I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore- flirting with everyone and running for cover without waiting for the results... I'm not sure what's wrong with me- loving my life yet lonely . . . always lonely... I'm dying to dive into a relationship yet unwilling to alter my schedule or my standards... It's my own catch 22, and it's getting harder every day to decide exactly what I want. On one hand, I'm young and attractive, and I want to act accordingly... On the other hand I'm a musician, and I want to be the best. How can I be both? What free time I have I spend at the gym, trying to perfect myself... I'm tired of feeling exhausted and inadequate, and there aren't enough hours in the day for me to sleep, practice, and socialize... so it's easier to avoid entanglements, and just flirt a little here, flirt a little there... filling my emotional needs with one night stands...