Three days before, I done the most stupid thing in my hole life. After that day, every night he got nightmare, and even fever�
Trowa entered the bar, he looked around, and found a nice place to sit down.
" One bear please"
He started to drink. He didn�t want to think about anything anymore. A blonde girl came and sat beside him. She took out a cigarette.
"Hello young boy, you�re feeling lonely? Do you have a lighter?"
Trowa looked at her, she looked nice. Big breast, nice face� But there is just something missing. There is just Quatre who looks perfect. He shook his head, he didn�t want to think about what happened that day.
"Sorry, I don�t smoke. But if you want to borrow a lighter, you can come with me".
The girl looked at Trowa with a hungry look.
"How nice, pretty one."
They paid off there bills, and went to a room together�..
Later at night Trowa entered the hotel room where he and Quatre shared. He walked into the room silently. He knew that Quatre was still sleeping. Suddenly, he heard Quatre crying in his sleep.
"No�. please�.. please stop, help�.. stop�.." Quatre cried it louder and louder.
Trowa couldn�t take it anymore. He feel to the ground beside Quatre�s bed.
He can still remembered what happened that night.
~ Flashback ~
Trowa were lying in his bed in the hotel and reading a magazine, while Quatre was in the shower. They was in a mission together, and now they were sharing a room in a hotel. Heero and Duo was in another mission. And Wufei was in a mission by him self, as always. Quatre came out from the shower.
"Do you like this room? I think is very nice and�"
Trowa couldn�t hear anything anymore. He couldn�t breath either. He looked hungrily at Quatre. Quatre�s golden hair was damped, shiny under the light. He didn�t wear anything than a tower around his hip. He looked like an angel.
"Trowa�. Trowa� are you ok? Trowa?" Quatre looked at Trowa nervously when he saw the look on Trowa�s face. Trowa didn�t say a thing. He couldn�t control him self anymore. He had loved Quatre since they met. He loved Quatre more than every thing. He loved thins blond, innocence angel more than every thing. He started to walk to Quatre in silence. Quatre started to get panic.
"Trowa�.. what are you?" he couldn�t finish his sentence when Trowa stuck his tongue inside his mouth. Quatre tried to push him away, but Trowa grabbed Quatre�s wrist and pushed him into his chest and kissed him more roughly. Quatre didn�t know what to do than fighting away from Trowa, but Trowa was more stronger then him. Trowa knew Quatre didn�t like it. But he couldn�t stop himself. He pushed Quatre onto the bed.
"I love you, I love you, I love you�.." Trowa kept saying it again and again, while he ripped Quatre�s tower away. Quatre felt tears were streaming down. Trowa was his best friend. But now he told him that he always loved him, and now he was going to rap him. Quatre didn�t know what to do. If he pushed Trowa away, he would break his heart. And he didn�t really want him to stop. Quatre didn�t know what he wanted. But right now he just want Trowa to stop his action. Suddenly, Quatre felt Trowa stopped. He looked nervously at Trowa. Trowa looked at a big scar on Quatre�s left stomach. He touched the scar carefully. Quatre closed his eyes. He wanted to scream, he didn�t want to remember a thing about the scar. Trowa started to lick the scar carefully. Quatre winced.
"My angel�who have done that?" Trowa continued to lick the scar.
"Please� don�t touch it. My heart�s gonna explode� please, stop�" Quatre sobbed
Trowa looked painfully at Quatre. He felt his own heart was gonna explode too.
"I�ll stop, sorry my angel. I�ll make it up to you� relax now, my angel"
Quatre felt Trowa grabbed his sex and started to shack it hard.
"God�.. stop� please.. stop�. ah�" Quatre felt the pleasure, but it was kind of wrong. Trowa couldn�t stop himself, he bent down and started to suck Quatre�s sex.
Quatre felt more tears were running down. Quatre couldn�t hold it any longer.
"Stop�. please� I�m coming, please� stop�" But it was too late. Seed were spurted every were. Trowa started to lick it away from Quatre�s body.
"I love you more than everything in this world. I love you�" Quatre couldn�t hear anything than Trowa�s word beside his ears. He didn�t know what to say. Instead, he just looked at Trowa with a pair of red, foggy hurt eyes. He felt a sudden pain inside him. Quatre screamed out. Trowa stuck a finger in Quatre�s ass.
"I love you, I love you�my angel�" he kept saying it over and over.
Quatre screamed louder when Trowa started to fuck him with his finger.
"Stop� please, I don�t want it!" Quatre cried.
Trowa knew Quatre really didn�t like it. But he couldn�t stop him self. He was so hot by seeing Quatre hot and sexy.
"I love you, believe me!" Trowa grabbed Quatre�s legs and placed his sex inside Quatre�s hole.
"STOP!" Quatre cried out in panic. But it was too late, Trowa pushed himself hard into Quatre. Quatre screamed out. He felt the pain inside him. It was like he�s gonna explode. He felt Trowa inside him.
"Stop� it hurt�I can�t take it anymore�please�I�m begging you. STOP!" Quatre cried again and again. But Trowa couldn�t stop.
"Sorry, but I love you, I really love you!"
"I HATE YOU!!!!" Quatre screamed out, and passed off. Trowa looked shocked at Quatre. "But I love you, I always love you�" a tear felt down from Trowa�s eyes. "God, what have I done?"
~ Flashback end ~
Since that day, Quatre got fever and nightmare every night. But Quatre told Trowa the day after he forgave him. They were still good friends. Trowa couldn�t help by laughing ironic. Nobody would forgive him after what de have done. But Quatre was an angel. He rest his head on Quatre�s bed while he was sitting on the ground. He felt his heart was gonna to explode.
God, help me. I love him more than everything. But why am I hurting him? I love him so much that I can�t touch him anymore. I don�t want to hurt him anymore. I would do anything for him, even die for him. But why am I so stupid? God, forgive me what I have done�Forgive me, my angel