Cold December Rain

You were just a baby when I left you
Just a child not yet four
What you must have been thinking
When your mommy closed that door

The years went by too fast
As you grew into a man
And I watched you from the sidelines
You never knew I was your biggest fan

I kept thinking you would need me
That someday you'd come around
But today I stand here dying
As you're lowered in the ground

It was the drink that made me leave you
And the guilt kept me away
Now it's the grief that slowly kills me
As you're buried here today

I didn't know that you were hurting
I didn't know you were in pain
I didn't know you needed shelter
From the cold December rain
No, I never got to hold you
Never got to kiss your brow
Never got to say I love you
And it's too late to tell you now

Oh how I long to hold you
Rock you in my arms to sleep
Oh how I long to tell you
Of my love that runs so deep

Oh what I wouldn't give
To have back that yesterday
I'd hold you in my arms forever
And mommy would never go away

I didn't know that you were hurting
I didn't know you were in pain
I didn't know you needed shelter
From the cold December rain
No, I didn't see your sorrow
No, I didn't see your pain
And knowing there's no tomorrow
Is slowly driving me insane...

J

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