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Two more days till I have to see Lady Une. I have to admit though, my curiosity is getting the better of me. I really do wonder what she wants.

Well, after about a week of being locked in the safe house, I finally got Quatre to understand that I was fine. But, I have to say, he did not take it well. He was, and still is, kind of pissed at me that I had to tell him to back off. But hey, I need my space. I am a teen growing into a man. O-yea, I feel so big now.

I looked back down at the book I was reading and finished the rest of the page. It is actually a very interesting book, that is if you like 20th century art. It was one of the books that held up the desk. Hey, I need some means of entertainment.

I got off the bed and headed down stairs. Like always, my stomach told me it was time for a snack. As I reached my destination, I looked over my shoulder to find Wufei staring at me.

"Hey Wufei, whatcha doing?"
He sighed and gave me the middle finger. Yes, we are like family. I stuck out my tongue and went back to my search of something to eat. He gave another sigh and started to speak.

"Duo, what do you think Lady Une really wants?" That made me turn back around again while still holding the milk in my hand that I got from the refrigerator. I looked at him for a moment, then shrugged. "Got me, probably wants to kick my ass for getting hurt again. Why do you ask?"

"Don’t you think it is kind of strange that she did not call you in for the last time you got hurt. This is the third time this year. You use to never get hurt during the war."

I gave him hard look and shrugged again. Why does every one think I have the answers to all the questions now a days?

"Wufei, I will admit, I have thought of that. And yes, I do think it is strange. But I really don’t think it is anything to worry about." I sat at the table across from Wufei with a class of milk and a bowl of strawberries at hand. I noticed that Wufei was looking at the bowl of strawberries with approval until I pulled out a bowl of sugar and dumped half of it on them. I gave a smile chuckle as his faces went from approval to a scrowl.

"Hey?!? What’s wrong with strawberries and sugar?" He looked back at me with the ‘scrowl of disapproval’ still on is faces and sighed. He shook his head a few times and turned back to me with his usual ‘Duo Maxwell’ look. I sighed and started picking at the strawberries and placing them in my mouth. What a sweet taste.

Wufei stood at that moment with absolute disgust as he looked at the sugar that was at corner of my mouth. He opened his mouth as if he was going to say something, and then shut it. I gave him a smile and fluttered my eye lashes as if in a silent manner I was saying ‘O, you know you love me’.

He turned at the moment and started to leave. I went back to my bowl of strawberries until I heard the click of the door. No use eating by your self. I picked up the strawberries and the class of milk as I headed for the door to go out side. There was a stone by the lake calling my name.

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As I sat on the rock and placed my food by my feet, I looked to see if any one was out side too. Nope, damn it. Well I guess that means that there was no use of me coming out side. But hey, at least I have the fish with me. God, do I have such a sucky life.

I sighed an looked at the fish in the lake. I was more than happy to hear from Quatre a couple of days ago, that we were still on earth. It is not often that we get assigned here. And one thing that really got me pissed when I got shot was that I was sure, that is if I lived, that I would be reassigned to one of the colonies. It’s not that I don’t like the colonies, its just that, earth is so unpredictable. You never know when it is going to rain, snow, or be a sunny day. There is no chart that tells you these things. It just happens.

I was about to get up and put back the rest of my strawberries in the refrigerator when I heard footsteps behind me. I signed and turned to see who was my intruder. I gave a smile to the blonde haired boy and padded the space next to me. He took the invitation and sat down while he pulled his knees up to his chin an wrapped his arms around them. I smiled at him. He really does remind me of a lost little boy.

"Still pissed?" He shook his head and gave me a small smile.

"Nope. I was thinking more along the lines of you being mad at me." I gave him another smile and a sigh.

"Why would you think that? You did nothing wrong. You just wanted to help and keep me safe. I really do appreciate that." I brushed his hand with mine in a friendly gesture and turned back to the lake. I was about to start a conversation that I have had with Quatre more times than I could count.

"Quatre, tell me again. How does it feel to be loved. And you know what way I am talking about. A love stronger than family or friends." In the corner of my eye I saw him lift one eyebrow as if in question and also turn towards the lake.

"Duo, I feel like I have told you this a million times. I have no answer to that question. I can’t explain how love feels. You just, I don’t know, feel it." I gave a sigh and shrugged my shoulders. No use on pushing more of this conversation.

I took deep breath and got the guts to ask one question that has bothered me ever since I found out that Quatre and Trowa where together.

