Love Doesn't Ask Why

Part 5

we don’t have a voice
when our hearts making choices
** love doesn’t ask why - celine dion **

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for all I’ve been blessed with in this life
there was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
with one honest touch you set me free

Dear Journal
I still feel that I don’t know where I stand with Joey. She says that things are fine, it’s just this whole leaving Capeside thing. Somehow Dawson’s departure just made it all hit home. It just seems as though she doesn’t like it when I touch her, when I kiss her. It’s like maybe she cringes inside. But maybe things will be much better next week after my camping trip with Doug. Maybe we just need some time apart.
Pacey.

let the world stop turning
let the sun stop burning
let them tell me love’s not worth going through

Dear Journal
I slept with Dawson, but somehow he didn’t act as though it was such a big deal. But I thought that he would have acted more . . . I don’t know. Maybe it wasn’t special enough for him. Or maybe it’s just me.
Gretchen

if it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
the only dream that mattered
had come true

Dear Journal
I want to run to him, jump on a plane and tell him. But I can’t do that. Can I? Would it be fair to do that? Fair to him? To Gretchen? But he has a right to know, I should tell him. I’m pregnant.
Joey

Scene: - potter B and B. Bodie and Bessie’s room. Two weeks later.

in this life I was loved by you

for every mountain I have climbed
and every raging river crossed

JOEY: "Ah, Bess can I talk to you?"
BESSIE: "Yeah sure, come on in."
JOEY: "In private."
BESSIE: "Okay, I’ll come to your room in a minute." To Bodie: "Maybe now she’s ready to talk, she’s been acting weird for two months now."

Scene: - Joey’s room.

Joey is lying on her bed, hugging herself. Bessie enters and immediately she is worried.

you where the treasure that I longed to find
without your love I would be lost

BESSIE: "Joey, what’s wrong?"
JOEY: "I think I’ve messed up big time and now I’m paying for it. How could I be going through this and still be with Pacey?"
BESSIE: "How did you mess up? What’s wrong?"
JOEY: "Bessie I just got back from the doctors."
BESSIE: "Joey what’s wrong?! Tell me!"

let the world stop turning
let the sun stop burning
let them tell me love’s not worth going through
if it all falls apart

JOEY: "I was pregnant."
BESSIE: "What? Does Pacey know?"
JOEY (crying now) : "No."
BESSIE: "Wait did you say that you where pregnant?"
JOEY (nods her head yes) : "I found out a few weeks ago. I didn’t know what to do, part of me wanted to tell you sooner but I thought that you’d be disappointed in me. Then this morning when I got up I was . . . I was bleeding. I went to the doctors as soon as I could. But there was nothing they could do. I lost it."

I will know deep in my heart
the only dream that mattered had come true
in this life I was loved by you
in this life I was loved by you
** in this life - ronan keating **

BESSIE: "Oh Joey." She hugs her. "I’m sorry."
JOEY: "And that’s the thing that seems really strange, not for one minute did I consider getting rid of it or giving it up. Bessie I wanted this baby, no matter what the consequences would have been. I still wish that I had this baby."
BESSIE: "Have you told Pacey yet?"
JOEY: "No, he doesn’t know that I was pregnant."
BESSIE: "Joey, you have to tell him."
JOEY: "No I don’t. I can’t tell him and I won’t."
BESSIE: "Why not?"
JOEY: "Because ... because it’s not his, I haven’t slept with him."
BESSIE: "You haven’t, then who . . .?"
JOEY: "It was Dawson’s, I slept with Dawson."
BESSIE: "Eh"
JOEY: "His last night in Capeside. I really love him Bessie. I started to realise it a little to late, and one thing kind of led to another that night and we slept together. And last week I was so ready to jump on a plane, going to LA. To tell him, but now. . . "
BESSIE: "You don’t know if you should tell him?"