Never knew . . .

I heard it’s hard to not have around you someone you love,

and it’s hard to see someone you love be happy with someone they love,

and I thought it'll be hard to know that the one I love loves another.

But never thought,

that it could be so hard to accept,

that someone so dear to you,

can not only be not yours but fails to have someone else they love,

I can let lose and let go of my love,

but how do I find the courage,

to face that when I let him go to be with her,

she let him go to be with another.

And when I thought I wouldn’t say again I love you,

his ears started yearning to hear it more than ever,

and when I stepped out to never come back,

all others for whom I sacrificed my love,

as well faded away.

It was never so hard,

never so painful to admit,

that the love I could never have,

failed to have the love he wanted over mine.

I thought I’d bear sorrow,

and let him be happy,

I thought I’d move on,

and let him be merry.

But I dare not look back to see,

that his eyes are afloat in tears,

and his gaze tied to the door,

awaiting not the whispers of his beloved angel,

but my footsteps soon after I walked off.