Part Three: Revenge (I hope that it happens soon I mean I have been trying to finish this fic forever)

I heard almost silent footsteps walk to my door. It was Trowa with his same understanding expression on his face. He nodded at me as he stared at my tearstained face.

"You were crying." He said calmly. "Over�Shinigami?"

I nodded. I still didn't know how he knew what I was thinking and what everyone else was thinking all the time. Maybe that's why everyone could trust him. Because he knew everything so there was no use tryingto hide anything.

"Hai." I replied trying to get the tears out of my eyes. "Gomen�but I can't seem to stop crying."

He nodded at me then gave me a half smile. "Then don't. Cry all you need to." He said. I didn't show him that I was pleased so he grabbed a tissue and handed it to me. "But if you insist then go ahead andwipe them away�"

I nodded coldly and then wiped them away. But unfortunately they didn't stop coming. They dripped onto the bed and onto me. I tried my best not to look sad about Duo being gone and tried to keep a straight face as I cried. Trowa just looked at me like I was his little brother getting dumped for the first time.

"You know he won't ever leave you alone. Duo likes to bug and annoy people." Said Trowa making a pitifulattempt to cheer me up.

"Yeah�" was the only response I gave him. I had no wish to tell him that Duo wasn't Duo and that he didn't leave me alone. ((Karosai's note: should I kill Heero to end this story? No that would get ME killed. After all I already DID kill Duo and all butstill�))

"Well are you going to go on that mission to kill Dr. Motaki now?" he asked me in his normal cool voice.

"Yeah I better get going." I said. I looked at my wrists, which were freshly wrapped. Maybe I could get killed on this mission and make it all end. But it was my Duo who had to take my life and I doubted he would. Instead he would force me to live� I hated him having so much power� I mean a screw off�or a cold-hearted silent person� shouldn't have that much power. The entire Duo being Shinigami thing was getting confusing. But I liked the name Duo better then Shinigami because it's easier to say.

I looked at the doorway and realized Trowa had left while I spaced off. I ignored this and got dressed in my normal black clothes. I started to tie my hair in a braid�WTF??? That doesn't make any sense� Wellignore that last part.

I shut the door in my room so I could make sure no one found the Duo pictures on my laptop and the Duo shrine in my closet. I locked it and took out a key that was in my pocket. No one could get through one of those locks no matter how hard they tried. Well that is except one person. Duo always seemed to get in and�well he was always at my bed before me and then when I saw him there we�PLAYED TWISTER! ((Karosai's note: Was it that hard to say? I mean Twister is a well-known board game. Kids play it every day!)) ((Heero's note: Baka))

Once I walked out I noticed Quatre staring at me with the "your in trouble" look he gave me whenever he looked at my wrists. It usually meant a lecture was about to happen. I sighed heavily and looked up athim.

"What do you want." I asked in my monotone aftersighing.

"I wanted to know if you ever told Duo you loved him." Quatre said in a singsong voice. I was surprised. This wasn't a lecture�luckily. I thoughtI might kill him if it was.

"Yes." I replied coldly.

"While he was leaving?" he continued.

"No." I answered. After all how could Shinigami live? Well before I knew he was Shinigami�I stillhadn't told him I loved him.

"HEERO!" screamed Quatre as hid hands flew up in the air. Everyone in the house could hear him and especially Trowa. That's probably why only a matter of second later Trowa was standing right next to Quatre holding hid waist. It made me sick to see someone so happy after Duo's death. Quatre smiled and flirted with Trowa, which was revolting. Apparently they forgot the little chat we had about me hating couples now and that if they ever flirted or did anything lovey dovey around me again I would killthem.

"Stop." I said.

Trowa glanced up at me between kissing Quatre on his neck. He nodded calmly and said, "GomenHee-chan."

I didn't really care what they did. I mean Quatre and Trowa were still both happy little virgins even though Trowa wanted almost more then anything to change that and Quatre would but he didn't get the point that Trowa wanted to. So that entire thing was messed up and it wasn't my problem. Sure I could have told Quatre this since Trowa would never make the first move to do anything but like I said. It wasn'tmy problem.

