saturday,november 20,2004@10:15:35 pm
haven't write here for quite sometime, but those times that i wasn't around it's just being busy with my course and these days my communication with Dennis is ok we've been talking and sending sms, i am just happy with this set-up although it's so frustrating if sometimes he's not around just to give encouragement if im upset or feelin' down. I just hope that everything will turn out right and smooth even though were far apart we still trust each other and believe that we will have our time together in the near future.
wednesday, july 28 ,2004@11:08:27 am
dennis have already called, and it's just too sad that he worked from 8 am to 9 pm there's less for everything except work, and i miss him very much . it's been some months that we hadn't had long conversation and it seems that it scares him that i spend so much for the calls, but then it's just ok for once a week overseas call of 5 minutes maximum, oh gosh sometimes i am almost complaining to this kind of relationship but i have to bear everything now so in the end it would be a happy ending, i just pray hard that no one would each of us surrender, it would kill me.
sunday, june 6 ,2004@9:42:27 pmmy giddiness went back, not expecting i was about to faint i could help myself gosh i dont know why this happens i check until my blood pressure went low.i have to really get rid of late nights, luckily i got my medicine if not i will go blackout next time.
i went to my first session of the course i took to upgrade my status, everything went fine and made new friends along the way, it's so exciting can't wait to attend the next session. made my day quite alright other than spending it on the cinema houses. my weekend good as well.
saturday, May 29,2004 @10:30:14pmanother week has just pass by, during this week, i've been watching the last of AMERICAN IDOL,it was predictable that FANTASIA will win, cos she's been the favorite before 12 of them was still there, but i really look forward seeing DIANA as the one.
it's been so tiring and been up to late late nights because i wanted to see the results although that day, i've already check the IDOL site and proclaim that she was the winner, i still wanted to see it even it's already delayed telecast. i'm so much exhausted i wanted a good rest maybe a day in my room without anybody disturbing me,(impossible i know)but maybe i should go to bed early so i could regain those late nights. anyway it's over i can go to sleep as early as i want.
Sunday, May 23, 2004 @9:35:37 PM
it was an ordinary afternoon after i do my household chores, it's a perfect time to check e-mail and i was so surprised by another e-mail from him it was really a joyful event since it was a month already since he send his last one, i felt so happy and i cried reading cos he said that he missed me so much, it's like when he was still here and used to send me text messages that he really miss me and i immediately reply, and telling him everything what's been going on since he left and telling him that it was not same as before hope he always got time to send me messages, if he cannot make a call then it's good just to at least have 1 a week.
Thursday, May 20 2004 @11:41:47 AMtoday im a having a great feeling, i've overcome one of my weakest point, that is being somehow "proud". sometimes i don't wanna do things that will result to my humiliation, but by yesterday i prove to myself that being proud won't let me go places or peoples' thoughts always matter, but it doesn't matter to me now, at least i tried.
Tuesday, May 18 2004, @11:14:04 AMnow i felt a little better,a bit of giddiness, don't know why i've been feeling giddy all the time my doctor can't even find the cause, i guess this is the cause of my excessive dieting, and spending too much time in front of the computer.There's nothing better to do than check e-mails and update my pages. feel so satisfying when i do 1 page or more for a day.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004having a sinusitis, been missing him, checking e-mails almost all day, going to be bonkers already but i still believe that he's having a difficult time adjusting the new place maybe a bit of strictness over there, as i've spoken to a girl who happens to work there, for a couple of years and she said that it's very tight over there, when it comes to freedom of foreign workers. And i felt a bit worried and scared of what the consequences might bring to us. I'm so frustrated over a lot of things happening now.
Monday, April 26, 2004i really miss dennis around i just wonder how's he doin right now, when i don't receive any e-mail from him, maybe he's gone to the U A E or just having difficulties again in internet, a call would be great, but it's ok it's only one week since i receive the last e-mail.
Monday, April 12, 2004it was the lousiest weekend i ever had, i went out with my friends to attend a birthday party or i should say lunch party, it turn out that we were the first to show and the celebrant is not around yet, we waited and it rained i was dissapointed because we were so hungry that time almost two o'clock and it havent started yet, so i quit and said i will go to jenny's house, but i stroll around and eat in a restaurant it was so mean of me because i did not think about my friends who were left behind but i can't help myself, i couldn't eat the food in the party without the permission of the celebrant, in the end i didn't have to meet the party host.
Friday, April 09, 2004it was so frustrating seeing CAMILLE, i also weep during that time when JASMINE and her had a tight embrace, anyway she's the prettiest of them all, and nice voice too. Still got JASMINE to cheer about.
Sunday, April 04, 2004it's been a busy weekend, just spend it at home and do a lot of chores, but then good news come after it, it was so relieving and feel good. eat a lot of native food, i felt i have gain some pounds. but im not worried i can always loose it again.
Friday, April 02, 2004i keep on receiving a lot of e-mail virus,i thought it was him that's why i opened 1 particular e-mail, but "woah" boom i was "doomed".
Monday, March 29, 2004i've been in hesterics, because of my computer, i couldnt find out what's been the cause of something, but thanks to my mentor,everything is ok.
Saturday, March 27, 2004i feel so much relieved now that i knew that he still remains the same as before and i am almost losing every hope that i have, suddenly the good news comes and it's just one very big surprise, thanks for my patience anyway.