Another dreary restless night draws closer to an end
Listening to the sounds of isolation from years away
Tossing and turning unsure of whats up or down
Dreaming away into a unstable pile of misunderstandings
Slowly picking away at walls of inner selfish pride
Corrosion, It's the only to break guilt out of concrete
Dreams of a ship to set sail into the calm sea of no where
My destination is hazy and fearful doubts fill my lungs
Adjusting the sails to guide myself into the midnight winds
Relying on my senses to guide me through these troubled waters
Only to be awakened marooned on an island of regret
But still your image keeps me here, Finding meaning in us
Look into the blackened abyss of your mind
Where everything falls into it own its place
And look into the eyes of your one true destiny
Tell me what it is really is you ask of me ...
Place your warm hand upon my heart
Cover me from the harshness of the world
Listen to my cold dieing breath
My only friend, My last love, My broken heart
Can you stop my bleeding? Because .....
I can't live without you by my side
As the moments come closer I slowly realize what is misery
Living on a day to day basis trying to wake from this turmoil
Washing blood from my hands forgetting yesterdays mistakes
How many visions must one prophet see before he goes blind?
Engaged in an epic battle for ones own peace of mind
Encircled in a sinful battlefield armed with only a heart
Fending off any who dare to cross over to the surreal
Only to be cast aside by the desirable of today’s soldiers
Wake and understand? ……
It’s nothing more but propaganda for the innocent
Within each of us, Lies fear
Will time show me the way?
Within each of us, Lies doubt
Will time show you?
Within the bottom of my soul
Time will prevail
Within the depths of our minds
Time will indeed show us
That within us all
Lies hope & friendship
Time will prove our faith
For we will always be friends!
*This poem was written by a close friend of mine Jon*
Much love Jon I'll miss you!
You ask me if I love her, Well what can I say?
I'm a shaded flower blooming in her gentle smile
They have said I'm a dreamer but that we're two of a kind
Both of us searching for a perfrct world we know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave her side and just go far away to distant lands
But I know that theres no where I'd rather be than with her tonight
If I was standing by you, How would you feel?
Knowing your love's undecided and all my love is real
There’s a place where he likes to reside his own selfish guilt
Dying within his own inner corroding walls of disillusion
Searching for a lonely truth in a concrete jungle of deceit
Like a ghostly mime trapped within a glass house of bigotry
He struggles on to find his only real path to life’s dead end
A street of broken mirrors seeing what he’s slowly become
Slowly making his way through a darkened maze of fragmented lies
Watching his time come to a stand still, He now knows his sins
Like a nightingale without its gentle call of serenity
Silently crying out into dark walls of lonely restraints
He slowly comes to realization that the man he fears
Is nothing more than a distant shady figure in the mirror
Gently listening to the desolate winds of yesterday’s dreams
He spreads his arms wide open to hug each new dreadful day
Only to open his dry mouth to French kiss the dark sun of his heart
Falling to his feet being burned by the sight of what he has feared
He struggles to look upward at the sun that has caught his attention
Only to see a darkened silhouette of a broken butterfly laying in hand
Painfully opening his heart dreaming that the butterfly can dream once again
Watching its wings come to life he releases it back into the dream of yesterday
As the day goes to night he lives in the false dream of a possible chance of a maybe
That maybe one day the butterfly may return to him seeing beyond his appearance
Beyond our imaginations in the distant horizon
A white lonely silhouette stands clear from all the rest
I hear her voice against the crashing winds of destiny
A silent voice filled with unremarkable honesty and truth
Like a shadow that bares the mark of all that is needed
You’re my light from all these dark sins in this sea of agony
Together we live with melted sunburns disguised as life
We only know small pieces from our small fragmented lives
But we shall slowly put things together as I walk toward you
But if our distance shall be our death from being together
Then I shall walk among then dead just to be by your side forever
A shady reflection off a darkened bottle peered into his soul
Sending tidal waves of unfound hope crashing along his shore
Like a mute in suffering his words seemed no need to speak
A haze no man needs to remember for he knows his sins
A night of never ending shady frames surrounding his soul
Shall he remain forever unforgiving until his day comes?
