"You have to let it out. It's the only way your going to heal. Just tell me what your feeling."

"Feeling?"

"Yes." Quatre began to shake and then he went blank. As Trowa approached him he backed away. Trowa went to him as Quatre collapsed on the floor. Still shaking and now trembling with fear. This time his flashback was more intense. He wasn't seeing just one memory but many all at once.

Quatre came back to his senses to see Trowa watching him with a concerned look. "Why did you leave me?"

"I'm sorry."

"I don't want I'm sorry's. How could you believe him. Why would you doubt me?"

"You doubted me as well."

"What are you talking about?"

"You never told me you father was hurting you. If I had known. I. Why?"

"I was afraid. What if you confronted him and he hurt you. What if you hurt him and they locked you away. Either way you would be hurt. Another reason is I didn't want you to know how weak I really am."

"You're not weak Quatre. I love you. Do you still love me?"

"........."

Trowa's heart broke when Quatre didn't answer. He turned to leave but Quatre spoke up. "More than anything. You are my heart my soul. I just need time.

Trowa ran over to him and pulled him into an embrace. "Then it's time you shall have." Quatre iniciated a gentle kiss. "I almost forgot how good you taste." Quatre smiled.

Quatre laid in his bed staring at the ceiling until he drifted off to sleep. It was for once a dreamless sleep. When he woke up it was only two am so he went on the roof again to think. He wasn't alone Wufei was there as well.

"Hey Quatre." he greeted.

"Hey why aren't you asleep?" he asked.

"I needed to think. I guess . Why aren't you?"

"To tell you the truth I don't sleep much now a days."

"Why's that?"

"Habit I guess. At the prison no one really could sleep with all the screams."

"I see. This roof is relaxing I guess it is a good place to think."

"That it is." he agreed.

It was nice being up there with Wufei. They didn't talk they just took comfort in eachother's company. It seemed to comfort them both a great deal. They laid back and watched the stars.

"so the flashbacks kind of just come out of nowhere?"

"Actually something familiar triggers them. I guess it's just going to take time. I've missed being outside so much. it's so beautiful."

"Hey I got an idea. Would you go someplace with me?"

"What? Now?"

"Yeah come on."

"All right."

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Hours later Trowa was worried. There had been no sign of Quatre. "Where is he?"

"Relax Trowa I'm sure he's fine." answered Heero.

"yeah chill out." added Duo.

Quatre and Wufei started walking toward the house and Trowa's concern eased up a bit. Quatre seemed so happy he face was shining. "TROWA!!"

"Oh Trowa it was so beautiful. Wufei took me to the beach. The water was a beautiful shade of blue and the air smelled to crisp and clean. As the sun began to rise I could see all these different colors and I felt so warm inside. I wish you could have seen it. I actually saw a dolphin jump out of the water they are beautiful animals and the sound beautiful too. it was indescribable. The waves hit the light with such I don't know how to explain it. It was just such a site."

Quatre turned to Wufei and thanked him. "Thank you so much Wufei."

"Don't mention it." then he walked into the house.

Trowa couldn't help but smile. "Oh Trowa you're smiling. I've missed your smile. The beach was beautiful but you smile is breathtaking."

"it's good to see you laugh again." Quatre's smile grew bigger.

"I haven't felt this good in a long time. You have to go to the beach next time it's the perfect place."

"For what?"

"Too make love." Trowa began to blush.

"You ready for that?"

"Not yet, but I will be. I can't resist your charms for long."

"I am glad. I could wait forever as long as I had you. Holding you is enough for me. Quatre how did you get out of that place." Quatre's smile faded.

"I'll tell you if you promise not to get mad at me."

"I promise."

Flashback*********

"Well kid looks like it's time to have fun."

The man grabbed Quatre's hands and restrained him. "Stop it ! what are you doing?"

"Maybe it I take you. It will turn you away from men all together." The man began to touch Quatre all over.

"No don't."

Quatre's pleas were ignored and the man began to lick his face. Then the door opened and a voice shouted. "Get you filthy hands off my brother!!!!"

"You can't be in here lady."

She pulled out a legal document and slammed it against the ,mans chest. "You see this. This is a court order and it says you have to release my brother NOW!"

She bent down in front of Quatre and took him in her arms. "Don't worry little brother I'm taking you out of here."

End Flashback********

"Trowa? Trowa don't cry nothing happened. I knew you'd be mad."

"Not at you at myself. Never you angel. I love you."

"whenever they would beat me I would try not to show fear. I never cried whenever anyone was around or yelled out in pain. Except for one time when the pain was so unbearable I couldn't help it. I tried to stay strong. I did."

"I love you Quatre. Will you?"

"Trowa?"

"Will you marry me?"

"After all this you still want me?"

"More than anything."

"Trowa, I don't know how long until I'm well. I still have flashbacks."

"I hope there's a but in there."

"But the more I'm with you the better I feel. I love you. So if you're sure yes."

"YES!!"

Trowa took Quatre in his arms and kissed him passionately. He knew Quatre would need time before they didn't anything beyond that but he had his angel in his arms right now and he was worth the wait.