| The Storm I stand on the porch of my mind Seeing the storm of pain draw near. I know it's not far off I can tell it will be horrible I fear it already, before it arrives. The windows and doors of my mind's house Get another inspection before the storm hits. I don't want it to get inside I don't want it to get to me I don't want to feel it all through my house. When the storm hits, I watch through my windows. I can see the terrible pain it brings. I know that pain is meant for me It echoes in my house. But my doors and windows are not enough Some seeps through into my house Making me scream Making me yell Making me cry Making me swear to thicken The doors The walls The windows I never want to feel pain again. Sometimes, I look out my windows and doors To see no storm coming. I feel isolated, alone, scared, so I look for other houses. I stand on someone else's porch and knock. They have been through a storm lately So they are nervous too But I am patient. We talk through a crack in the door Slowly widening Until I see a lot of their house But I'm never inside it. I see only what they choose to show me But I can guess about the rest. Soon, I invite them to my house And they often come over. At first, I would throw open my door Showing a lot of my house But it scared people Even when I warned them. So now I talk through my door Or a window Slowly showing the inside of my house But sometimes, I have to close A window or a door To shut someone out I have to act quickly I get mad, and they get mad And the storm appears, quickly heading for my house I slam my windows and doors Once again isolating myself from the pain But when the storm hits this time There is something left on my windows and doors I can't open them all the way So the next time I talk to them I can't show everything I used to The storm wins What I want What I need Is to find someone else Someone who will connect her house With mine So that there will be No doors No windows No walls Between us So storm will ever be able to Keep us apart I'm still looking Cliff D. 11:55 am 6/11/01 |