"Quatre, I am sorry, but I gotta know." I paused for a seconded as my mind battled itself on weather to ask the question or not. My curiosity always seems to get the better of me. " Quatre please tell me, why a man. Why did you fall in love with some one the same sex." I aloud my eyes to stay focused on my hands as I had a feeling that his eyes held some hurt. What right do I have to ask that question?

I stood and was about to leave, but stopped when I felt a warm hand tug me back down. I still refused to look up at those wide blue/green eyes while I sat back down.

" Quatre man, I am real sorry. I have no right to ask that. It is really none of my..." I stopped mid sentence as Quatre’s voice broke through my own. But what really got me, was there was no pain or anger in it.

"Duo, there is no reason to be sorry. Why do you ask, is there a problem that me and Trowa are together while where the same sex?"

I gave a painful sigh and looked up. To my surprise, Quatre face only showed child like curiosity. I gave a smile and shook my head.

"Quatre of course not, you two are my friends. Almost like family. I just don’t understand why or more like how you to got together. That’s all. Was it not embarrassing comforting Trowa and telling him how you felt?" Quatre gave me a knowing smile and tried to hide the blush that spread across his cheeks with his sleeve. I pulled down his sleeve so I could see his faces again. He gave a slight chuckle and looked up at the now dark sky.

"O-yea it was embarrassing. I was almost sure he was going to reject. I still remember the night I told him. It was the same night I got my first kiss." his blush went a little darker, "and also the same night I lost my, well, umm, you know" I gave a little chuckle and signaled with my hand for him to go on. " But let me tell you Duo, it was worth it." He paused again as if in thought then continued.

"Duo, not everyone falls in love. Some people search there whole lives, and never find it. When I new that I loved Trowa, I could not let that get away. It does not matter what the person’s sex is or how rich or poor they are. What matters is if you are in love and if they love you back. I gave Trowa many options that night that I confessed my love. I told him I would leave and never bother him again. Or I could love him with all my heart and stay by his sighed till the day I die. Well I guess you know what he had chosen. But really Duo, if you love someone, go for it. Because you love them, does not mean there always going to be there. And you never know when you will be able to find love again. Do you under stand what I am talking about?"

I gave Quatre a full hearted smile and a small hug. He may be small, but he always seems to know the most out of the five of use. I was about to tell him thank you, when my sharp military senses told me of another intruder. I turned around to see who owned the quiet footsteps when a small smile tugged at my lips. I then turned back to Quatre and gave a wink.

"You two ready to head in?" I gave a nod and stood. I bent over and picked up the rest of the strawberries and my empty class of milk and started to walk away toward the safe house. Before passing Trowa, I gave him a small wink and started to head the rest of the way. But before I went out of ear shot range I stopped and waited.

"Quatre, ready to head in?"

"Trowa, would you sit with me for a little while longer before heading in?"

"Sure..."

I gave a knowing smiling and headed back the rest of the way to the house. I stopped by the kitchen and placed my empty class in the sink and the rest of the strawberries in the refrigerator. As I walked past Heero’s room I gave a suffering sigh. ‘Duo, not everyone falls in love. Some people search there whole lives, and never find it.’ Yea Quatre. Not everyone does find love. I feel like me and Heero are the only ones that can’t. And even if I did, the same thing is going to happen like what happened with the others. It is bad enough that I started loving people like family again. What would happen to the person I loved more?

Why do I keep on torturing my self like this?

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"Duo!!! Duo damn it, get up!!!" I swear, god and the devil both have it in for me.

"I’m up, I’m up. Now why the hell did you wake me from my slumber?" Not that I didn’t mind. Every night the same thing. Nightmares of what I have done and what I have seen. Man, does my life suck.

I looked up at Wufei and gave a hardy smile. He just gave a face of annoyance and walked out of the room. I sat up and looked at the clock on the night stand. I gave an annoying sigh and stood. I hate people, I hate people. I walked out of the room my self, only clad in my black boxers and headed my way downstairs. Like usually. Heero on the computer. Wufei with his news paper. And Quatre and Trowa flirting like two horny monkeys that have never been laid.

I sat at the seat next to Heero, and started kicking Wufei from under the table. He gave me another look of annoyance and kicked back. I stuck my tongue out and kicked him one last time.

I gave a smile and a thank you as Quatre brought me my coffee. Yes, I love the secrete world of coffee. I took the sugar, and of course, poured most of it in. I gave a smile at Wufei as he gave a sickening look at my coffee mug.

