Sensory Pleasure
Part 28 - *Feeling Alive*
Karen H.

An hour later we’re still at the club, Jen is talking animatedly to the guy Jack was chatting up earlier (I think his name was Richard) about something at the radio station. I try to concentrate on what she’s saying and ignoring how Joey keeps rubbing against my side as she talks to Jack about one of his classes.

Suddenly Joey turns to me and whispers in my ear. “I want to go home,” as Jack turns to the guy and Jen to hear what they’re saying. “You don’t suppose…” She begins, this time her breast brushes past my arm as she places her glass back on the table. “Does anyone know where Audrey went?” Joey suddenly asks and everyone looks around as though they hadn’t even realized she wasn’t here.

“I haven’t seen her in a while come to mention it.” Jen replies. “Didn’t she say she was going to the bathroom?”

“Yeah.” Jack replies. “Anyone see where Pacey went to?”

“He went outside with some girl.” Richard replies.

“Wasn’t she supposed to be leaving with you?” Jack asked.

“Yeah.”

Before anyone replied Jen blurted out, “Damn it, I left my purse at the radio station.” She turns to Jack. “You wouldn’t be a pal and come and get it with me, would you?”

Jack looks from Jen and Richard to Joey and me. “Um, sure.”

“Good.” Jen replied. “That way Dawson could walk Joey home. Maybe Audrey got lucky.”

“Maybe.” Joey agreed, not really looking Jen in the eye. She’d been like that all night. Trying to avoid standing close to Jen, trying not to talk to her.

Me, on the other hand. I was finding it hard to talk to both Joey and Jen just because I didn’t like the whole situation. Don’t get me wrong, I do want to be with Joey but I hate how this has come about. And I don’t want to hurt Jen, but staying with her now…it’s not really an option.

I watch her for a second as she puts her jacket on. She’s grown so well, one would hardly recognize the girl from the big city. And in a way I do love Jen, it’s just that it’s in a friendly way. Add to that the fact that we got together for the wrong reasons, or I know I did anyway. Is it going to be that easy to end though?

“I’ll see you back at Grams.” Jen says as she leans up to kiss me. “I’ll wait on Jack finishing his drink.”

“Okay.” I reply as I start towards the way out and I hear Joey behind me saying her goodbyes.

Once outside the club I wait for Joey, she must have got caught up saying goodnight to Jen and Jack. After a few minutes, Joey emerges from the doorway and sighs.

“I thought they were never gonna let me leave.” She tells me as we head in the direction of her dorm. “They were starting in on the third degree about who I was with earlier.”

“So Jack did tell everyone?” I ask and she just nods. “Did you really expect him to not say anything after catching the saintly Joey Potter in that position.”

She scowls at me. “Trust you to be the lucky one!”

I raise an eyebrow at her and add, “In more ways than one.”

“Very funny.” Joey replies, mock laughing. “For some reason they think I was with Pacey and I couldn’t stop laughing at that. I don’t know if they think that was cause I was trying to cover but they wouldn’t tell me why they thought that. My face went scarlet though.”

“I wonder why they never said anything to me.”

“Oh I’m sure they will. They’ll want to try and get as much mileage out of this as possible. I have a feeling they haven’t told Audrey yet, given she never said anything earlier and that’s how they’ll plan to get it out of me.”

I laugh nervously. “What would we have done if it had been the other way about?”

“I think some sort of fight would have ensued.”

There’s a moment of silence as we both think about what she said.

“We won’t be able to tell anyone.” I say as we approach her building.

She nervously bites her bottom lip. “I know. I thought about that and…” She trails off, putting her hands in her jacket pockets. “Maybe we should wait until we’re inside.”

I nod in agreement; she’s worried something might be said now that could lead to us having a fight. “Do you have class tomorrow?” I ask as a way to keep some form of conversation going, a desperate attempt for us to not fall into an awkward silence.

“Yeah. I have class all morning.”

“What time are you starting at?”

“8:30.”

“Where do you suppose Audrey went to?”

“I have no idea.” She says looking at me and then she shrugs. “She could be in bed already, I just wish she had told us she was leaving.”

We walk the rest of the way in silence, both of us stealing what we hope are quick glances of the other when really we both know we’re doing it and not disguising it very well.

As we approach Joey dorm room, Joey removes her key from her pocket.

“Maybe I should just…” I begin, not really wanting to finish that sentence.

She still has the ability to read me so well.

“Do you really want that?” She asks as she unlocks the door and enters her empty dorm, knowing that the last word was going to be ‘go.’

