After talking with my boys this morning about my surprise of not smoking any more they jumped for joy and did a little dance....lol.....should have gotten it on tape....lol.  After the little dance they came up to me and asked what was wrong.  I told them nothing was wrong and asked them why they asked such a question.  They said I was happy and not so sad any more.  I told them mommy is working on some things and taking her medications.  This morning I don't feel like the whole world is against me and wanting to bring me down to an ant size and sqash me. 



I'm in pain, but I have a little energy and I'm not crying when I try to walk.  There was something about yesterday's church service that really spoke to me.  Everything I have been through in my life was mentioned and I left really touched and in tears.  Not bad tears, but good tears.  I'm going to work hard on trying to look on the brighter side of life so I can see the sunshine and rainbows and enjoy the birds singing again when they wake me up at 5am.  As of right now in my heart I feel like I could run and jump for joy.  I don't know if it's the change in medications making me feel like this, or I'm on one of my manics, but I feel good right now.  Either way I'm not going to complain and give God all the credit.



I hope you enjoy my new layout.  I worked several hours on it just playing around with different programs.  Let me know what ya think.  I will be back on later to make a few more changes.  Right now I need to go and clean house, especially the kitchen.  My landlord just called and asked me to measure my refrigerator.  After her doctor appointment today she's stopping by Lowe's to buy two new refrigerators.  One for me and one for one of my neighbors.  She asked me which color I wanted, pure white or black with stainless steel.  I picked the black with stainless steel, it will go better with my stove.  Hopefully soon I can get the tile in the kitchen replaced.  Maybe if she gives me the stuff, I can have my niece come over and she can help me one day.  Have to get some paint to paint the boys room.  They have marked all over the walls and I can't get it off, plus they had started peeling it in some places. 



Well, I'm off to get busy again while I have the energy.  Lots to do that I have been putting off for ages because of this stupid depression.  Hugs & Kisses to all!  Love ya!