The two flirty boys were lucky I wasn't in the mood to kill THEM at the moment. Because I was more interested in killing Dr. Motaki at the moment. I gave them one last icy stare then picked up a magical gun and walked out of the room. I would complete this mission no matter what. Even if it cost me my life� ((Karosai's note: don't worry I am still deciding whether to kill Heero or not ^^))

Quatre was about to say something but I could tell that instead Trowa slipped his tongue into his mouth. It made my stomach turn to think that they were together. I wanted my Duo more then anything else in the world. But since my Duo was Shinigami I was confused about who I wanted. Whoever it was I was in love with them and they had given me a weakness. I couldn't believe this and refused to so I kept my icy glare on at all times. I bumped into WuFei whom seemed to have a lot of suitcases filled with clothes. I assumed he was going to spend the night at Treiz and Zechs'. Seeing them together was even more sickening because I knew they played the game that wasDuo and mines favorite�

I sighed heavily and thought about taking Wing Zero but I knew that would do no good. At my mental health it wasn't safe at all. Especially to my dear Duo's promise. I wanted to take it and die but I wouldn't�instead I walked down to the garage and hopped into the Deathscythe. If I couldn't die then I would mess up the Gundam I took special care of.

I hopped in and turned it on. A faint white glowappeared in the Deathscythe's eyes. It disappeared and the normal black hollow glow appeared in itsplace.

"We'll kill Dr. Motaki." I told Deathscythe. I was going to just bust in there with the Gundam but I might get killed before I finish my mission I wasn'tgoing to let that happen.

I smiled as the Gundam slowly moved out into the sunset. I would be at the target right when it was dark�it was perfect�They would never see me coming. Now they were going to feel more pain then my beloved Duo�so much pain it will almost be as bad as Duo's pain� but still� even when I thought of killing all those people� and seeking the revenge that must be sought after� I still wanted to cry for Duo's death. And at the thought of more people dying I wanted to kill myself even more. I made a plan that I would die after I kill Dr. Motaki, Dr. Bradley, and Dr. Sowa. I would let the enemy kill me with their weak pathetic mobile suits. Maybe even let them kill me with amobile doll.

Death by a mindless machine is pathetic though. No need to waste my life like that I guess. Maybe I could get Shinigami to kill me tonight after I say good bye to Quatre, Trowa, and WuFei. I knew he wouldn't since he wanted me to live�which was cruel enough as is. I sighed deeply and switched the Deathscythe to auto pilot. That way I could think more clearly about how I was going to die.

******AT THE MANSION IN NARATOR'S PERSPECTIVE! Foronce� ******

Trowa looked at his little one and sighed. They were still in the hallway outside Heero's room and have been talking for a long time. "Quatre�you need to leave Heero alone sometimes."

"But!" Quatre tried to think of a reason why he SHOULD be able to bug Heero but failed.

Trowa put his index finger to his little one's lip. "Shh�he has plenty of reasons to want to die. Duo died, Dr. J raped him, and he never knew his parents. Quatre if you think about it Heero's life has no meaning except Duo and his missions. He doesn't even care about the missions anymore now that Duo's dead so his life has no meaning. If he wants to slit his wrists because he thinks it will ease some of his pain then let him. All you can do is wrap his wrists and tell him that you hope he lives." Trowa said wisely.

Quatre nodded then sadly added, "And that there are people who still love him and others who still morn Duo's death�" Quatre was whispering by that time and looked ready to start crying again.

A small tear formed under Quatre's eye and Trowa whipped it away. "Don't cry Angel. You are the source of everyone's happiness and if your sad�" Trowa's voice trailed off at the thought of what Heeromight do.

"Yes Trowa I will try not to cry anymore. After all�boys shouldn't cry." Said Quatre. He hugged Trowa tightly and started breathing on his neck.

Trowa was glad that Quatre had stopped crying buthe realized he didn't when Quatre's tears started landing on his neck. "Oh Angel why are you crying?" asked Trowa whispering in Quatre's ear.

"I�I'm not Trowa�I'm just�" Quatre couldn't say anything about him not crying unless it was a lie�

"Little One�please don't lie." Trowa said stillwhispering in his angel's ear.

"Your right Trowa�I am crying�I am bawling like a fucking baby." Quatre said a little angry with Trowa.

