I can't still believe it happened. I can't believe this happened to Duo.
Even after he constantly tells me he is okay. After two weeks have gone
by that I still have it on my mind. I can't believe it happened. And I keep
wondering thinking to myself�"Why do I care?"   He never seemed that important
to me before�well that is before what had taken place several weeks ago.
How? How could this happen? Duo had never done anything to deserve this.
Unless, you count beauty as a crime. This couldn't have happened�but it
did. And some how I blame myself for it. I didn't even try to help him.
I just watched the soldiers. Why? Why didn't I help him? I sat there and
watched them�No! I have to get it off my mind. It wasn't my fault�was it?
 

*****Two weeks earlier on a mission*****

 "How much longer do we have Duo?" Heero asked the braided boy hanging upside
down working on the security system.
   "Hold on Heero this isn't so easy okay�" Duo almost growled. He was getting
quite annoyed with this system. It was much harder then he had thought it
would have been to decode. 'Bleep Bleep Bleep' came a loud annoying noise
from near by. "SHIT! Heero we gotta run that's the alarm!" Duo yelled flipping
himself safely to the ground. Heero nodded and began to run. He wouldn't
have cared that much but he was instructed not to bring any weapons or guns
on this mission. He didn't know why but those were his orders. And most
likely Duo's as well. They began to run when bullets rang out hitting Duo
and Heero.
 Heero was hit in the shoulder and could still run, but Duo
wasn't as lucky. The violet eyed boy sit on the ground�he was shot in the
leg. "Heero keep going you need to get the information to Wufei." Duo called
to the Japanese boy. Heero just nodded and began to run when the voices
of soldiers could be heard and Duo yelling at them to keep away. Heero tried
his hardest not to care. To run away, but some thing in Duo's voice told
him to go back. He knew he shouldn't. He knew that the mission was more
important then that braided baka�but that wasn't what he felt. And his emotions
had taken over. Heero made a quick decision and ran back to help his partner.
  "There's the other one!" One of the soldiers yelled pointing at Heero,
who wasn't stopped by the soldier's acknowledgement of him. Heero was several
feet away from the soldiers rushing towards him. He did the only thing he
could. Which was attack. He threw several punches and kicks knocking three
of the soldiers out cold. But the other five were still up and going. Three
of which were holding Duo down, while the other two tackled Heero.
 "Heero! I told you to get out of here!" Duo shouted at him pissed off and
quite scared. Heero didn't answer just tried to break free of the soldier's
grip. He wasn't successful in this notion and was soon punched out cold�.