Or shall his silent words with no bearing keep him vigilant?
In his daylight’s paradise he know he must see into his destiny
Forever inspired by soft moments of a forgotten dream
He awakens to find himself as before longing for sorrow
With 21 ripped chapters from his book of forgotten memories
He still lingers on to trying to save his soul from isolation
At every seconds past a face overshadows his every step
As winding sand footprints lay side by side along his shadow
His mind picks away at everything he believed in and realizes truth
That he still must overcome his fears as the darkened face remains
Like a rose has its thorns every man has his unspeakable fears
For him its a personal infected plague with no curable resolutions
A darkened empty void where his heart used to matter & reside
A cancer of misguided love, Has he forgotten how to love for another?
Behold the echoes from a certain point in time
Bouncing off the winding sands of tomorrow
Staggering on the lonely shores of human time
Discovering footprints inside our own hourglass
Watch them fade from dusk to a darkened dawn
As we cry in the shadows of a daylight darkness
Realizing the prints have faded into the cold sea
Never to be seen again only in dreams that past
Desolation plays its role inside the grains of time
Silently waiting for its moment to shut you down
Without hesitation it sinks its venom into your soul
Leaving you with a sinful cancer forever in doubt
It is written in the lost forgotten scrolls of tomorrow
That one day the earth will die and the stars will melt
The pale sun will fade into a dark void of nothingness
We will all crumble before the sands of the hourglass
Once it is all said & done we chosen few will prevail
Standing above the crowd listening to there sinful prayers
We shall raise the hourglass and look down upon them all
As we sit alone at the top with the daylight moon on our backs
Another drastic turning point in the road
As signs direct us to our tarnished miseries
Shaded by questions of a lonesome silence
Draging our sympathy with every seconds turn
For us Everything's mistakable even our hearts
Lost within a battle with only ourselves to blame
Like unwakeable children lost within their dreams
Victory from self confidence seems only a illusion
But as unarmed soilders caught up in a paper war
Were fighting concrete shadows that bare no names
Like a plague sent from above to haunt the ingenious
Its poison sinks into those who don't follow the leader
We are the pure junkies of this world of intolerance
Injecting every true untouched source of humanity
Protecting ourselves from the wars of holy impurity
As we try to stay afloat chanting out our prophecies
We watch you turn a prayers into rhymes of insanity
A holy war of book burnings between both sides of faith
Only to listen to the sounds of ashes formed into a question
Is a pale vacant sky is the principal object of lost faith?
We must survive this society that abuses the muses of our time!!
A desolate flower grows out a concrete slab
One not likes any other so I dare not to touch
Its pedals seems to be fading from self corrosion
But still it remains nature's untouched beauty
As I slowly try to come near its tranquil serenity
I fall to my knees to realize what I've discovered
Only to be buried with it's untrue unwillingness
Now what's left to do? Do I try to take it home?
Only to be left in an empty jar filled with false hopes
No, I shall remain on hallowed ground watching it's beauty
For no wise man has ever known the true meaning of life
I myself am not a wise man of ever knowing knowledge
But a true man who sees what his heart wants him to feel
I've been told only a select few in life can understand love's thoughts
Its greatest gift as a flower is the restoration of the true senses
Now it seems everyone has discovered what I've known all along
That flowers swing from side to side listening to the sounds of the world
Silently crying out to the shadows of desolate inner dimmed lights
Hold on even if for a moment's time just to listen to your heart beat
In a garden beyond the distant horizon can we be undisturbed?
