crush all humanz (1:04:19 AM):

*drags Blackout's drunken aft down the hallway, away  from the common room and towards the Nemesis.  stupid blender gettin' drunk without him*

JazzBabySays (1:06:55 AM):

-besides necking he manages to remain rather well behaved on the way back, stumbling along for the most part and relying on the other for support-

crush all humanz (1:08:09 AM):

WHY  DID Y'GET DRUNK AGAIN?  *stops outside the door*  AN' I NEED YER CODE.

JazzBabySays (1:11:40 AM):

Lord Megs said to keep...uh....my temperature down? No...my temper! Under control...and stuff...so...I got drunk, yeah! -nods sagely, though thankfully he's holding onto the other during all of that or he would have surely toppled over- Oh...my code...I changed that...right...-using the wall a bit for support now he leans over, tapping in several different codes before finally getting one right-

crush all humanz (1:13:26 AM):

*shakes his head*  YER HARDLY KEEPIN' YERSELF UNDER CONTROL.  AT LEAST WHEN YER SOBER Y'CAN MAKE -- WHY WAS YER TEMPER GETTIN' OUTTA CONTROL?  *starts navigating the other through the doorway once the door gets opened*

JazzBabySays (1:17:46 AM):

-frowns slightly at the question, it bringing back exactly what he had wanted to get drunk enough to forget- I don't...jus...jus seeing him makes me so angry...

crush all humanz (1:20:30 AM):

.........*doesn't know how to respond to that - half of him wants to apologize, but the other half wants to tell him that he shouldn't be getting mad at all.  instead, he just kind of stands in the other's room, feeling suddenly really out of place and awkward*

crush all humanz (1:21:27 AM):

*and then it hits him* ....WHY  DOES HE MAKE YOU SO ANGRY?

JazzBabySays (1:23:13 AM):

-blinks at him then, his filters out of whack, as per usual when a mech is plastered beyond all belief- Innit obvious?

crush all humanz (1:24:17 AM):

THIS IS ME, WE'RE TALKIN' ABOUT.  C'MON, LET'S GET Y'TO TH' BERTH.... *starts half-dragging, half-guiding the other over to said berth*

JazzBabySays (1:30:06 AM):

-lets himself be towed, more or less just falling those last couple of inches to his berth, though he does not let go, intending to drag the other down with him- 'Cause...-mumbles, now into the other's audios- knowing that he's touched where I have...it drives me to a fury...-growls softly, though it comes out more lusty than outright heated- Makes me wanna throw caution to the wind and jus...tear off your armor and...get rid of all his traces...

crush all humanz (1:33:16 AM):

.....*only slightly reluctantly drops with the other, straddling Blackout and keeping their distance to a minimum*  ....Couldn't help it.  Can't help it.  Jus'....  Things happen.

JazzBabySays (1:42:05 AM):

-is displeased by the lack of contact, and gives the other some tugs, wanting to draw him closer, as if physically being together will get rid of the space separating them from being able to go back to the way things used to be- I can do that now...can't I? -a hand trails along Bonecrusher's chest plate, wiping away at grime only he can seem to see-

crush all humanz (1:45:08 AM):

....Blackout...  *gives in easily to the other's pulling, lying against him quietly*  ....Why do y'do this t'me?  *very nearly kisses the other, stopping short*  ...'m tryin' t'be good  here...

JazzBabySays (1:48:49 AM):

-readily arches up, wanting that kiss, that taste...he practically hisses as the other denies him, lips resisting Bonecrusher's only so that he may speak- But...is this not good?

crush all humanz (1:50:43 AM):

......It... I jus'.... I don't want t'hurt anybody more'n I have.  *oh but Primus does he want to, resolve wavering*

JazzBabySays (1:54:53 AM):

-scowls, that anger somehow returning, though it's hazy and not as concentrated as before. at the very most at least he doesn't look like he'll get up to carry out his violence?- You mean you dun wanna hurt Tracks!

crush all humanz (1:56:40 AM):

......I don't.  *knows that Blackout probably doesn't want to hear that, but he's not going to just lie.*

JazzBabySays (1:58:41 AM):

-he turns his head away, glowering into the other's shoulder as his anger continues to simmer...but he does not let go of the other, either-

crush all humanz (2:10:42 AM):

......I jus' - I don't know what t'do, Blackout.  *he drops his head against the helicopter's shoulder, offlining his optics for the moment*

JazzBabySays (2:14:26 AM):

Jus...be mine again! -he murmurs desperately against his armor, tilting his head enough to nuzzle the mech's neck once or twice, as if pleading with him, the closest he will ever be to it-

crush all humanz (2:17:23 AM):

