| Let me start off with giving u some boring facts about myself. My name is(a bit too long to spell) Sevim Ceyda Kamaci Nielsen I was born in the west part of Turkey; In a city pretty close to Istanbul on 12 june 1984. Spent 11 years in a small military town kinda place;which was built up by Americans. Depending on this fact and how different my family is;i learned to look at a very different culture in the world as an observer without being dragged in it.And mostly depending on my dear sisters;i was fascinated by "good" music.And even though i liked it in Turkey(yeah;i know i also kept complaining about many things;but it is sth almost everyone does about their country and life);i always had the dream of going/moving somewhere else;and finding the one that can relate to me and my ideas with respect and of course to whom i can give my strong love which usually seemed to be a burden on many people. At the age of 11;right after my sisters moved to istanbul for their university education;me and my parents moved to Antalya(very south of Turkey and always so fucking hot).I was devastated;i was so far away from my "real parents"(my sisters i mean);and away from my friends;and all that different and small life i was accustomed to...i had never lived in a big city before except for some summer vacations. It was time to see the whole ugliness growing in the world(not that i was too naive to see it before that;but my earlier experiences in bad ways were mostly personal);big ugly buildings;people caring just about the way they look without any piece of intelligence and hardly ever in a city can u find any natural beauty...First year of my experience in one of the non-rare spoiled parts of the world was a big and unforgettable lesson about how i should avoid "the things" to improve myself in the way i wanted.And during that year;my mom bought me a very cheap classical guitar;which changed and developed all my dreams;and affected the rest of my life;in a way that it made me see the power in music and myself. So i spent most of my time listening to music and trying to discover some new bands and playing my guitar and reading books...Once such a succesful student started failing at many classes(no;it wasnt because i was hooked in drugs or alcohol or sth like that);but basically on purpose;it was my small protest against their understanding of education. I chose to educate myself instead;and i always found it a very uncharming way to give kids examinations over the things teachers just tried making them memorize instead of just being thought and analyze the things...And when i was 13;i found two biggest teachers of my life;Marilyn Manson and Nietzsche...i was reading books more than ever which dragged me into writing poems and such and made me discover what was within myself. At the age of 16;one day looking through manson bbs;i found a post about icq numbers and oddly enough i didnt add everyone to my list but chose in random(or maybe with some senses i would say);and that was the day to change my whole life;that was the day i uttered the first words to my soulmate,my everything;Daniel...and now here i am;in the capital of Denmark;living with the "one and only" of my life;just like i always dreamt of... Maybe i am away from all my friends and my family;but it is just a concrete way of being away;and there is nothing to make one hesitate about sacrificing anything when such strong feelings and bonds r mentioned between the two;in the two;which become one in a great harmony;and complete .... |
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| A BRIEF GLIMPSE INTO MY LIFE |