when the lights go down
Part 5 - i dreamed you
Karen H.

As he trudged his way up the stairs he ran his hand through his hair, momentarily wishing he hadn't come straight to Capeside from the airport.

It'd been a long day for him; up at the crack of dawn to run a few errands for Todd, a quick meeting at the studio, and flying back to Boston from LA. For a brief moment he forgets why he had gone straight to the train station from the airport, why he never went to see Joey, why he never stayed in Boston. But then he remembers that over the summer he never got to see his little sister or his mother and he really wanted to spend this time with them.

But his mother was called into the restaurant because someone was sick and Lily is at the babysitters for another hour.

"Should have called first." He mutters as he approaches his room door, fatigue evident in his movements. I need to sleep, he thinks to himself.

Light streamed out of his room as he opened his door and he questioned why he hadn't seen the light on from outside but shrugged thinking he'd been too tired to notice.

He was quickly awakened by the sight before him and quickly did the math in his head, Yep, definitely Thursday, he concluded.

"Hey." He said as he stood in the doorway.

"Hey." Joey echoed smiling as she moved from sitting cross-legged on his bed, to perch on its side. "How are you?

"Tired." He replied before adding with a slight look of confusion on his face. "Weren't you supposed to be coming down tomorrow?"

She nodded her head. "My class had to be rescheduled so I came straight down when I finished today." She replied standing once she'd finished.

"How long have you been here for?"

"Only about five minutes. Dawson, I really need to apologize for something."

"Okay." He says still standing in the doorway unable to read the seriousness of what this is about by her tone.

"The thing is, after we talked on the phone two days ago."

"Which time?" He interrupted.

"When you were saying things to me that you wouldn't want your mother to hear about!" She states and he chuckles while her cheeks now show a tinge of pink.

"The six o'clock phone call?" He asked grinning.

"Yeah, six there, nine here...well remember how I had been telling you that Audrey had been feeling kind of down about being single again and maybe she didn't make the right choice in breaking up with Pacey?"

"Yeah."

"Because she was missing the whole couple thing and was in the mood to curse and rant about stuff. Well she said it'd be better if I took a break from studying and did that with her."

"So you did?"

"Yeah, well Audrey said to just say how I felt about everything and she started with you."

"Why do you feel the need to apologize Jo?" He asked confused.

"Not there yet." She told him before continuing. "Audrey said I was defeating the point of her 'therapeutic exercise' because I was being too mushy and everything with and I quote "rambling about Dawson" I must be mad at you for some reason. So I kinda ranted about you having your wicked way with me and then high-tailing it to LA." She scrunched up her nose. "I called you a few choice names too, so I'm sorry."

"You used me?"

"Only in the name of friendship." She assured him.

"What if I don't forgive you?"

"Then I will have to kill Audrey, all her idea."

He laughs. "How did you know I was home?"

"I stopped off at the restaurant to drop something off for Bodie and your mom told me you were due back." She stands and slowly walks towards him adding. "Asked me if I'd keep you entertained until she got home." As she finishes she takes his hand.

"Somehow I don't think that's what she meant Jo!"

"She doesn't know about us yet?"

He shakes his head. "She'll consider this big news, so I figured I should tell her in person."

Joey nodded in agreement.

"So." Dawson started as he takes her other hand. "How long does a guy have to be back in the same time zone as his girlfriend for before she'll kiss him?"

"Oh, I think you've been back long enough." She replies as she devours his lips with her own. As her hands found their way to his neck, while his hands went around her waist, pulling her closer. The feel of his body against her own and his taste is enough to make her head spin.

"Mmmm." she moans into his mouth before breaking the kiss. "So you're tired?"

"Am I? I really don't remember." He replies with a mischievous grin before scooping her off of her feet and putting her down by his bed.

"Do you remember what I said before you went to LA?" Joey inquired as Dawson buried his face in her neck as his hands caressed her waist.

"Refresh my memory." He mumbled against her quickening pulse as her hand lies casually on his hip.