........I've always been yours.  Y'jus'... left.  An' when y'leave, y'mean t'do it... I jus'....  *his claws move to the other's shoulders and digging in slightly*

JazzBabySays (2:21:44 AM):

-he relishes the feel of his hands there, desperately needing that touch, his frame giving a deep shudder and a heated moan- I thought...ya did not want me anymore...and...a-and that hurt, right here...-he reaches around with an arm to bring Bonecrusher flush against his chassis, wanting to indicate his spark- When you didn' even follow, like you usually do...

crush all humanz (2:25:12 AM):

.......I dunno why I didn't.  I jus'....  *he's going to get Blackout pissed again, he knows it*  Y'left, an' told me t'go on t'Tracks anyways, so I.... I dunno.  Took yer word.

JazzBabySays (2:32:15 AM):

-before he can process anything he opens his mouth to speak, maybe to protest? to snipe back with a retort? there are no words, however, his lips moving faster than his CPU can at the moment, the conniving device at least quick enough to point out a rather nice fact- It's....always goin' tabe my fault, isn't it? -his face contorts into the hybrid of a grimace and of fury- I went and killed him...probably went and did something for him to turn away me from me, too...-he makes a fist, lashing out at the nearest object, which turns out to be Bonecrusher's shoulder of course- It's always my fault!

crush all humanz (2:34:44 AM):

*grunts, but takes the blow, curling his claws against Blackout's shoulders and shifting to look the other in the optics*  It's not.  We both know 'm stupid.  I don't read between th' lines.  I heard "go on" an' I didn't think that meant "come after me."  's not your fault.  I promise you, everything I do is 'cos 'm stupid, not 'cos of you.

JazzBabySays (2:45:02 AM):

-he shakes his head furiously, the other's words seeming to only upset him more- No. No, nein, non, iie, nay...-he blathers, his current inhibiton demonstrating quite well that his filters are still Not In Place as he runs through about the entire 'no' spectrum, from their native Cybertornian to some of the lesser human languages- I wasn't good enough back then and I ain't good enough now...

crush all humanz (2:50:08 AM):

*he reaches up and puts a hand firmly against Blackout's cheek, keeping their optics locked*  Blackout, listen t'me.  Yer not "not good enough".  Yer beautiful an' violent an' possessive, an' yer loyal an' smart, an' y'don't do stupid things like I do.  I swear you didn't do anythin', an' y'are  good enough.... Y'just settled fer a stupid aft.  's th' only dumb thing I've ever seen y'do.

JazzBabySays (3:03:26 AM):

...doesn't really matter, does it? -has to grind that out, flattered and a little bubbly (more so than just with the energon coursing through his system) at the other's compliments, but not enough to resist blaming himself and taking responsibility for what he deems is his wrong- Obv wasn't enough to keep you around...and Tracks is some of those things, too. :<

crush all humanz (3:06:47 AM):

........Blackout - yeah.  Tracks is  some of those things.  But I jus' - *quietly, leaning down to nuzzle the other's neck*  I love you.  Not him.

JazzBabySays (3:12:39 AM):

-is silent for a time, shifting around so that his body encases the other's more, as if trying to take Bonecrusher inside of himself- I love you too...-tightens his grip, optics offlining in both a show of immense trust and so that he can better experience the sensation of having the other in his grasp- Can...ya promise me one thing, at least?

crush all humanz (3:14:50 AM):

Anything.  *wraps his arms around the other, claws ticking against his back slightly as he pulls himself closer as well, ducking his head under Blackout's*

JazzBabySays (3:16:46 AM):

Jus...stop tormentin' urself on my behalf...-speaks softly, optics still closed and dark- It...terrified me, when you said you didn' care about...-winces, hating to relive that memory, but he's made of tougher stuff, so continues- If anyone, you and myself included, ever succeed in ripping out your spark because of this...I will be coming after you.

crush all humanz (3:35:25 AM):

.......I didn't care.  It wasn't worth it.  I jus'.... I...  *his intakes whine slightly as he takes a moment to try and calculate an answer that won't sound stupid*  I jus' figured.... "tried carin', din' work, see how not carin' works?"  But then I jus' got shoved under th' rug an' started drinkin' so I could not  care, an'.....  I won't.  I'll stop.  Promise.

JazzBabySays (3:39:43 AM):

Thank you. -his voice carries conviction, head dipping down so that his chin rests on top of the other's head, as if completing the mock cocoon he has going. if the other planned on actually leaving tonight, then he's got another thing coming to him-