Drifting away as I try to disappear in the beauty of your jaded eyes
In a sea of essence I listened to the sound of enlightenment to see that,
Gardens are an empty void with dreams of misguided illusions of love
A question of being forever misunderstood is left in the air
As difficult as it may seem one must wither to remain calm
Only to see that love is a plague surrounded by pedals of lost flowers
On the faded broken pedals of a lonely flower
Another image has been seen, True desolation
Its features are all the same but never warm
Holding onto what very little was given to him
He struggles through the garden of misdirection
Never to realize it was a graveyard for the unloved
Looking onward to the horizon for newly found hope
Only to have his soul shattered by silent thunderstorms
Lonely lost tear drops disappear in the cold night rain
Mixing life with vanishing broken dreams of a loved one
Every rose has its thorn driving into the heart of men
Painfully piercing into the mind of lonely illusions
Sending waves of misguided love into a sea of sinners
Quietly drowning listening to sounds of waves crashing
Fighting for a reason to survive in a sea of abandonment
He struggles ashore to wither with the sounds of isolation
Picking aside tarnished thoughts jabbed inside his flesh
Realizing the faded flower still blooms with his memories
In the still delicate morning of my dream I poured the coffee
While she slept I slowly remembered the things she said to me
When she laughed it seemed that life's own heart beat stood still
Lighting sweet candles with only her own warm gentle smile
Walking from room to room filling it up with songs of laughter
But as the dawn creaped upon us everything remained in the dark
Still lying beside a sweet delicate angel with eyes filled with beauty
Her gentle eyes are wide shut from the dark shadows of my dreams
She turned to sleep as I watched her smile fade from the light into the dark
She laid there dreaming of a certain someone with hopes of a fulfilled heart
Watching her look into his eyes trying to think unpure sinful thoughts
Like a Venus in the morning he smiled at her watching silently & dangerously
Laughing turning to sleep everything that was said to me at a lonely instant
I watched his grin turned the pedals a bright yellow sun flower to shameful black
She slipped away from my dream only to be awaken holding onto the candles of joy
As it shines me through the room of poor lonely lost souls and tattered hearts
I silently found my way through a hallway to a true magical angel of my dreams
As pedals of roses fell from the frozen lonely glistening stars above her head
With eyes of the sea after a storm so beautiful that I slowly began to cry
As the tears began to fill my cup of loneliness watching my angel laying there
Until forever I will wait here drowning in the sea of disappearing red ink
Who will whisper into the shadows for me? But will she fill my half cup of tears?
Through the sick twisted eyes of the world
Another cold pale image pierces the flesh
One so sick mere men care not to see the truth
A darkened evil that bares no shadow nor name
Camouflaged with the impure sins of morality
It injects the tranquil serenity that is the mind
Sinking in its poison into the walls of decay
A spreading venom leading to suffocation
As lakes of endless tears stream down once again
No one realizes that he can drown in the sea of whispers
Cruelty is the one weapon in the war against reality
He must stand and deliver the false images of life
Upon a desolate platform he struggles with prayers
Asking the questions he cares not to answers upon
Fallen to a cold place where shadows stay clear from
A place where he sends hollow messages to pale skies
Water trends under his eyes releasing all that is real
As his dark loneliness becomes his desolate disease
One can only remember the harsh truth of life
Death is a shadow that always follows the mind
On the shallow wings of yesterday's misfortunes
Blurred images lay imprinted in the sands of time
Leaving a frame of mind asking for still questions
From your reasons forever and silently unanswered
Slowly drawn to bliss like a sadden moth to a flame
Strongly pushing us into a dreary illusion of reality
Loneliness becomes his only poison lacking its silence
She watches his tears leave trails from love's sinful games
Gathering his answers one can only hope for truths
Those who deny them selves everything live in lies
Together we danced beyond our faded broken dreams
Like pale deathly horses vanishing into the midnight mist
Remembering the taste of joy if only for a moments time
Unlike anything else it's an emotion with no comparison
His dreams were forever changed even from memories past
The silence of his screams keeps his fears at a standstill
As colors seem to run when these thoughts come to light
Mixing dreams with a life that has been dealt the broken hand
Cold and bare stone walls of unchanged sorrow
Keeps one man holding onto his lonely dreams
Never knowing the misfortunes laid before him
Tasks of which he will soon know very drasticly
And so the memories begin to slowly corrode
Leaving soggy trails of what used to be his life
Puddles of his loneliness formimg a cold black sea
Lonely tear drops falling into a sea of abandonment
His broken forgotten thoughts of a newly found hope
Gives nothing but cold truths to a world hypocrites
Known paths of treachery have been paved before him
Harvesting the lands with his seeds of misfortunes
Turning the barren lands of a once peaceful serenity
Into the broken world as we see it to this day, Shamefull
Unknown questions for a cold forgotten tomorrow
Dancing into the dark unborn wings of depression
Maps of the untold forever lost in a void of darkness
A silhouette remains amongst the sorrows of misdirection
Longing into tomorrows mysteries
Into the mistakes of unknown lives
Fate seems to play its silent partner
Eternally whispering into the night
Is it our fate to fall into the shadows of our minds?