"I...I said…" She begins as she tilts her head back more to allow him better access before continuing. "Maybe putting something o..." She takes a sharp intake of breath as he starts to caress her breast through her vest. "Off, that longing for something might not be such a bad thing."

"Yeah, I remember." Dawson replies looking back in her eyes.

"Do you think it makes the wanting all the more powerful?"

His answer is to kiss her hungrily and to pull her closer against the bulge in his pants, both of them moan.

"That's a...maybe." She says between kisses. "...right?"

Her hands suddenly come to life and as their kisses become more and more intense her hands glide over his upper body, his back, arms, chest, shoulders…his cheek, as though she didn't have enough hands to touch him with.

His hands move up her body and he caresses her cheek before moving his hands into her hair.

"Dawson, Dawson…Dawson." She repeats against his lips as she runs her hands down to the bottom of his blue shirt, starting to undo the buttons.

They stop to catch their breath, leaning their forehead against the others.

"I missed you ya know!" She whispers breathlessly. "I missed us. Missed kissing you!" She gently kisses him, sucking on his bottom lip. "Touching you." She undoes the top button and pushes the shirt off of his shoulders, running her hands lightly over his arms. She proceeds to touch him as she talks. "You're arms holding me, the way you make me feel when you look at me, I mean really look. The feel of your heartbeat against me."

Her hand now rests over his heart. "I haven't seen you in ten days, twenty hours and…" She glances at her watch. "...and twenty-three minutes, give or take a few. Do you know when it was I started to miss you?"

He nods and replies huskily. "Yes. As we were saying goodbye."

"How'd you know?" She asks.

"Because I was already missing you too."

Her eyes begin to water as he looks down on her, love evident in his eyes. "Dawson." She begins but bites back what she was about to say and she kisses him again, while guiding his hands to the bottom of her vest.

"I missed you." She repeats.

"I missed you too Jo." He replies lifting her shirt over her head.

Pants are undone as they kiss again, more tender loving, and he lays her down on his childhood bed. She lifts her hips and he removes her jeans and underwear, laying kisses randomly over her body. Her inner right thigh, her left breast, above her belly button, her right ankle…her left thigh. All the while he's teasing her with his fingers.

He brings her towards that peak and she has to stop him. It's been just under ten days and twenty-one hours since they've been like this; she wants to do it together.

"I want you inside me when it hits." She pants, clutching at his hand.

He's only too eager to oblige, quickly discarding the remainder of his clothes. Dawson lies down beside her, lightly kissing her as he enters her. He waits for a moment before starting to move and she slams her hips against his, wrapping a leg around his.

She bites her bottom lip and clasps her hand in his, their eyes locked.

She repeats his name over and over as she starts to lose grip and she closes her eyes.

Dawson moans her name over and over against her lips, which is enough to send her hurtling over the edge his name still playing on her lips.

He slams into her harder, faster and she opens her eyes as she starts to move her hips again, in time with his.

A few moments later they orgasm together and he collapses on top of her, their fingers still intertwined.

He moves off of her, tugs at the comforter on the foot of the bed to cover them and wraps an arm securely around her waist as they both try to catch their breath.

"Dawson?"

"Yeah."

"I love you." She tells him as she leans on her elbow so she can see him and places a finger over his lips so she can finish what she has to say. "Normally when one or both of us says that it spells the end for us. Like there's something bad waiting around the corner. And that...the thought of it should scare me...but it doesn't Dawson. Do you want to know why?"

He nods his head unable to speak.

"Because nothing bad is going to happen. I won't let it. I'm ready to let you love me. No more running, no more hiding. I love you."

"Joey?"

"Yeah."

"I love you too."

She smiles and leans down to kiss him as he tightens his grip on her waist.

"These past ten days have been agony for me, I mean, I know we talked at least twice a day but it's not the same as having you here with me."

"So you think you can live with me now, eh?"

She shakes her head. "No Dawson. I can't live without you."

He smiles up at her, places her hand on his heart and caresses her cheek. "I don't think I can live without you either. And I'm certainly not ready to try it out."

"Me neither." She smiles, kisses him and lays her head on his shoulder.

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