| Each day I awake, more tired than before. I find it so hard just to walk out that door. I am being forced to see, All the things that I can never be. All the love I cannot feel, What a cruel hand, fate can deal. Voices whisper throughout my head. Never ceasing. I wish I were dead. I could sleep forever, lost in my dreams. Then everything would be perfect for me, it seems. No more pain, no more sorrow. No more feeling cold and hollow. To be alone, complete and for real. To be numb to it all, never able to feel. To die for passion, to ache for love. The search for the one who was sent from above. Does she exist, the girl just for me? Who won�t be like the rest and rebuke and flee? Each day I wake just for her, But each day I become more and more unsure. Each day I wake and am alone. I feel as though my spirit has flown To a far away place never to come back. My body is weary, it cannot give slack. Soon one day it will just be done. The day I say, �Well, it�s been fun.� Then I will be to my eternal place, Where I will never again have to see my face. The face that others seem to abhor, Hence they have all shut the door. I long to just have a close friend, A girl, who can stay there until the end. Who can look beneath and see See past this facade to the real me. But is she even out there? Does anybody really care? Every day I have to come back to this place. Where I always have to hide my face. Yelling, screaming nagging folk. As if it was hard enough to carry this yolk. I wish I could just screw it all. Then I would never have to answer their call. Burn it all to the ground, Burn them to ash, never be found. I�m losing my mind, my last sanity. I am crying out, hoping someone will hear my plea. Where are you, the one that can save my soul? Where are you, the one who can make me whole? I�m trapped in a world void of color and sound. Trapped and lost, waiting to be found. I need the help of a woman so fair, I need someone who will always be there. I need a girl who has the key. Hurry now, and set me free. Hurry now, my XTC. |