crush all humanz (5:05:49 PM):

:: --ARCEE... ::  *normal Bonecrusher voice is not present.  instead, you get upset!drunk!pissed!Bonecrusher on your line, Arcee*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:06:03 PM):

::...Yeah?:: *more than a tad concerned at his tone of voice *

crush all humanz (5:07:05 PM):

:: ARCEE.  'M OUTSIDE.  'M OUTSIDE AN' 'M PISSED AN' -- Y'BUSY? ::

pinkbikerbot07 (5:07:16 PM):

::I'm never to listen to you bitch, Crusher. I'm on my way.::

pinkbikerbot07 (5:07:20 PM):

*never to busy

crush all humanz (5:08:29 PM):

*is flat out slumped against one of the walls of the Ark with a sizable pile of cubes next to him, twitching and throwing the energon back like it's going to run out*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:09:39 PM):

*slides out the door, flinging it shut behind her, not really caring about the resounding slam it made. She stomped up to him, crossing her arms and blinking down at him.* So what’s up?

crush all humanz (5:10:43 PM):

............*looks at her vaguely, then shakes his head and finishes off a cube, already reaching for another one*  I MADE OUT WITH TRACKS AN' BROKE UP WITH BLACKOUT.  *dryly, and a little hysterical sounding*  LOVELY NIGHT, ITTN' IT?

pinkbikerbot07 (5:11:14 PM):

*steadies herself on the wall he's leaning on * Crusher...

crush all humanz (5:12:16 PM):

I MEAN, REALLY.  ABS'LUTELY GORGEOUS.  ONLY THING THAT'D MAKE THIS NIGHT BETTER IS IF UNICRON DECIDED T'EAT US.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:12:48 PM):

*kneeling beside him.* Why...why did you two break up? *tentative hand on his arm.*

crush all humanz (5:13:47 PM):

*laughs brokenly and takes another long drink*  THAT SO SURPRISIN'?

pinkbikerbot07 (5:13:58 PM):

*shifts.* I mean...I guess yes and no.

crush all humanz (5:15:56 PM):

I MEAN... I DUNNO.  PRIMUS, ARCEE, IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER.  HE'S TOO HUNG UP ON SLAGGIN' ME KISSIN' SLAGGIN' TRACKS - ASKED IF I ENJOYED IT  LIKE THAT MAKES ANY DIFFERENCE --

pinkbikerbot07 (5:19:04 PM):

....did you enjoy it? *quiet tones, doesn't move her hand *

crush all humanz (5:19:28 PM):

..............

crush all humanz (5:19:37 PM):

*makes an annoyed noise and takes a drink*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:19:45 PM):

Ah. I see. *leans back against the wall, hand sliding off his arm.* Well.

crush all humanz (5:20:46 PM):

WHAT IS IT, ARCEE?  *sourly*  WHAT ABOUT ME JUS' PULLS  THIS SLAG T'ME?  I DON'T WANT IT.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:21:09 PM):

I guess it's...your charming personality. *pats his shoulder *

crush all humanz (5:22:05 PM):

*snorts*  YEA.  SURE 'S THAT.  GOTTA BE.  SLAGGIT, THIS...  *bangs his head back against the wall dully*  THIS ISN'T GOIN' AT ALL ACCORDIN' T'PLAN.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:22:15 PM):

Things rarely do. *patpat.* What can I do to help you feel better?

crush all humanz (5:23:04 PM):

TELL ME 'M BEIN' STUPID AN' I SHOULD BE BEGGIN' FER BLACKOUT'S FORGIVENESS AGAIN.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:23:08 PM):

No.

crush all humanz (5:23:32 PM):

WHY TH'SLAG NOT?  *dully, taking another drink*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:24:23 PM):

*Shrugs her shoulders * Really, it's prolly him that ought to be asking for forgiveness from YOU.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:24:30 PM):

You do realize the kinda shit he puts you through, right?

crush all humanz (5:25:16 PM):

I DO IT BACK.  *quietly*  Everythin' I do is wrong.  I put him through slag worse than he did me.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:25:31 PM):

....well, like that then? All I see is the way he treats -you-.

crush all humanz (5:26:19 PM):

I kissed Tracks, Arcee!

