Writings
I write alot of lyrics, video-game storylines, and...weird...fantasy-type...stuff. I'll post what I feel like up here occasionally.
...well, when I feel like it. o_O
Lyrics
Allowance
Impressing feeling that I lack what I've felt all my life
Admiration of an hourglass figure or an unreal picture perfect face
I've never known myself to be void with this passion
Now I'm void against this and others, too
The conviction of liking this girl or that girl
Feels like I'm going to jail for stealing fake jewlery
And trouble follows me like the dog to it's tail
And gives up about as easily
When can my sunrise be prettier for once
Than the sunset everyone else knows is better
I'm tired of thinking just left and right, with or against
Turn off the lights, shut the door and let me brood for my own good
Sensitive minds were meant for deep thinking
Deep thinking exists to learn reason
Life is thick with luster and discovery
There's no way I'll give in
Talk to you later
Maybe tomorrow
Talk to you later
After a new day
Talk to you later
Talk to you later
Give back what I borrow
The gift you say
Put the glass down and the bottle away
Snuff out the smoke, I don't play that game
The world thinks I'm bound by the morals I keep
But I think those without aren't as happy as they seem
You think I'm bouncing back and forth
Like the thoughts in my head are rubber balls
And death's the only pin that could pop them
Well that ain't coming soon, believe me
Talk to you later
Maybe tomorrow
After a new day
The gift you say
When can my sunrise be prettier for once
Than the sunset everyone else knows is better
I'm tired of thinking just left and right, with or against
Turn on the set, throw back the curtain and gimme my chance to go
Talk to you later
Maybe tomorrow
Talk to you later
After a new day
Talk to you later
Talk to you later
Give back what I borrow
The gift you say
Talk to you later
If you're willing to let me
I'd be more than happy
To satisfy your savor
Talk to you later
Talk to you later
Talk to you later
An Apparent Baseball Analogy
I'm done
The lies are through
Sick of being used
The victim of "oops"
I tell you I'm done
I hope someday
The kiss may say
"I want you today"
Instead of "sorry"
Facing all this pain
Little hope remains
That truth may have a place
Within this tight embrace
If I could have a choice
I'd tell the girls and boys
"Watch out for the ploy
Don't become a toy"
But you, to you I'd say
"My dear, just back away"
I want that look so bad
But I know you I can't have
I'm done
The lies are through
Sick of being used
The victim of "oops"
I tell you I'm done
I hope someday
The kiss may say
"I want you today"
Instead of "sorry"
You knew when I saw you that I was already caught
Your eyes met with mine so often, who would've thought?
I did, I thought about you so much after that
No surprise I found you again, but you swung the bat
I caught the ball you hit and juggled it around for days
But I was thrown when I realized you were way off base
Or was I? You said so, but when you let me know
I loosened my grip on the ball and painfully let go
I'm done with being caught in a cruel net of deceit
I'm finished with this game of lather, rinse, and repeat
I've had more than my fill of this ridiculous thrill
The noise of happiness of others is becoming shrill
I'm done
The lies are through
Sick of being used
The victim of "oops"
I tell you I'm done
I hope someday
The kiss may say
"I want you today"
Instead of "sorry"
If I could call you anything
You're an expert at tying strings
Around my heart and through my hands
I couldn't help but follow in your dance
If I was smarter I'd have seen it coming
Nothing has ever been that easy for me
Bus as I said, I'm tired of learning the hard way
Drop the gloves and bats, I won't ever play again
I'm done
The lies are through
Sick of being used
The victim of "oops"
I tell you I'm done
I hope someday
The kiss may say
"I want you today"
Instead of "sorry"
Contradiction
Why does a thorn of doubt
Protrude from my heart?
I feel black inside my soul
And it makes no sense
I finally get to know you
I love everything I see
That's why I don't understand
This darkness inside me
I still don't understand
How feelings change so fast
Maybe I'm just confused
Or maybe I was tricked
Chorus
And it hurts
And it hurts
Such a clash inside me
Any order's shot
Like the stupid game we play
"She loves me, she loves me not"
Such contradiction
The arrows point inward
I can't stop thinking about you
But I have to
Chorus
Yeah I know I'll heal
But I want you there
So that I can tell you
How much I care
I wish you knew
How I feel 'bout you
But now you'll never know
Forgive me
And it hurts
Hurts
Chorus x2
First Night With You
What should I say
At the end of this day
To the girl who's my dream come true?
