Rating: CF
Disclaimer: Not mine....never will be, but I wish I owned DJE. The song "I Love You" is from Celine Dion's album "Falling Into You"
Spoilers: A little of "Standards of Conduct"
Summary: A good Christmas story about our two JAG lawyers.
AN: Sorry for any mistakes.
Archive: Just ask, please.
AND NOW......
They ate for a long while and throughout the room you could here the laughter and joy in all of them. They all finished eating and proceeded into the living room to sit down and chat as music played in the background.
Harriet played a CD with slow music to start the night off. Partners gathered and began to dance slowly to the music. Bud asked Harriet, Sturgis grabbed Verese, and Coats danced with her new boyfriend. Harm glanced at Mac and walked over to her near the fireplace.
"Would this young lady be interested in dancing with a squid?" He shot his flyboy smile at her.
"I would love to dance with you."
Harm stretched his palm to her and she accepted it with ease. Their fingers laced together, they walked to the middle of the living area. Harm looked at her lovingly and pulled her close. Mac didn't think twice about getting comfortable with him. Whatever it was that was happening between them, it felt so natural and so right. She settled herself against his body. Harm's hand was locked with Mac's and his left hand rested lightly on the small of her back. She finally rested her head on Harm's chest where she could hear his heart beat frantically.
They danced to many songs, but the one that they were currently swaying to was the one that really had some hidden message for both of them. As the song began, Harm held on more tightly onto Mac. She nestled closer to him and enjoyed his warmth.
I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But when I think of you
I long to feel your touch
It was apparently no secret to anyone that these two were completely taken by each other. The looks that were transmitted by them sometimes said it all, they both longed to hold each other, to love each other. And maybe they were dreamers, but their dreams were only of each other.
To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine
Oh how Harm dreamed that he could hold her in his arms every night and everyday and whisper words of love in her ear. He longed to whisper in the middle of the night to her that he loved her.
Mac could see herself whispering to him all of the little things that would show him her unconditional love for him. She would tell him words that no other person in her life has ever had the privilege to hear. Words that would come deep from within her heart. Her heart, the most important part of her that Harm secretly owned.
I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should've made my move when you looked in my eyes
`Cause by now I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you lie here by my side
The countless of minutes, the hours, the days, and the years that they wish they could have back. If only they could go back to fix things that very first year, heck the very first day.
Harm whispered in Mac's ear as he moved with her around the room, oblivious of the rest of their friends. "If I could do it all again, I would do things so differently." Mac, unable to respond to his words, simply held on tighter and embraced the moment.
Both of them knew deep down how the other felt, but for fear of rejection, for fear of putting their friendship in jeopardy, they both chose to ignore that knowledge. How wrong they had been in doing that. They would be in a different situation if they hadn't, that's for sure.
I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives for ever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time
Mac pulled away and looked up at Harm just as he gazed down at her. They smiled at each other. Each conveying the message of the song, and understanding what they were each saying, they both smiled. They didn't speak the words out loud, but they didn't have to. The meaning of their look reached down to both of their souls and told them everything they needed to know. That was how deep their friendship ran and how beautiful their love was.
So today, I finally find the courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move when I finally get to it
Just like a thousand times before
What was the saying? `If at first you don't succeed, lift yourself up and try again'. How many times had they been so close, right to the point where one or both of them were willing to admit their love? But how many times out of those thousand had they actually succeeded in declaring their feelings? This was the time to start off fresh. No arguing, no significant others, no undercover missions. Just them. Sure, this was going to be the thousand plus one times they were there, but who knew...maybe this would be the one.
Then without a word he handed me this letter
Then without a word she handed me this letter
Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said
I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives for ever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time
It was time to put aside all fears. Harm looked at Mac and smiled warmly at her. She dropped her gaze to the ground. He lifter her chin with his finger. "Ignore whatever excuse, whatever logic, or whatever reason for us not to be together. Don't be afraid to try one more time, please."
Well maybe I need a little love yeah
And maybe I need a little care
And maybe I, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you
Oh you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out and I'll be there
Mac gently touched his cheek. She nodded. "I'll be there." She whispered.
Harm responded, "I'll hold you." He touched her cheek with the tip of his index finger and gathered her in his arms once again. He continued to dance them around the room as the words to the song sank deeper into their hearts.
I love you, please say
You love me too
Please say you love me too
Till the end of time
These three words
They could change our lives for ever
And I promise you that we will always be together
The rest of the couples also seemed to share secret messages of love with each other as smiles appeared on all of their faces. They all continued to sway to the tempo, letting their minds and bodies drown in the sea of love that the song released.
Oh, I love you
Please say you love me too
Please please
Say you love me too
Till the end of time
I love you
I will be your light
Shinning bright
Shinning through your eyes
As the song ended, Harm and Mac were so wrapped up in each other that they didn't realize the rest of the guests were smiling at them. Harm just held onto her, not wanting to let go. His breathing was fast and he could feel his heart beat in his head. Mac laid her head on his chest and noticed the speed at which his heart was beating. She looked up at him. He leaned down to whisper in her ear with a tone that sent shivers down her spine.
"You're the only one who makes my heart beat this fast."
"Wow...I...I don't know what to say."
"You don't have to say anything Mac."
"I love you."
Harm looked at her with a shocked expression, and yet it was a loving gaze. He turned to excuse them from the room and away from everyone. He intertwined his fingers with hers and guided her outside to the porch. Mac shivered from the chilly air that touched her skin. Once he noticed that she was cold, Harm pulled her closer and rubbed his hands up and down her arms.
"Cold?"
"Um...yeah a little."
He took off his coat and placed it on her shoulders as they both remembered a similar scene that played out a few years ago. Harm held onto her a while longer. They looked at each other and noticed that something was falling over the grass. They turned their heads and noticed that snow was falling freely through the air and covering anything that was in its path.
Harm turned to Mac and found her watching the snow with a smile. He took her hand, held it over his heart and stared at her lovingly.
"You see what you do to me."
"Harm, this is exactly what I've been waiting for, a Christmas like this. Like one you read in books. All I ever needed was you."
"I love you, Mac."
Mac couldn't help but let tears glide down her face. She couldn't believe that her flyboy had finally told her that he loved her. Her heart skipped a few beats as she heard what the love of her life told her. All of a sudden there was nothing to worry about. There was no Mic, no Dalton, no Clay, just Harmon Rabb, Jr.
"I love you, Harm."
"What about that one problem that kept us from being together?"
"Whatever it is, I don't care anymore. My place is here with you."
"I must warn you. You will be the ridicule of the entire Marine Corps. You sure you want to marry a sailor?"
"Well, what would your sailor buddies think of you if they were to find out that you were property of a Marine?" She paused. "Wait, are you asking me to marry you?"
"What if I was? What would your answer be?"
"If you were asking then my answer would be yes."
"Then..."
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