'Oh no�Quatre swore�something's wrong here�'

"God Trowa why do you have to know everything. It's so damn annoying!" shouldn't the blonde Arab in the Italian's ear.

Trowa wanted to grab his ear and cuss a little his self. But he didn't because it wouldn't help Quatre much and would probably make Quatre even madder athim.

"DAMN IT TROWA DON'T YOU SAY ANYTHING YOU MUTE!"Quatre continued.

Trowa continued to hug Quatre even if he didn't want him too. He put his head behind Quatre's neck for a very good reason. A single tear had fallen from his eye as he remembered who he really was.

"Nanashi�" he whispered.

Quatre shook his head and realized what he just said. "Oh Trowa�I'm so sorry�"

Trowa kept his head hidden behind Quatre's neck. He didn't want Quatre to see the effects of his little outburst. He couldn't believe that tears were coming out of his eyes. More rapidly then before.

"Trowa�your not Nanashi anymore�" the blonde said trying to get a view of the uni-banged pilots face.

The Heavy Arms pilot bit his lower lip. "I know Angel�" he said between a sob.

"Then why�?"

Trowa smiled. "Just a few bad memories Quatre."

Quatre felt horrible and couldn't believe his little outburst. He had reminded Trowa of all his past that he never shared with Quatre or anyone forthat matter.

"I am so sorry Trowa�" Quatre whispered intoTrowa's ear.

"What for? You didn't do anything wrong Angel." Answered the Italian who had finally stopped the tears. "I need to use the restroom." And with that Trowa ran off to the rest room and sat down in frontof the mirror.

'I cried�' he thought to himself. 'And in front of little one�I am such a baka.' And with that he started the painful cycle of removing the tears from his tear stained face. He, foolishly not knowing it cuts up your face, used toilet paper with water on it and started scratching off the tears. When he was he opened the door to make sure Quatre wasn't around andstarted to sneak out.

Unfortunately for him WuFei was out. In fact he was reading a newspaper and couldn't see where he was going. Sadly enough he ran right into Trowa and thenfell on the floor.

"WHATCH WHERE YOUR GOING WEAKLING!" WuFei shouted. Trowa nodded solemnly and then started to leave. Well try to at least. "Hey Trowa Quatre wanted to see you�I think he's in the music room right now."

The Italian looked up. "Ok then�tell him I can't see him next time you run into him." Trowa once againtried to leave.

"Why not? I don't want to be the one to cause Quatre to start sobbing like a baby and swearing like Tasuki!" WuFei said angrily. "You are going to themusic room NOW."

Trowa nodded and proceeded towards the music room. 'I wonder what he wants now�' When he arrived he saw Quatre playing the violin and a sad song at that. He couldn't quit put his finger on the composer. ((Karosai's note: and either can I! Really I forgot whom I was going to use as the composer and the songwriter�well I guess I'll improvise.))

"Who wrote that?" asked Trowa surprised at howfamiliar the song sounded.

"You did Trowa. You named the song Nanashi�" he whispered hopping Trowa could keep composed.

"Oh I see." The Italian said then nodded. "WuFeisaid you wanted to see me."

Quatre nodded then jumped onto Trowa. "You're NOT Nanashi you are Trowa, MY Trowa. Now then if you ever act weird like that again I am going to-"

"Do absolutely nothing. Well you will threaten me with things you will never do and if you did I would kill myself unlike Heero who hasn't yet succeeded."Trowa said calmly.

"You would kill yourself if I left you?" the Arab boy asked a little scared about how open and truthfulTrowa was being.

"Yes�why do you ask?" the Italian asked.

"It's just�I wouldn't kill myself if you left." Trowa frowned. "I would continue to hunt you till you came back to me. And if you wouldn�t come back then I'd go find someone else and get over it in a lot oftime."

Trowa wasn't happy to hear this at all and just frowned. "Well I will never leave you so it doesn't really matter what you would do."

"Trowa are you feeling all right?" the little blonde boy asked getting a tear in his eye.

Trowa quickly wiped it away and said, "Yes littleone."

"Thank you Trowa�I am tired�want to take a nap?" Trowa nodded and so Quatre dragged him into hisbedroom and laid on the bed. Trowa laid down behind him and Quatre curled up into a little ball and turnedto face Trowa.