I guess this would be it, the most crucial event in my
life. I knew from the start that this year 2002-2003 would be very
significant for me and me batchmates.
At first I felt sad because my bestfriend and I were not classmantes and
so we had to carry on, living school days like this couldn't get worst. On
the first half of the year we and our adviser had some disagreements but fortunately
we had alleviated the pain from the incident. As the days passes by, it wasn't
that bad after all in fact, my number of firends grew even more and tighter.
Although one of my friends had a clash with my other friends in short, my
two best friend had a very serious dissension against the other that led me
into chosing sides which was not good and very unreasonable of me. And when
I had realized my uncalled for decisions, I immediately apologized and good
thing they were still my friends but still bad news because they haven't conciliate
until now. The days went through and we have to settle all our responsibilities
such as taking applications for schools for college, getting the needed requirement,
paying dues and reviewing for the entrance test. It was such a busy week and
I'm thankful that we handled it quite well. We hoped and prayed that we may
pass the examination. Because of the situation I hoped that the year will
end sooner.
Another month had passed by and another trial in our friendship occured.
One of my friends seemed to be feeling out of place and that she was cold
to us, she was not speaking to us nor joining us in lunch/recess. This we
had become aware of. I was hard person, I didn't even bother to reason things
out until she wrote a letter to us that made each one of us settle about this
matter. Then when we had finally come face to face, the issue just got worst,
I guess the friendship we had was really made to be broken. It was so depressing
now that i had soften my heart. Then hardest part came to me, she talks to
my other friends except for me, my heart felt miserable. And so I took my
chance again to mend our differences and thank God we were back to normal
again, I felt very relieved and eased. Even though were not eating together
anymore, I'm already contented that we were friends again.
Now that the year is near ending, I 'm a little bit numb. For I can't let
go of the happy moments I had with my friends. Thinking about our unforgettable
Outbound, we just had so much fun doing things together, sharing
each others tears, joys, laughter, dreams and even secrets. We climbed that
hard and high mountainlet together. Hand in hand we helped each other on the
way. We just had to be together....
I was amazed of myself, I couldn't accept that I'm becoming a compassionate
person. I even joined a dance audition for a friend of mine. Because of her
I did things that I don't usually do. Then I joined the cheering for her again!
When our practice started, things were just fine and going along right but
as days passes by my friend who was the reason of my being part of that started
to go with someone else. I t seems that she chooses that person over me! I
tried to cling with her to make things work I don't want to throw all away
tha best times we had together, we were like sisters, but it seems like there's
just a part of her that proves to me that I don't really mean anything to
her. I can't tell her about this because I know her character, I'm afaraid
to hurt her feelings about the truth, yeah! she's gonna apologize but not
from her heart. She's a sensitive person and untrue to her words. Like for
example, when she say "sorry" she just say it like reading that word aloud
and completely meaningless. I don't want to sound so put down but
that's what this scene is showing.... And so I felt regrets and
said to myself"sana di na lang ako sumali...."Why
should I bother myself, to have body pains, go home late, and sweat a lot? Why
do I have to put up with this?... This cheering is nothing to me! what I care
about is the friendship I have with that girl. How come that I'm doing my best
to fill her and she just take everything for granted. I wanted to quit and make
her see whatt she's been doing to me, that I didn't join this stupid dance
etchetera for myself but for a friend like her. But I guess it's too late
now cause the competition is just a week away. And I can't just let go of the
big money that I had paid for the choreographer and let the seniors' cheerleading
team to waste time and look for another people to replace me. Luckily I found
someone who was there all along following me, Catherine.
She was my buddy during the weeks of our cheering practices, we did things together,
we go home together and I'm thankful that I didn't became a garbage because
she was there to be my true friend.
The awaited moment had come. The Cheering Competition is finally here, January
27, 2003. We were all excited and a little bit nervous but I can say that
all of us were glad. There's something inside us that's just giving us confidence
and courage that we will win. It started. The freshmen really presented well,
I didn't expect that they can do what they just did. Then the sophies, which
made me feel really!! nervous! just by the looks of their props and pepsquad.