pinkbikerbot07 (5:26:40 PM):

I overloaded you. *points out *

crush all humanz (5:27:38 PM):

Yeah, an' he wasn't too pleased about tha' either.  *makes a noise and finishes off his cube, throwing it into the pile of empty cubes that's steadily growing, picking up a new one*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:27:44 PM):

*though that really doesn't help her case...* Barricade wasn't either. But. He didn't break up with me.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:27:52 PM):

I made a mistake.

crush all humanz (5:28:22 PM):

So did I.  *quietly* ....Jus' not quite sure what th' mistake is....

pinkbikerbot07 (5:30:31 PM):

Honestly Crusher, I've never been in your particular position. *shifts.* So it is hard for me to analyze exactly what you're going through. I can only imagine the frustration, anger and hurt you must be feeling. So, I'll tell you this - you need me, I'm here. For whtaever you need. *nods at him seriously *

crush all humanz (5:33:47 PM):

...............I don't know what I want you t'do.  I don't.... I don't know anythin'.  *looks at the cube in his hand for a long moment*  'm not.... I dunno if 'm even beatin' myself up fer it.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:35:15 PM):

*she nodded again, throwing an arm around him, though it was a bit difficult to do, he was a lot bigger than her.* Well, I can understand your confusion. Why'd you break up? The kiss in specific?

crush all humanz (5:37:59 PM):

I dunno.  Th' kiss, an' how I didn't - couldn't  answer him when he asked me if I enjoyed it 'cos I did  but fer all th' wrong reasons an'... an' 'm not private like him, I don't care who hears what, an' all the slag I've pulled with you an' Trion an' now Tracks....  *downs the rest of this cube, rinse and repeat*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:39:16 PM):

*sighes.* Crusher...

crush all humanz (5:40:52 PM):

..........Dunno what 'm gonna do, Arcee.  's all because of that slagger.  *growls, drinking*  If I jus' didn't feel guilty,  if I had jus' treated it like... like with you,  th' whole thing woulda been different.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:41:29 PM):

Well, how did you treat it like with me?

crush all humanz (5:42:37 PM):

I didn't care!   *exasperated, sloshing his drink but not spilling any - Primus forbid he spill*  I din' give a slag  what happened with you!   Tha' was jus' a mistake, an' it was jus' stupid, an' it didn't mean anythin'.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:43:24 PM):

*wry * You realize that sounds quite rude. *grins and pats him.* But I know what you mean. That’s why Barricade wasn't angry, I suppose, cause he knew it wasn't on purpose, it wasn't like I was out to get you or somethin.

crush all humanz (5:43:51 PM):

Exactly!

pinkbikerbot07 (5:44:16 PM):

But it was different with Tracks?

crush all humanz (5:44:35 PM):

.........

crush all humanz (5:44:46 PM):

*another big drink*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:44:46 PM):

How was it different?

crush all humanz (5:45:06 PM):

It......

crush all humanz (5:45:47 PM):

It was.... *makes a pained noise and looks at Arcee*  It was just nice.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:46:03 PM):

How was it nice? *leans forward despite herself *

crush all humanz (5:47:27 PM):

It was... It was different.  An' it felt - I dunno, just - I was drunk.  It doesn't even matter.  *looks back to his cube*

pinkbikerbot07 (5:48:36 PM):

*staring at him.* It does matter. Otherwise you wouldn't be in this situation, right? I mean, if it didn't matter, if it was a mistake like me, then you guys woulda just gotten over it, right?

crush all humanz (5:49:27 PM):

Who knows.  I never - he never -- maybe this was all jus' waitin' t'happen.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:50:25 PM):

*sighs again, feeling utterly helpless and useless * Maybe...

crush all humanz (5:51:13 PM):

*join the club, Bubblegum*  .....'s not the end of th' world.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:52:09 PM):

...what do you want to do? *spreads her hands.* I'll do anything. Whatever makes you feel better. You wanna go blow shit up? We'll blow shit up. Wanna kill some humans? We'll kill humans. Wanna pour energon on dead bodies and set em on fire, well, we'll do that.

crush all humanz (5:54:40 PM):

I jus'..... *laughs again, sounding still hysterical*  I jus' wanna trade this fer th' end of the world.  There's nothin' you can do.... I shouldn'tve commed you at all.

