I wish people would stop telling me
That these are gonna be
The best years that I'll ever see

I wish someone would just say
Things are gonna be okay
Tomorrow is a better day

But I'm told to hold on to now
Not to let these golden days pass by
Excuse me if I'm wrong here
Just wondering why
Why should I hold onto today?

What is that I'm living for?
Report cards and S.A.T. scores?
I know there must be something more

In the mirror all I see
Is someone impersonating me
Asking who I'm gonna be

But I'm told to hold on to now
Not to let these golden days pass by
Excuse me if I'm wrong here
Just wondering why
Why should I hold onto today?

And all the sinking feelings of life as it is
Are swallowing me whole as I seek to gain control
My goals and my priorities aren't what I wish that they could be
Who's calling the shots when I know that I'm not?
Who am I trying to please?
Who am I trying to be?

What's the benefit of now?
The great things everyone else has found?
I'm only feeling gagged and bound

But I'm told to hold on to now
Not to let these golden days pass by
Excuse me if I'm wrong here
Just wondering why
Why should I hold onto today?

It's later than it seems to me
And I'm wishing you were here
I look around and all I see
Are reminders of having you near
In a picture lying next to me
Your eyes are searching mine for words
When I said them I had this feeling you never heard

So I shouted out as loud as I could
I tried the things I knew you would
Still it always was the same
It's all my fault, I'll take the blame
I fought the things I knew you'd fight
Did what I thought you'd think right
Still it never seemed to change
I'll always be to blame

Distance grew before there was any
Clocks ticked once more, then froze in time
I was counting sheep in my bedroom
It's eleven o'clock; it feels like nine
Trying to distract myself
I twiddled my thumbs; read a book
A word in each sentence reminded me
Of all that you had that once blinded me

So I shouted out as loud as I could
I tried the things I knew you would
Still it always was the same
It's all my fault, I'll take the blame
I fought the things I knew you'd fight
Did what I thought you'd think right
Still it never seemed to change
I'll always be to blame

Distance grew before there was any
It's getting later than it seems
It hasn't been long but I think you've forgotten
Have you forgotten about me?

Falling slowly into what I know I'm supposed to be
Like as I'm getting there I'm pulled back by gravity
I want to crawl but I am hindered by my wings
I need to fall before I can jump up and sing

Down is where I need to be now
A little longer where the shadows overwhelm
To see Your face I must be blinded
And die to myself so I can live to tell

I'm leaning back to be caught in Your love
Unsteady mind reveals all that I dream of
I want to kneel but I feel stronger on my feet
I need Your hand to push me down so I can see

Down is where I need to be now
A little longer where the shadows overwhelm
To see Your face I must be blinded
And die to myself so I can live to tell

Believe me, I want to be closer
Closer to who You want me to be
And as I walk up to meet the Father
I need to feel the weight of being underneath

I think this time we may have dove in
Just a little over our heads
And I think this time you may have thought
You were hearing what He'd said
But all in all it was your own thoughts
Of the way things should be
And all in all you just don't want
To take time to listen to me

So now that we've gone in too deep
How do we climb out
We've dug ourselves a nice little hole
How does this turn around
Listen just a little harder
Learn to swim first in the shallow end
Before we start a revolution
How about starting with our friends

Maybe this time the tides are turning
So are you hearing God's voice
Maybe it's time to realize
The will of God isn't our choice
I'll tell you where I think we're going
Where is it that we should be
When you've figured that one out
Be sure to inform me

They never had a face before
The victims never had a name
Another sad story on the news
This time it's you

They said, "They must have been bad seeds."
Not knowing, I said I agreed
But when the names were introduced
I knew I'd been unfair to you
I never meant to let you down

They never had a face before
The victims never had a name
Another sad story on the news
This time it's you

So many thoughts went through my head
What was the last thing that I said
Did I tell you much you mean
Without you I'll be incomplete
Did I tell you how I felt

And you won't walk through the door
You won't sleep over anymore
You are in God's hands
Still I don't understand

They never had a face before
The victims never had a name
Another sad story on the news
This time it's you