But I didn't lose faith I still believe that we can do better. Here comes
the juniors. Now I'm shaking, I've seen their props in their practices and
it had made me afraid that they will win because of the flag which I adore.
Finally, it's our turn. We just prayed. I said to myself we're
better and prettier than all of them and I will not let all my efforts and
"pawis" to go to waste!! not! never. And so I worked my butt
on that Gymnasium floor and smiled as in "todo
ngiti" to impress the judges. The ending of our cheering dance just
got better which gave me hope that we will surely win. We had fireworks which
were different and unique from the others. The following day January 28, I
had to swim. Everything as I see that morning were just all right and incontrol.
We won some. Then when it was my turn, I prayed and tried to catch up, I swum
my best to try and put in place I should be but on the near end, my legs strightened
and really got tired!!! I was running out of air. I thought I was gonna drown.
I don't want our team to lose. I keep myself giving a rest and pushing myself
to continue but my body just can't swim anymore. I was too tired. And so Abi
helped me up put of the water. I want to cry! I was full of regrets. Anyhow,
my friends gave me all the hugs I can have and told me that I didn't do anything
wrong but to make the best out of the situation.
I was amazed of myself, I couldn't accept that I'm becoming a compassionate person. I even joined a dance audition for a friend of mine. Because of her I did things that I don't usually do. Then I joined the cheering for her again! When our practice started, things were just fine and going along right but as days passes by my friend who was the reason of my being part of that started to go with someone else. I t seems that she chooses that person over me! I tried to cling with her to make things work I don't want to throw all away tha best times we had together, we were like sisters, but it seems like there's just a part of her that proves to me that I don't really mean anything to her. I can't tell her about this because I know her character, I'm afaraid to hurt her feelings about the truth, yeah! she's gonna apologize but not from her heart. She's a sensitive person and untrue to her words. Like for example, when she say "sorry" she just say it like reading that word aloud and completely meaningless. I don't want to sound so put down but that's what this scene is showing.... And so I felt regrets and said to myself"sana di na lang ako sumali...."Why should I bother myself, to have body pains, go home late, and sweat a lot? Why do I have to put up with this?... This cheering is nothing to me! what I care about is the friendship I have with that girl. How come that I'm doing my best to fill her and she just take everything for granted. I wanted to quit and make her see whatt she's been doing to me, that I didn't join this stupid dance etchetera for myself but for a friend like her. But I guess it's too late now cause the competition is just a week away. And I can't just let go of the big money that I had paid for the choreographer and let the seniors' cheerleading team to waste time and look for another people to replace me. Luckily I found someone who was there all along following me, Catherine. She was my buddy during the weeks of our cheering practices, we did things together, we go home together and I'm thankful that I didn't became a garbage because she was there to be my true friend.
The awaited moment had come. The Cheering Competition is finally here, January 27, 2003. We were all excited and a little bit nervous but I can say that all of us were glad. There's something inside us that's just giving us confidence and courage that we will win. It started. The freshmen really presented well, I didn't expect that they can do what they just did. Then the sophies, which made me feel really!! nervous! just by the looks of their props and pepsquad. But I didn't lose faith I still believe that we can do better. Here comes the juniors. Now I'm shaking, I've seen their props in their practices and it had made me afraid that they will win because of the flag which I adore. Finally, it's our turn. We just prayed. I said to myself we're better and prettier than all of them and I will not let all my efforts and "pawis" to go to waste!! not! never. And so I worked my butt on that Gymnasium floor and smiled as in "todo ngiti" to impress the judges. The ending of our cheering dance just got better which gave me hope that we will surely win. We had fireworks which were different and unique from the others. The following day January 28, I had to swim. Everything as I see that morning were just all right and incontrol. We won some. Then when it was my turn, I prayed and tried to catch up, I swum my best to try and put in place I should be but on the near end, my legs strightened and really got tired!!! I was running out of air. I thought I was gonna drown. I don't want our team to lose. I keep myself giving a rest and pushing myself to continue but my body just can't swim anymore. I was too tired. And so Abi helped me up put of the water. I want to cry! I was full of regrets. Anyhow, my friends gave me all the hugs I can have and told me that I didn't do anything wrong but to make the best out of the situation.