"So, what are the plans for today?" I said it to no one in particular, but I new Quatre was the only one that would answer. What would you expect if you lived in a house filled with guys that most have sticks up there ass’s?

"Hmph, I am not sure about you guys but I have nothing."

"Ditto"

Me and Quatre both stared at the last three boys waiting for there answers. All that was heard was the taping of keys, the sound of a news paper changing its page, and the shuffle of shoes. I looked back at Quatre and gave a shrug.

"What you expect man, they’re nothing but full grown ‘stick up the ass’ dolls."

"Hey!!!" Quatre put his arms around Trowa while I mumbled "and sex toys."

Quatre didn’t hear me, but I had a feeling Trowa did as he lifted his ‘eye brow’. I gave a smile and put my head in my hands.

"I think I should get a dog. At least it would be willing to do something with me."

I stood and headed back to my room so I could change. But not before Wufei could yell "Do you want me to help pay for it?" at my retreating back. One of these days Wufei is going to regret all the things he has done and said to me. Now only if I could think of something to do........

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I pulled on my pants and looked at my self in the mirror. I touched the small pink line that has already healed on my right side. I rubbed it a few times and put on my shirt. I turned away from the mirror and put my shoes on. Once they where both tied I headed back down stairs. Everyone was out of the kitchen by the time I entered so made my self a little sandwich for breakfast.

I opened the door to the out side and headed out. Not once yet have I actually been in the woods. I followed a small trail that ran by the side of the house. I gave a sigh as I passed a few more trees by a clearing and finished my sandwich. As I entered the clearing I surveyed the area. I was about to turn back right before a head of brown hair passed my vision. I took in a breath and let it out slowly as I followed the young man named Heero Yuy.

He stopped and sat on a rock. I walked very slowly up behind him until his voice broke through.

" Duo, what are you doing here?"

I was not really surprised that Heero new who it was. I was actually surprised that he did not comment of me being here a little early. I gave a sigh and sat next to him. He looked at me for a moment with a raised eye brow then looked back at the forest.

" Maybe I should ask you why you are here Yuy. I was just bored and followed the path by the house. What is your excuse?"

I raised an eyebrow and looked at Heero. For some reason he seemed to be trying to avoid me. What else is new. I shrugged to my self and stood back up.

"Heero, yea, think you could be a little more friendly towards me? I never did anything to you, well except shot you. But hell, you stole half of the parts to my gundam. Are you listening to me?"

He just kept looking at a spot some where deep in the woods. I turned at that and started to head back the way I came. No use talking to a zombie.

I gave one more look towards Heero and started to enter the trail.

As I started to get a view of the house again I slowed my pace. It’s not like I am going to have anything to do once I get back to the safe house. I gave (once again) a sigh and left the trail. I really do wonder why my lungs don’t give out for how much sighing I seem to be doing lately.

As I was about to re-enter the house I could hear Wufei doing his daily training stuff. Might as well stop by and say hello.

As I followed the sounds of Wufei screaming at some invisible person, I picked up a few stones and put them in my pocket.

His voice lead me to another opening around the lake. I gave a soft giggle as I saw Wufei kick a log and fall on his ass.

I stood behind a rock that sat right behind a nice size pine tree. I took one of the stones out of my pocket and hit the fallen Wufei on the right thigh. A little low then what I was aiming for, but close enough.

Wufei looked down at his thigh and kicked the stone next to it. I ducked under the rock so he would not see me. I peeked my head from the side to see Wufei shake his head as if he thought he was crazy or something and went back to training. I gave another soft giggle as I threw another stone.

This time it hit him in the back. I tried not to fall over laughing as he turned around quickly and went into a fighting position while sevyeing the area. It looked like he was ready to kick some serious ass. Sorry Wuffie, not today!!!

He shook his head once again and again went back to his training. I took the last stone and prayed for all I was worth that my aim would be good........... YES!!!

I feel over laughing while tears ran down my faces when Wufei gave a desperate cry for help. He feel to his knees while cupping his crotch in a desperate try of relief.

I crawled my way over to the fallen Wufei as fast as I could while trying to control my laughter. I did feel a little sorry for the guy.

He looked up at me with blazing eyes of death. Damn can he recover fast. "Shit" I jumped to my feet and ran as fast I could back to the house. Where was a gun when you needed one?