"WHAT I LOST"
I missed you
I forgot how beautiful
Your hair has grown long
It looked so painful
I have seen your face
but not in this place
I hate
But i'm not sure who
Seeing you made me shake
It made my heart ache
Damn, did I miss you
I feel like a fool
It almost was great
What I had
So why are all the memories bad?
My heart breaking
My knees shaking
My pain waking
I was in hell
But I'd still sell myself
to hug you today
to love in my weird way
god, I missed you
And now I hear
You are leaving for good
That I doubt
Because you are inside of me
And I'll never get you out
You make me so weak and small
And now that you are leaving
again
I am in hell
again
I'm going to miss you
"GET OUT OF LINE"
I see the sniper's waiting
I can't march anymore
When I try to get out of line
They throw me to the floor
I've walked a million miles
I'll walk a million more
The blisters are slowly growing
The pain I can ignore
My muzzle tears at my flesh
My silence they adore
I didn't have the strength to fight
I'm bruised to the core
They've sealed off all the exits
But I can see the door
They've trained me to be obedient
Now I'm hungry for a war
It's time for this to end
This can't last a day more
There's one last hope for all of us
The one that is tired of being their whore
Trust in him
"Faded Days"
Incredible how it seems to be
That everything has left me.
Why bother living another day
When all the colors are drained gray?
It's all been such a waste
Things I wish I could erase
Time I wish I could replace
I can't remember your pretty face
It's time to move on, I need my space
Past is a blur of mistakes and beer
Presents is a mix of pain and fear
For the future, which draws near
Will I still be around the one I hold dear?
I'm afraid the fun is over
I'm scared to sink any lower
This is as honest as I get
Help me to forget
I never thought I'd regret
The dreams I've never met
I'm done.
"THE PAIN OF BEING NUMB"
I'm stuck in another day
I have no idea where I'm going
Yesterday's pain fades away
The numbness inside is growing
Everyone I know is a stranger
In the river of routine, I drift further down stream
Fear is a constant danger
The sound of my heart beats steady, like the wings of a buzzing beetle
I yearn for drugs I've never had. My arm craves the needle.
The darkness I cannot escape
It's eating me alive
I can't get away from my own rape
I'm just another bee in this hive
Once, I knew who I was
Once, I knew my name
This can't last forever
I know there is an end to this game
Tomorrow. Or the next day. Or for the rest of my life.
"A MESSAGE TO HIM"
You took what I cannot replace
I'm addicted to her lonely face
Like a junkie searching for another score
I sit in darkness and wait for more
Her voice still swims across my soul
The missing piece of me you unknowingly stole
My crippled heart attempts to beat
I choke on the sour taste of my defeat
I know I should just let her be
But her bed in which I slept still holds me
I can't wait till I'm numb so that the pain will go away
Like a vacation in Hell, it gets worse everyday
We will meet again my friend
I will make you pay
You will feel the pain that I feel
I will break you down, my man
And all you will have left is the Dave Mathew's Band
I see your mouth moving But what the fuck are you saying?
If my fist's in your face, will you stop complaining?
misery. agony. your voice is sustaining.
Your the black cloud over my head. when will you stop raining?
i don't need this. don't need you. i want this to end. nothing is all i can do.
you spit your venom in my ears. you've been lying to me for years.
The sleeping monster is finally waking. Can you hear it? Thats my mind breaking.
I'm so used to these prison walls you've built. Please stop force feeding me, i can't eat all this guilt.
i don't need this / i don't need you /i want this to end nothing is all i can do
My torture continues. How much more can i pay? You have me beaten. What more can i say?
My head shuts down just to get away. You can have my soul, just give me one day.
i don't need this /i don't need you i want this to end nothing is all i can do
Just pull the fucking trigger
Another promise means another day. Not much left to fool myself with. Another lie means another way. I'm so full of shit. Let's do this one more time. Let's forget about tomorrow. Just for tonight the future is mine. Do you have some time for me to borrow? There's not much left, is there? Not much more to say. I'm still waiting for this to disappear. I'll leave it alone now, if that's okay.
