Wish could bleed today

I wish I could bleed today,
cry today,
weep today,
prostrate and beg,
kneel and plead.
If I could let lose what I hold within,
let out all bound within,
let you know,
let myself free.
If only I could breath again,
breath again to live again,
and live again,
to live alive.
My breaths strangled,
I feel deprived,
lost and alone,
yeah I know.
I know you won’t know,
and I know there will never be ,
a brighter day,
a better tomorrow,
I know it’s a downward spiral,
and I know I won’t change,
and I know I am doomed,
and I know you won’t know,
never would you know,
yet never would you know.