| Week 29 This feels like the last week before the home stretch. Just past the start of this week, there were only two months until Almond makes a grand entrance. I have no doubt that regardless of how that entrance is eventually made, it will be grand. Nesting is starting to kick in a little more. The nursery has been set up for awhile now, but I went on an eBay spree to pick up a few of the decorator things. I needed another quilt and bumper pad and the pressed wood wall decorations. The decorations cost me more than I would have liked to have spent, but I got the other pieces for a really good deal. It's been a week of ups and downs. The lows are pretty low and the highs pretty high. I feel little like a cliche. Almond is delighting me daily with good strong movement. Of course then I get in the car to drive somewhere and nothing. Which allows for panic to tease at the edges of my consiousness. This week, I held myself together pretty most of the time. The highlight of my week came at my doctor appointment. This was the first appointment signaling the begining of the end. An end that is becoming very real. As of this week, I start going to the doctor every week. This would be very early in a normal pregnancy. Although this pregnancy is truly normal, Mom does not feel normal and therefore must be treated accordingly. My mom went with me to the appointment because I would be having the one hour glucose test, the appointment was a little later in the morning and Dylan cannot really take off the extra time especially with the appointment being later. Everything went smoothly and the big news is that my doctor has officially ordered the 4D ultrasound. I am so excited to have this done. The 4D ultrasound is so new that there are only 2 in the state of Minnesota. One is within the same health system that my doctor is in and therefore will accept me to have the ultrasound done. We will get to see exactly what the baby looks like and I will definitely post pictures. In the next couple of weeks I'll call to ask the hospital if it's possible to bring a video to tape the ultrasound as it's being done. My doctor was less than thrilled about ordering the ultrasound. It had been his intention to order a final ultrasound, just not necessarily the 4D. He is the type of doctor that tends to believe that just because we have all of this technology does not necessarily mean that we need all of this technology. It's not that he's against it, just not sure that the 4D ultrasound will tell us any more than a regular ultrasound, for example. He ordered that particular ultrasound to make me feel better. In the end, all that matters is that we will get a chance to make sure the baby is doing well and get a good look at the umbilical cord to make sure that it is doing well. It is still obvious to me that I'm very much on the edge with regard to my emotions. On Saturday, I worked at Bath & Body Works. When I got there, the manager working asked me to change from the black shirt that I was wearing, into a white shirt. Apparently a district manager had been in the previous weekend while I was working and had been upset that I was wearing a black shirt. It had been my understanding that the dress code was black or white shirts and it is actually only white shirts. I cried all the way home. She hadn't been rude or mean when she asked me to change and she didn't scold me for wearing the wrong color shirt, but the whole situation just struck a chord. It took awhile for me to calm down enough to go back to the store. I had to make a conscious decision to be in a better mood. It worked for the most part, but the strength of my emotional response to that incident, threw me. On the pregnancy front itself, I gained another 5 pounds, which does not bode well for keeping my weight to at or under what I delivered Matthew at. I'm not worried at all about the results of the glucose test, although I think my hemoglobin might show that I'm slightly anemic. I've been so tired lately that I sometimes can't think straight. This would only mean that I may have to take iron supplements. I'd rather not. It's apparent that I definitely need some new maternity pants. The ones that I currently own are all a little or a lot too short. Okay, not all of them. I do have one pair of black pants that is long enough. The rest are either cullots or pseudo clam diggers. I could get away with the short style during warm weather, but now that the temps are dropping, my pants hemlines need to follow suit. Maybe I'll be shopping for them next week. It's hard to go shopping for maternity clothes that I know I have less than two months to wear. For the most part I've been able to shop the discount and clearance racks. This makes buying the clothes a little easier. I'm feeling much more pregnant lately. With Almond moving so much and the size of my belly increasing rapidly, I'm enjoying being pregnant. It has taken a long time to get to the point of actual enjoyment. This isn't to say that I've disliked being pregnant, only that I have not had that truely joyful, pregnant lady glow. I still worry a great deal that everything will not be okay. Even while I'm worrying, I'm enjoying the knowledge that everything is okay for right now. This moment is good and I want to make sure that I remember this moment and all the other really good moments. The ones that are just mine and Almonds to have together, before I will have to share with everyone else who already loves this wonderous, mysterious little being calling my belly home for nine months or so. |