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 Heero woke soon after�but not soon enough. He woke up chained to a wall
and feet were chained together as well. He banged his wrist a couple of
times�he was chained tight. He knew he wasn't going anywhere quick. There
was a slight groan from the left of him. Heero look over and saw Duo. He
was bruised form head to toe. The only part of him that wasn't bruised was
his face. Which seemed quite odd to Heero since the soldiers usually went
to the face to knock some one out.
  "You awake now Heero?" Duo whispered to the Japanese pilot.
 "Hn." Heero answered plainly. "Where are we?" He asked looking around the
dark cold room.
 "Where do you think? We are in a cell. They got the information back!"
Duo snapped at Heero. "Why didn't you run! That was impo-" Duo was cut off
by Heero suddenly.
 "I was trying to help you!" Heero snarled back. Duo was shocked by this.
He couldn't believe that Heero would want to help him.
Why would Heero
want to help me? He never seems to care about anything I have to say or
be interested in being around me at all.  So why would it make a difference
to him if I was captured? "Heero�?" Duo sighed. "Why?" he asked turning
his head to Heero.
 "I don't know why�" Heero answered hanging his head down. He had no idea
what he had tried to save Duo for. The damned American meant nothing to
him. But if that was true why did he want to help him?
 The door slid open silently and Heero automatically acted like he was still
passed out. He heard two voices enter the room. They were both male. About
the age of twenty or so. He couldn't quite make out what they were saying
until they came closer. But they weren't coming closer to Heero but it seemed
they were going towards Duo. Heero listened carefully trying to make out
what the were saying. He had some luck with him it seemed he could hear
the two�it seemed they were talking to Duo. He opened his eyes slightly
and peered over at the tow men next to Duo.
  "He is a pretty one isn't he." One of them said lifting Duo's chin up
and smiling at him. "You must be some ones whore." He spoke to Duo in a
low breathy voice. The other man brushed Duo's hair away from his face.
'what are they doing?'  Heero thought watching to two men continue. They
said something softly to each other and pointed over to Heero snickering.
One of the men walked over towards Heero and from the small slits Heero
made to see what was going on the man had been seeming to make sure Heero
was still out cold.
 "He's out don't worry about it." The one close to Heero said. "I will go
out side and stand guard for you man." He said walking out of the cell and
sliding the door back shut.
  "Do you know what's going to happen to you my pretty little angel?" the
man said to Duo lifting his chin to meet Duo's gaze. Duo shifted his head
away so he wouldn't have to see the man.
 "If I said yes would it matter?" Duo asked with no sense of respect at
all. The man just laughed a bit at this comment.
  "No it won't help at all." He said unchaining Duo's feet. Heero still
wasn't exactly what was going on but he wanted to know what was going to
happen. Well, he knew unchaining Duo's feet wasn't a good idea, because
right when the man finished Duo kicked him in the crach.
 "I swear if you
touch me I will kill you!" Duo yelled at the man. The man glared and growled
at Duo. He walked back up to Duo but this time he walked to the side of
Duo and took him by the face.
  " I don't think it would be wise to do that again Angel." The man said
then slapped duo across the face. Heero heard a small whine from Duo and
then a deep growl from the back of his throat. "Now just calm down Angel
and everything will be okay. I am sure you will enjoy this." The man almost
whispered. After saying that he turned Duo's face back towards himself and
took him into a deep kiss. Duo was struggling  trying to get away from the
man's hold. After a few moments the man wielded back holding his mouth.
"You little whore! You bit my tongue!" The man yelled at Duo.
 Heero couldn't understand why this man was calling Duo a whore and Angel�
it made things a little harder to fallow� unless! 'NO!' Heero yelled in
his head. They can't do that to Duo. They can't! Heero instantly had a pain
fill the inside of him. He turned his eyes back over to the man who had
now  removed his and Duo's shirt and was kissing Duo's neck. No...no no
not duo�not him. Heero was filled with rage but yet he didn't know what
to do...or why he even cared. Was it that he�'NO!' Heero yelled at himself.
'I don't have those feelings for Duo! I cant!' Heero looked back over at
the distressed American who was screaming at the top of his lungs.
  "No
stop! Stop IT!" Duo screamed at him shaking his head back and fourth. Tears
filled Duo's eyes they shined a bit in the darkness.
 "Screaming will get you no where Angel. It just makes me want you more."
The man said in a husky voice. Then continuing what he was previously doing.
Heero eyes went wide. He couldn't believe it. He couldn't believe they would
do this to Duo. And yet he wasn't doing anything about it. Was he scared?
No he wasn't scared. He had nothing to be frightened about. Then why was
he just standing there we could easily find a way to help Duo�but no he
watched the man have his way and then rape Duo. 'NO NO NO NO! DUO this cant
be happening not to you, you don't deserve this." Is what rang through out
Heero's head as he continued to watch the man and the suffering Duo.
  "No no no no no! Stop please I do~" Duo was cut off by the man ramming
into his passage. 'why me? Why me god�? Do I really deserve this.' Were
the thoughts of Duo as the man kept going on with Duo's body. Duo couldn't
take it any more he had to the tears�he couldn't hold them back anymore.
It was too much for him. "NO STOP!" Duo cried out before the tears sprang
from their cages.
 'DUO! No! this isn't happening to you. This cant this
is just a dream I know it! Why why why!? Would anyone want to hurt you like
this Duo?'  Heero thought as he saw the braided boy go  limp as the man
removed himself from Duo for the last time and dressed himself then left.
He could hear Duo's choked back sobs, as he prayed the "Our Father." He
was probably asking for forgiveness.
  Heero couldn't stand this. Duo in
no way deserved that. He had done nothing to stop it though. Suddenly, there
was a loud crash. It was a large mobile suit's hand. It had crashed through
the wall. Wufei quickly entered the cell and saw Heero. "You guys need any
help?" Wufei asked musingly.
 "Wufei! Just get over here and unchain me!" Heero snapped at Wufei wanting
to get over to duo as soon as possible. Wufei did what he was told quickly
and looked at Heero.
  "Where is Maxwell?" Wufei asked.
 "Give me the pick I will get Duo." Heero commanded Wufei. Wufei did so
and watched Heero walk into the dark left corner of the room. He could see
a small out line of the braided pilot. He shook his head. Maxwell was sleeping
((really passed out from the pain)) just like always. But when Wufei saw
Heero unchaining Duo and carrying him, Wufei could only wander what was
wrong with Duo. Then when Heero walked into the light a little more and
he saw that Duo was naked and his hair was undone he knew what had happened,
and lowered his head.
  "Heero�did they?" Wufei half asked already knowing the answer. Heero nodded
solemnly and walked onto the Gundams hand.
 "Lets just get out of here okay." Heero said harshly. Wufei nodded and
after a few moments the three were off.

