| July 18, 2003 Today was the Staind, Static X, and Lo Pro concert and also (lest we forget) the official start of Cheyenne Frontier Days! The concert was great! I took Heather, we met Jillian, Brady, Loranda, and Sean Castenada there and it was a good time. I did get a phone call from Jeremy though...he screamed at me and said that I need to tell my frineds to stop calling his girlfriend and to leave him the hell alone... APPARENTLY Jillian "accidentaly" dialed Shalia's cell number while I was at work today from my cell phone. She then handed the phone to Hans who fucked with Shalia till she was sufficiently pissed enough to tell Jeremy about it. He, obviously thought I had something to do with it and now he's all fucking pissed off at me. And ya know...after Shalia's lovely little message pretty much telling me to stay away from Jeremy, I was going to do just that. I was never going to talk to either of them again! Let them go on about their merry little lives...but no. My mormon cousin and my grossly indecisive friend had to go and fuck it up. At least before Jeremy just didn't love me anymore, now they both hate me. He also wrote me another email (remeber, this is WORD FOR WORD): Miranda, Hey, I have been given the best thing in the world I could ever have been given. And I think that you are just butt hurt because it is not you. I will remember how badly I hurt the love of my life by going out with you. I will remember how badly I almost destroyed the best thing that happened in my life. I will remember how I always chose her over you. I will remember how I made one of the biggest mistakes in my life by choosing anything over her. Stay away. I warm you on all holy, because one thing I always told you is that I hate trash talkers. But I couldn't help seeing your run your mouth, will You thought my back was turned. You've done this to yourself. I hope he remembers when he said almost exactly the same thing about me...you know, being the best thing he's ever been given. I still have the note! A day will come when Shalia will fuck him over again and he'll realize that she isn't the best thing for him. I'm not saying I am the best, nor am I saying that she's the worst, not in any way. I'm just saying, Shalia took him from his religion, she became the reason he cut his arms, she takes him away from everything he loves and absorbs all his time until she controls him. And he still thinks she's the best thing since sliced bread. I'm going to laugh when she fucks him over, history repeats itself. Always. And I'm just going to laugh. I'm sick of feeling sorry I lost him, and I'm really starting to like the idea of being sorry I met him. Good luck and good riddance to both of you. |
| July 21, 2003 We took Heather home today. Sad ordeal, I hope she gets to come back...but then I don't too. I feel so ugly around her. I talked to Jeremy today. HE IMed ME! It was really crazy. I'd emailed his friend Jaron (whom we lovingly call JRN) when he wrote me the first email asking him what he thought Jeremy's problem was. He told me to stay away from his friends...it's too complicated to try and explain. He was actually being nice. It was really crazy but I'm not going to let it go to my head. He kept hinting that he still thinks I'm beautiful, but fuck that. I'm done. We went to the 3 Doors Down show last night. I have renewed faith in them, haha. I do, they really kick ass live. Our Lady Peace and Seether were great too. I just wish we'd've had standing room tickets... Oh well. Oh, and about our seats...they sucked so we moved. These two guys were sitting next to us and throughout the concert one of them kept trying to talk to Heather. I didn't hear any of it but apparently he asked her to be his girlfriend! That's how it is with her. No guy gives me a FIRST glance with her around. But anyway, we moved over to where Erica, Jennie, Jamie, and Amanda were sitting and there were two guys behind us. We'd only been there 10 minutes and one of them asked Heather for her number! No joke. It's sad really, on my part. His friend was hot though so when we saw them later, after the concert, I asked him for his number. His name is Brian, did I mention he was hot??? Haha, but yeah. They both seemed very dissapointed when Heather told them she lives in Utah. I'll call him anyway. We can be friends. I seem to make a lot of those lately. Rob, Donna's brother (also completely infatuated with Heather) thinks I'm "way cool as a friend". Gee, thanks. *sigh* I don't know why I try. Oh, and Dan "stopped by" today. He'd been at Tai's and wanted to see me. He asked, no begged, me for a chance. With Dan comes Tai...and I could honestly go the rest of my natural life without seeing Tai. That and I'm just not attracted to Dan...I half wish I could be. He'd treat me really well, I know he would...but...I dunno I've always just kindof thought of him as a brother. I told him we could try going on a few dates, but I don't want to get serious. That wasn't a complete lie. I'm sick of getting screwed over. But I wouldn't mind getting a little serious, with the right guy. (cough, Rob, cough cough). But like I said, I'm getting good at making friends...and when I say friends, I mean just that. But oh well, sail again Napoleon. You just can't win 'em all. |
| July 23, 2003 Hey ya'll. This here Frontier Days hoopla is really starting to run off on me...not. I'm sick of it already! Well, at the moment because all my friends are at the carnival and I'm, well, here. I was supposed to work till 9 and I'm broker than a footless shoes salesman, so I thought I couldn't go. Then I got off an hour and a half early because we're dead and my mom just told me she could have loaned me some cash so I could've at least gotten in the park. LOVELY. So yeah, I'm sitting at home, alone (mom's at Bo's). I promised Rob I'd call him the VERY next time I was home alone all night, but not only would he kill me for calling at 11:45 pm, exactly 2 and 1/2 hours before he has to get up for work, but he also most likely said that because Heather was here at the time. DAMNIT. I hate being ugly, I really do. I don't know why I feel like I need male attention, it never does me any real good, but I do. Speaking of which, Brian, the one from the 3 Doors Down show, has a girlfriend. Too good to be true, I knew it. But, on the bright side, he did say that I was cute enough that he gave me his number and actually looked forward to my call. Which at least disproves my original theory that he was only trying to be nice and didn't want to turn me down in front of a bunch of people...so I guess it can't be all bad. Ahh, like I said...I'm getting good at making friends. I updated my page quite a bit (as you can tell if you're reading this and have been here before). I love the way the index page turned out! All my buttons, yay. They all link to one of my pages so you can skip the home page if you ever felt the need to do so... Oh yeah and my Diary Prologue has been added onto, as well as the colors and picture changed. A better, if not as recent, pic. Hope you all like it...It's one of few I look decent in. Anyway, must be going now. Not sure what I have to do as I have no plans...but I'll think of something. Oh and if you read this and you haven't signed my guestbook...SIGN IT!!! Don't make me hunt you down! (Hehe) |