High School Reunion

Disclaimer: Don�t own anyone except Adam�but I don�t own Adam�s name. Sue me if you do you get even more of these stories and gay porn. ^_^ So go ahead. Summary: Joel forces Benji to go to their high school reunion. Benji doesn�t want to go, why would he? Maybe for that special someone�(m/m and GAY JOCK!!)

Chapter 17: Damn It

(A/n-Lyrics are Jaded(These Years) By MEST taken from their self-titled album �MEST�)
There�s a time and place for everything
There�s a reason why certain people meet
There�s a destination for everyone
What�s the explanation when we�re done?
All the summer nights spent wondering
So many questions asked but no ones answering
Would it be ok if I left today?
Took my chances on what you said was wrong

I�m jaded stupid and reckless
Not sorry
And I�ll never regret these
Years spent
So faded and reckless
Not sorry
And I�ll never regret these years
I�ll never regret these years

Tears began to build up in my eyes as I listened to Tony�s voice coming out of the dance hall. Joel and Billy looked at me as the song played and quickly ran to my side. �Benji you ok bro?� �Benji?� �Benj�babe�what�s wrong?� I didn�t answer, I couldn�t answer. Everything was right, but so wrong at the same time. Their voices got carried off by the words being sung.

Now here I sit so far away
Remembering all the memories
It�s times like these that I miss you most
Remembering when were so close

I�m jaded stupid and reckless
Not sorry
And I�ll never regret these
Years spent
So faded and reckless
Not sorry
And I�ll never regret these years
I heard my own voice come on the loudspeaker. Singing along with Tony�My Tony NO!! He�s not mine anymore. Not. No. Fuck. A breath got caught in my throat as I listened to our harmonizing voices.

I�ll never forget
The places we�ve been you and I
Our lives
Are slipping away
Don�t want to let time pass us by
By�

My voice suddenly took over as the music grew quiet and the acoustic played. Tears were now streaming down my cheeks as the memories took over.

I�m jaded stupid and reckless
Not sorry
And I�ll never regret these
Years spent
So faded and reckless
Not sorry and I�ll never regret�

I�m jaded
(These years gone by)
Stupid and reckless
(These years)
Not sorry
And I�ll never regret
(Never regret)
These years

As the song finished I was racking with sobs. All three guys were holding me trying to calm me down. I could feel Adam giving me soft kisses on my cheeks and wiping the tears away. �Baby? Baby you ok?� I looked over at Adam with a shocked expression and took off running. I ran to our room and tore open my suitcase.

I fished out the smaller bag I kept in there and pulled out an envelope from that bag. Once I did this I fled from the hotel avoiding anyone I knew at all costs. I ran as fast as I could to the little pond. I remembered when Tony came for Christmas that one year. The pond was frozen so we sat in the little gazebo and stared at the ice. He had brought his acoustic guitar so he sang to me. So very romantic�

I walked over to that gazebo, by now I had stopped crying, but right when I sat down the memories came back. I started sobbing again. I took out the letter from its envelope and stared at it a while before re-reading it for the hundredth time.

Benji,

I�m sorry. I know you won�t accept my apology, but I just wanted you to know. What I did was fucked and totally wrong. I shouldn�t have done it this time or�well�the other 4 times either, yes their was for more times. Each time was with Matt. I�m so fucking sorry Benji. I loved you�I still do. More then anything, Benji. You�re my fucking world. Without you Benj I wouldn�t have a life right now. I am sorry for what I did, but I will never be sorry for what we had. What we had was, and to me, still is special. I�ll forever cherish those times we had together. I will never forget them. There�s a reason why certain people meet Benji�I know I was meant to meet you. Hopefully we�ll get through this. Since that night you�ve been avoiding me. I know you have. Every time I ask someone where you are they don�t answer. I wished I knew. While I�m writing this Benj I�m sitting on the bed in Jeremiah�s room. You remember this bed don�t you? It�s where I confessed my feelings for you, where we first kissed, where we first made love. Not fucked Benji, made love. It�s times like these Benji, when I�m sitting here remembering it all, that I miss you the most. Once again Benji I�m sorry for everything I did.

Love,
Tony XOXOXO
P.S. I wrote a song dedicated to you�the lyrics are attached. I want it to be on our upcoming album, but it won�t be right without you. Please say you�ll sing it with me?

I folded up the letter, tears still pouring down my face. I wiped them away furiously and took in a deep breath. I knew as much as I hated myself for it, I still loved Tony. Fuck I hate this! I don�t want to love him. Why the fuck do I? I love Adam too. I know that. I love him just as much, maybe even more, as I did Tony. The only difference between Adam and Tony is Adam will never do that to me. Or at least I hope he won�t.

�You know�most boyfriends would get pretty damn jealous if that happened to them,� I heard a voice say. I looked up quickly and saw Adam. He smiled and walked over to where I was sitting. �Joel told me that was your ex�s band,� He said. I nodded and looked down again. �I�m sorry Adam�I love you but�I�� You still love him,� Adam finished. I hesitantly nodded. He moved over and surprisingly wrapped his arms around me, �Benji baby I don�t care if you do because right now I have you and he can�t change that. I looked back up at him and smiled leaning up and kissing him. When we pulled away there was a huge grin on his face.

When we got back to the hotel it was already past midnight and the dance was over. We walked back to our room and fell asleep instantly. Well Adam did anyway. I stayed up. Tomorrow we were leaving�and then off to Warped Tour.

I got up from the bed making sure Adam was asleep. I turned on the laptop and logged onto Warpedtour.com. I scrolled down the list of bands until I came to the M�s. �Mest� was written on there. I sighed knowing God wouldn�t be so nice. I crawled into bed and Adam instinctively wrapped his arms around me. Oh well, at least I have him. Smiling I fell asleep.

FIN
(Hahaha don�t you love the ending? Don�t worry kiddos there will be a sequel called �Warped� where Tony comes into the picture. I�ll write that soon! Anyway PLEASE REVIEW THE WHOLE STORY!! PLEASE!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! *Muah!*)