Quatre had a hard time sleeping that night finally when he did he saw his sister's face she kept saying. "Go on. It wasn't your fault please live your life."

He was in a dark place. All alone nothing but blackness could be seen. In a distance he could see a light and a figure. "Go to the light little brother."

"I can't I'm afraid of it."

"My death wasn't your fault I love you. You must go on. There are still those who depend on you. Don't turn your back on them you have so much love to give. Now is the time for you to be happy."

"This is just a dream."

"Whether it is or not are my word less true. Go to the light."

Quatre obeyed he slowly accended towards it when he got there the figure became clear. "Trowa?"

Quatre woke up after that. Whether it was a dream or not he knew in his heart that she would want him to go on. He couldn't all of a sudden just snap out of it though he would go slowly and just see if it's really what he wanted. Did he really want to revert to his former self. Could he still be that person? it wasn't just his sister's words but Wufei's. He wanted to believe him and Wufei had to much honor to lie.

Though he still loved Trowa he wasn't just going to let go of all that pain and say "That it's all right." he just didn't know if Trowa could be trusted after all he always seems to have a change of heart when it came to Quatre. Never could make up his mind.

A knocking at the door scared the hell out of him. No one has knocked on his door in a long time. He answered opened it and saw Trowa standing there. He walked right passed Quatre and into the apartment not waiting for an invite.

"Make your self at home." Quatre said sarcastically.

"It's later and I wanted you to know I still love you."

"Trowa it's just not that simple."

"Quatre you think that I keep changing my mind about loving you. That's just not the case." Trowa went to him and held Quatre's face in his hands and continued. "There has never been a time that I didn't love you. I told you I didn't love you because I thought you deserved something better."

Trowa released him and turned his back. Not wanting Quatre to see the tears streaming from his face. Quatre turned him back so they were facing one another again. "For me there is nothing better Trowa. I was blessed to have your love but cursed because I couldn't keep it. Your love kept me going through that awful war. It mended my heart after my father died and after what I did to you. You gave me something to fight for."

"Then let my love mend your heart once again."

Trowa kissed as before and Quatre kissed back with the full intensity he felt in his heart. "Leave this place with me. We will go slow and together we can heal eachother."

"Yes."

"Yes? really?"

"Least we can do is give it a shot."

they kissed again.

"Trowa, I love you."

"I love you to my angel." Quatre smiled and they held eachother. Trowa is my light.

The end

Stupid ending sorry if it sucked but I wanted to start a new story but want to finish my on going ones first.