Suffering is but forever, Unlocking the secrets inside
Plauges live in the hearts of all humanity
Agonizing sorrows that live on forever
Imbedded like a poisoned serpent of reality
No cure for what lives inside us all as one
When was the last time anyone looked at the moon?
Ever stared out into it and marvel at its pale beauty?
Ever noticed the only true nature still left untouched?
Its pale moonlight shines into the coldness of night
Gleaming down upon a world of unappreciated sights
Does anybody ever take time to stop and look above?
Why must you all be caught in your own little worlds?
Stop and just ponder of what you have above of you
Ever seen her flowers and children close their eyes?
Behind their flat gray eyes lies sweet sounds of bliss
As they realize they rest upon a sea of tranquility
Sinking into a dream of dormant soft flower beds
Even though for you nothing still changes
Today's visions become tomorrow's pages
All trapped in your own frozen paradise of time
But just sit still and listen to her sweet gentle call
For when you gently tread upon this harsh world
Nothing gets nothing, Sitting alone and curled
Ever wanted to see where the sky and water blend?
To see the true beauty of the harsh world we live in
Living under a bare sky of Forgotten constellations
Watching Silver-gray sunbeams drop careless smiles
Well its right in front of you only pause and be still
Look and listen to the sounds of a forgotten world
Watch us all fade with the whisper of the cold wind
As my voice disappears with the words of tomorrow
Snowy fields of dead frozen flowers and pedals
Lay before my feet layers upon layers of death
Like a frozen garden of eden beautiful but yet dead
Gardens as far my eyes can see but no life remains
Tears of ice begin to roll down my cold and soggy face
As old man winter picks at me footstep after footstep
Tracks seen leading down a long and winding path
Stone after stone all bare names of the unknown
Eyes overflowing with tears as memories lead me here
With tears in one's eyes I kneel and ask for answers
Why does he take everything I've ever loved from me
At an early age I found joy that most people dream about
It is often said you will never be a man until you see a man
And now that years have past I kneel before you as your son
Ive drained my cup of loneliness to the headstone before me
No words can express how much love has been taken from me
The emptiness that has been drained now filled with respect
I hope my cold and lonely whispers find you somewhere in time
Good men must die, but death cannot kill their names
Only cast their names onto stone living on forever
Like a companion forever and always there with me
Living in my mind and soul carrying me on through life
I've Traveled hundreds of miles to a cold and desolate land
To forever honor and remember the man, Daniel V. Figueroa
Flowers bloom and fall for its their own nature to be
But one man's life shall forever bloom in my dreams
R.I.P.
1936 - 1992
Daniel V. Figueroa
Years past as emotionless tears fall down my face
Silently conquering my fears with lolly pop bribes
My scars remain from years that I care not too say
Forgotten the feeling but still the spirits remains
I float again with newly found strength
Until sorrow can once again drown me
A new bitter taste of life given to a false prophet
How many visions has one sinner seen blinded?
No miracles, Works of god or Divine interventions
Just an emotion cut, pasted, framed, and forgotten
You came into the darkness, light I've been hiding from
Shinning down the path I've been told not to follow
A lonely path filled shady dreams of a loving life
No grey areas in the odd shaped lives we both live in
I float again with newly found happiness
Until sorrow can once again drown me
Color blinded by my many false vanishing shadows
I turn to myself asking the honest questions of hope
But answers found seem to be hidden from myself
Inner honesty decays the wall that was once trust
Must one more time I lend my hopes and dreams out?
