The next morning Quatre began pacing back and forth in his room. Things were getting out of hand. In his head he just didn't know what to do the nightmares were getting worse. Wufei said he would be there for him but could he really talk to him about when he still felt so guilty. He went to the bathroom and splashed some cold water on his face. He stared at his reflection in the mirror. He hadn't noticed before but there were bags under his eyes. He needed to get a good night sleep but so far it just wasn't happening.

Trowa wasn't sure what had caused him to react to Wufei hugging Quatre that way. He hadn't been there when Quatre needed him and it hurt his heart to think that. He had to make it so Quatre new he could come to him if he needed to. Trowa finished getting dressed when he heard a knock at his door. "Quatre?"

"Can I come in for a minute?" he asked.

"Of course. Please do." He looks a bit off.

"Trowa, I don't want you to fight with Wufei over me. I don't want to cause friction among my friends."

"As I recall you said we weren't friends. I'm glad to hear you say we are."

"I . I was wondering if you've been well." he yawned.

"Yes I have." He noticed Quatre yawning.

"I'm sorry I'm a bit nervous."

"When's the last time you slept."

"I have insomnia. I really have to go I just wanted to show you I was still here."

"You didn't have to I trust you."

When Quatre left Trowa began to think. He looks so weak. I didn't notice it before. Insomnia since when? that didn't make sense maybe he just needed to see a friendly face. I'm glad he chose mine but there is something off. As much as I hate it I might have to ask Wufei for some help.

Quatre began walking the streets. With no destination in mind just aimlessly walking when a couple of guys popped out at him . They attacked him for no reason. Unfortunately for them Trowa was following Quatre and the two guys backed off. Quatre was on the ground and Trowa picked him up and carried him to his room. He didn't want to wake him he could tell he needed sleep. Trowa watched him when Quatre started crying in his sleep. No wonder he hasn't been sleeping bad dreams.

Trowa slipped into the bed and put his arms around him. Quatre immediately started to calm down as Trowa held him and also fell asleep. Quatre felt so calm as he awoke in Trowa's arms. Trowa had only awoke a minute earlier. Quatre said, "No wonder."

"No wonder what?"

"You have always had a calming effect on me."

Trowa smiled he was glad of that fact. "I'm glad." Quatre made no effort to remove himself from his arms. He felt so safe and secure in his arms. Trowa wasn't going to complain about it. "I've missed you little one." Quatre smiled he never would have thought he could miss being called little one. He reluctantly said, "I missed you to."

"You want to talk about it?" Quatre looked away and got up and walked to the window. Trowa followed and turned him to face him. He put his hands on Quatre's face and said in a soothing voice. "You can tell me I'm not going anywhere. Not ever again."

"You promise?" he asked in a shaky voice.

"Promise."

Quatre began. I dream about it every night. The mission that went wrong. I have the image of his hands on me implanted in my memory. I just can't seem to get it out of my head. I'm sorry Trowa. I betrayed you I didn't want to. I thought it was worth it. To save a friend I thought you would understand. My sacrifice cost me the one thing I never wanted to live without you. Quatre was crying Trowa wrapped his arms around him.

"Quatre look at me. You didn't do anything wrong. I was foolish not you. I know it's going to take time but I'm willing to go slow and start over if you are."

"Trowa we will have to go slow. I can't make any promises. I will try though."

"That's all I ask?"

To be continued: Will Trowa win him over wait and see. Feedback please, Let me know what you think so far.