crush all humanz (5:55:00 PM):

'm sorry.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:55:19 PM):

Don't apologize. *nudges him.* I'm here for you. I told you that.

crush all humanz (5:57:45 PM):

.....'m....  I have t'stop doin' this.  Stop actin' like a sparklin', like this is th' end of the world.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:58:35 PM):

You aren't acting like a sparkling. *sighs * It hurts, I know, I   can tell. I saw Elita go through a lot of pain. To you, or her, it is the end of the world, at least for the moment.

crush all humanz (5:59:45 PM):

*another wrong-sounding laugh and a long drink*  Great.  Now 'm actin' like a slaggin' femme.

pinkbikerbot07 (5:59:54 PM):

*facepalm.* Dammit, Crusher that's not what I meant.

crush all humanz (6:00:38 PM):

..........mm.  I know.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:01:03 PM):

*resists urge to thwap.*

crush all humanz (6:01:55 PM):

.....'m sorry.  's kinda th' first time y've seen me drinkin' 'cos 'm depressed.  Not a pretty picture.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:02:06 PM):

*pats * I take you as you are. And stop apologizing.

crush all humanz (6:03:26 PM):

Can't help it.  *frowns*  Seems like all I do lately is apologize fer what I do.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:04:52 PM):

Well, you haven't done anything wrong to me. *smacks his back * As far as I know.

crush all humanz (6:06:12 PM):

......An' yet 'm still apologizin'.  'M a fraggin' Decepticon an' I keep apologizin' to a femme.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:06:46 PM):

I wont tell anyone. *grinning widely *

crush all humanz (6:16:58 PM):

I know y'won't.  *takes another gulp*  I shouldn't be wastin' my time here.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:17:04 PM):

Then what should you be doing? *patient.*

crush all humanz (6:17:57 PM):

.....I have my ideas.  *sounds a little different - less upset, more... angry?  Not quite.  It's hard to place, but it's not a happy tone.*

pinkbikerbot07 (6:18:09 PM):

*shifts, not liking his tone.* Uh... what might those ideas be?

crush all humanz (6:21:01 PM):

.....*downs the rest of his cube and grabs another, starting on it promptly*  I should be ignorin' it.  's not th' end of the world.  Other fish in th' sea.  Uugh... *makes a face*  ....Hate th' sea....

pinkbikerbot07 (6:22:21 PM):

It's...it's not something you can just ignore...*gives his arms a reassuring squeeze *

crush all humanz (6:22:56 PM):

Tha's what you  think.  'm quite capable of ignorin' things.  *glug*

pinkbikerbot07 (6:23:16 PM):

I think this might be different though. I'm no expert...but I think if you ignore it it'll get bigger and bigger and just eat at you.

crush all humanz (6:24:30 PM):

.......Who knows.  Worked fine last time.  Maybe it'll work this time.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:25:09 PM):

Well... if you feel that's best. You do what you think is best. No one can make ya do otherwise. *nods *

crush all humanz (6:36:31 PM):

.....mm.  *finishes that cube and finally stops, looking at her for a long moment*  I think 'm gonna go.... wander.  *that means "I'm going to go do something stupid, but you shouldn't stop me"*

pinkbikerbot07 (6:36:59 PM):

*she looked back at him quietly * Don’t do something you're gonna regret later.

crush all humanz (6:37:31 PM):

*shakes his head and moves to stand*  Th' story of m'life, femme.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:37:54 PM):

....*shakes her head and stands up, offering her hand to him * Maybe it's time for a new story? *cheesey ftw *

crush all humanz (6:39:00 PM):

*sighs and takes her hand, not really letting her do all the pulling because A) he's bigger and B) he's drunk, making him a bit hard to move on her own, and stands up*  Maybe.  Or jus' gotta put th' record on repeat.  We'll see.

pinkbikerbot07 (6:39:28 PM):

*stares at him, then gives him a little hug, and backs away * Do what you gotta do.

crush all humanz (6:40:39 PM):

I always do.  *and then he leaves a pile of empty cubes to go "wander", looking only pretty decently drunk*

pinkbikerbot07 (6:41:01 PM):

*stands there, staring at the empty pile of cubes, apprehension creeping over her *