Quatre sat down beside Trowa. He felt so tired.....
�Trowa..... I'm leaving now.... please take care!� he almost whispered. He
looked at Trowa for a while. He couldn't leave him.... He got an odd feeling,
he
felt like he was going to explode. His heart was beating so wildly that he
could
barely breath. He stood up and grabbed his shirt. His hand was trembling
hard.
He couldn't hold it any more.
�Why...? Why is it so hard to leave you? Am I expecting you to wake up. Then
Ill offer my life to you? Or expecting you to bring happiness to me? WHY??
Why
Trowa, why do you have make me suffer that much. You said you would bring
happiness to me. But what did you bring to me? Do you know how hard it is for
me to love you back? Do you know I cant sleep at night since you told me you
loved me? I'm so scared! I'm scared I'll lose my company if people find out
that
I'm gay. And most importantly, I'm scared of YOU! You told me that you loved
me. But how many girls have you slept with??� Quatre couldn't stop himself
from crying
out. He'd had enough... of everything. He couldn't stay calm anymore. Tears
were
welling up once again like they would never end.
�Do you know how my life has gotten worse since you came into it? My life has
been like hell since THAT day, when I was 6 years old. Do you know what
happened that day? You can never imagine it! Since THAT day, I cant trust any
one! Then, I became
a gundam pilot against my father's will. Later, my father and sister died.
And
now I have to take over the Winner company and be a Gundam pilot. Do you know
how hard it is.... I can barely breath.....� Quatre trailed off..... His eyes
were stinging.
�Do you know how many times I was thinking about suicide? But I can't... I'm
a
soldier. I have to protect people, and my family's company. Maybe this is my
destiny..... to suffer the rest of my life...?� Quatre collapsed to the
ground. He
couldn't stop crying and shaking. He wanted to die... as always....
I know that I deserved this. But why is it so hard to except my destiny? Why?
Why am I blaming Trowa for all this? It's my fault that Trowa�s in coma now!
Why? Why are there so many �WHY�? Why can�t I just see that I'm nothing then
a
sinner, trash.... maybe even a�Shinigami.� Maybe I suit this nickname
better?

�Don.... don�t leave my.... my angel....�
Quatre raised his head, alarmed. He looked into a pair of lovely green eyes.
He
couldn't believe it. Trowa looked at him sadly while tears were running down.
�Don�t.... leave me again.... my angel.... please...� Trowa closed his eyes
and
passed out. His body fell down from his bed and landed on Quatre�s body.
Quatre
was shocked. He went into a catatonic state. He didn't even hear himself.