Open my heart and let love infect me with its venom
If thats what one man must do to claim a forgotten feeling
Then I reach out into the outskirts hoping to catch something
Gently the wind blows at my face
Reviving trails of broken feelings
Bringing my head to a fallen shame
Stained glass painted with unwanted memories
Kind full whisper lead me the way
For from the sound of your voice
So bright and divine, Darkness fades
Its calls me from my inner blindness
You can't change the past
But you must live in its wake
Cards of the broken hand, Failed
Never handed the blackened rose
For its leaves has all been faded
No thorns nor worn jagged edges
Just dieing leaves waiting for the release
Broken signs of the never chosen
Risen from the shadows of the forgotten
Now born silently free from the bondage
Inner Bliss
Many long and desolate years have past
Since everything Ive ever loved has died
And Im still here decaying from within
Still trying to keep my head above water
Keeping my empty cold hopes barely alive
For maybe one day you false prophet Just
Might send me a message or a messenger
With the truth of why he has punished me
No sins have been comitted from this soul
For twenty years, Twenty long painful years
Ive lived in the shadows of your cold world
Looking upon everyone and everything
While my lonely soul still silently whispers
Whispering toward the light of the your world
Receiving only the sorrow that was once given
Ive suffered in this world for over twenty years
And have never found the disase called love
Ive only asked for infinite words of affection
But the words got lost from within the screams
Ive asked for someone who I can call my own
Not days, weeks, months, or even years
But an infintie world breathing in the love
Penance
Upon the distant horizon way off in the darkness
A silhouette stands tall amongst the cold night
Standing out like a dead tree on a barren land
My silent screams of sorrow fill the darkness air
Under the pain stricken clouds and a pale moon
I stand motionless for like a statue frozen in time
I walk in the wilderness of a pale desolate land
Trying to escape that place where insanity lives
Crimson tears of pain slowly drip from my eyes
Trying to break my heart out of a tangled web
As the silhouette comes to light, Shadows remain
But still no marks to bare such a wondrous name
Far away the shadow remains crawling in paradise
Still lurking amongst my trails of unknown lands
Through desperation & despair the shadow lurks
Standing against the bitter cold and ice chilled wind
Whispers from distance footsteps still call out to me
Drop down to my knees as remorse has overcome me
Searching in this featureless landscape, For the whisper
The iridescent cold pale moon hangs in the sky above
Strong and bold like an expressionist painting in a gallery
Breath of air blows by my ear, Shivers express from within
Rolling eyes to find only the cold hollow earth, So Desolate
Night stalker were built on the basis of false white shadows
The night mist slowly engulfs the dark and shadowy grasses
Lovely at a moments rest and deadly at a moments quick past
Like a slow motion raging river its beauty can draw you near
And then drown you in its own selfish ways of the human nature
No trace to be found, Nothing to remember such a ghostly sight
I am now part of this arid land that sees me as in its own right
Hopes of Salvation
Restraint? Isn't life a wonderful thing?
It hands us all pain and ultimate suffering
With unwritten masses of false dreams
As the erosion of inner shadows decaying within
Watching the prophecies of the infection of man
Devouring the once peaceful human way of life
Crucification is a concept of the mind
Playing its mind game of human chess
Does not every man wish to go to heaven?
But none wish to die to make that crusade
The anguish of being misunderstood
Slowly picks away at everything we stood for
Under the pale deathly white moonlight
A false paper messiah slowly dissolves
Leaving no trace to follow into eternity
Blood stained hearts, Mankind's innocence
Sobriety
What does one do when trust escapes from ones grasp?
Does he cut the world out from his soul and continue to suffer?
Or shall he fade those tarnished memories from his hollow mind?
Does he lack the will power to overcome such incurable thoughts?
