| Once upon a time on a not so distant day The sun shone bright and clearly marked the way. The birds, they sang and the grass was green. There was color abound and everything was clean. I was finally happy, I was finally complete. Everything was in order; it was very nice and neat. But I guess it was not for real. I woke up and here�s the true deal. Love does not exist; it is only in dreams. It distorts reality so nothing is as it seems. You think this person is the one with who you want to be But you cannot know, cannot really see All the things they hide inside, all the things they keep Buried away from prying eyes, though out of them it seeps. All the little imperfections vanish from your eyes Love, that fiend, masks it all, in a neat disguise. I was happy once but that was not the truth. I always had to be a good boy, never once uncouth. I lived each day in fear of it, crying behind a closed door. I always tried to be exciting, and never once a bore. I thought it was worth it, when I saw you smile I thought that I was finally doing something� something worth my while. When I held you in my arms I felt like I needed nothing more. I felt the emptiness disappear� the emptiness in my core. I thought� something I shouldn�t have. I thought I felt pure joy. But now I see that I all I am is a simple child�s toy. To be thrown around when felt like, neglected, to collect dust. Played with, used and strung along. Silence is a must. But toys make their master happy, and I was not doing my job. I see now that you would be the one to sob. I took from you the happiness� that was wrong of me to do. How nervous you were when I was near, but you never said �Boo-hoo� You kept everything deep inside, convinced that it was right. But look here, now it has erupted in a fight. Feelings were hurt, tears were shed My heart has broke, and I have bled. You say I appropriated your friends, but that�s not true! They are your friends, and they will always like you. You exist within them, in that special place And they will forever see you, remembering your face. You have been together a long time, do you think I can ever change that? I am about as harmful as a fat old pussy cat. You and I both know they would choose you over me. Because you are good friends, and that is how it should be. But I have failed you, more than once, and I have let you down. And deep inside, though on out you smile, I know you wear a frown. And so I do, what I said I would, if ever need should come. But I guess you think that I am kinda dumb. But I suppose to me, it something grand Something I promised to do, even if you don�t demand. I will give it all up to so that you I please. And maybe you won�t act like I have some venereal disease. I will give you the happiness� the joy that was once mine. So that I might make you happy, make you feel sublime. I will give you all that I have to give you joy. I will give you all that I have, because I am your toy. I will do as you say, because that is who I am. Destined to be alone, like a pearl in a clam. I hope you know, what I give up for you. And I hope you can appreciate it too. I know it now, that I have gone too far. I know it know, for I see what you really are. |