I sat in my room, silently crying� All the things I�ve been through� my tears were almost rare� but now� they�re tumbling down my cheeks like endless streams�I�ve always wished for a normal life� a happy life no less� all my dreams were shattered tonight� All my hopes and dreams� gone�

I lay in my bed� still quietly sobbing; I was alone� slowly comforting myself� trying hard to not burst into tears� over such a small reason� right� just a simple reason� NOT!

She didn�t know how much it hurt me inside then out when she slapped me�

Relena Peacecraft slapped me because she thought that I was� was� my sobs became worst at the thought.

I was helpless, totally helpless but the only thing that was hurting me, was that� Heero Yui believed her� Why do I care if the cold heartless perfect soldier believes it? Because I�m Duo Maxwell�

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I sat on the porch steps, looking up at the cloudless night sky� still thinking about Relena� slapping Duo� I feel guilty to not help Duo, but Relena said he betrayed them� but how� he was with me all day for the whole week� this is giving me a headache� maybe Relena was bluffing� she was pretty stuck up and� jealousy was� written clearly in her eyes� hmm� maybe I should check this out� she is really unpredictable some times and�these were definitely the times�

� Heero?� I turned around to see Quatre looking down at me. He sat down next to me. � Heero� I haven�t seen Duo lately� do you think he�s okay?� Quatre asked, I wasn�t sure myself� but best not put Quatre into it� he�s pretty emotional sometimes.

� Yes, he�s a gundam pilot after all.� Yes� he is�Quatre looked down at his hands and got up�

� Yeah� I guess your right� I�llgo make dinner�� Quatre walked into the safe house� Hmm� sometimes I wonder why he even cooks� he�s a Winner after all� I guess he doesn�t want any of his servants involved� Quatre will always be Quatre� I walked into the safe house and went straight to my room� I guess I should check everything in my laptop just in case� it will definitely pass time until dinnertime�

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I had gotten a hold on myself at dinnertime� but I still felt woozy� crying for an hour was just not my thing anymore� oh well, this is life after all, better not commit suicide during this time in war� but it doesn�t mean I can�t kill myself during a battle� since I can blame the White Fang for it� yup� that would be the best thing to do� I might just do it during the next mission� one, it can prove I�m not a spy� two it will give me peace� good� man! Why can�t I get my heart to say it! Che�� I guess I can�t stop my emotions by committing suicide� well; at least nobody�s blackmailingme�

� Hey guys!� I yelled cheerfully as always� but somehow I feel that they �re not buying it� but they still act as if they don�t know� and that�s the way I like it!

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Dinner was over quite fast� Duo seems to be doing better� if only I can tell him that I� do� feel� and exactly� �Who�� it�s directed at� but� I guess I�m just to hung up in my missions� (Beep, Beep, Beep)

My laptop beeped. Just in time. � Mission�� I sighed. And got up to tell the others.

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A mission was given to us� and maybe� �My�� last�

I did say I was going to kill myself the easiest way possible� act as if I was killed by a mobile doll, by carelessness� and carelessness I will do� There were soft knockings on my door.

� Yeah who is it?!� I yelled in my cheerful voice�

� Duo we leave tomorrow!� Quatre yelled from behind the door.

� Yup! Thanks Q!� I yelled back and I slowly changed for bed and turned of the lamp� then I surrendered todarkness�

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