SHOUNEN AI WARNING!!

*AN* Hi, minna-chan! How are you all? I've finally dug my way out of my schoolwork *gestures at a very large pile of books sitting on the table next to her* and got a new CD, so I have lots of ficcy material! The CD, by the way, is Vertical Horizon's "Everything You Want", which I recommend to anyone in search of a CD.

And I also got the second issue of GW's "Ground Zero" manga, which is SOOOOO good. It takes place in the year between the series and EW (Endless Waltz). Pick it up if you get the chance. And to all you homophobics, if you read the second one, it is almost completely devoted to Duo and Heero. By the way, Duo shoots at Heero again. ^_^

I'm babbling, aren't I? Gomen ne.

"So you sailed away
Into a gray sky morning
Now I�m here to stay
Love can be so boring . . ."

     Heero left me this morning.  He said he had to leave, that we weren�t meant to be.  He just hopped on a plane and flew to her.  I don�t see why, but it was his choice.  His mistake, not mine.  For once.

    But you know what?  I don�t care.  He left, and I�m over it.   You can�t change the past . . .

      . . . But you can�t lie to yourself, either, and I�m doing just that right now.  I do care.  I want him here, next to me, for the rest of our lives.  Why�d he leave me?  Why did he leave me here to cry?

     Damn him.  Him and his little girlfriend. Damn you, Yuy.  You have my heart, my soul, and my world and you just leave me like this!  Drop dead, you bastard.

     Great.  I�m crying.  God, I am such a fool for falling for him, for thinking it was more than just sex.  Because apparently it was.  I was just there to warm his bed, for a physical release.

    Go away, Quatre.  I can hear you beneath me, under the tree in which I sit, writing this.  I don�t want to talk.  I want to have some time to myself, to mourn for a while.  I need to cry.

     �I run, I hide, but I never lie.�  Well, I�ve ran, I�m hiding, but I won�t lie and say I�m okay.  Because I�m not.  But don�t worry Quatre.  I won�t do any stupid, like self-destruct Shinigami.  I may be the God of Death, but I am in no hurry to die.

     Heero, however, is.  Maybe she can take him down off of his kamikaze high.  I laugh at that statement.  If none of us could, I highly doubt she can.  Take him to any phsyciatrist you want, ojousan, but there�s no hope for him.  He was born to die.  That�s what he told us, at least.

     Oh well.  Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.  Now I can play the field.  Be one with the clubs, all that fun that I�ve missed.  Be a flirt, chill with the girls (or, in my case, the dudes), and just �live la vida loca�.

     Oh, who am I trying to kid?

Standerd disclaimers apply.  In other words, s'not mine and never was. L There.  Happy now?