| All of us have a darker side we do not show in public. This sometimes is displayed, but we must learn to ignore it. Just as we ignore all the evil in the world-2/7/04 |
| How do you feel? Why do you feel? Welcome to a dark room of my soul. |
| Blood, terror, horror, death Corpses, bodies, zombie breath. Life is short, life is long Life is pain, life is song Death is good, death is bad, Death is happy, Death is sad. |
| All of this can be described in 2 words- jealousy and power. We are jealous of the powers of others, and it makes us display our own power. We do what we can, and it helps. What we have is special. But in reality, that doesn't work. Humans are driven by desire and jealousy is merely desire invoked by demonstration. If we had what we wanted, we would want other things. Even this, a simple disclamation of virtue, has been said a thousand times over again. We need to want. Happiness is shallow. It is merely the experience of being caught between desires. Bliss is false. It fades after a short time. Being content is being eternally joyous, because one has no desires. But that, too, is a desire. We strive for our desires, and that is why we live. A rock merely is. That is why it is not alive. Life means merely that something has needs. Sentience means simply desire. This is the truth that we all know, but far too many of us choose to ignore. Accept it, embrace it, and know what your life truly is. The soul is created by desire. It may be glorified, but setience is desire. To want is to think. To think is to want. This is what we must all accept, or live forever a slave to our own minds. Seize control of yourself. Admit that you are nothing, than prove that you are something.. Prove to yourself there is an element which makes a human different from an equation. Accept that you are merely an equation and another element. Accept you, as a thinking being, are all and yet none of both of these. Live by these words, or deny them. But somewhere, somehow, accept that they are true. |
| Come to grips with the fact your life means nothing, your actions mean nothing, and your death will mean nothing. Accept that life is by definition both pointless and purpose itself. Accept what I have not said along with what I have. Accept it, and then ignore it. Then you will see life better. |