a
year,
and
you
will
never
be
allowed
back."
The
Mistress
of
Novices
was
right,
Shelam
had
never
heard
of
that
requirement.
She
had
come
to
the
tower
at
age
thirteen
after
being
tested,
and
found
to
have
potential
to
learn,
in
Caemlyn.
For
eight
years
Shelam
had
studied
as
a
novice.
Eight
years
of
dishes,
and
errands,
and
classes,
and
more
errands.
But
it
would
all
be
worth
it
to
become
Aes
Sedai.
An
Aes
Sedai,
with
smooth
cheeks,
fringed
shawl,
and
the
ability
to
make
nations
move
at
her
suggestion.
Not
that
she
would
of
course.
The
prospect
of
walking
through
the
arches
did
not
worry
Shelam.
She
had
known
other
novices
who
had
become
accepted,
and
though
they
did
not
speak
of
what
they
had
seen
in
the
arches
they
were
still
alive,
so
it
must
not
have
been
that
terrible.
Besides,
Shelam
would
do
anything,
anything,
to
be
Aes
Sedai.
Born
to
a
minor
house
in
Andor
Shelam
had
visited
the
palace
on
feast
days
and
seen
the
Aes
Sedai
pass
through
Caemlyn’s
streets
on
their
way
to
see
the
Queen
and
her
advisor
from
the
White
Tower.
Oh
to
have
that
majesty
and
serenity.
And
now
she
would!
Well—
soon
she
would…
"Second."
The
Mistress
of
Novices’
voice
cut
through
Shelam’s
reverie,
"To
seek,
to
strive,
is
to
know
danger.
You
will
know
danger
here.
Some
women
have
entered,
and
never
come
out.
When
the
ter’
angreal
was
allowed
to
grow
quiet,
they
were
not
there.
If
you
will
survive,
you
must
be
steadfast.
Falter,
fail,
and…
This
is
your
last
chance
daughter.
You
may
turn
back
now
and
you
will
only
have
one
mark
against
you.
You
may
come
here
twice
more,
and
only
after
refusing
a
third
time
will
you
be
put
from
the
Tower."
Shelam
was
not
afraid,
anxious
to
begin
the
ritual
she
had
been
taught
of
in
the
past
years
yes,
but
not
afraid,
never
afraid.
"I
am
ready."
She
answered
confidently,
with
the
touch
of
deference
Aes
Sedai
required
of
novices.
The
last
time
she
would
answer
as
a
novice.
A
Brown
sister
spoke,
continuing
the
traditional
dialogue
which
had
passed
between
novice
and
Aes
Sedai
in
this
room
thousands
of
times
since
the
Breaking
of
the
World.
"Whom
do
you
bring
with
you,
Sister?"
"One
who
comes
as
a
candidate
for
acceptance,
Sister."
"Is
she
ready?"
"She
is
ready
to
leave
behind
what
she
was,
and,
passing
through
her
fears,
gain
Acceptance."
"Does
she
know
her
fears?"
"She
has
never
faced
them
but
now
is
willing."
"Then
let
her
face
her
fears."
As
she
had
been
told
in
her
class
earlier
Shelam
took
off
her
dress
and
shift
and
approached
the
arches.
"The
first
time,"
intoned
the
Mistress
of
Novices
"is
for
what
was.
The
way
back
will
come
but
once.
Be
steadfast."
Trying
to
move
with
dignity
and
not
show
her
impatience
to
be
Accepted
Shelam
stepped
into
the
first
arch.
The
light
washed
over
her,
and
through
her.
The
blue
sky
stretched
overhead,
it’s
smooth
expanse
occasionally
interrupted
by
a
wisp
of
cloud.
Around
her
the
bright
colors
of
people’s
clothing
seemed
merrier
in
the
sunlight,
and
their
jewelry
sparkled,
casting
lightfae
on
the
people
around
them.
The
crowd
swept
around
her
and
she
laughed.
On
a
day
like
this
how
could
anyone
not
laugh?
The
crowd
shifted
and
suddenly
she
found
herself
in
a
narrow
alleyway.
She
was
about
to
leave
when
she
heard
something.
Something
similar
to
a
muffled
cat’s
meow.
She
loved
animals.
Walking
carefully
in
the
alley,
almost
night
dark
to
her
sun-accustomed
eyes,
she
almost
stepped
on
a
bundle
of
rags.
She
crouched
down
to
get
a
better
look.
The
eyes
still
shone.
She
reached
out
to
close
the
woman’s
eyes,
the
lids
were
warm.
The
woman’s
bodice
glistened
with
something
wet
and
dark.
Her
eyes
were
becoming
more
used
to
the
shadowy
alley.
She
gasped
as
she
made
out
the
smooth
cheeks.
Involuntarily
she
backed
away
from
the
still
form.
Who
could
do
such
a
thing?
The
woman’s
stiff
fingers
were
clenched
around
the
red
fringe
of
her
shawl.
So,
no
one
would
know
to
come.
Something
about
her
hands
seemed
odd,
the
alley
was
dark,
but,
something
about
her
skin--
it
was
blackening.
Yes,
even
now
it
was
darker
than
it
had
been
moments
before.
She
felt
sick,
a
horrible,
twisting,
wrenching
sensation.
She
had
never
felt
such
vileness
before.
The
shadows
in
one
of
the
corners
appeared
to
swirl
together
and
manifest
themselves
into
what
might
be
called
a
human
form.
It
raised
what
on
a
human
would
be
called
an
arm
and
removed
it’s
head
covering.