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Heero shook his head from the memory.
"Why�?" was all he could say. He heard small whimpers coming from the bed
across the room. It was Duo, making the small whining noises. "Duo�?" Heero
said sitting up and looking over at the Death Scythe's pilot's bed. Duo
was tossing and turning violently and whimpering loudly. Heero stood up
and slowly made his way over to Duo's bed. Duo had broken into a cold sweat.
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He was coming closer to me.
No no no! get away leave me alone. Get AWAY!
STOP! But he wouldn't stop�.
The dream replayed itself in Duo's head for the fourteenth day that month.
Why can't he leave me be� The man was about to enter Duo again when he heard
another voice.
Duo opened his eyes slowly to find a frame above him. He
couldn't see the shadows had engulfed the face of the person above him.
He didn't know who was and the only thought that ran through his head was
that is was 'HIM.' "NO! No no YOU CANT HAVE MA AGAIN NO I WONT LET YOU!"
Duo cried out. He shook back and fourth rashly.
"Duo duo DUO! Its okay it's  me Heero! Don't worry." Heero said taking the
other pilot in his arms and holding him tight.
"Heero I couldn't stop him�I
wanted to. Oh GOD! Heero I wanted him to stop and leave me be. But he didn't�Oh
God Heero!" Duo sobbed raising himself and wrapping his arms around Heero
not even caring about Heero's no touching policy. "Nothing is alright anymore!"
"Shhh�it's okay. Its just me�you will never see that guy again."

   ***The day after Heero and Duo were captured***

 "Why!? WHY WHY!? Why did you do that to him!" Heero yelled pointing a gun
at the man that had violated Duo the night before. The man just smirked.
"Tell me!" Heero snapped at him.
  "So is that it? Is he your little whore?" the man asked with an amused
look on his face. "And if you are asking why, You cant be that smart. Have
you actually looked at this boy. He is beautiful�oh and so nice to have.
Don't tell me you have never thought of it?" The man mused smirking at Heero.
Well, Heero was not amused. No where near it! He was furious�he wasn't sure
where these feelings had come from but he listened to them. They seemed
very important.
 "I have never thought of abusing Duo like that! I would never even begin
to think about it! I can't believe people like you. Duo did nothing to you!
And you you you go and take away his innocence like he is trash!" Heero
shouted at the amused soldier. "I won't listen to you anymore." And with
that he pulled the trigger. The man fell limp and fell to the floor dead.
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 Duo looked up and saw Heero holding him. 'Heero�? But, then he was awake
when that soldier�oh no. What will he think of me now. After this no it's
not fair!' Duo began to cry again. He shook his head violently. Heero continued
to try and comfort the violet-eyed boy.
  "Duo it's over now�and everything is going to be okay. I promise you this."
Heero said lifting Duo's face up to meet his own. "Please just stop crying.
I can't stand seeing you like this. It's not your fault. So please, don't
blame yourself. You couldn't stop him. It isn't your fault�so stop. Please
calm down don't cry." Heero  hushed to Duo as he held the Americans face
in his hands. "You are to beautiful to shed tears like this." Heero cooed.
 "Heero? Wha~ what did you just say?" Duo asked not sure if Heero was serious
or not. Heero took a deep breath. And gave Duo a weak smile.
  "Duo what I am trying to say is�I love you" Heero said ready for Duo's
rejection. But to his surprise Duo swung his arms around Heero and started
to cry again. But theses were not tears of sorrow�no they were tears of
joy.
 "Heero you have no idea how long I have waited to hear you say that."
Duo said a bit muffled out. Duo looked up at Heero and then rested his head
on Heero's shoulder. "Ashiteru forever Heero." Were the last words out of
Duo's mouth before he fell back asleep.
  So these were the feelings�the emotions I was feeling for him all along.
How could I of been so blind. Or was it just that I was scared of my emotions�or
was it his rejection that I was so scared of? It doesn't matter�I am with
Duo now and everything will be all right now.
   ~Owari~