Wufei looked down at the sobbing Heero. "What about Trowa?" Wufei asked. Heero looked up at Wufei, and then he looked at Duo. "I, I, I’m sorry, ill go now" said Heero, standing up. Wufei didn’t know whether to comfort or beat up Heero. Duo also looked abit confused (and concerned for his former lover!). Heero stumbled out of the room, trying to catch his breath from the kicks he had received from Wufei. Wufei looked to Duo and was hurt by the concern on Duos face. Duo stood up and walked up to Heero. "Heero……do you love me?" asked Duo. Wufei looked shocked and hurt by Duos words ~ how could I think Duo could be mine? (Thought Wufei) ~. Heero looked at Duo "I’m incapable of love, and can only posses happiness for short times" said Heero. Duo looked at Heero with wide eyes. "No, I don’t love you. And none loves me" said Heero, the tears brimming in his eyes. Duos mouth hung open as he backed away from Heero as if he where a mutant monster. Duo backed up, knowing that it had all been a lie. In horror Duo turned and found himself bumping into Wufei. Duo took hold of Wufeis shirt with his fists and sobbed. "I see I’ve made you cry again, I’m sorry… I’m not mad at you, I just don’t love you" said Heero. "THAT’S ENOUGH" yelled Duo, turning around and running at Heero. Duo landed a surprise punch on the Japanese’s jaw, snapping his (Heeros) head back. Heero fell back hard, landing on the ground. Heero felt the anger welling back up in him. Wufei saw the violence in Heeros face and protectively stepped in front of Duo. "Take good care of him Wufei," said Heero. Duo tried to push in front of Wufei but he (Wufei) took hold of Duo, hugging him tightly. Heeros eyes flickered with loathing and hurt as he left, turning around and storming out of Wufeis house. ~ Its not them I’m mad at (Heero thought)~ "I HATE MY LIFE, IM GOIN TO SEEK OUT QUATRA HELP!" yelled Heero ~ I need to find Trowas heart, or break it (thought Heero)~. "I need to talk to Quatra" whispered the distressed Heero to himself as he walked away from his former life, leaving it with Wufei.

"Shh, calm down Duo" whispered Wufei in Duos ear. "I’m sorry," said Duo. "For what?" asked Wufei. Duo looked into Wufeis eyes "for not seeing that you are the one I should be in love with" said Duo. "Oh" said Wufei, loosening his grip on Duo "I see". "No! I didn’t mean it that way!" Duo practically yelled. "I mean……oh Wufei I’m sorry ill never need Heero again!" cried Duo as he hugged Wufei to him. "I don't want to loose you Wufei". Wufei felt his heart being pieced back together and he hugged back. Soon the two boys where once again inseparable.

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~ I must see Quatra about this (thought Heero) ~ Heero came to Quatras mansion and knocked on the door ~ we are only going to talk (thought Heero)~. The door swung open and Heero found himself facing Trowas lover. Heero felt the anger rising up in him but he calmed it. "Heero! What brings you here?" asked Quatra. "You’re the only person I know who might be able to help my broken heart," said Heero. Quatra looked at Heero "what do you mean?" the Arab asked. Heero wanted to tell Trowas china doll that Trowa wasn’t what he thought; but he kissed him instead! Heero pushed Quatra against the (inside) wall of his (Quatras) house. Heero could almost feel how week and like porcelain Trowas lover was like. Heero stood back and looked at Quatra. "I love no one," said Heero. Quatra looked at Heero in confusion. "Here let me explain" said Heero, once again kissing the boy he did not love. "But, but, but" stammered Quatra. ~I am so mad at Trowa, I need to break the glass that he has to be so careful around (thought Heero) ~ Heero forced his tongue into the Arabs mouth as they kissed. "I’m using you, but I’m not forcing anything" said Heero "maybe I am capable of love". Heero broke the kiss, his arm holding the china doll boy against the wall. Quatra looked up at Heero ~ I’m not porcelain, he doesn’t tip toe around me, afraid that I will break like Trowa does (thought Quatra) ~ a tear fell from Quatras eye. Heero noticed it but did not wipe it away. Quatra tried to hug Heero but the Japanese went stiff. "I don’t want this," said Quatra. "But I do" said Heero, the anger brimming in him. Quatra found Heeros anger frighteningly attractive. "I wont," said Quatra. ~ Why am I doing this? (Thought Heero)~. Heero punched his fist hard at Quatra, smashing it through the wall right beside the Arabs head! Quatras eyes widened ~I cant resist it (thought Q)~ and he kissed Heero, pulling at the Japanese’s face, trying to suck the anger out of him. Quatra hungered for the hate and abuse. Heero fed it to him pushing him (Quatra) ruffly down to the ground. Heero fed his anger into the china doll, giving it the freedom and pain that it had always been shielded from (and hungered for)! Quatra knew that it was wrong, he tried to push Heero away hoping with all of his hope that He wouldn’t be able to (push him away)! Heero felt anger at Quatras resistance, and drew back slapping the Arab hard. Quatra whimpered and Heero felt the power he had. ~ This is what Trowa must have felt when he held me down naked in the sand (thought Heero) ~. Heero took Quatra by the wrist and stood up forcing the blond to his feet. Quatra found a tear at his eye and was surprised to find that it was a happy one! Heero pushed Quatra to the ground. Quatra whimpered and shook with lust. Heero ignored the looks of love in Quatras eyes and stared angrily at him( Q ) until it was like the Arab was naked before his glare. Quatra felt exposed and he cowered before his ‘master’! "Strip" ordered Heero, as he took of his own shirt. Quatra quietly began to unbutton his shirt ~ this is the love and lust I want, I don’t want to be glass anymore (thought Quatra)~. But as the Arab began to unbuckle his pants he realized that he didn’t want this from Heero. "I don’t want you Heero, I want Trowa" said Quatra. "I can be Trowa," said Heero as he hugged the nude blond to his chest and whispered ‘I love you angel’ in Quatras ear. The Arab was stunned at how those words made him want to hug Heero close ~ is he Trowa or Heero? (Thought Quatra)~. Heero hugged the boy close to him. "No!" Quatra yelled realizing that this was not his Trowa! Quatra pushed Heero way and began to cry. "Stop it!" yelled Heero ~ he took me cuz he didn’t want to hurt his precious angel! (Thought Heero) the basterd ~. "I will not!" yelled Heero. "But your not like Trowa, your not Trowa at all!" yelled Quatra. "I’m more like him then you think!" yelled Heero. Quatras eyes widened and he looked shocked. Heero smiled a malicious grin ~ ill be the bad guy, that’s obviously what you want me to be (thought Heero)~. Heero pulled back his hand and hit Quatra once again in the face, blackening his (Quatras) eye! Heero ran to Quatra and hugged the shivering blond to him "I’m sorry, my little angel, forgive me, forgive me ill leave now" said Heero as he turned away. "NO!" yelled Quatra, surprised at his want of Heero ~I, I I have to do this (thought Quatra)~. "But what about Duo?" asked Quatra. "Wufei stole him from me" said Heero. "Oh" said Quatra "that’s good, now I can have you without guilt" said Quatra forgetting about Trowa (which is what Heero had wanted). Heero smiled and picked Trowas angel up, carrying him to the bedroom!