How should I feel
Knowing this is real
When my feelings brought this night with you?
Have you ever had a night
You wanted to never end?
Well, that's how I feel now
As your house comes 'round the bend
Why are moments like this
As strong as strong can get?
At least my solace for now
Is this'll get better yet
Chorus:
'Cuz all the things I've learned tonight
Blow away all former fright
Days like this don't get much better
Than it did today
And hope finally came through
As I realized I could still see you
Most anytime I wanted to
And knew that it would be OK with you
This burning in my chest
Could be the best
Feeling I have ever had
Now that this part's done
The day has come and gone
And I couldn't feel any more glad
And though I've asked so much
Still "God Is Gracious"
Chorus
Did you really think
That I was gonna blink
As I looked into your eyes tonight?
So I have to say
Goodbye for another day
I know that this feeling's right
I see you look at me
The way I look at you
So what do you say,
Do you feel the way I do?
Chorus x2
I'm Gone
Fly
Let me fly
I can ride
The sky
Look into my eyes
and tell me I can't try
Soar
Let me soar
Off the floor
I'll roar
Wanting nothing more
Than opening the door
To go
Chorus:
I'll make it
When you wake up
And I see you
Looking at me
There's no doubt
In my heart
That your heart
Gives a care at all
But I can't help
But fear the other
And think you might
Love another
Now
Going now
Now somehow
For now
You know how
I broke the sweat on my brow
Fly
Let me fly
I can ride
The sky
Look into my eyes
and tell me I can't try
I'll go
Chorus
I'm gone
If At First...
I don't know where I am
Two walls adorn this highway
Laced with random patterns
Falling towards the ground
Reminds me of my pride
That I handed to you
On a silver platter
Like I've often done before
Chorus:
I always have a chance
I'll never forget that
There's never "no hope"
And I'll live to remember
I wish I was the windshield
Causing the rain to bounce
No smears on this surface
Unlike my coated past
The skies are darker than ever
So here under the darkest clouds
I'll promise myself yet again
To never give up and never give in
And try, try, try, try again
Chorus
So we decide our own rules
We capture memories and
Think of things for ourselves
The storms grow darker
But freedom speaks for itself
Unlike many beliefs harder to hear
Too many clouded beliefs
And the storm never ceases
It's time to make your move
Chorus
[Spoken:]
[If at first you don't succeed,
Hey, don't just give up,
Cuz that never got anyone anywhere-
Except right back to the beginning
Just because you aren't perfect,
Doesn't mean it hurts to try.
In fact you're better for it.
So, don't stay down after the fall]
If you mess it up
Congratulations, you know you're human
(repeat once)
(Chorusx2, and above stanzax4 mixed)
Let Me Know
Can I write?
Can I try?
Can I spite?
Can I cry?
If this took flight
And won your heart
Then I'd have done it
If you despite
Of how you start
Are changed from it
Can I write?
Can I try?
Can I spite?
Can I cry?
I love knowing this will be loved
You love loving this that I love
Just as I loved loving what I loved
When I was in your shoes and loved others love
Can I write?
Can I try?
Can I spite?
Can I cry?
Put me on your favorites list
Put my songs on repeat
Sit for hours soaking it in
If you listen hard you'll have a treat
This I can promise if you give me a chance
I'll place you in a musical trance
And bring you where I've brought myself
Through love of the music on my shelf
Can I write?
Can I try?
Can I spite?
Can I cry?
I'll show my deepest side
Promise me you'll listen
Lost In My Memories
The lack of life
Gives light to the dim
And the dim gives life to my past
My past, my past is pleasant and timed
Timed to give me time
To time myself on this path
And you are part of those good times
With them, the core of memories
And I can't help but wonder why
The past, in my head, never flees
A notebook waits for dusty returns
And my conscious slowly burns;
The pencil sleeps,
Left where it was lain
To rest much longer than was wise
I can't seem to compromise
My time with works
I should've done again
And he gave life to my good times
And she gave birth to memories
And that's what motivates the "why"
So my best chance for success never flees
The clock is blinking 3
It's glaring out at me
Like expectations nigh
It makes me wanna cry
There's so much left to do
But I still think of you
Distractions scream around
And I can't hear a sound
Of sense getting to my head
My sleeping pattern's dead, again
How did I get this far?
