Note: This is my first song
fic and it is in dedication of Aaliyah. This uses Nsync’s Gone and it’s an
Nsync member’s point of view. Rest In Peace! – September 2/01
remains.
There's a thousand words that I could say
How to begin. How to find the courage to say the words that
hurt his heart so much to even think about. But he had to face it. He needed
to.
To make you come home (yeah)
Seems so long ago you walked away
And left me alone
It had been a week now. A whole week. God, he still couldn't
believe it. He paused glancing down at the picture in his hand, memorizing her
soft features. She was so beautiful. She had been so beautiful.
And I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
They had not kept in touch much. Their schedules had always
prevented them from making any time. He was so sorry for that now. Sorry at the
tiredness he saw in her eyes at the last appearance they had all went to. Sorry
that he had been too busy to ask her if she was okay.
Was it something I said, to make you turn away
To make you walk out and leave me cold
The guilt. It was crippling. It clutched at his heart and
wouldn't let go. It pained him to think that he hadn't even gotten to say
goodbye. Not even goodbye!
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
right now
He would do anything to have her there in front of him,
smiling her smile; a smile that showed her honesty, her beauty and her humility
all at once.
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off mind
I try my best to be a man and be strong
He took a breath, calming himself. Trying gallantly to stop
himself from crying in front of the other guys. Not like it would have
mattered. They had all shed their tears over the week...except for him. He had
been strong but he could feel that strength slowly breaking down.
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face (touch your face)
He had to let it out. If he kept all the anger, guilt, and
depression inside any longer, he would surely explode.
But the truth remains you're gone
(you're) Gone
(baby you're) Gone
(girl you're gone. Baby girl you're)
Gone
(you're) Gone
(you're)
Oh God! He missed baby girl. He missed her so damn much!
Now I don't wanna make excuses baby
Won't change the fact that your gone (no, no)
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know
He wished he could turn back time. He wished that he had the
power to reverse it all. To tell her not to get on that plane. To explain to
her what would happen if she did.
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess, that's my life without you
(Guess, that's my life without you)
And maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
The week had rushed by. The first leg of the tour was
finishing up and his life had been more than hectic. It had kept him from
thinking about it. About her. But now the hours were ticking by like days. And
all he could do was think.
I'll just hang around and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you (take my mind off missing
you)
And I know in my heart you can't say that you don't love me
too
Please say you do
Yeah...
He glanced over at the other guys sitting in his living
room. They had tried very hard, to get him out of his mood, but his enthusiasm
had been half hearted at best. He was too busy missing her to enjoy anything.
I've been sitting here (sitting' here)
Can't get you off mind (get you off my mind)
I try my best to be a man and be strong
(my best to be a man and be strong)
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
(Wishing I could touch your face)
But the truth remains
(truth remains you're)
gone
(you're) Gone
(you're) Gone
(you're gone)
(you're) Gone
(you're) Gone
His throat constricted, his heart stopped and tears welled
up in his eyes. She had been too good to die. Too beautiful. Too talented. Too
intelligent. And way too young.
What will I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby, who will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart
Baby why can't you see
That I need you here with me
Ohh...
He hoped she was happy up there; beyond this earth. He hoped
she was smiling down at the world with that all incredible smile. He hoped that
she knew how much she meant to him and how he would never forget her.
I've been sitting here (sitting' here)
Can't get you off mind (Can't get you off mind)
I try my best to be a man and be strong
(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
(Oh could you baby)
But the truth remains
(the truth remains you're gone)
Tears welled up in his eyes. He looked at the guys, tears
clouding his eyes so that he could only see their blurry figures. He turned
away once again, the tears now gliding down his face. He needed this. He needed
to release all the pain.
I've been sitting here (sitting' here)
Can't get you off mind (Can't get you off mind)
I try my best to be a man and be strong
(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insane (ohh)
Wishing I could touch your face (ohh)
He felt a hand on his shoulder and looked up to see his
friends surrounding him, looking down at him with worry. They smiled gently,
telling him it would be okay and soon after quietly left the room to give him
his space.
But the truth remains
(Ohh ohh baby the truth is you're)
gone
(you're) Gone
(you're) Gone
(you're gone)
(baby girl you're) Gone
(you're) Gone
But the truth remains you're
Gone
Justin rested his head on the table in front of him and
closed his eyes.
Aaliyah may have passed away, but she would never be gone
from his heart.
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