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Duo and Wufei were at Duos house, kissing. Trowa walked up to the door, wondering if he would be so lucky as to find Heero alone. Trowa knocked on the door. A Wufei with only a towel wrapped around him answered the door! Trowa was startled and absentmindedly yelled "WHERE IS HEERO!?" at the nude china man. "He doesn’t live here any more," said Wufei. "Where is he?" asked Trowa. "Why do you want to know?" asked Duo, walking up to the door. Trowa looked at Duos face "Duo! What happened to your eye?" asked Trowa. "Heero did it when he found us together, but I don’t think that’s why he was mad." Said Wufei. "What do you mean?" asked Trowa. "The bastered felt unloved and hurt, he was so mad and he was capable of anything even murder" said Duo. "I think it was your fault," said Wufei. "Where did he go? The Italian asked again. "The bastered looked really messed up, he went to Quatras for help. he seemed to feel that the Q man was the only one with a big enough heart to help him." Said Duo. Trowas eyes widened…."Na,na,no! The bastered!" yelled Trowa. ~ I took advantage of him so I wouldn’t hurt my angel! If he has done anything for revenge I will kill him! (Thought Trowa)~ Trowa ran from the doorway towards his china dolls house. ~ That bastered Heero! You bastered (thought Trowa)~. When Trowa got to his angels house he noticed that the door was swinging open! Trowa entered, his heart filled with fear ~ my angel, where are you? Please be ok china doll (thought Trowa)~. A table had been knocked on its side and there were signs of a struggle! All of the pictures next to the stairs were knocked from the wall! Trowa felt tears of anger and worry filling his eyes as he walked up the steps, afraid of what he might find. –(Note: it’s been about a day sense Heero showed up at Quatras)- Trowa heard whimpering coming from his Quatras room. Trowa ran to the room, his eyes widening at the shocking seen he saw before him. Quatra was standing in his underwear whimpering ~ but he looks happy! ~ Behind him was Heero, who was in a pair of jeans. Heero was hugging Quatra around the waist, forcibly kissing the blonds neck. "WHAT THE HELL?" yelled Trowa, noticing his angels black eye! Quatra looked up and tried to go to Trowa, but Heero held him back smiling evilly as he whispered in the Arabs ear "you’re my angel now". Trowa heard the words and the hair on his neck stood on end. "Let go of my Quatra!" yelled Trowa. Heero moved his hand to the boys (Q’s) exposed stomach, stroking it as if it was his! "You bastered!" yelled Trowa running at the two! Trowa pushed Heero away from Quatra and pinned Heero to the Wall! Quatra was surprised to see the same looks and actions in Trowa that he had seen (and been attracted to) in Heero! "I knew you’d come" whispered Heero, stroking Trowas arm. Trowa slammed Heero into the Wall hard, causing a trickle of blood to come from his lips (Heeros). Quatra stared wide-eyed as Heero began to cry out "YOU’RE THE LEADER TROWA!". Heero leaned up and kissed Trowa, but Trowa pulled away. Heero struggled to get away but Trowa held Him there. "Just like at the beach Trowa, you broke my heart so I broke yours!" yelled Heero. "What?" sobbed Quatra. "Its not that" said Trowa turning towards Quatra "I didn’t want you to be the one I hurt". Heero kicked Trowa in the back knocking him to the ground! Heero straddled Trowa and began to punch him. Heero suddenly stopped and leaned down, kissing Trowa gently on the lips. "I HATE YOU!" yelled Quatra, as he ran upstairs. "No don’t leave me!" Trowa cried out. "Too late, he’s seen the real you, and it was me" said Heero getting off of Trowa. Trowa crouched down and began to cry ~ my angel doesn’t love me! (Thought Trowa)~ "of course he doesn’t" said Heero, reading Trowas thoughts. "He never did, just like you never loved me, just like I never loved Duo" Heero said, spitting on Trowa! "Just like I don’t love Quatra" Heero said walking up the stairs. "No!" cried out Trowa. Heero saw the distraught on Trowas face and was tempted to comfort him, but he walked to Quatras room instead. Trowa looked at the door of Q’s room and began to cry. "I never wanted you to get hurt Quatra, my angel, my glass doll, I had anger in me that I couldn’t bear to let you see… please understand my little Arab, I only wanted you to be safe from me" Trowa said to himself ~ but instead you are with the someone who is most like me, your not safe, I’ve failed you (thought Trowa)~. ~ Never hurt yourself, he knows your weaknesses (thought Heero Yuy)~. – End