Love Doesn't Ask Why
Part 31
love doesn’t ask you why Scene: - The airport. Ten minutes later.
Dawson still sat there not quite sure of what to do. His mind wandering to more trivial things.
The flight that had been boarding at the gate behind me must be about ready to take off. Things seemed to have calmed down a bit.
The quietness not making this any easier.
He continued to sit there for what seemed like forever, trying not to think. But that was easier said than done. Joey was still consuming his thoughts...so much so that he thought he was hearing things.
"I couldn’t do it." A voice said from behind him.
He turned round in his seat, surprised to see her standing there.
"Jo..." He said as he stood up and walked around the chairs, so that they where standing face to face. Yet it still seemed as though they were miles apart.
"I just couldn’t do it again, not without seeing you." She told him, her voice wavering a little as tears started to well in her eyes. "Not without telling you everything. I have to say all of this before you say anything, before I chicken out. I don’t know what made you change your mind, why you decided to see me..."
"Jo..." He cut in.
"No don’t." She cut him off, raising her hand. "I have to say all of this. I tried to stop you leaving Chicago! It appears that that’s something that we’re not good at, our timing seems to be off." She said to him, laughing a little.
"I was late getting there. Then I thought that it was a sign that we weren’t meant to be together...yet at the same time, I found it hard to accept." She was silent for a moment and he just stood before her waiting for her to continue.
"These past few weeks have been such a nightmare, ever since I left here. I was trying to convince myself that I was supposed to be in Chicago...and then you turned up. That’s when I knew that I was fooling myself. I just had to think things over...talk about us with people who didn’t know us as an us. I realised where I wanted to be...and then I got your letter."
She paused "And along with that letter came the thoughts of it being too late for us. I honestly thought that I’d really blown it this time, but I can’t live with the not knowing Dawson. I can’t. I could live the rest of my life wondering what could have been. What would have happened if I’d did what I should have done a long time ago, if I’d did what I wanted to. I know that I’d have regretted it and that’s why I’m here." She said as she wiped the tear that had started to roll down her check.
"I can’t stand the not knowing, and I’ve regretted the past seven years of my life because of it. I shouldn’t have let you go...I should have stopped you leaving. I even tried to forget all that you meant to me...but it wasn’t as easy as it sounds."
She starts to cry as she talks about something they never really discussed. "There’s one thing that I’ve experienced that you’ll never have the pleasure of feeling and I never got the chance to tell you what that was. And that’s knowing that a part of you was growing inside me." She said, managing a smile.
"You have absolutely no idea how happy I was when the doctor told me I was pregnant. I walked home that day...but inside, I was floating." He smiled at her as his eyes started to water.
"There was me, Joey Potter, pregnant at eighteen and I was ecstatic. That was definitely a thought that I never expected to have, I can tell you. I was about to go off to college and I was pregnant. Do you know what the first thought to go thought my head was?" She asked him.
He shook his head, no.
"I’m having Dawson Leery’s baby." She said gesturing with her hands, as the tears started to subside. "And as soon as that thought was there I just couldn’t stop smiling. I was carrying my best friends baby. But that was okay because he was the guy that I was in love with. There was this part of you growing inside me, a little reminder of the fact that you loved me. But I got home and came crashing back to reality...we weren’t together. I couldn’t just dump this on you, yet everytime I saw a phone I almost called you."
and I would risk it all for you
She paused again, fresh tears forming in her eyes. "And then just when I was ready to tell you...it happened. It was like someone saying, ‘yeah he loves you, but you’re not getting him or his baby’. I wish that I could change things. I wish I hadn’t let you leave Beth’s. Dawson, I can’t just walk away from this, from us, without knowing what could be. If this isn’t going to turn out the way that I want it to...then it can’t be because of me. It has to be because you don’t want me anymore..."
"Can I speak now?" He asked her, and she nods her head. "I’ve regretted almost every single thing that I’ve done over the past eight years. The only thing that I don’t regret is what happened between us. I’ve tried to hate myself for where I was ending up. I even tried hating you...for us not being together." He paused for a moment. "But even that didn’t work." He said, shrugging his shoulders slightly.
"It just seems to be something that I can’t do. All this time I’ve been trying to fight how I feel about you, but lately I’ve come to realise that I can’t. For the past twelve years I’ve loved you and it’s about the only thing that I know how to do. But it’s too late for us to know what would have happened if you had stopped me leaving..."
"Oh...I see..." Joey cut in looking at the floor as fresh tears start to fall.
Dawson puts his hand under her chin and tilts her head so that she is looking at him.
"But it’s not too late for us to see if there’s still something there."
"Huh?"
"Joey, I love you."
She smiles back at him. "I love you too, Dawson."
They both take a step forward and kiss. She wraps her arms around his neck, as he wraps his around her waist. They break away from each other and smile as their foreheads rest against each other.
"I love you." He tells her again.
"I love you." She repeats as she thinks about what else she has to say. Knowing the next few minutes are gonna change her world, she needs to tell him this. She’s even terrified. Terrified that he’ll think that it’s the only reason she’s there. But she swore to herself that she was going to lay it all on the table. She has to be honest with him from the beginning. God knows that she’s done enough hiding over the past few years.
She braces herself. "There’s something else I have to say."
"Okay." He replies, beaming.
"The whole there’s a part of you growing inside me thing...well it’s happening again."
"It is?" Dawson asks her surprised.
She nods her head. "Dawson, I’m pregnant."
Dawson just stands there looking at her, stunned at what she’s just said. The smile on his face wavering slightly.
And not for the first time does Joey find it hard to read what he’s thinking.
THE END!!! OR IS IT
** love doesn’t ask why - celine dion **
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when the bridges that you burn
leave you stranded feeling alone
it doesn’t take much to cry
when you’re living in a lie
and deceiving that someone who cares
if I could turn back the time
I would out you first in my life
to prove my love is true
I’d build a wall around my heart
that would only break apart for you
can change the way I feel
so tell me what’s the deal
don’t say, don’t say it’s too late
I’m runnin’ out of time
my decisions are pending on you
and I will accept the blame
for burning out the flame
hoping the story will twist once again
and if I could turn back the time
I would put you first my life
to prove my love is true
I’d build a wall around my heart
that would only break apart for you
can change the way I feel
so tell me what’s the deal
so don’t say, don’t say it’s too late
on the line for you
to prove my love is true
I’d build a wall around my heart
that would only break apart for you
can change the way I feel
so tell me what’s the deal
so don’t say, don’t say it’s too late
to prove my love is true (prove my love is true)
I’d build a wall around my heart
that would only break apart for you
can change the way I feel
so tell me what’s the deal
so don’t say, so don’t say it’s too late
*don’t say it’s too late - westlife*