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I went to church on and off usually when an inner need for spiritual feeding became strong enough to push me to go. It wasn't until I was in my early 30's that I experienced the fullness of God, His Son, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. As each understanding is received, it is like passing through one more veil hanging in front of the window of Light. God knows that being the practical down to earth person I am that I would need practical proof of His Greatness. I remember one day after just starting a receptionist job in a very busy medical clinic, I prayed "DEAR GOD, PLEASE DON'T LET THAT PHONE RING FOR JUST 5 MINUTES." It took me probably 10 minutes before I realized that the phone hadn't rang once. I tested Him many times before I came to accept that He can and does answer prayer requests in very normal everyday situations. He tested me as well. I couldn't for the life of me see why I should be baptized by immersion (a Baptist belief) when I already had been baptized as a baby. It took months of God's gentle but persistent prodding(nagging)to bring me to the realization that it wasn't the being baptized that was important. It was being willing to be obedient because He asked me to. I remember clearly the day it dawned on me. It was a Friday and I was at work. It was noon when it suddenly hit me. I felt as if some great weight had been lifted off me and so another great lesson was learned to trust and obey. I immediately picked up the phone and called my pastor and asked if I could be baptized that Sunday. To this day, I cannot imagine living my life today without my faith in Jesus Christ and his promise "I am with you always." Through participation in various Healing Prayer Groups, Christian Cell Groups and a Women's Sacred Healing Circle, I have observed and participated personally in prayers of healing directly and indirectly. I have witnessed answers to those prayers. It has been through
the faithfulness and support of my Women's Sacred Circle sisters
and my Christian friends that I have been able to grow steadily
in spirit, love, grace and wisdom. I will keep on learning, studying,
and practicing various different means of accessing healing power
and willing to be used to channel healing energy from God, the
Creator or the Universe through meditation and prayer- singly
and collectively. "Where one or two are gathered together
in my name, it shall be done." |
As
a child, I think I have always believed in God or a Creator.
Being raised on a ranch, it seemed natural to give credit for
the creation of all creatures and their natural habitats to a
Higher Power whom we called God. My first real experience with
the omnipotence of this Creator I knew as God was when I was
12 years old. I was very sensitive child. One day I asked my
father for .25 cents for an eraser for school. As I watched him
pull out of his hip pocket an old flat worn out wallet I knew
intuitively that it was empty and I knew that he knew that too.
I felt his anger and frustration at not having even a quarter
to give as he said to me,"I thought we just bought an eraser
for you at the beginning of school. What do you do with them?
Eat them?" I felt so bad for having asked him for something
he couldn't give and wished with all my heart that I hadn't asked
for anything. I sought refuge out in the back bedroom off the
porch where I lay sobbing to the depths of my soul. I talked
to God a lot in those days. As I sobbed everything out to Him,
suddenly, it was as if I was being wrapped in a warm blanket
and cradled like a baby by a Loving Presence who absorbed all
the pain and hurt and made me feel that everything was all right."
It was the most beautiful, profound and healing experience I
have ever had. To this day I can still remember it in detail.