Why are these tasks so hard?
No don't give up, don't give in
Must fight the want to sin
Stop thinking about her
Before you blow your chance for life
Forever
Forever
Forever
Only comes once a lifetime
There's letters riding high
I need my scores to fly
Above where they are
And maybe soon
I'll earn this lucky room
God carry me farther
Than I've ever been before
And you are part of those good times
With them, the core of memories
And now I only wonder why
A fear made me nearly cease
Music
Music is always born with my heart
And has for all my memory
But it seems my lucky die is ruptured
No one's got my band's symbol
I'm left without ways and means
To express the truest form of me
Excepting this simple text
I'm looking for a favor, God permit
Chorus:
Place in my hands the boon I love
Convey my being out to who's listening
And while my will pilots my fingers
I'll finally watch my dreams soar from me
I think my singing is ringing unheard
It bounces back to my ears decayed
It's hard to believe the laud of the kind
It'll have to prove it's merit sometime
Chorus
Once I cross the mountain
After the pair of years
I'll glimpse out broad to see
A clear view of morrow
Hold me, let me be
More than music
My King
He is a thousand summer days
The brilliant morning rays
He is the peak of every season
The ultimate elucidation
He's the breeze that lifts me up
The bearer of my cup
He took the burden of all seasons
Spurred by love uncomprehended
He gave more than a stranger ever should
He saved more than a rescue ever could
Chorus:
He is my light
He is my king
He freed my life
He lets me sing
And i can never bare to think of holes now scars after the pain
How could anyone have used those nails in such a way?
And even when taunters mock me directly to my face
I'll never say a word against the truth of him who dwells in grace
My bread, my water, my shepherd, my judge, my king
He is the maker of the sun
The one they said would come
He opened up to misery
His gentle soul wracked painfully
And it gives me such agony
To remember how he bled for me
Then i go and complain when something
Little bothers me
He's the answer to every question to be asked
He's the last one who i'd ever pierce like that
Chorus x2
Scared Happy
I found heaven too soon
I wanted it too dangerously
You were a happy recipient
But you're more worried for me
It's too soon
Happiness, it isn't time
Can I hold it out
Will this fermata die?
Chorus:
I'm scared happy
You did it, yes you did
I'm scared happy
Are you as scared as me?
I'm scared, so scared
The future, it can't be
Will you always remember?
Would you forget me?
I've thrown myself from the cliff
Arms spread trying to fly
Exhilaration floods my senses
Now I'll either keep or die
Chorus
Help me down
Help me land
Help me safe
Help me live
Help me love
Help me keep
Help me stay
Help me free
Help me time
Help me, help
I'm too happy, what's gonna happen?
The Self-Centered Love Song
Written by Me and Andy Scannell (my cousin)
I never tire of seeing that face
Twenty four hours, seven days a week
Those sparkling eyes and that shimmering grin
Always bring a smile to my face
And I know that soon it will end
So I turn away from the mirror
Chorus:
I love me, I love me!
I love me, I love me!
I love me, I love me!
I love me, I love me!
Pictures and posters and Polaroids I keep
These are a few of my favorite things
Nothing compares to the gift that you gave
When I think of it I have to behave
It's so awesome to be me
Orlando Bloom�s got nothing on me!
Chorus
To see me when I wake up
Is a gift that no one deserves but me
To know that I will be there everyday
Is a three-fold utopian dream
I do something to me
That I CAN explain
I wouldn't be out of line
If I said�
How much I love me!
Chorus
Sheer Lonliness
I always wonder
If those looks mean something
I'm always saddened
To realize my guess is wrong
And it always hurts
Knowing they don't like me
And it always burns
To see them like them
Chorus:
And this life
Makes me feel
Like I'm less
Than second best
Well I know; I can tell
I'm not up to the rest
But I still feel the pain
I still love and I still care
But I still feel the pain
I still love; Why don't you care?