Forever questioning the mistakes of a forgotten passion held by love
No truths behind the lies only cobwebs of mistrust and unforgiveness
As the remains of a shattered lie lay scattered amongst the shadows of the mind
He remains a cold and lonely soul pleading for answers from fading whispers
Forever changed by drastic costs of a cold and lonely world
Images flash inside his head clinging onto what is forever lost
Returning to the love that was once shared by two lost hearts
Only to find cold dirt roads and echo filled alleys of regret
Awakening in a room of whispers only find a lonely relection in the mirror
The only honesty left inside gently fades as he has seen what he has become
Tears stream down as he can longer take this false prison of pain and lust
Trying to grasp whats left of his sanity only to watch it crumble before his eyes
Mourning no longer his drug seeking for meaning of such impossible odds
Familiar faces creep their way back to fulfill their task as mumbled whispers
Only to turn a deaf ear, Shadows linger about as a diary of dreams takes control
Scars remain external and from within there's no greater sin than to be loved
Tenderness
Dig my claws under your skin
Feel whats really inside a ghost
A hollow breeze of cold breath
Blows over a pale hollow stone
No voice to hear such Sorrows
Only winds call, Hollow cold fields
Strip away tears from trembling lips
Pale skin with no warmth to cling to
Frost melts down my cold bare lips
Forming a puddle of red lonely tears
Cries were ignored? Pain was denied?
A room of cobwebs and cold pale roses
Is all that is left of what was a poor soul
The call of death has been strongly heard
Robbed of my innocence, Forgotten again?
Bowing down fearing nothing is truly left
Love and fear can't hardly exist together
He must choose between them wisely
Its is far safer to be feared than loved
Walk in silence in a false dream world
Open wounds pleading to be disinfected
Nothing is confident if my truth be told
Shaking under his skin hiding the obvious
Sing no sad songs for me for I am gone
I am going to seek a great perhaps
A shadow who bares no great name
A silence that shall not have a name
Love shall be my lonely whisper
Chanting from the mists of sadness
Forever Gone?
Forever Loved!
Dissected
I hear it in your voice
Quivering inside of you
You see right through me
I can see it in your dark eyes
Your loving lust reaching out
A silent whisper in the shadows
Leads me to your beautiful pale face
Sins of sinners all seem to fall into place
My anger feeds your passion
The match that lights the wick
Feelings burn down to nothing
A cold heart left with no tricks
Ghosts form within known as pride
Have yet to know my inner bliss
I know how the mind can play tricks
A Symbolic face of a beautiful love
Once lost there is no returning
Your soul has collided with mine
Ghostly face looking in the mirror
Built my inner self up for devastation
All attempts have been proven futile
Much disturbance with little forgiveness
In my darkest hour there is no escape
Pain transforming into a distorted shape
Guilt ridden with a constant reminders
Accepting the decomposition of my soul
Could it be my soul drowning in empathy?
Talking to cold hard expressionless walls
Ignored cries are leading me to loath myself
Its hard to keep your head totally above water
Wounds won't heal if they're constantly infected
I cannot bare what life has become, Uncorrected!
Take my cold hand as I lead you
Into a world of ridiculous dreams
Fake smiles, Pretending to care
Inner walls decay day after day
My Inner cuts shall never bleed
True pains can be felt by sorrow
Cold silent whispers slip into trance
Many faces of a cold Gothic romance
Only in nightmares could the average mind
Comprehend the cold whispers in the night
What is this cold harsh pain?
What happened to our reality?
What happened to our feelings?
Does my sorrow have any meaning?
Only in nightmares could the average mind
Comprehend the cold whispers in the night
Held back by ignorance in my past
Alone still clinging to a cold feeling
That could only be felt in a dream
All my innocence lost by moments
Obsessions with a cold loving image
Forgotten, No real truths to be found
Thrown back into the ocean of tears
Screaming into a world of deaf ears
Dissolution
I never understood the world you've created
Watching it lose it's grip on its inner sensitivity
Phantoms playing games with the human minds
Watching someone else take away what is theirs
Who are the madmen if not my inner whispers?
Your patriots scratching on their decaying walls?