I am the lie maker.
I am the trust taker (although I don't want to be)
You may want to keep your distance.
I am the hope destroyer.
I am the pain voyeur (although I don't want to be)
I might take your innocence
Atheist Superstar
When the pain is over flowing inside their head
They pray to the God in that book they read
Their prayers fall on empty ears
There is no one to listen to their private fears
You lay on your back and begin to cry
As you realize all they taught you was a lie
How you live after realizing this will be your life
You can overcome all of it, or can live in strife
Those who give up will be like the wingless fly
Weak, worthless, and ready to die
But there will be those who rise above the rest
These few know that they are the best
The truth has only made them stronger
With the lies destroyed
They will be brainwashed no longer
These people know who they are
For they hold the title
Of Atheist Superstar
Hypocrites and Apostles
Take that cross from off your back
Your ignorance will only strengthen my attack
Take those thorns from off your head
pray as much as you want, but my respect for you is dead
You nailed yourself to that bloody tree
in you vein attempt to impress me
get that bible out of my face
the words sicken me and I can't stand the taste
stand next to your cross so meaningless and narrow
me, I'll be standing by my downward arrow
SIN'S ON MY SIDE
In six days, the world was created
On the seventh day, he masterbated
I felt his sin from down below
the lies had never been so low
There is no such thing as purity in this age
In his book of lies, it's just another page
Don't tell me i'm wrong, Don't tell me your right
You may have won their love, but you've already lost the fight
All the prayers in the World will not save you from my wrath
Look at the facts. Forget the Lies. Do the math
Spit at me and tell me i'm a sinner
In the end, I'LL EAT YOUR GOD FOR DINNER
WHY I SPELL GOD WITH A LOWER CASE G
I went to Sunday school, like a good little boy,
And every lengthy prayer gave me such joy
Confession was good, because I was a sinner..
Because I was told, without God you can't be a winner
The priests, their words, would make me feel bad
Their stares, at times, would make me feel like I was mad
Where is this God that I pray to all day?
Where is my award for all the money I pay?
I can see trees, and cars, and the crack in my wall
Why can't I see this God, who started it all?
I'm a teen now. I still go to mass
The reason, unknown, I dare not to ask
I stare at this man hanging from the cross,
I think to myself "what makes you my boss"?
ATHEIST INVINCIBLE
I don't understand you
Our similarities are few
You say your prayer late at night
The liars really taught you right
Little girls praying on their knees
While whores downtown do it for fees
You will not make me die
You cannot make me cry
I can beat the unbeatable
I can repeat the unrepeatable
I will be God!!
DRUNKEN CLARITY
Life has no meaning
Every position is demeaning
I'm almost ready to die
It is useless to cry
When this is done..so is the fun
We will all drowned screaming (Your soul's last breath is beaming)
I want to fuck you
Spread your legs
I want to help you
Continue to beg
I am your savior
The Creator
Build me
· Ripper's magical love potion: Nine cans of Natural Ice beer..its 5.9%! Not only will you suddenly feel like you've taken a bottle of Viagra, but the girl you're with will get more and more attractive with each beer!
· It's easy to make a homemade tattoo, kids. Just take a couple shots of vodka, find a safety pin or something just as sharp, and go to town! Remember, pain only hurts if you let it!
· Don't succumb to peer pressure! No matter what you hear, don't use condoms! They cut the circulation off in your penis and the result is not pretty.
· You're allowed to rip up the bible if you do it at night! Honestly! I read that somewhere.
· Its okay to fool around with underage girls just as long as you make sure they have no pleasure whatsoever.
· Its 5:45 p.m. on a Thursday in the month of May, and you touch someone you hate, the Emancipation Proclamation is no longer in effect and that person is your slave forever
· If you see me in the street and you give me a dirty look, you will die one day!
