I've walked so long with you
that I'm afraid
I can't see this world
without you
I've been all you asked for so long
that I'm afraid
I can't be myself anymore
without you
I've never thought about death for so long
but I'm afraid
I've turned away from life
without you.
Just this pain
running through my veins
instead of blood, like poison
without you
it has no end and no beginning
your ignorance
the constant refusal to hear me
you look through me
you don't see me.
your insecurity
the few words you speak
a knife, an ultimatum -
You've wounded me deeply
So why am I still here
without you?
Why do I feel this way
Holding you, kissing you, painting
a world of dreams and colors
for you and me
without you...
I'd hide
but who can hide
away from the self?
I'd run
but I'm afraid
I'd end up before you
falling, again. It's in vain.
So many roads to take
Why do I step on this road
without you?
In this web of lies
I am not an innocent victim
But I keep on playing
my role...
And I breathe my pain
inside the vicious circle.
A wounded soul
but I'm not your doll
Stop playing.
Crying, I stand still
I wait for the winter
I'll put my slippers on
And I'll be gone
I'll walk through the snow
Until I lose my way
- I know -
It's the only way out
the only way there is;
for me,
My way without you.
(D.J., 10/04/2005)