“We both know I can’t stay.” I tell her as I lean against the doorframe, not wanting to enter in case we start something we can’t finish.

“When I told you I wanted to come home, I wasn’t under any illusions that you would be spending the night.” Is her reply as she takes off her jacket and hangs it over a chair. “If anything I was hoping we’d just talk…” She trails off and I finally enter the room.

“And you would check that I wasn’t going to back out?” I finish for her as I close the door.

“Something like that.” Joey answers as she removes her shoes. “I can tell you now; it’s not easy seeing you with Jen. Knowing what you two get up to, it’s not all innocent.”

“I already told you that since we…” I gesture between us. “We haven’t.”

“If you don’t want this then okay, I can leave things and we can pretend they never happened.”

“I already told you that’s not what I want.”

“Did you really think it over though?”

“What do you think I’ve been thinking about ever since this started?” I ask her as I take off my jacket. Does she really think I haven’t given this any thought?

“I just wonder if maybe you need more time to think this over. That you shouldn’t rush to make a decision, you stay with Jen for now and…”

“How many times do I have to say it?” I cut her off. “I don’t want to be with Jen.”

“Don’t say it unless you mean it.”

“I want to be with you!”

“Really?” She asks and by this time we’re standing so close we’re almost touching. “You’re sure?” She asks again as she places her hands on my hips.

It’s late and I’m growing tired of repeating the same answers only to have her ask again. So I answer in a different way, by kissing her. One of my hands on the small of her back, the other in her hair.

She starts to pull my shirt out of my trousers and as we continue to kiss she guides me over to the bed. Then once the kiss is broken Joey motions for me to sit down and she walks over to the door, locking it.

Once I'm seated I just watch her walk back towards me as she pulls her T-shirt over her head. She starts to unbutton her jeans as one of her straps falls down off of her shoulder and all of a sudden I feel totally aroused. She slips out of her trousers, now only wearing her bra and thong as she stands before me.

She leans down and places one hand on my cheek as she starts to suckle on my bottom lip before she places her knees on the bed on either side of me. She reaches behind her back and undoes the clasp on her bra, removes the straps and tosses it over her shoulder before devouring my lips with her own.

Look me in the eye and say it's wrong, Tell me that these feelings won't go on oh no

The kiss is broken and we just look at one another for a moment, mine a look of awe as it seems she's totally been transformed on hearing I want to be with her. She takes my hands and places them on her ass as she grinds her hips against mine, causing things to go a little hazy as a moan escapes both of our lips.

I'm before him now, almost naked. Yet I don't feel self-conscious and I wonder if he senses there's been a change.

I start to undo the buttons on his shirt and he just watches me, his eyes never leaving mine as he caresses my ass. Once his shirt is unbuttoned, I push it off of his shoulders and down his arms before running one hand back up his arm, tracing his jaw line.

I wrap my arms tightly around his neck, and kiss him hungrily, relishing the feel of his naked chest against my breasts. We're both breathless when the kiss is broken and I rest my forehead against his for a moment. I want to remember this moment forever, the time I give myself to him knowing we’re really together.

I stand and pull at his hand, indicating for him to stand and once we're both on our feet I lean up and kiss him again. This time the kiss is gentle, much like the way I kissed him at the train station, one hand resting on his cheek, the other clasped in his hand. Before I let go of his hand, I bring it up to my lips, gently kissing the palm before placing it back at his side and letting go.

I remove my thong quickly before I start to undo the buttons and zipper on his jeans and he starts to nibble on my ear while he lightly strokes the small of my back. I crouch down and remove his socks and shoes and moments later his jeans lie in a heap on the floor along with his boxers.

We both stand naked now, our eyes locked once again and I see it in his eyes he understands how this is different. Understands what this means.

I understand this all feels different; we’re finally a couple.

I make the first move by taking one of her hands in mine, while I run the other down her side before I lift her up and carry her the few steps to her bed. I lay her down on the bed and quickly follow suit, rolling onto my side, slightly leaning over Joey’s body as I kiss her again.

The kiss is soft, sweet and sensuous as we reacquaint ourselves with the feel and taste of each other. Joey’s lips part and I suck on her bottom lip, while sliding my tongue along it at the same time. She deepens the kiss and her tongue enters my mouth, brushes against my own, as she runs a hand through my hair.

Joey pulls me on top of her and I just revel in the feeling of our naked bodies pressed together.

Once he’s on top of me I break the kiss and start to lay butterfly kisses from his lips to his ear before sucking on his lobe.