Or is it your ghosts that haunts me? Its nothing but
Your images of dreams said beneath my emptiness
My bare twisted thoughts and jaded memories
Locked behind the wall of my empty family dreams
My bonds to never be broken by desire to know
But still Loved from someone I shall never know
One cannot capture love and keep it in a box
Trapped by four walls sealed from the world
There's no way of hiding from these inner sins
For they will not listen beyond the selfish fear
A cure from this illness is a scream in madness
My imaginations in such tasteless evil fashions
Your emptiness leaves no room for seconds
Whispers that surround my soul still beckons
In the dark of the shadows I listen close
Hearing the fading cries of the lost souls
Chosen few who don't care hear you cry
Trust is a very feared word but give it a try
Peeled pages from a childhood story book
For I am always guilty of such in securities
Without risks there are no true rewards, only
Visions of your cold steel claw griping my eyes
As I am Surrounded by a cold burning insanity
Forever we lost concept of our self indulgence
Whispers taking shape into a dark Silhouette
Which leaves me with empty arms and regret
Mother's Milk
All of what I've ever dreamed as a child
Images of a corpse and with a smile of a doll
My sick hated ways I hold my hands out
Nailed down to a cross bound by blood
I bleed internally for walking into your life
Hand me my sharpened dagger of eternal bliss
All of what I've ever wanted stood before me
Dead within me no chance for a final plea
I found my own selfish freedom in my cold heart
Nothing holding me back, but a ghost in my dreams
Echoes in my head warnings from my own headstone
Let me take away my life as Death is my inner throne
Shut your curtains, Hide your inner fears
Denial of sins, Alone I wipe bloody tears
Rippling hate sends waves misunderstood
My body is nothing but an empty cold shell
Judged for being human, cried to his grace
Now I leave behind this doomed family race
You shut your doors to keep the truth within
But the voice that speaks through the cracks
Is but a whisper into the darkness of reality
My inner hatred for you makes me vulnerable
Spirits of the cold winter nights grant me strength
To Keep my icy claws by my side, contain my hate
Your wretched soul is but a silent deadly plague
Lost in my mind as her love for me was all vague
Look through my cold visions as I end it all
A tattered heart injured from within loving walls
From my past a new face opens new loving ways
Love us again father, A shadow but still you amaze
You speak ill words of things he never understood
Your sick selfish love was hated above all the most
Mother watch with unbound joy at my inner selfish fall
Into a new world of love between a Son & a Ghost
I Could never seize her love
To one day I let it slip away
Father walks out of the darkness
My love, no longer a lost stray
This is the beginning of a new lonely cold life
My past is now gone as I slowly try to forget
Chasing down false dreams in which I shared
But the memory of honesty brings me to wake
Sadly sending messages from a lonely room
I now know the loneliness of the starless sky
It's endless beauty cries out into quite the Darkness
Only to find pain as they burn out trying to Impress
Have you ever wondered about my feelings?
I wonder of yours, If hate runs in your blood?
Do you know the way I hold you in my Heart?
My own inner journey to find your hidden Truths
We sat and spoke of many wondrous things
Rejoice as my darkness and sins fade from view
Your many ways of beauty have infected my soul
As I am left as the pursuer of your dreams
Chasing down lost understandings of honesty
You were a part of my dreams and my soul
My warm shelter from the coldness of Society
Now an imprint left behind from my own Sobriety
I have seen now what I have slowly become
A deprived soul from the outskirts of sorrow
Alone I piece back my dismembered heart
I was your wings, A salvation from despair
But your angels can't fly with broken wings
You let my darkness set in and spread its reality
As you felt the truths behind my lonely cold pain
Your innocence from within but your skin, Vain!