I don't really want to talk to you right now
Bit I'm going to 'cause I can't turn you down
What's this feeling I have towards my best friend
When it feels like we've reached a dead end

And all that's in your mind is something else
And all that I can think is just get over yourself
And the attitude I have I know isn't right
But this is the battle I refuse to fight

'Cause I know if I win it's over
And I know if I lose it's over again
So I won't try to argue, I won't fight this battle
I'll be the old complacent friend

I don't think you see all the hurt I'm holding in
Or the fact that the ice I'm skating on is getting thin
For every time I've felt that you aren't hearing my voice
I can only stop and wonder who's making the wrong choice

And all that's in my mind is questioning myself
And all that you can think is about anybody else
And the way that I feel is all because of you tonight
But this is the battle that I'll never fight

'Cause I know if I win it's over
And I know if I lose it's over again
So I won't try to argue, I won't fight this battle
I'll be the old complacent friend

And all that's in our minds is that no one understands
And all that we can think is of a life of unsure plans
And this is what it feels like when we lose our way in life
This is a battle we weren't meant to fight

Take this heart
And this narrow mind
I could use a little
Of Your insight
I've been shallow
And I've been down
When it got deep
I'd always drown

I didn't know
That You were my life preserver
I didn't know
The hold You had on me
I couldn't feel, I couldn't breathe
I wasn't real, I couldn't see
But You brought it all back again
You put life in this dead end

Feed this heart
And this hollow head
I need to know
What You have said
Tempted once
And tempted again
Break me away
From this ugly trend

I didn't know
That You were my life preserver
I didn't know
The hold You had on me
I couldn't feel, I couldn't breathe
I wasn't real, I couldn't see
But You brought it all back again
You put life in this dead end

Every day I do it again
Try to make myself believe everything's alright
And hope that maybe it'll be true
Lord, get me through this awful night

Sometimes I don't feel Your hand upon me
All I feel is the weight on my back
Are You just watching as I'm sinking deeper
Will I look back and say You were in that

Can I just make it through this one day without crying
I'm sick of feeling that while I'm alive I'm dying

Lord, will You take away; Father, please break away
All this depression, oh God, will You make a way?
Lord, will You take away; Father please break away
All this depression, oh God, will You make away?

And I prayed last nite again
Asking for relief from all my pain
The emotions that now control me
I woke up this morning, it's just the same

I fell again
You let me in
Over and over reminding me of
The promises
That You said that You'd give
Over and over and over away

Lord, will You take away; Father please break away
All this depression, oh God, will You make a way?
Lord, will You take away; Father please break away
All this depression, oh God, will You make a way?

I hafta believe that someday I'll look back and laugh
'Cause I don't want to look back still in heartbreak
It seems like I'm getting nowhere and I'm getting there too fast
Too fast for my eyes to adjust
The wind is blowing through my hair
As I speed down the road of life
Hoping someday today will seem like long ago

I want to believe there's something better
That there's a plan that makes my life worth it
Useless as I feel right now
I wanna look back and laugh
At all that troubles me today

A cloud rolls by and examines me
While I stare back with blank expression
Then I see Your face and hope I hear You saying
There's something better on the horizon
Just look past this cloud above you
And someday today will seem like long ago

Another phase of my identity
A round of adolescent nothing-is-fair
I don't believe in all that they all tell me
Yet I have to believe in You
And that there's something better ahead of me
So I can look back and laugh and say
Today seems like it was so long ago

If it comes from You I want it
If it sings Your praise I need it
IF it's all that I can do to keep from crying
Then I'll cry 'cause it's for You

If it's my heart than You are in it
If it's my life Your hand's upon it
If it's the hardest time I'll face
Then I will face it for You

I will face the day for You
I will go out in the world and I will
Be a light, Lord, I will
Be a light

If it comes from You I want it
If it sings Your praise I need it
If it's all I can do to keep from crying
Then I'll cry 'cause it's for You

If it's a journey You are on it
If it's a battle You will win it
If it's cold and uninviting
I will face it for You

I will face the day for You
I will go into the world and I will
Be a light, Lord, I will Be a light