I feel his erection press against one of my thighs as he lightly strokes the other with his thumb. His breath catches in his throat as my leg brushes against his erect penis. I shift my leg again and place my hands on his hips as I stop sucking on his ear.

Dawson kisses me gently and we look in one another’s eyes for a moment as we listen to each other breathe, his erection rubbing against me, ready to penetrate to my core. I bite my bottom lip in anticipation and then he speaks.

“Are you sure you want this?”

Such a simple question, and for me it only has one answer. I could tell him no and he’d just leave, never force anything. His main priority is my being ok.

“More than anything.” I reply with a smile.

He watches me as he starts to fill me up and I try to keep my eyes open while I adjust.

I lean up and kiss him gently; thrusting my hips against his and within a second he has started to move his hips against mine, almost withdrawing from me fully before pushing back in.

I start off slowly, pushing in and pulling out but it’s not long before Joey starts to moan softly which serves to make me want her to moan louder. I thrust deeper, faster.

I place my lips on hers again, moaning her name into her mouth as she increases the rate at which her hips thrust against my own, until they’re moving in time. We’re practically slamming onto each other, our breathing becoming ragged.

We stop kissing and she moves her hands to my shoulders, lightly digging her fingernails into me, indicating she’s almost there. So am I.

She throws her head back against the pillow, her pelvis still rising to meet mine. A few thrusts later and I feel her inner muscles clench around my erection.

“Dawson!” She calls out as she lets go, pleasure sweeping through her.

Hearing her utter my name in this way is enough to send me hurtling over the edge. I push into her again. “Jo!” The only word escaping my lips as I spill into her.

I fall on top of her, crushing her against the bed as we both try to catch our breaths, our loving making somewhat different this time…almost spiritual.

She wraps her arms around my back, kissing my shoulder as I move off of her and we lay in silence, stealing kisses as we catch our breath.

After ten minutes or so of silent kisses she whispers in my ear. “Little did you know you were gonna be getting lucky once you walked me home.”

I chuckle. “I’m starting to wonder if this was all part of Joey Potter’s master plan, you lured me her under false pretenses just to seduce me.”

“Well now that you mention it Dawson…” She trails off as I tickle her and she screams. “I should kill you for that!” She says glaring at me while trying not to laugh.

“Do you have it in you though?” I ask her as I bring my face closer to hers.

“Well you see Dawson,” She begins as I stop tickling her and she kisses me quickly. “I don’t know if I could do it.” She finishes and I pull her closer to me so I can devour her lips with my own.

I pull her on top of me and she wraps her arms around me as the kiss becomes more hungry and my erection brushes against her thigh and a moan escapes my lips.

She breaks the kiss. “Again Dawson?” She asks as she cocks an eyebrow suggestively before she changes her position. And just as she’s about to start her journey on that downward slope it appears someone has the worst timing ever.

We hear Audrey giggling in the hallway and I’m pretty certain we both must be looking at each other like deer caught in headlights. But neither of us is fazed for very long as Joey makes a mad dash for her dressing gown, while I try to gather my clothes together. We hear Audrey trying to get her key in the door and Joey grabs my arm and opens her closet, pushing me inside.

“You have 60 seconds to get those on.” She says as she throws my other shoe beside my feet before closing her closet door.

I try to dress quickly and quietly while trying to hear if Audrey is in the dorm yet. She is. She can’t stop giggling and I don’t think Joey sounds too amused but I can’t make out what is being said.

I have my boxer shorts and jeans on and am about to pull my t-shirt over my head when she yanks the door open.

“You have to go now.” She whispers. “Audrey’s in the bathroom.”

“Give me a sec.” I tell her as I pull the shirt over my head and she bends down and grabs my shoes.

“No time, you’ll have to put these on in the hallway.” She says as she ushers me towards the door, while handing me my jacket.

“Jo?” I say questioningly.

She glances down the way, sees the obvious bulge in my jeans. “I’m sorry Dawson, but you have to go.” She opens the dorm room door, pushes me out while throwing my shoes after me.

I turn and just look at her questioningly.

She rolls her eyes at me, pulls me by the t-shirt towards her, kisses me quickly and pushes me away again. “I guess my first act as your girlfriend is gonna have to be making up for this…somehow.” She finishes cocking an eyebrow. “Guess you’ll just have to walk your dog when you get home.” She says as she closes the door. “Bye bye.”

I am not amused, yet at the same time I am. “Someone’s got a lot to make up for.” I say to the empty hallway as I set about putting my shoes on.