The
pasty
white
complexion
glimmered
in
the
semi-darkness
and
it
flowed,
for
flowing
could
be
the
only
word
for
it,
effortlessly,
seamlessly
the
black
blade
was
drawn
and
came
flying
toward
her.
…And
it
stopped.
She
could
feel
her
skin
near
the
blade
crawl
and
try
to
escape
it.
The
thing
parted
it’s
lips
and
hissed
a
laugh
which
ran
through
her
and
found
all
the
places
not
already
repulsed
by
the
dead
woman.
Found
them,
and
seemed
to
twist
them
until
by
comparison
the
black
blade
hardly
seemed
foul
at
all.
"I
spare
you,"
it
continued
"I
spare
you
because
my
Master
sees
a
fit
use
for
you
yet.
You
shall
go
to
her,"
he
prodded
the
woman
with
the
toe
of
his
boot,
"Tower."
He
spat
the
word
out
as
if
it
were
disgusting
to
him,
"There
you
shall
be
wrought,
and
brought
to
serve
his
will."
She
began
to
tremble
but
was
too
afraid
to
collapse
on
the
ground.
A
silvery
archway
appeared
behind
it’s
shoulder.
The
way
back
will
come
but
once.
Be
steadfast
The
words
echoed
in
her
mind.
She
had
heard
them
before.
"Yes.
Leave."
It
hissed.
She
felt
drawn
to
the
being,
compelled
to
stare
at
it’s
face,
it’s
horrible,
eyeless
face.
She
was
drawn
to
see
all
of
it.
Everything.
All
of
it’s
distaste
for
her,
it’s
loathing
of
the
dead
woman,
it’s
pain,
it’s
blindness,
and
above
all
it’s
lust
to
hate.
Suddenly
she
was
let
go,
and
she
dove
for
the
silver
arch
without
thinking.
Something
cold
was
pouring
down
on
her.
Shelam
opened
her
eyes
and
saw
the
hem
of
the
Brown
Sister’s
dress.
"You
are
washed
clean
of
what’s…"
"No!"
Shelam
roared
as
she
struggled
to
her
feet,
nothing
could
wash
her
clean,
let
alone
a
symbolic
cup
of
water.
"It
is
evil!
All
is!!
I
will
be
no
more
a
part
of
it!!"
At
the
side
of
the
room
she
saw
her
novice
dress,
still
neatly
folded
–it
had
not
yet
been
replaced
by
an
accepted’s
banded
garment.
She
lunged
for
the
familiar
clothing
and
began
to
stumble
into
it.
"Shelam…"
She
batted
the
woman’s
arm
away
from
her
and
tried
to
button
the
dress,
one
of
the
buttons
popped
off
and
rolled
in
a
slow
circle
on
the
floor.
Fed
up
with
the
buttons
Shelam
lurched
toward
the
door.
The
Mistress
of
Novices
stood
in
front
of
it.
Shelam
attempted
to
push
her
aside
and
found
herself
unable
to
move
as
the
air
around
her
became
solid.
"By
leaving
now
you
turn
your
back
on
the
White
Tower
and
any
hope
you
have
of
becoming
Aes
Sedai.
You
agree
to
leave
in
peace,
say
nothing
of
your
life
here,
and
never
seek
vengeance
on
the
Tower,
either
by
yourself,
or
by
the
formation
of
any
organization
or
army.
You
may
swear
this
or
you
may
continue
through
the
arches
in
order
to
become
Accepted."
The
Mistress
of
Novices
held
a
slim
white
rod
before
her,
the
Oath
Rod.
Choking
on
barely
repressed
sobs
Shelam
placed
her
hands
on
the
Rod.
"I
so
swear."
The
oath
settled
into
her,
making
her
tainted
skin
feel
tight
over
the
filth
it
covered.
Under
her
breath
she
whispered,
"By
the
Light,
salvation,
and
my
hope
of
rebirth
I
swear
to
walk
in
the
Light
and
oppose
all
agents
of
the
Dark."
Her
second
oath
settled
into
her
and
made
the
foul
parts
of
her
feel
even
more
foul,
but
now
there
was
a
speck
of
pure
white
among
all
the
corrupted
blackness.
Then
the
Oath
Rod
was
out
of
her
hands
and
she
suddenly
felt
drained
of
all
her
energy.
She
sank
to
the
floor.
********************
"Where
am
I?"
"At
the
Foolish
Maiden’s
dream,
Ya
do
have
a
pretty
view
of
the
White
Tower
across
the
river
from
yer
winda."
"I
believe
I
am
rested,
will
you
leave
me
so
I
may
dress
alone?
Thank-you."
As
the
chambermaid
left
she
went
over
to
the
peg
on
which
was
hung
a
dress
of
plain
gray
wool,
well
cut
though
not
particularly
attractive.
Looking
in
the
leather
scrip
she
found
a
spare
shift
and
extra
stockings.
At
the
bottom
was
a
purse
filled
with
Ebou
Dari
silver
marks.
"Well,
Ebou
Dar
is
as
good
a
place
to
forget
as
anywhere
else,"
She
sighed.
Wrapping
her
breakfast
bread
she
went
outside
the
Inn.
She
looked
up
at
the
sign.
A young girl in white seemed to have a flame floating above her fingers and she looked impishly at a man dressed in clothing the colors of a forest. Above the sign, behind the Inn the White Tower glinted in the morning light. Turning her back the girl walked south, not looking back. |