Part 7

love doesn’t ask why
speaks from the heart, it never explains
** love doesn’t ask why - celine dion **

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wanna cry for you

Things don’t seem any better by the next day. Dawson is on the phone.

would it do, would it give
if I rained for you
would it just be water
and the nights with you
and the storms in your head
and you’re down and you’re down
and I can’t lift you

powerless to change your world
I’m powerless to stop the hurt

BESSIE: "Does Beth think she is improving?"
DAWSON: "No. It just seems as though she’s closing herself off. It’s like she doesn’t want to talk about it with me. Yet she’ll talk to Beth."
BESSIE: "Maybe we should try and get her some counseling or something."
DAWSON: "I don’t know. Do you think that it would help her?"
BESSIE: "I don’t know. All we can really do is be there for her."
DAWSON: "Part of me wants to phone mum and tell her to get on a plane and to come here, she went through this before. I just wish that I could do something to make her feel better, to erase all of the pain that she’s feeling. It’s killing me Bessie, seeing her like this. Seeing how much pain she’s in. The last time she was like this was . . ." He trails off.
BESSIE: "When mum died?"
DAWSON: "Yeah. I felt so helpless then too, not knowing what to do. Scared I’d say the wrong thing."

but I give you my heart
give you my shoulder
I’ll give you my heart
give you my shoulder
over and over

BESSIE: "You’ve really been good to her Dawson. I’ll call again tomorrow to see how she is. And I’ll try to come and see her in a few days."
DAWSON: "Okay."
BESSIE: "Could you let Beth know that I might be coming back soon?"
DAWSON: "Sure. Bye Bessie."
BESSIE: "Bye."
After he hangs up the phone he leans his head against the wall and closes his eyes.
DAWSON (softly) : "Oh Joey, if only I could take this all away, if only . . ."

I wanna run for you
would it do, would it give

We then see Joey sitting at the top of the stairs looking down at Dawson. She has tears streaming down her face, she knows what she has to do.

The next morning.

if I flew for you
you’d still be standing
and it’s hard watching
because I’m part of you
and it’s hard not to
not to know what I can do

powerless to change your world
I’m powerless to stop the hurt
I’m trying hard to be a tower of strength yeah, yeah

JOEY: "How long are you staying for?"
DAWSON: "I don’t know, as long as it takes for you to feel better, as long as you want me here."
JOEY: "Dawson, I think that you should go. I’m not helping you."
DAWSON: "I don’t understand."
JOEY: "You have to grieve too, and I’m not helping you do that. Which is why you have to go. I can’t hold you back, I won’t hold you back."
DAWSON: "You’re not holding me back from anything, I want to stay. I want to be here for you."
JOEY: "I need you to go, because as much as I want you to stay, I also want you to go. I’m trying to grieve but I can’t with you here. I know that you want to help me but . . . Dawson I’m starting to have these feelings, these thoughts in my head, and they’re not good. And the longer you stay here for then the more I’m going to think them and continue to have these feelings for. I don’t want to think them or feel like this. But eventually it’s going to get the better of me and I’m going to start saying hurtful things to you that I don’t really mean."
DAWSON: "Then I’ll understand."

I’m trying hard to bring you back to joy

I give you my heart
give you my shoulder
I give you my heart
give you my shoulder

and the nights just cut you through
and the dreams lost to you
when you’re worried and confused

JOEY: "Dawson I don’t want you to understand or accept what I might say. I want to reach a point in my life where I don’t think them anymore. If you stay and I say it, it will hurt you, and I could never forgive myself for that." He goes to say something but Joey puts a finger to his lips. She knows what he is about to say. "I know that you’re going to say that you’ll forgive me, no matter what. But I’ll never be able to forgive myself, because I love you." By this point they are both crying. "I know that it doesn’t seem that way now, but I really do love you."
DAWSON: "Are you saying that by doing this, somehow you are giving us a chance?" Joey nods her head, ‘yes’. "I don’t accept that Joey. I can’t."
Dawson then storms out of the living room and out of house.

Joey runs upstairs crying to her room. A few minutes later Aunt Beth enters.

I will give you my heart
give you my shoulder
I’ll give you my heart
give you my shoulder
time and again
over and over
yeah I will give you my heart
yeah (give you my shoulder)
yeah, yeah (give you my heart
give you my shoulder) yeah
yeah, yeah (give you my heart
give you my shoulder) yeah
** heart and shoulder - heather nova **

BETH: "Are you sure you’re making the right decision? Is sending him away really the best thing?"
JOEY: "Every bone in my body is crying ‘no’. My heart is screaming ‘No, don’t let him go. Not again’. But my head is saying ‘yes’."
BETH: "Don’t you think that maybe you should take some time to think this through?"
JOEY: "No. Do you want to know why I think he should go? This is the best part, the really evil part."
BETH: "I’m sure it’s not like that."
JOEY: "Oh you haven’t heard it yet. I’ve started to resent him. That’s a good one isn’t it? He’s here for me and I resent him for it. I resent him because this could be more painful for me than it is for him. It was me who had to make the journey to the doctors that day. ME that was told something that I already knew was happening. That our baby was gone."
BETH: "Oh Joey."
Aunt Beth walks over to her and hugs her.
JOEY: "And I’m scared that if he stays I’ll start to take it out on him. And after that there’s more. I might end up saying that I regret his last night in Capeside. Wishing that I hadn’t gotten pregnant in the first place. And I don’t regret it or want to take it back. I don’t think that I ever could. And I know that Dawson would eventually forgive me because that’s what love is, forgiving everything. But how could I let him love me If I hate myself?"

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