Our hearts left dangling on the ledge
Hanging, Just pretending they can fly
Let me fall hopelessly to the cold world
Your warm sweet voice puts me at ease
I am the keeper of your sad lost soul
Come join me in my battle with love
Seperated by desires, Living in fright
Embrace my fears that fly in our night
Untold Sorrow
Whispered words into the night
No one draws near to my world
For I am usually cold and empty
Then you came into my life one day
My life forever changed by you
I looked into your knowing eyes
All the pains I had suffered gone
My love for you, At a new Dawn
Beauty usually does hurt
Leaving the soul cold and useless
Body and Soul affected by the emptiness
As guilt causes the pain to ache endlessly
Words of honesty coming out in a few moments rest
As Both Physical and Emotion strength decay
Prison of the heart, Being Human is my Crime
Endless suffering disguised within Time
Beautiful Lady of my sacred dreams
Against all odds I fought and lost
Smashed my mirrors, Alone I sit lonely
Be gone from me, My one and only
How can I learn when I will be forgotten
Living a nightmare of being alive
Love will never be a part of my dream
Would you care enough to let me in?
Denied the truth, It hurts my false reality
Escape from nightmares that have no release
As Illusions of Torment fill me at such an early Age
I've written Chapters of Misery, Alone I turn the Page
Many times I think of you
Wondering where we could have been
Suddenly reality appears before me
I Closed my eyes & Accepted my fate
A cold & shallow emptiness fills inside of me
As I fade into forever like a whisper in the wind
This is my Untold Sorrow, For love I Sinned
Under god in devisable
Where has it gotten you?
Always thunk for yourself?
But Never The truth!
Your dying world is changing
Drastic costs for your ways of life
All Your Dead fashions & Liberal politics Dying
As Youths sink into the muck of the world
There's no eternal way to get them back
Years of your restraint unleashed in a flash
With liberty and justice for all?
We Step back and watch you Crawl!
A Mislead Generation?
We thousands of gathers
We mutants of the world
We the dreamers of life
Forever we live to suffer
Under a misguided pale hand
We stand together as one
Or We Die as Individuals
Time Changes
Don't Have No Fears For What You Are
Feel The Sorrow,But Don't Go Too Far
Escape The Pain,Demons In Their Home
Live In A Fantasy,That You Can't Cope
Dream World For The Alone,Be Yourself
Feathers In The Wind,Fly Like They Are Gone
Feels Like Fire When Its A Bond
Think of What You've Done,Remember Your Past
Handle Your Business,Your Problems Won't Last
Dream World For The Alone,Be Yourself
Feel The Struggle Within,
So Bad Can't Take It Anymore
Hide In Yesterday's Pain,
Feelings Gone Now Its a Bore
Fantasy World,Is Where You Hide Your Fears
Heal the Pain Inside,Your Judgement Is Not Clear
But Lost Now,No One Can Save You
Listen To Whose Words?,Not Much he Can Do!
Dream World For The Alone,Be Yourself
Feel The Struggle Within,So Bad Can't Take It Anymore
Hide In Yesterday's Pain,Feelings Gone Now Its a Bore
Dream Away,Left It All Behind
No One Was there When I Needed You The Most
Just Me And My Old Ghost
No Longer A Struggle Within
Frightened By What You Did Before
Can Never trust You Again
Afraid You Might Take Me Once More
Life,Whats It's Worth?
Is It An Endless Value?
Pain,That Does Not Stop,
Believe In My Words
Open Your Eyes,You Are Not Alone
Believe In Yourself
Destiny's Circle
I've seen his soul fade to grey
Come Jesus,Its time to play
Sorrow clutters in his rain
Gone with nothing more to gain
His sad Voice was strong & loud
Words of reasons in a Dark Cloud
It was my sorrow you took inside
Mercyful father? Dear phantom i tried!
Your Sadness becomes my gain
Jesus oh father Am I Insane?
You can look but you can't dream
Fall and watch him scream
His truth is where no one lies
He reaches out with his empty eyes
He's dead amongst his own dreams
Heaven isn't what it seems
Suffering streets are hollow & bare
Praying to an empty cross of dispair
His blessing is a cure of anger
Words that ghosts can't answer
F%*k your faith! Its all a Disease
Our suffering is our only cure
Its all about him & his son
F%*k jesus! Our war has just begun!
Ashes to Ashes
Dust to Dust
Be a Christian
& Die for his Lust!