It's always there
The cute hair tossed back for the better guy
I always stare
At the mirror I'm surprised didn't shatter
They always look
For the chance to get the ungettable
They never look
To get me, so what does that make me?
Chorus
Looks fly about me
None aimed toward me
It always bites
When they cut our conversation short
It always tears
When they dart to my friend who just walked in
What's wrong with me?
Is there something that I'm doing wrong?
Or can it be:
They just don't like me?
Chorus x2
I think I've given you enough hints
To let you know that I like you
You can't use that excuse against me
All you can say is you just don't like me
You just don't like me
You just don't like me
I'm lonely...
Spiralling
I've never been trapped
By someone's eyes before
Never felt caught in
The vortex of someone's soul
That's pulling me farther and farther
I hope she doesn't break
This contact she just made
And lose the feeling that's here
Feels like the missing piece
To my puzzle has been found in someone's gaze
Their simple gaze
Has filled me with completion
Spiralling spiralling spiralling
Spiralling spiralling spiralling
Spiralling spiralling spiralling
I'll take you in my arms
And never let you go
Three
If you'd asked me weeks ago I'd have
Told you it was impossible for a dream
To come true so completely
So completely
And if you'd shown me what you'd turn out to be
That I'd be staring at all hope manifested, saying
"Look at me"
"Look at me"
Chorus:
I gasp with the feeling
My heart begins reeling
At the possibility
That all of this could be
A real live genuine turn of events
That all bad luck previously tried to prevent
Now here you are looking at me
I've found you, finally!
Now all my senses turn on and kick in
I drown in your smile and swallow your sin
You spend time with me
Cuddled and free
But every moment you're away I ache and long and salivate
The time we kill together always too soon abates
It passes too quickly
It's not long enough nearly
Chorus
Why Me? (The Emo Song)
Written by Me and Andy Scannell (my cousin)
The world is dark
As black as my mop-top hair
I'm in a cage
Like the broken heart on my retro shirt
Everyday
After my morning scream
I put on my inch-thick glasses
That I don't even need to see
Chorus:
This is an Emo Song
The story of our lives
This is an Emo Song
We are Alone, Together
I can't believe
That that girl last week
Tore out my heart
Threw it in the street
I was so depressed
I took my Prozac pill
And I swore to myself
I'd never again watch One Tree Hill!
Chorus
I hate my mom (I'm so depressed)
I hate my dad (I'm so depressed)
I hate my room (I'm so depressed)
I hate my house (I'm so depressed)
I hate my self (I'm so depressed)
I hate my skin (I'm so depressed)
I hate my face (I'm so depressed)
I hate my hair (I'm so depressed)
I hate my car (I'm so depressed)
I hate my bike (I'm so depressed)
I hate myself (I'm so depressed)
I hate myself (I'm so depressed)
I hate myself (I'm so depressed)
I hate myself (I'm so depressed)
I hate myself (I'm so depressed)
I hate myself (I'm so depressed)
My life is envied by no one
My life, in affordable housing
Nothing happens to my life
So it stays in the stagnant version
Of SUCK
Chorus
Wait...
Whatever.
A Moment In Time
Written by Phil Leue
She walks out the door
With some change in her hand
Buys the headlines and comics
From the newspaper stand
My mind dictates novels
But my throat cracks and chokes
We both laugh together
But to her it's a joke
My eyes ask for a token
But there's not one to spare
And she breaks all eye contact
With a wave of her hair
In one slight graceful moment
Her prescence is lost
And one only wonders
How much his love will cost
Chorus:
Then she turns
With a smile on her face
My feet will not move
But my heart's in a race
And she gives me that look
Yet I know it's not mine
It's all just an act
Just a moment in time
Later at home
A thought came to me
That if I was the one
Oh how wondrous it would be!
I fell fast asleep
With no thought of my own
For o'er my dreams she's ruled
On her enchanted throne
Chorus
My eyes catch a glimpse
Of that beautiful delight
And as our eyes make connection
We take off in the night
I wrap my arms around her
And with her heart so close to mine
I tell her I will love her
Until the end of all time
Then she turns
With a smile on her face
My feet will not move
But my heart's in a race
And she gives me that look
The same as before
But this one's no act
No, not anymore
For a moment
A moment in time
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